forget me wedding

Chapter 6

I think I have no chance to get out of this hospital, every day is full of treatment schedules.

I had almost lost my hair, so I had to shave it all. I wore a beautiful wig on my bare head, but I took off the wig in a few days, because the bald head is not ugly. The important thing is that I want to Face it bravely.

The schedule was torn up by me, and I said to the young doctor: "I don't want to waste the rest of my time in the hospital. I have to go to many places and spend my precious time."

"You can't even sit comfortably in a wheelchair, where else do you want to go on vacation?" The doctor patted me on the shoulder with a smile and left.

I was waiting for Shiqi, he went to pour himself a cup of coffee and some boiling water for me by the way.

The phone rang, and I slowly took it over to see, it was Will.

"Where is it? I haven't seen you for a few days!" Wei'er yelled unceremoniously in a loud voice, "Did He and Shiqi sneak off to get married?"

"How can there be such a good thing? I can't run even if I want to run now, and I have an operation in the hospital!"

"Bah! Bah! Bah! Unlucky! Do you and Shiqi have any good news? Don't lie to us!"

I laughed dumbfounded, what good news can there be?But when it came to news, I thought of Jue'er, and hurriedly asked Wei'er, "Where is Jue'er? Is there any news about Jue'er?"

Wei'er was quiet for a while, and I guessed seven or eight points from the bottom of my heart, but her answer was beyond my expectation, "Jue'er called once to ask Yu Feng to rest assured that she is fine and the child is fine." It's about to give birth, and I'll come back when the baby is born, and I also left a mobile phone number for you to call her when you have time."

"That bastard woman!" I cursed through gritted teeth, "She's always so capricious, it's too much! What about Yu Feng? How is he?"

Wei'er sighed heavily, "What else can I do? Right now, I'm stupid, like an imbecile. I don't eat or take a bath, and I just know that I'm in a daze. It's more appropriate to say that he looks like a vegetable. Doctors can't do anything about him."

"I'll go see him." I said firmly.

"No!" Shiqi's voice broke my determination.

I looked over and saw Shiqi standing at the door, the two glasses of water in his hands had been splashed out by him excitedly.He threw the cup in the trash, then walked up to me and told me in a clear voice, "I will never let you go, no!"

Looking at him, for some reason, I actually felt a hatred.

Weier kept chattering on the other end of the phone, I threw the phone on the ground hard, and immediately, the phone fell apart.

Shi Qi is quiet, and I am also quiet.

Finally, after a long silence, he said flatly, "Go."

His voice was deep.

Tears rushed out of my eyes, and I covered my face and wept bitterly. At this time, my mood was like a juicer squeezing green lemon fruit on my wound.

He didn't comfort me as usual, he just waited quietly for me to stop crying.

Happy, crying enough, I let go, but saw Shi Qi with his back to me, one hand on his face, I don't know what kind of expression it is.

Fear rushed into my heart, I was afraid that he would ignore me, so I quickly called to him: "Shiqi—Shiqi, don't be angry, I'm wrong, it's my fault, turn around, I'm sorry ..."

"I'm going to wash my face." Without turning his head, he put down his hand and strode out, away from me.

I saw that the palm he had put down on his face just now was wet, and there was a drop of liquid dripping down, crystal clear, it must be his tears.

God, hate me!
"Don't go, Shiqi, don't go—" I yelled at his back, fearing that he would never come back after leaving.

Shi Qi stayed at the door, didn't leave, and didn't look back.

A blankness rushed into my mind, and I said his name to stop my grief, to stop consciousness.

I tried my best to open my eyes, and I was greeted by Shiqi's tired and eager face, he must have not slept for a long time.

"You're so ugly!" I couldn't make any sound from my throat, but I still wanted to joke with him, "Do you have to let me see you so ugly?"

"Do you want some water?" He asked lightly.

I shook my head, my voice was pitifully low, "Do you want to kiss me? If you kiss me, I won't be thirsty."

