forget me wedding

Chapter 5

Finally, the Chinese New Year.

No one is thinking about this year.Poor Douzi canceled the wedding date because of Jue'er's disappearance, and had to wait for Jue'er to come back before choosing a date.

We "reported" almost every day to the flower shops, bookstores, and cake shops that Jue'er used to go to; we also asked about almost all hotels, hostels, and restaurants, and we even left our mailing addresses, for fear that we might miss them. Drop a clue.

Such tense days lasted until the end of the first month, which was the fourth wedding anniversary of Yu Feng and Jue Er.This anniversary is just a sad day for everyone, and they can only sit and wait quietly with Yu Feng, who is already out of shape.

I took the forget-me-nots and Shiqi that Lin sent me to see Yufeng.Although it has been a long time, the flower has not withered, maybe because I have taken good care of it, or maybe it is because the forget-me-not flower is like this-blooming and withering are like paper-cut flowers, without water.

When I saw Yu Feng again, my heart immediately became sore.

In fact, his spirit has improved a lot, but his complexion is still not rosy, his whole body is emaciated, there is not much expression on his face, and his eyes are very empty.

I think he's like a puppet.

He saw the flowers in my hand and was stunned.

I hand him the flowers.

He took the flowers, looked at them blankly, and then at me.

The eyes of the friends all turned around, no one said a word, it was very quiet.

"Are the flowers on the market?" Yu Feng asked weakly, with a long sadness in his tone.

"No." I ran my hands through my hair. "You seem to have another partner, he sent it."

"Is it Lin?" Yu Feng smiled wryly. "He is indeed my partner and my sponsor. He has been supporting me for several years."

I thought, I know why Rin is rooting for him.Because all the drugs that Yu Feng needed to change the genes and chromosomes of flowers were handled by Lin, and Lin knew which drugs could kill cancer.

"I haven't been able to find the key point. I don't understand why it failed." Yu Feng lowered his head and thought, "Why does it fade? Can't it last forever?"

Finding himself lost in thought again, he smiled apologetically, handed the flower to Douzi and said, "Douzi, help me put the flower up. Although it is a defective product, it is not bad."

"I don't know what you mean." I asked him, frowning.

"This bouquet has been dyed."

"is fake?"

Yufeng nodded.

"It seems that Lin is much smarter than me. I know how to change the color of a forget-me-not. How stupid I am." Yu Feng laughed at herself.

I don't know what to comfort him.

There were many people in the room, and everyone who could come came.

I turned the wheelchair to Wu'er, she immediately came over and pushed me into the crowd, Shi Qi followed closely behind me.

"How's your leg?" Wu'er asked me softly.

"Very good!" I simply answered her.

She touched my leg with her hand and said seriously: "It's a bit abnormal. It hasn't recovered after so long. There must be something wrong. I know, you must be old, osteoporosis, and lack of exercise. , you have always been lazy."

The friends laughed.

Will took a beautiful bun from her wrist and bound my hair up, and suddenly she exclaimed, "Kuel, you have so little hair!"

"It's less in the first place!" I responded lightly to her.

"Nonsense!" She tapped my nose.

Her fingers are cool, but my nose is hot.

At this time, Bin trotted in from outside, holding a large cardboard box in his hand.Needless to say, everyone knew what that was.

That's a big cake.

"What month is it now?" Yu Feng asked suddenly.

"Today?" Bin was stunned for a moment, and said, "It's the end of the first lunar month, and today is the fourth anniversary of your marriage with Jue Er, everyone remembers it."

"So it's already been March." Yu Feng touched his forehead with both hands, and tears fell down.

Everyone looked at Yufeng quietly.

Bin lightly patted Yu Feng on the shoulder, comforting him silently.

"The child—" Yu Feng choked up, "The child's due date is coming soon, and Jue'er—I'm not by her side."

Wei'er's eyes were red, and she fell on Akai's shoulder and began to cry.She has given birth to a child, and she knows that it is not easy for a woman, and she knows the hardships of giving birth.

The phone rang suddenly.

Douzi picked it up, passed it to me after listening for a while, and said, "Ku'er, it's so strange—I'm looking for you."

I picked it up and listened for a while, it was blank and there was nothing, so I had to hang up the phone.

The phone rang again.

I picked it up again.The other party was very quiet, there was no sound, and I had a bad feeling.I didn't dare to hang up the phone anymore, but stayed silent with the other party, stalemate.

A cough came from the other end of the phone, and my heart almost stopped.I looked at Yu Feng, and my hands shook.Yu Feng also looked at me, but she didn't quite understand why I had that expression.

