Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

I took a few deep breaths, trying to keep myself from thinking about the messy things, and then patted my cheek hard. {http:

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Friends uploaded updates} Dr. Ruan Li looked at me for a while with an inquiring look.

"How much do you remember?" She asked.

"What?" I don't quite understand.

"Your last illness was very sudden, and we had to adopt a temporary plan. In all respects, our preparations were not sufficient, just to save your life. In fact, we are not too concerned about success. Big expectations ... "said Dr. Ruan Li:" I thought you would forget more things, but now it seems that this is not the case. "

"I don't think there are many things that I have forgotten. For example ..." I looked around with a straight face and asked, "Where is this?" Because her previous questions revealed some alarming information, I didn't Dare to ask her directly about the color and Dorothy, and other girls. I do n’t think I can hide the problem of memory recovery, because I do n’t know how I performed before the last treatment, but I can say as little as possible.

Try to keep silent and listen to what they say, I can only do this temporarily.

"Secret." Dr. Ruan Li said bluntly.

"Even the patients are not allowed to know?" I have some differences. "Is this a hospital?"

"Of course, in the hospital, it is only in a facility with a strict confidentiality system." Dr. Ruan Li said: "In order to develop a more reasonable treatment method, you participate in the experiment as a special case, so you will be here. Of course, I hope you have not forgotten that you have obtained your permission to participate in this research in advance. "

I disagree with this. Maybe I did it voluntarily, but it may not be, but it is meaningless to delve into this matter. After all, I have already participated and will continue. I may be able to fulfill Zhen Jiang's last wish here and make a serum that can save them, but for now. They have studied me for a long time, and it seems that they have not found a way to make special serum-they have not even studied the virus type in my body. Although in general, there are relatively simple methods for making serum. But I do n’t have professional medical knowledge or related experimental equipment, so before thinking that “they do n’t want to make serum at all”. I have to think about it, does my body already have the factors to make serum?

In any case, the hospital ’s research must have relevant reports, and I want to get it.

"What disease am I suffering from?" I asked.

"Apocalyptic syndrome." Dr. Ruan Li said: "A syndrome caused by a special virus that has never been seen before."

"Okay, I won't ask what this particular virus is anymore. I'm not a researcher. However, if I heard that I didn't die after being infected with the virus, my body will gradually develop resistance and be able to make serum." I said: " I seem to have been suffering from this disease for a long time. Since you can keep me alive many times, why haven't you made a serum yet? "

"Accurately, your body does not develop resistance." Dr. Ruan Li said: "The reason why you are still not is because your body can fight this virus. It is because the virus in your body is not as active as other viruses. The human body is so violent. Except you. People who have been infected with this virus haven't been able to last that long. From the data ... "She narrowed her eyes." It's like the virus in your body doesn't intend to be so fast. Kill you. "

"So, you have been looking for the reason for this special reaction of the virus?"

"Yes, you are a special case. What must have happened to you." Dr. Ruan Li said calmly. "Unfortunately, we still haven't found ... the good news is. Your last unsuccessful treatment gave us hope and let us verify a conjecture."

"Can you tell me?" I stared at her eyes.

It seems that Dr. Ruan Li did not intend to hide this from the beginning.

"We suspect that the virus you infected is essentially different from other patients. {Http:

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"You upload updates" Dr. Ruan Li explained. "A type of virus is likely to produce multiple variants. This is a very common thing, just like the flu also has many branches due to different virus strains. "

"Do you suspect that the virus I infected is a mutant virus?"

"Yes, it doesn't mean that you don't have the conventional virus in your body that is infected by other patients with doomsday syndrome. However, it has a lower activity, but it has a cellular and genetic level for other branched viruses, as well as after infection. The above activities have a stronger influence, rather it is a mutant virus of control. "Dr. Ruan Li said:" This virus is temporarily called the heterosexual virus factor. "

"The opposite sex?" I am a little puzzled by this prefix.

"Yes." Dr. Ruan Li's ridiculous smile hung on her face. "It was negative ... you can think of it as a girl." After saying this, her expression became serious again, saying: "We still It is suspected that it is actually the mother of other viruses, but for the time being we cannot be sure, because we did not find it, but just proved its existence. Listen to me, Gao Chuan, we must find this heterosexual virus factor, which is for patients with doomsday syndrome It is of great significance to ordinary people. It can control other branched viruses and symptomatic reactions, and its activity is not strong. It is the virus that the human body is most likely to adapt to and the best serum material ... Infected, um, temporarily called " "Apocalypse virus", after infection with the apocalypse virus, the human body will produce many wonderful changes, although it will eventually lead to gene collapse, but before the collapse, it has indeed produced many incredible phenomena. If we can master the opposite **** virus factors, we can control these changes To give everyone the chance to become a superman. "

Although she said so, I don't care if anyone can become Superman. I guess this heterosexual viral factor comes from the blood of Zhenjiang that I drank. Did Zhenjiang know that the viral factor in his blood would change in this way? Today, her thoughts can no longer be considered.