He froze for a moment, an expression of being defeated by me floated on his face.His fingers caressed my lips, and I could feel his delicate fingertips slipping and bleeding on my dry lips.His fingers are born to hold a pen, they are slender and slender than mine, and sometimes I really envy him.

However, he didn't kiss me, he wouldn't be as capricious as me.

"Are you going to make me thirsty?" I asked softly.

"I'll get you a glass of water." He made a gesture to stand up.

I'm very rambunctious, so I grabbed him and didn't let him go, and then continued my insistence: "You haven't kissed me yet! Isn't Sleeping Beauty sleeping for 100 years just to wait for a kiss from the prince? It can be seen how much a kiss is." The greatness is a medicine that can cure all diseases. If you kiss me, maybe my illness will be cured, and I can be your bride, you can..."

He stopped me from continuing with his lips.

He was shaking and kissed me hard.I know he's scared, and he won't let me hurt each other with my self-deprecating ways.

He ended up kissing me anyway.

Has time stopped?How long have we been kissing?Is it a century?When he left my lips, I slowly opened my eyes.

"Look! I'm healed, I'm alive and well! You saved me, you are my prince, take me from this evil hell to your house! I'll wash the floor, cook, wash dishes, and wash clothes for you ;I will learn how to cook very seriously, massage you every day, watch the door... I can do a lot of things, in short, take me out of here, you can go anywhere!" I said half-jokingly and half-seriously.

"It's time for you to sleep." He pulled up my quilt.

"No!" I took his leaving hand, put it on my cheek, and said to him coquettishly: "Let me see you more, I have slept for so long, and now I finally woke up, let me see more, Bring your image into the dream."

"What was in your dream?" he asked, frowning.

I stretched out my hand and smoothed his brows carefully, then imitated his frown and said solemnly: "There is everything in the dream, but without you, you must not come! Sometimes the dream will be dark, and you can't see anything."

"Afraid?"

"Well! Terrified. What about you? What's in your dream?"

"I have no dreams," he said, bowing his head.

"No! You have, tell me!"

He wiped his face with his hands, and rested his hands on his chin, supporting his head. "My dreams are full of ghosts."

"Then are you afraid?"

"afraid!"

My heart was tugged, tears rolled in my eyes, but I said to him very easily: "It's okay, when I become a ghost too, I will go to your dream and scare those ghosts away , from now on, you can only have me in your dreams, you know?"

"Fool!" He pinched my nose lovingly.

I laughed happily, as if it hadn't been like this for a long time.

"I helped you go through the discharge procedures." He said suddenly.

I froze and couldn't believe it.

His eyes were bright and serious, "I know you don't want to waste time here, so I'll help you with the discharge procedures. Wherever you want to go in the future, I'll accompany you, okay?"

What, I want to cry again?No!I can't cry, I can't cry any more in front of the man I love the most in my life.

"Where are we going to play?" he asked, taking my hand.

"Let's go to XZ to fulfill your wish." I choked up and said.

He nodded, kissed my hand, and then put my hand on his heart, "We will bring back a lot of souvenirs, and when we come back, we will hold a grand wedding and invite everyone to come and drink our Wedding wine."

"Shiqi, I used to love to dream, and you laughed at my naivety, but now you love to dream, but I can't laugh. Forgive me, I can't."

He smiled bitterly, with a disappointed expression on his face, which made my heart ache.

I hugged him, touched his back lightly with my hand to reassure him, I tried to relax as much as possible, and said: "Didn't we agree? You want to find a woman who can cook and let her raise you." Fat, let..."

He interrupted me, and with only three words, I burst into tears.I heard him say to me in the saddest tone I've ever heard, "Please..."

My heart was broken in an instant, "Shiqi, how can you say 'beg' to me? I am just your little slave, you can order me, you don't have to ask me or ask me to marry you It’s my blessing, but I don’t have this blessing.”

His voice was trembling, and even he felt unreal.

