Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

I watched Dr. Ruan Li leave, until her back disappeared into the field of vision, and then she did not cross the corner. The nameplate of the first door on the left hand side near the door has a sign like "Dr. Ande". The door is embedded in the wall, and the seams are very fine. You must be closer to see it. Dr. Ruan Li and I walked all the way, and the door I saw was like this, reflecting the silver-white metal light.

I retracted my gaze at the gate and looked towards the front of the corridor. This long aisle did not know how long it was. I outlined the scene in my mind: the building is like an egg, the sealed shell, there are two parts of egg white and egg yolk, this aisle belongs to the part of egg white, spirally coiled on the egg yolk. The doctor's office is in the position of the egg yolk.

I didn't find a device like ringing a bell on the office door. I only tried to knock on the door, and the skin of the finger joints was cold and hard.

These materials are indeed metals. But what is the metal? I can't be sure that the material knowledge I learned in "Doom's Illusion" didn't help me even a little. I feel that, excluding the feel, the appearance is a bit like the materials seen in the ruling bureau, which makes me a little puzzled.

As long as a person with a right mind understands at the first time, "Doom" is not a simple virtual reality. Even if I have personally experienced it, it is hard to believe that such an immersive virtual technology really exists. The realistic emotions, behaviors, and thoughts flowing in that world can apply any known physical theory to explain most phenomena, even the general theory of relativity and quantum theory can prove in it that such a world can really be made by humans. Is it out-if humans have such technology, they should not stay on earth.

Even Martians cannot create such a realistic illusion. It is simply another real world, and only "God" can spend seven days to create it.

Even if I wake up in this world, I still feel that something is not right-the world that I existed before is actually a product of personal labor, those people I cherish. But it is one of the virtual characters. Why do the people I cherish in reality, Saki Ye and Ba Jing, also appear in this "doom illusion"? Did they accept the experiment like me? How many people are connected to this virtual world? Others, such as Shirai, Morino and Fr. Is it a character that exists in the "real world" or a virtual character in "Doom"?

To be honest, although the memories of the past are recovering, I still cannot be completely sure. Which one of the "real world" and the "doom illusion" mentioned by those technicians is the real one? Using this frail teenager's body, walking in this closed corridor, talking with Dr. Ruan Li is like dreaming.

That's right. The implanted memory tells my reason that this place and this cruel young self, as well as those cruel dreams of memory, are the most real reality. But my sensibility becomes chaotic sometimes, and I feel that I have not awakened from the dream created by the memories of the past, but have fallen into another more realistic dream.

Perhaps, in fact, I was hoping that this "real world" was a dream, so I desperately wanted to find its "vulnerabilities."

"Since it's here. Why not come in?" The sound from the door awakened me from the trance.

I looked at the sounding device with my eyes. But saw nothing.

"I don't know how to open the door." I said so to the door.

"Oh, have you lost all these memories?" Said the voice from the door.

However, I feel that it is not appropriate to say "lost", and that "not found" is more appropriate. I guess the people inside have been observing themselves outside the door of the station. Now this sentence is also a temptation to think about something worse. This sentence is even a psychological hint from the other party, deepening my "amnesia" state-this means. Although the attitude is not fully expressed, these people may want me to "lost memory". (..) It is best to never think of it.

Judging from the part of the memory that has been restored, this possibility is not small. It may not be noticeable when it was still a child, but now in retrospect, it seems that the small town composed of orphans and orphan welfare institutions seems to be isolated from the world, the virus that Zhenjiang and others suddenly contracted, and the rescuers who arrived on time There are countless suspicious points.

I don't mind using the most malicious and conspiracy theories to speculate on the shadows hidden in it.

I didn't answer the other party's seemingly self-answering question. The person inside should be Dr. Ande. He said to me through an invisible microphone: "Place your palm on the door for three seconds. The system will recognize your fingerprint and inertial pressure. Sometimes, you need to follow the prompts. Use eye masks, but my office has no such requirements. "

"Inertial pressure?" I put my palm on the door while asking my own question.

If I believe that the other party is describing me psychologically, then every conversation is a confrontation-just like Dr. Ruan Li said, I will be suspicious and exhausted because of this, but what good methods of confrontation do I have? Now, I subconsciously believe that this dialogue is another temptation.