"Is it okay to tell me these things?" I asked tentatively.

"It's not a very important thing. I haven't told you in the confidentiality mechanism that I can't tell you, but it's better not to preach everywhere." Dr. Ruan Li said very bluntly.

"I will." I can use all kinds of malicious to guess the actions of these hospital staff, but I still thank Dr. Ruan Li, she revealed a lot of important information for me, although she said it was okay, but was by other people If you know it, it may still cause some negative effects on her colleagues' impressions. I don't know what purpose she is holding to tell me these things, maybe she is a kind and kind person. Maybe it was just to make me "amnesia" more actively cooperate with the hospital experiment in the future, but I can't be so sure.

"Can you stand up now?" Said Dr. Ruan Li, her eyes fell on my right foot.

I just realized. When talking to her, her right foot no longer shook anxiously.

"Come on, I will take you to see Dr. Ande." Dr. Ruan Li said, turning around and leaving the room. I quickly followed.

The corridor we passed by was very narrow and there were no straights, all of which were curved, as if they were wrapped around a circular center edge, and there were no windows. The left and right sides are thick metal walls, it is impossible to see the scenery outside. The walls are smooth and monotonous, all in silver and white, and under some soft yellowing lights, it will still make people feel dazzling. I learned from Dr. Ruan Li that the people in this high-confidential facility are not only patients, but also staff. They rarely get the opportunity to go out.

"This building is like a large observatory stationed in Antarctica. It is self-sufficient. We have a greenhouse with a clean circulation system for water and air. Although we can't receive most of the signals outside, we store them in computers and servers There are a lot of resources, and you can also watch the channels in the hospital. The hospital has bought the right to broadcast a large number of outside programs, and we even have a news group. "

"But it's impossible to go outside completely. Isn't it? Even me, I know that staying in this closed and monotonous space for a long time will have a bad effect on people's spirit. Work efficiency will be greatly reduced." I was not confused by her words and asked: "Dr. Ruan Li. How often will you go out?"

Dr. Ruan Li glanced at me and smiled, seemingly helpless.

"One month." She replied, "Do you want to go out?"

"I hate this place." I was outspoken.

"I can give you a certificate if you perform well." Dr. Ruan Li said: "However, another certificate needs to be opened by Dr. Ander. If you want to go out, don't deliberately trouble him."

"Why am I looking for his trouble?" I said in surprise.

"Because he will tell you something you don't want to hear." Dr. Ruan Li said mysteriously, "Maybe not. It depends on your own performance. Dr. Ande has his own set of judgment methods, he knows When to do something to make patients behave in line with their expectations. "

I have a bad hunch, but this hunch has been around since I woke up. I probably know what it is about, but I also do n’t want to think deeply.

I have always been very afraid to know the answer, especially the answer given by the doctor here.

"What you say makes me think you are in conflict with him." My way of speaking becomes a little sharper. "You and him are not right?"

"I personally have great respect for him." Dr. Ruan Li was not angry, and still had the calm appearance before. "However, our research philosophy is inconsistent."

"Ah, I feel it a little." I appreciate some kind of memory resonance caused by this sentence. "Although I don't remember clearly, Dr. Ruan Li, you don't approve of the treatment of Dr. Ander's doom syndrome Theory? "

"Yes, I don't like his method." Dr. Ruan Li blinked at me. "However, he was the first to achieve a breakthrough in results."

Dr. Ruan Li ’s performance made me think that she seemed to be suggesting something to me. Do you want me to help fight Dr. Ande? I am vaguely aware that Dr. Ruan Li wants to replace Dr. Ander and become the leader of the research work on "Doomsday Syndrome". However, this idea may just be an illusion. Although her words are somewhat imaginative, I still realize that it is because of this ambiguous attitude that I should not take the initiative to get involved.

Although Dr. Ruan Li is my attending doctor, and in personal feelings, the relationship between me and her has been very good. However, this intimate bond between doctor and patient still cannot make me deny that she is a woman full of mystery.