He took my hand, deepened his grip, and said again, "I really beg you, I really can't live without you. I don't have flowers, I don't have rings, I don't I have nothing, but being with you is my greatest happiness, you are my wealth, please don’t make me poor again. Will you? Be my bride?”

This hateful man!When did he prepare such a touching speech?How could he say such touching words to make me cry?Badass!

Seeing that I was just crying, he let go of his hand and walked out the door without saying a word.

Fear rushed into my heart again, and I screamed: "Shiqi—where are you going, don't leave me, Shiqi—don't go..."

He stood at the door, his voice was very clear - "What are you afraid of being poor! Without you, I would rather be a beggar for the rest of my life!"

"I'm going to die, how long can I stay with you? Marrying me will only add to your sadness."

He ignored me.

I continued: "Shiqi, are you pitying me? Because my life is short, you pity me, so you..."

"Enough! You don't need to marry, but you can't ignore my sincerity! Your words are an insult to me! Kou'er, is it a lie that we have treated each other sincerely for so long?" Shi Qi He rushed in front of me, grabbed my shoulders, and looked at me seriously, "Say pity, I'm the most pitiful person, because you don't trust me at all!"

Facing his seriousness, I panicked, "Shiqi, it's not that I don't trust you, don't be angry, Shiqi, I'm sorry... I just don't have confidence in myself - I can't cook, I have no mobility, no I can accompany you for too long, I'm just your burden, you don't have to treat me so well."

He kissed me gently.

In an instant, all the words were gone, and I could clearly hear his heartbeat.

He kissed me lightly on the forehead again, with a calm voice, "If you really think so, forget it."

The wind blew in through the window, it was cool, and we became silent.

After a long time, I compromised, "Marry me, marry this burden home! Let her drag you down, let her punish you."

Shi Qi's tears fell, but his face was full of smiles.

"Don't go back on your word!" he said.

"You are the one who repents!" I helped him wipe away his tears.

Shi Qi hugged me, and his voice was extremely gentle, "Let's talk about it when you regret it. I don't have any plans to do so right now. I want to tell everyone that you are my wife!"

"Fool!" I hugged him even tighter.

His knowing smile intoxicated me, and I felt happy.I can no longer cry in the future, because I will always be happy.

I want to be happy until the day I die.

Jue'er left Wei'er a phone number and asked me to call her.

After getting the phone number, I called her without even thinking about it.However, the phone was disconnected after ringing a few times, and the phone was turned off when I called again.

what happened?

I put down the phone and looked out of the dark window, it was extremely cold tonight, and the wind was a bit scary.Shiqi slept peacefully next to me.

I have been discharged from the hospital, and I have returned to my small western-style building.

I looked at my favorite little balcony. Before I left, that little balcony was a small stage for me and my friends. We sang, danced, and barbecued... But now, that balcony is too deserted.

The phone rang, and I answered it. It was Jue'er.

I can't tell what I'm feeling, I can't say anything when I hear her voice.

"Ku'er, are you listening?" Jue'er's voice was faint.

"I'm listening." I answered her lightly.

"I heard you were sick, Lin told me."

I quietly, listening to her.

She smiled, "It's hard work, right? I heard from Lin that you're in a bad situation recently, right? You don't have much time. Have you thought about where you want to go?"

I am still silent.

"Do you know why I left?" Jue'er's tone suddenly became serious. "Ku'er, you were really good to me before, but do you know how jealous I am of you? You have parents who love you, a sister who loves you, and such an excellent Yu Feng! When you were studying, you If you fail the exam, no one scolds you, knowing that you don’t want to study, Yu Feng will give you tutoring; before the English test, you know how hard I worked? I got second, but you got first Why do you get the first? Why do you get the first? Is there anything I am inferior to you? I am not inferior to you - I am more beautiful than you, I always play the princess when I act in a drama; my grades I have always been better than you, I even scored higher in singing than you! But...you have everything, but I have nothing, I can't even conceive Yufeng's child, but you can!"

She was very excited, and I was imagining her expression at the moment.