"Ku'er, are you okay?" Shi Qi asked me with concern.

Finally, I handed the microphone into Yu Feng's hands with trembling hands, my voice was so hoarse that I couldn't even hear the two words—"Jue'er!"

Everyone gasped in surprise.

Yu Feng opened her eyes wide, immediately raised the microphone, and brought it to her ear, tears streaming down her face.He said "Hello" excitedly.

However, the other party hung up the phone.

Yu Feng lost control again, grabbing the microphone and crying, "Jue'er, where are you? Speak up, don't leave me alone——Jue'er, don't——Speak up! Speak up... "

Several friends went over to try to snatch the microphone from Yu Feng's hand but failed.Yu Feng tugged at the microphone desperately, his face was already wet with tears, and his sadness was completely broken.

I couldn't bear to watch it, I just felt that my tears had already wet my front.

A hand stretched out and wiped away my tears. It was Shiqi's thick and warm hand.He won't let me shed a few more tears for this man, so I have to hold back.

Suddenly, Yufeng rushed to me, knelt down at my feet, hugged my unconscious leg, and shouted excitedly: "Where is she? Kouer, I beg you, tell me, where is she? I beg Please……"

"I don't know, she didn't speak." I was frightened and wanted to break free from him.

Shi Qi dragged Yu Feng vigorously, pushed him into the crowd, and said to Yu Feng sternly: "You are not allowed to hurt Kouer any more! If you touch her again, I will be rude to you!"

I took Shiqi's hand and shook it gently.

Looking at Yu Feng again, he buried his head in Akai's arms and burst into tears.well!Jue'er, have you tortured your man enough?
The phone rang again, startling everyone.

Wei'er immediately picked it up, "Hello? Is it Jue'er?"

The other party was still quiet and did not speak.Wei'er anxiously shouted: "Are you Jue'er? Are you? Talk to me..." Wei'er stopped, looked at me, and said blankly, "Kuo'er, a man——looking for you."

Everyone looked at me, I answered the phone with trembling hands, and said in an unreal voice, "Hello."

"It's me." Lin's voice came.

"It's you? Why did you call?"

Lin laughed inexplicably, "You seem to be very lively there! Are you waiting for the heroine?"

"Are you still refusing to reveal Jue'er's whereabouts?"

"She's by your side, you didn't look for it seriously! She doesn't want to see you either, uh—I'm a gentleman, I have to do what the lady says to show my demeanor, don't I?"

"As long as you let her go, we can discuss whatever you want."

"Ku'er, let me be clear. I didn't kidnap her. She wanted to keep her. She's fine, and the baby will be born soon. You——time is running out, as a doctor, It's my duty to remind you not to get too excited, otherwise accidents will easily happen. You'd better play with your boyfriend and don't waste time. "

"We've already called the police." I said slowly.

"It's useless to call the police. I didn't take him away, and you can't find me. Jue'er and I are in a very hidden place. The scenery here is really charming!"

"You are the most shameless person I have ever met."

"Thank you! I like the compliment you gave me very much. This is my highest honor!" Lin's laughter came from time to time.

"madman!"

"It's really not speculative! Otherwise, let it be like this, I wish you good luck."

Lin hung up the phone.

I was dumbfounded and slowly put down the microphone.All eyes are on me.Yufeng asked me carefully: "How is it? Is there any news about Jue'er?"

"There is no news about Jue'er, but I know there is one person who must know where Jue'er is, and that is Lin! But he refuses to tell where Jue'er is."

Yu Feng stood up abruptly, "I'll go find him!"

"It's useless!" Akai said. "You think, if he wanted to kidnap Jue'er, he wouldn't hide where we could find him, would he? Lin didn't ask us for money, and he didn't want to tell us about Jue'er." Whereabouts, it means that his purpose is only Jue Er."

"Yeah, his goal is only for Jue'er." Wu'er said suddenly, her voice was very sad.Her hand gently stroked her slightly raised belly, where Lin's child was. "You don't understand how cruel he is. This is what he planned long ago."

Shi Qi squatted beside me and asked me gently: "What else did Lin say?"

I tried hard to recall, "He said that Jue'er was by our side, but we didn't look for it hard."

"Is there anything we haven't found yet?" Shi Qi lowered his head and thought.

"Maybe he has already left the town." Xizi guessed.

"No, I won't leave, Lin said that Jue'er is by our side," I denied Xizi's idea.

Fei'er also put forward her thoughts: "Could it be that Jue'er has settled down somewhere and didn't come out for a walk, otherwise, this small town is so small, you can see acquaintances everywhere you go, and there will be news."