However, I don't need to pretend on this issue, because I really don't know what the so-called "inertial pressure" actually means, although I can guess what it is from its literal meaning.

"Simply put, it is the force that people habitually apply when opening this kind of door, especially when opening a certain door." The sound from the door is explained by the stereotyped sleepy sound: "For example , Every time you press your palm against the door of my office, you will use a pressure within a range. "

"Is there no exception? For example, when you are emotional."

"So, I know your emotions are excited." The voice said: "It is a condition for opening the door, but it is not just a condition. Just like now, your stress index is not within the range of inertia index, under normal circumstances you Enter, but if I am inside, I can open the door for you from the inside. "He made a huh-like sound as if he appreciated his sneer.

I was surprised that I actually understood the meaning of this cold joke-if it can't be opened from the outside, it can only be opened from the inside. However, this is also a trap.

"You don't remember how to open the door. However, I didn't seem to forget me. I was very happy about it." The voice said, and the door slid left into the wall.

Just like the first time I saw Dr. Ander in the door of memory. The furnishings in the office are almost the same. The same tall shelves, the same desks filled with books and reports, and even the number and orientation of the paper stacks have not changed. When the man stood up and opened the curtains behind him, the same bright light washed away the gloom of the office. From the outside, it seems that this office is also sealed in a metal shell, but the scenery outside the window is sent into the eyes by the breeze that lifted the curtains.

My heart was shaken by this familiar scene. Only then did the man turn around and sit back in the chair. At this time, I realized that the scenery that looks like an outdoor scenery is just a realistic picture created by a screen-the window frame itself is part of the projection screen, and the breeze is blown out from the fine spacer vent .

Then. I started to feel that the floor I was stepping on was not made of wood, but also made of metal, but it was painted with the color of wood texture, and I felt cold and hard at the moment.

An old blues song with a gentle nocturnal rhythm suddenly sounded in the office. Dr. Ende crossed his fingers, pressed his chin, and cast his eyes on me.

"Sit." He said.

I don't think it's necessary to think about whether this is another test, this man is pervasive.

I sit on a chair three meters away from my desk. Regardless of chair style or placement. It's not much different from the scene in the dream of memory. It was just that I needed to stand on my feet to touch the floor, and now I can easily get down to the ground. I watched Dr. Ander. Compared with the dream, the gray hair on the head had completely occupied the entire head, and the skin on my face was more relaxed. There are more wrinkles. These changes clearly show me the passage of time.

The smell of air seems to be the same as when I first met in the past. Such a scene full of both visual sense. Let my mind involuntarily come up with what Dr. Ande said when he first met:

——My colleague ... um. Those people made an ugly report.

Immediately afterwards, the current doctor Ander spoke.

"My colleagues ... well, those people made an ugly report."

Although it is an enemy, it is full of nostalgia.

"Your last emergency treatment used my plan. They are now criticizing me for being too sloppy and too aggressive. Because your body's recovery is not as expected, and many data have not been saved." Dr. Ande Say: "Of course, we have proved that there is indeed a variant virus in your body that is different from other patients with doomsday syndrome, but we can't find it-they assume that it can be found by another method ..." Ander The doctor said calmly, with a disappointed expression, gently took off his glasses, and then made an angry growl: "Fuck his mother's fart! If it were not for my plan, it would be impossible for Stalin to resurrect him. The results! I clearly reminded them that the last treatment was a little radical, not only because of your physical needs, but also because of that level of confrontation, it was possible to stimulate the activity of that virus. They thought they could confirm this Whose blessing is the existence of this virus? This group of scum! "

His hands were shaking, and he seemed to be angry. I'm not sure, but he may not be all acting.

I just listened quietly.

"Listen, Gao Chuan, for our purpose, you must continue to be as tempted by those people as before. My plans and results have always been in front of the waste, but they tried to ignore this. I need you The support is very much needed, "Dr. Ande said to me with a firm tone.

I looked at him for a long while, he didn't urge me to make an answer, but he seemed to be looking forward to my answer.

"I don't know your plan." I said so.

That's right, I don't have such a plan in my memory, nor do I have the impression of cooperating with him. However, I deliberately controlled the tone to prevent these things from showing on my face.

Dr. Ande sighed reflexively, rubbed his temples with his fingers, and put on his glasses again.