"Ku'er, I'm not wrong, what's wrong with me? God has treated me so unfairly, don't I even have the right to love?"

"Of course you have the right to love," I said. "God is also very fair to you—you are beautiful, gentle, and you sing well. No one who sees you doesn't like you."

"Then why does everyone stand on your side and accuse me? Kou'er, I hate you, I hate you so much, why are you always luckier than me? Why?" She almost roared.

This woman is crazy.

I sighed, there was really nothing I could do with this woman. "Jue'er, do you know? I worked very hard back then, but you didn't see it."

"What did you work so hard for? You have everything without doing anything! Why can't I get the happiness you have..." Her voice choked up, "Ku'er, why did you come back? Why did you come back? All the happiness I've worked so hard to create for so long is gone..."

"Then what are you doing now? Do you know? Yu Feng has been tortured by you to the point of being out of shape. If you love him, you should come back, stay by his side, and take good care of him."

Jue'er's cries became more and more piercing, "Kou'er...you and my sister...can't you show mercy?"

ridiculous! "Sisterhood"?Thanks to her being able to tell, why couldn't she think about our sisters at the beginning?Why couldn't she show mercy to me then?What did I do to make her think I was threatening her?I did nothing!
"Jue'er, what are you afraid of? What have I done to make you feel afraid? You were not afraid of anything before... Do you know? Before, you were always my goddess, you were always high above me, I almost worshiped you It is so gentle and beautiful. I protect you, and I never want to let you suffer a little bit of grievances - whoever scolded you, I will scold you back for you; whoever beat you, I will get back double for you... I I love you just like your sister, even if I come back with revenge, I didn't do anything to hurt you. On the contrary, it's you, you trampled yourself!"

"What do you know? I've worked so hard! I want to make my future happier, but I'm not as happy as you! Yufeng was snatched by me. That man is weak-willed, and he can't stand my cute and pitiful expressions. It has shaken your so-called solid relationship. What childhood sweetheart? What love is stronger than gold? Shit! Isn’t it all ruined? That man has given up! But now that you are back, it is impossible for that cowardly man not to be moved!”

"You can't even trust the person you love! Jue'er, you are so pitiful!"

Jue'er sneered, "It's all because of you!"

"We have nothing to talk about." My tone also turned cold.

Jue'er suddenly started crying again, she pleaded: "Kuo'er, please, please go! Don't show up again, there is no room for you here, please leave, please go!"

I remembered that nine years ago, the day before I left, Jue Er said the same thing.Standing by the sea, the wind at that time was so strong that it raised her long hair, making her so beautiful that it was unreal.

At that time, she was young and lively, she only smiled slightly, and said to me, "Go! Don't show up again, there is no room for you here..."

Facing such a calm girl, I knew that I was not her opponent, and it was useless to fight any longer. At that time, Yufeng was standing not far from us, watching us, silent.

Yu Feng must have heard what Jue Er said at that time, but he didn't complain about our past, he just stood there quietly...

I remember, they forced me to leave town, and I was a pathetic coward.

"Jue'er, your tears are fake." After I finished speaking, I closed the phone.

I got into Shiqi's arms who was sleeping soundly, and I felt so warm.

Shiqi pushed my wheelchair out to breathe the fresh air. I felt that the air was really free and fresh.

Because my spine can no longer support my body, even sitting in a wheelchair has become difficult.So the clever Shi Qi tied me to the wheelchair with some soft cloth, and then covered me with a thin blanket, so that I could easily go to the street to breathe the long-lost air.

"Don't go shopping for too long, you have to report back to the hospital later!" Shi Qi reminded me while walking.

"I know, but I love this air very much. Shiqi, take a deep breath and see, isn't the air very sweet?" I pretended to be intoxicated.

He said blankly, "We just passed a public toilet."

I couldn't help laughing, tried to pat his arm, and looked back at him. Today, he is much more energetic. He must have slept well last night.

"Go back now, it's far away from home." He turned the "car front".