"Yes, that's it!" Ren Qi concluded decisively: "She must be in such a place, and she doesn't come out often. I think she must have made a big decision. Could it be that she rented it in a certain place?" cabin?"

My friends seem to be reluctant to agree with this view.

Yufeng became nervous, staring blankly at the door, trembling all over, as if he was about to rush out.

Ren Qi took Yufeng's hand and pushed him to sit on the chair. I was surprised, and Yufeng was also surprised.

"Nothing will happen, mother and child will be safe." Ren Qi said firmly, holding Yufeng's hand more tightly.

Yufeng was finally quiet.

It was late at night, and a cat was meowing outside the window, much like the cry of a child.

Shi Qi turned on the small desk lamp, raised my quilt, and tucked the edges of the quilt to prevent the cold air from entering.

"Will you go to XZ?" I asked softly.

Shi Qi laughed out loud: "What's the matter? Why do you ask this?"

"You always wanted to go, didn't you?"

"Ugh!" He responded to me.

"Take me! I'll go with you, walk...to the Potala Palace, to see the Buddha, and ask for a marriage lottery." I said while looking at Shiqi in the dim light.

Shi Qi patted my back lightly with his hands, and said with a smile: "Where did you go? How can the Potala Palace get a lottery? Besides, the Potala Palace is not in XZ, the Potala Palace should be in Xi'an On Mount Malaya."

"Really? That's not what I saw on TV." I opened my eyes wide.

"Little idiot, you are a super road idiot, of course you don't know." His tone was full of pity and love, "I lied to you, the Potala Palace is on the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau."

is it?

I sat up, naked in the freezing air.I was a little skeptical about what he said, "Is it really on the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau?"

Shi Qi laughed, very happy, "Little idiot, of course I'm kidding you, didn't you teach geography in elementary school?"

"Yes, I'm still the representative of the department!" I proudly gave a thumbs up.

He stretched out his hand and pulled my hand under the quilt, and said, "Representing Comrade Nako, why did I sign my name four times in the police station to get you out? It seems that your sense of direction is not very good."

"If you get lost, of course you have to go to the police uncle. Besides, the more cities you go to, the more difficult it is to remember, and the easier it is to get lost. Can you blame me?" I touched his chest with my hand. "There are only three places where I won't get lost."

"Which three?"

I deliberately didn't say anything, and after waiting for a while, he became anxious, "Which three places?"

I pointed to his heart and said, "Your house, my house, and..."

He held my hand, kissed it deeply, and was very moved, "I still have my heart, right?"

I shook my head and seriously corrected his words, "It's the toilet!"

The result is predictable, he was "repaired".He smiled very happily, it was a real smile from the heart, it was so pretty - you won't see him in the future, right?He can't see me either.

If only I could be happy every day like this.

"Will you go to XZ?" I asked again.Asking the same question again is a different mentality.

"Yes, go on foot!"

"Take me?" I asked cautiously.

"What's the matter? Fool!" His voice was very soft and unreal. "When you recover from illness, we will go together."

I couldn't help but sighed, but pretended to be relaxed and said: "You can also take my urn with you!"

He hugged me with more strength, as if he wanted to rub me into his body and become a part of him.

I stroked his back, used my warm hands to dispel his anxiety, and said to him in the calmest voice: "Let's talk! Let's have a good talk—we have avoided too many topics these days."

He didn't speak.

I gently pushed him away, faced him face to face, and said: "These days we avoid many topics, we dare not talk about Jue'er's disappearance, Yufeng's abnormality, and what I am about to face Death... I know we are all cherishing the days we have left and don't want the unhappy days to be our last memories, but we have to talk about it."

He remained silent.

"My will was made when I went back to my hometown. I hope you can take over my business. I know you don't like to be bound, but this is my wish." My tears were disobedient again, and again Breaking down in front of him, wetting my pillowcase. "Take care of yourself and come back to see my sisters when you have time, okay?"

He is still silent.For me, silence is suffering.After a long time, I touched his face with my hand, and said calmly: "Go to XZ and take me with you, let me accompany you well... Do you know? You have changed a lot, and recently I found that you are getting more and more The more slippery..."

He held my hand and placed it on his heart, said quietly but firmly: "Kou'er, let's get married!"

"No! No!" I withdrew my hand in panic.

He was very quiet, looking at me, there was a look of shocking disappointment in his eyes, and something glittering and translucent was shining.

I hugged him distressedly, kissed his forehead and kept crying, "I'm sorry, Shiqi, I'm sorry..."

He patted me on the back and refused to say another word.Finally, he buried his head in my arms, and something warm ran down our fused skin.His trembling shoulders disturbed me so much that I didn't know how to comfort him except to repay him with tears.