"Yes, you have amnesia." He said: "So some people think this is a good opportunity to overthrow me." With that said, he laughed at himself, "Who do they think I am? Great dictator Hitler?" This bunch of scum! "

"How much do you remember about the experiment?" Dr. Ander asked when he opened the drawer and took out a set of folders.

"To be honest, I can't remember it at all." I shook my head. Say: "When I woke up, I didn't believe that I was really in the" real world ". I thought it was like a bizarre dream ... the things I have experienced before. What is it?"

"According to your situation, this kind of sequelae does occur. However, you should be thankful that you can still wake up." Dr. Ande said: "The experimental treatment would have lasted longer in the original plan, and your body suffered from the virus. The devastation is too serious. Already on the verge of death, hurried adjustments, and such intense scripts. At the beginning of the plan, I determined that the chance that you would wake up again would not exceed 30%. "

"The possibility is so low, do you still allow me to experiment !?" I deliberately reprimanded in an angry tone. "I can't believe it, you still have a face and say you need my support."

"If you don't take my plan and perform experimental therapy of that degree, you won't even have a one-percent chance to sit here and lose your temper." Dr. Ander stared at him sharply, staring sharply I say.

I thought about it, shook my head and said, "I still can't understand, is there really no other way? If you really need my support, then you must explain your plan to me again. Also. I stayed before waking up What is the place? Is it really unimaginable, is it really made by humans? "

Dr. Ande and I met each other for a long time, and I didn't evade my eyes. Finally, he seemed to compromise and opened the folder.

"Yes. It's artificial." Dr. Ande said: "And, it's made out of the staged results and by-products of trying to treat you and other patients ... terrible tools . We call it "Doom Fantasy". "

"Why is it called the Doomsday Illusion? Also, how is this illusion constructed?" I asked pretendingly. Dr. Ande did not immediately answer, but just flipped the report page after page. After a while, I urged: "You must tell me clearly!"

"It's really irritable ... I didn't expect such a result to occur, which is slightly different from my expectations." Dr. Ander looked up and said to me.

His tone was not calm, as if he was really disappointed and puzzled by my performance. However, I am not sure, he really thinks so. I think my performance should be more in line with his hopes, and it's not completely unexplainable.

"Your statement is as if I had performed better in the past." I stared at him closely and said, "What kind of person am I in the past?"

Dr. Ande narrowed his eyes, looked at me up and down, and grunted from his nose.

"I have to say that you in the past are a hundred times better than you in the present."

"However, you let that me disappear. Although I have no dissatisfaction with myself now ..." I stared at him sharply with a sharp eye: "However, I want to know how this experiment makes me amnesia. , And then another one. "

Dr. Ande sighed, and put the report together, it didn't mean anything to me.

"What is the quality of a person, is determined by several aspects?" He asked so, without waiting for my answer, he said to himself: "I think that personality occupies a decisive position. Here, you understand the personality What is it? "

"Personality mainly refers to the unique and stable way of thinking and behavior that people have distinguished from others, reflects the overall mental outlook of the individual, and is a sum of certain tendencies and relatively stable psychological characteristics." I quickly I answered.

"You haven't become an idiot and illiterate ~ www.readwn.com ~ At least this is a blessing." Dr. Ander said slightly sarcastically.

I was not angry, but I still played a patient expression. The atmosphere became silent. After a while, Dr. Ande continued to say: "Knowledge, experience and experience all affect a person's way of thinking and behavior style. However, once the knowledge, experience and experience that make up memory are structural, for example, priority If there is a change in order, then the personality is likely to change. To make a simple analogy, things happen at the wrong time, or mistaken things that have not happened have already happened, take hallucinations as real, and treat certain things. Misunderstandings and so on ... In fact, no matter what the reality is, they just exist in our brains in the form of information. "

Dr. Ande pointed to his temple and said seriously: "The facts that have happened are unique and certain, but the information stored in the brain may change. They are distorted by themselves, or the connection and structure between each other Changes occur, and the fragments of the image form another image with a completely different perception. At this time, it will have a huge impact on the subjective consciousness, thereby changing a person's values, outlook on life and world view, and thus generating psychological characteristics, thinking methods and behavior style Change-This means a change in personality.

Part of the information stored in your brain has disappeared and part of it has been reconstructed in the illusion of doomsday. That's why you seem to have become another person. "(Unfinished to be continued ...)