"No!" I paused, "Go and see Yufeng!"

Rarely, he nodded without objecting.

I don't know what he was thinking or feeling.Along the way, we didn't say anything.

Entering Yufeng's house, I saw Fei'er and Wu'er.The two screamed with joy, screaming and jumping around me, just barely digging me out of the wheelchair.

Wu'er used her residual enthusiasm as a nurse to draw several conclusions about my wheelchair. In the end, she mobilized Shiqi to take me to a hospital in a big city for a proper examination.

Shi Qi smiled and nodded, reaching out to touch my wig.

We really didn't know how to respond other than to laugh.

"Did the doctor say anything?" Wu'er asked me seriously.

"Actually, it's much better. It's just that I'm lazy, so it's slower than expected. It'll be fine after a while." I replied with a smile, and suddenly I remembered what happened to Wu'er.I looked at her belly, it was already obvious.

I stretched my hand towards her belly, and she screamed reflexively and ran away immediately, with a smile on her face, and scolded: "Bad guy, eat other people's tofu."

"What's going on?" I asked.

"What's the matter?" Wu'er blinked her beautiful and affectionate eyes on purpose, and asked me from a distance.

I didn't ask any more questions, everyone is no longer a child, I believe she can take good care of herself.

Entering Yufeng's room, I finally saw Yufeng.He lay on the bed, staring blankly at the ceiling, unaware that the quilt had slipped off the floor.Fei'er helped him pick up the quilt and cover it up again.

Shi Qi sat on the sofa, picked up a newspaper and read it by himself.I know that he wants to give me a chance to be alone with Yufeng and have a good talk.

I pushed the wheelchair toward Yufeng's bed, as if I was pushing myself toward a new grave, to pay homage to a mummy friend who was dead but still breathing.To me, his silence and stillness is actually a fire that is burning the hope of everyone who cares about him and loves him.

Do I count too?No!I don't count!I don't want to care about him, to—love him.

Is he just lying there all the time?He had lost a lot of weight, almost covered in a layer of skin, his cheeks were severely sunken, and he had lost his former heroic appearance.

I gently held his hand, shook it, and called out, "Yu Feng."

His face turned towards me slowly, terribly slowly, as if his neck had been rusted for hundreds of years.

The emptiness in his eyes scares me even more—he chills me.

I smiled at him, the smile astringent.

He imitated me and laughed a little too, with a stiff smile.

Next, we didn't do anything else, just looked into each other's eyes quietly.I don't know if he will find something in my eyes, I just know that I look into his eyes and wonder if he is still alive and breathing?Is there still a heartbeat?Do you still feel guilty about me?In fact, this guilt is no longer important, what is important is that everything exists in reality, and he cannot escape.

I forgot to let go of Yufeng's hand, just holding it like this, it feels like there is no sweetness, only pure sadness.I also forgot the eyes behind the newspaper on the sofa behind me. At this moment, those eyes were looking at the silence between me and Yu Feng. The silence at this moment took away the breath of the three of us.

Finally, I spoke, with a faint voice, "I...I—" But I couldn't say a complete sentence.Taking a deep breath of the cold air, I spoke again and said bravely and proudly, "I'm getting married."

The cheers of Fei'er and Wu'er came from behind, they were happily arguing around Shi Qi.

Yu Feng suddenly came alive and held my hand instead.His mouth opened and closed, what did he want to say?Want to bless me?No need, Yu Feng, no need.

He looked at me, his eyes were red, he let go of my hand, and a vague voice came—"...flowers, flowers...hair..."

Fei'er and Wu'er came from behind us, and when they heard Yu Feng talking, they immediately shouted happily: "Finally Yu Feng has spoken!"

My heart was shocked by Yu Feng's words.At this moment, he still remembers our agreement - I will grow long hair for him, and he will plant the most beautiful and unique "forget-me-not" in the world for me; The hair is pulled up high, with only a few strands hanging down, and then I'm going to hold that beautiful flower and proudly announce that he is my favorite.