After a long time, he raised his head and looked at me, and gently stroked my chest with his hand.I held back my tears, and lifted my hand up gently - this lift is eternity, a pledge of eternal love, and forever.

Time stopped at this moment, and what was still beating was the heart under the palms of me and Shiqi, saying with an eternal voice: "I love you..."

Early in the morning, an annoying bell disturbed my dream.I rubbed my eyes, kissed Shi Qi beside me, and then reached out to pick up the ringing phone on the bedside table.

"Honey, did you sleep well? Jue'er and I are enjoying the scenery!" It was Lin's voice. "Ah! There are beautiful mountains and clear waters here. It's really a good place to have a baby."

Startled, I lifted the quilt, took a nightgown from the bedside table and put it on.Then I got off the bed with difficulty, sat on the wheelchair next to the bed, and pushed myself to the balcony.

"Where are you? How is Jue Er?" I looked around, trying to find their figures downstairs.

"She has a good appetite these few days. I will accompany her for a walk. Our baby will be born in a few days. Jue'er's physical strength is not good, so she needs to exercise more."

He babbled on for a while, then suddenly became serious: "Kuo'er, I really don't know what the hatred about you is all about."

"Don't worry about it." I answered him coldly.

"No! Baby, tell me, why do you have such a broad mind? What about your hatred for so long? Where did it go? Try harder to think about what they did to you..."

"Enough!" I yelled.

I don't know why, I want to stand up from the wheelchair, I don't admit defeat, I must stand up.

A golden sun has risen in the distance.I held on to the railing of the balcony, supported my body tremblingly, and shouted loudly into the phone: "Why did this war turn into a war between you and me in the end? I will not admit defeat!"

"Baby!" He laughed happily, "You're right, this is really getting more and more interesting. If you don't tell me, I don't know what has happened, and the story is getting more and more interesting."

"Play?" I slapped the railing angrily, "Do you like to make the one you love cry? Did you create such a tragedy just for fun? Please don't pester Jue'er anymore, even if she It's the heroine you've targeted, and I believe she won't like the script you arranged for her! You can't get happiness yourself, so why do you let the one you love suffer with you? Can't you learn to be tolerant?"

He laughed again, was he laughing at me?
"Do you know?" he said again, "I used to have a very cute dog, and then it ran away with a group of stray dogs, and began its life of wandering. I saw this dog again on the street many years later. , it doesn’t know me anymore. It’s looking for food everywhere, avoiding traffic in panic, I feel sorry for it, but I tell myself——’How do you know it’s not happy?’ Do you know? Button, the reason is the same .”

I listened to him quietly.

"Ku'er, I've been waiting for you to come back." His voice was slightly sentimental. "I have always believed that you would hate them as much as I do. In the past nine years, it was hatred that kept me alive, and it was my hatred for them that supported the life I was about to give up. What's more...is waiting for you to come back Button, we are all the same, if you give up hating them, you give up yourself, do you understand?"

Of course I understand, I have been in this state of mind for the past nine years.

He didn't hear my answer, so he sneered a few times, "Ku'er, I don't think you understand, because you are a traitor! You betrayed your long-standing insistence, you betrayed your belief, traitor!"

traitor?

"Yes!" I said, "I am a traitor, but I have not betrayed my most fundamental principles! You are a coward! You are afraid that everything will be different if you forgive them, so you curl up in a shell of self-hatred You dare not come out. You want to forgive, but you have no courage, you are a coward! You are a coward!"

A burning sensation rushed up my cheeks, and I gasped for breath, trying to calm down my anger.Suddenly, I found out, why do I seem to be arguing with another self?
It's getting colder, but the temperature on my cheeks hasn't dropped.Just as I was about to say something to him again, a coat was draped over my shoulders.I was startled and turned off the phone in a hurry.

Shi Qi was dressed very thinly, and his hair was disheveled in the wind.There was no expression on his face, he just looked at me blankly, then he picked me up and walked back to the room slowly.

He didn't say a word, which I found even more frightening.

Halfway through, the phone slipped from my hand, but neither of us wanted to pick it up.When I entered the house, the cold wind was blocked by the glass, and it was another world. It seemed that I was still sitting on the wheelchair on the balcony—I just stayed in that world.

The god of death has finally come to my side. I have swum through the underworld several times in the past few days. It seems that my situation is getting worse and worse.

Shi Qi sat beside me, looking very haggard. Seeing that I woke up, he immediately reached out and touched my forehead, and said, "Thank God, the fever is gone, and I'm fine."