I even subconsciously doubted that her sense of competition with Dr. Ander in front of me had no purpose.

Dr. Andre is my psychologist. However, it may be affected by the memory that has not been fully recalled. I think Dr. Ruan Li is also a psychologist who is not inferior to Dr. Ander. I have studied psychology systematically in "Doom", and it is because of this that it makes me feel that the attainments of these two people are beyond the reach of myself.

They are like teaching me a psychology professor in the doomsday illusion, every movement. Every look and every sentence can exert the influence they want on others. Ordinary people cannot detect it. Instead, half buckets of water like mine are more sensitive. It is worth noting that the professor warned me with practical actions, for a psychologist, it affects a fledgling psychology student. It ’s no harder or even easier than affecting ordinary people—because beginners are always too neurotic and quite brainy, they are always self-righteous, no matter how prepared they are. Always assume the thinking patterns of others as soon as possible.

It is assumed that the thinking patterns of others are not always the best way to study human psychology, nor can they work every time, and are very dangerous. A well-prepared, well-thought-out person can use many methods to change the external appearance of the thinking mode-and before there is not enough time to collect enough information, people who think they are proficient in psychology will always be the first Obtain this external appearance for a while, as a basis for building a thinking model.

It is because they are familiar with some psychological knowledge. So most of the time it was successful. This has intensified this dangerous habit, which is always the most difficult to change and the first thing to appear when it is most urgent.

Psychological researchers with this dangerous habit will always fall into the sense of urgency deliberately created by others.

I think back to the professor ’s words: “When you build a person ’s thinking model, you have to ask yourself, do you really understand him? Create a model, and then analyze each other according to the model. This is the most wrong way. Until the target is analyzed to a certain extent, we simply cannot make the correct model. "

then. I asked myself, did I really understand Dr. Ande and Dr. Ruan Li?

The answer is of course "No". So, I tried my best to suppress the urge to build a thinking model for these two people by virtue of intuition and memory. In the doomsday illusion, I also like this way of directly modeling. Although I know that it is full of loopholes and dangers, it is very easy to use in most cases, so, in the words of the professor, I have cultivated Good habits. However, I dare not allow this habit here.

I understand that in the face of these psychologists, I have no second chance.

You must be cautious and cautious.

The outlines of Dr. Ruan Li and Dr. Ande began to blur in my heart. I decided to abandon the memories, intuitions and prejudices of the past and interpret them more objectively.

"You look very careful." Dr. Ruan Li said suddenly: "Are you nervous now?"

"Do not."

"Let me guess ..." Dr. Ruan Li tilted his head and looked at my face. "You are thinking-who is this woman? Does she have any conspiracy?"

"No, I didn't think about it." I denied it.

"You are still too tender." Dr. Ruan Li shook his head and said, "You are doubting me. I don't mind, but I advise you not to do such extraneous things. If you are suspicious of God all day long, in this facility It's okay. And, Dr. Ander likes you to be cranky. "

I don't want to tell her more. I have a feeling that no matter what I say, even a lie, the more I say, the more I will reveal my true attitude. The reason why they talk to me is because I am in a state of "amnesia" and thinks that it is necessary to update the thinking model about me established before. They want to find out the truth from me-if I know the truth, they will not give up this possibility, even if it is a very small possibility.

In the past, I did n’t seem to provide them with much information, but now, I feel that I have recovered and have not recovered the crucial truths in the memories, such as the affairs of Zhenjiang, such as the color and Dorothy. Things to plan ... These things will be the key to determining our future situation. I ca n’t let anyone know ~ www.readwn.com ~ I even think that the reason why I have lost too much memory is precisely because of this need ". The strange behavior of tie color and Dorothy is just gradually completing the plan made by me and them in the past-a huge and precise plan that can only be carried out in secret, and my state, whether it is losing memory, gaining memory , And even the situation of being a special experiment, is an essential part of this plan.

——The plan is proceeding smoothly.

This kind of thinking has given me some relief and calmness.

Say less, think more, try to remain silent, and I warn myself again.

Along the way, the atmosphere became silent and depressed. Although I don't dislike Dr. Ruan Li, but the sense of vigilance is very obvious. I think Dr. Ruan Li must be able to see it. But she did not appear embarrassed, her hands in her pockets, as always, the pace and breathing rhythm were as if they had been precisely measured. Finally, she stopped before a corner and said to me:

"Here, Dr. Ander doesn't like to see me. You can go in." Dr. Ruan Li glanced over the corner, and turned away without waiting for my answer. (To be continued ...)