Sitting on the edge of Yufeng's bed, Fei'er asked very gently: "Yufeng, do you want some water? Are you thirsty?"

Yu Feng glanced at her, shook his head slightly, and then he looked at me eagerly, as if hoping that I could understand the message in his eyes.

I understand.

I smiled bitterly, stretched out my hand to my wig, pulled it lightly, and the three thousand hairs left me, leaving only a bright and clean reality.

The girl behind screamed.

Yu Feng's eyes were wide open, her hand tremblingly raised, and she touched the top of my bald head in disbelief—then dropped powerlessly.

Shi Qi put down the newspaper and walked over.He took the wig from my hand and put it back on for me without saying a word.

I tugged at the corner of my mouth lightly, wanting to cry or laugh but didn't show any expression.It's those two men who really hurt because they're the ones who love me the most and because they understand what my hair means.

Yu Feng pulled up the quilt, sobbing, like a wronged child, looking for a refuge under the quilt.

I dare not look at Shiqi, I know he has been looking at me.

Suddenly, Yufeng lifted the quilt and struggled to get up. Shi Qi hurriedly supported the weak body, but Yufeng didn't intend to lie back on the bed, but kept chanting: "Flower, flower... flower..."

"Where are you going?" Yu Feng's excited look made Shi Qi a little at a loss, he asked Yu Feng loudly.

"Flowers!" Yu Feng also responded loudly to Shi Qi.His eyes were full of anger, as if he wanted to tear Shi Qi in half.

"What flower?" Shi Qi hugged Yu Feng's precarious body.

"Hua——" Yu Feng shouted hysterically, and finally, his voice gradually quieted down, and he fell on Shi Qi's shoulder and began to cry.

Shi Qi patted his back lightly, as if to comfort me.

He cried with all his heart, without any cover-up.After a long time, he left Shiqi's shoulder, smiled at us, rubbed the corners of his eyes, and said in a bitter voice, a little weakly: "The hair is gone, and the flowers haven't been cooked for a long time, I still want to give it to you as a wedding gift — half of the agreement."

"Half of the agreement..." I muttered this sentence.

"Let me go and see the flowers!" he said quietly.

Fei'er and Wu'er resolutely shook their heads in opposition.

"I must go!" he yelled.Suddenly, he opened his eyes wide, rushed towards me excitedly and asked, "Do you still remember? Do you remember? Lin's phone call. The call from Lin that time didn't mean that Jue'er was by our side, but we didn't bother to find her. That's all? I know where, I know where!"

We were all yelled at stupidly.

"In the flower shed, in the flower shed! The place we have been forgetting since she disappeared is the flower shed, she must be there!" Yu Feng laughed happily, reaching out to pick up the clothes on the hanger.

"You're crazy!" Wu'er screamed and jumped at him, trying to stop him.

Yu Feng's eyes were red, struggling.

"I'm going to the flower shed, I'm going to—"

"Then go!" Shi Qi also roared, digging him up from the bed, dragging him, dragging him mercilessly all the way to the hall.

Fei'er and Wu'er hurriedly chased after them, I tried my best to push the wheelchair to keep up with them, screaming: "Don't hurt him, don't hurt him—"

"Jue'er, Jue'er, I'm here, don't be afraid..." There was a knowing smile on Yu Feng's face, and a moving brilliance shone in his eyes.

Shi Qi dragged Yu Feng to the hall and threw it on the floor. Yu Feng climbed to the side of the TV rack, took down a bunch of keys from the rack, turned around and begged Shi Qi: "Shi Qi, my car is in the back shed. Li, please, can you give me a ride? Give me a ride, I beg you..."

Shi Qi sighed and turned to look at me.

I sighed and looked back at Fei'er and Wu'er, they shook their heads in unison.

No one can grasp the answer, Yu Feng raised his hand towards Shi Qi, his eyes were full of hope.Finally, he caught Shi Qi's sympathy, and we compromised.

(End of this chapter)