I raised my hand vigorously, held his hand on my forehead, and asked in a bitter and hoarse voice: "Have you been here with me all this time?"

"You have to let me go to the bathroom a few times?" He teased me with a smile.

I know that the reason why he said that is just that he is not good at admitting his feelings.

He lifted my head up and put a pillow under it so I could see his face better—big bags under the eyes and a lot of beard, all grown out; He had a "terrible" look on his face.But in my opinion, he is still so handsome, so handsome.

I touched his face with my hand, and asked jokingly: "Do you have to make yourself so ugly to prove that you have been by my side to take care of me and serve me?"

"Are you moved?"

"Of course!" My eyes became hot again. "thanks!"

He patted my face with his hand and said dotingly: "Fool! Are you hungry? I'll go and buy you something to eat. What do you want to eat? Rice noodle soup or porridge?"

I answered him bluntly: "You are so skinny, it's all my fault, because I don't know how to cook, I always drag you to eat instant noodles, and I didn't make you fat. You must find someone who can cook in the future." A woman who has nothing to eat, let her fatten you up, you will look better if you are fatter!"

"I originally wanted to cook something for you. I'm afraid that if you go away, you'll be scared if you can't find me when you wake up. So there are only a few apples here. Do you want one?" He also changed the subject far away. .

"Aren't you mad at me for what happened that day?"

"Of course I'm angry." He said lightly, "But now you are the biggest, how dare I be angry with you?"

"Stingy!" I pouted and made a face at him.

He patted my mouth, "It's ugly."

"Shiqi, if I die, you must take my ashes to XZ, and remember to bring them back, don't lose them halfway!" I pretended to be serious and reprimanded him: "You must not see the ashes there. If the child is beautiful, just leave me by the side of the road, and I will be very pitiful!"

He smiled and put my hand on his lips, and kissed it gently, with an extremely gentle voice, "I dozed off in the morning and had a dream."

"Dream what?"

"I dreamed that when we were very old and very old, we watched the sunset together by the seaside, watched the children fly kites, saw our children grow up and held a wedding by the seaside, and saw Will and Akai bring their children to our wedding The child's wedding... Anyway, I dreamed a lot."

My tears fell, and this time it was me who scolded him: "Fool!"

He gently wiped away my tears with a sweet smile.

At this time, the door of the room was opened, and it was the same young doctor from before. He approached, frowned when he saw me crying, and said, "Don't cry, you'd better keep a good mood."

I nodded at him.

He faced Shi Qi with a smile and said, "Would you like to come to my office for a nice cup of tea?"

"Let's talk about something here." I said.

The doctor froze for a moment, then looked at Shiqi, who didn't object.

"I just want to talk to your boyfriend alone, it's nothing." The doctor's tone was extremely relaxed.

Shi Qi moved a chair beside him, the doctor sat down, pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose, and said helplessly, "You are braver than I imagined."

Am I brave?yes!For Shiqi, I must be brave.

"Do you really want to hear it? As a benevolent doctor, I should talk to your boyfriend first, and then discuss how to talk to you. It's too cruel to tell you directly." The doctor said frankly.

"Doctor," I laughed, "you are so cute!"

The doctor smiled shyly and started to get serious, "Okay, then let's talk."

I met the doctor's eyes seriously and bravely.He is like the god of death who came to sentence me to death. I am not afraid, but reluctant!I am not willing to give up the number that is about to shut up, for fear it will be too short...

The doctor tugged at the corner of his mouth, hard.He sighed, "The situation is not ideal. The cancer cells have... Now the important thing is to maintain a good mood, be brave, and continue chemotherapy. It's not that miracles have happened. I don't know what to say. About two Months! In fact, this..."

I can't take care of so much anymore, tears rushed to my heart, and the sadness has burst.I pulled up the quilt, and I hid in the quilt and cried bitterly. I screamed hard, trying to drive this bad luck away from my body.

God!what should I do?
There is also a person outside the quilt who is sad in that pale space, but I can't comfort him.I can't be brave, I can't face such a short number, I'm so tired after persisting for so long!Why are you so cruel to me?I'm so scared!I don't want to go to that cold world, and I don't want to leave these people who love me and those I love.

Through the quilt, Shi Qi hugged me tightly, put his hands on my chest, and said nothing.

I sobbed, and gradually calmed down. There was a burst of warmth from Shiqi's palm, which made me feel at ease.

I stretched out my hand and searched for the chest belonging to Shiqi in the blank quilt. His hand led me to search together. Finally, I touched the beating muscle and fell silent with him.

I love you, my Shiqi!
(End of this chapter)