how far is Forever

Chapter 20

I sent a text message to ask Su Luoyan what happened, and Su Luoyan only replied: "Jiang Chuan made his own decision."

Still can't forget?
Because I was worried, I went to the small restaurant where we used to get together in advance. When I arrived, Jiang Chuan and Su Luoyan were already there waiting for me.

The dishes we used to order and a few bottles of wine were placed on the table. After I sat down, I said with a smile: "We really need to get together more often in the future. We need to connect more."

Jiang Chuan smiled, but did not speak.

Only Su Luoyan echoed me and said, "That's right, we need to come out and get together frequently in the future, otherwise Su Ruo will definitely get moldy and hairy."

Jiang Chuan poured a glass of wine for Su Luoyan, who drank it without saying anything, with a lonely expression on his face.

"Jiang Chuan, are you okay?" Su Luoyan and I agreed not to mention Yan Lele, but I felt very sad to see Jiang Chuan like this.

Jiang Chuan smiled slightly: "Su Ruo, I decided to find Lele."

I was taken aback for a moment, looked at Su Luoyan in the blink of an eye, and asked him, "Have you really made up your mind?"

Jiang Chuan nodded: "I've been waiting for three months, and I don't think I can bear it any longer. I must go find her."

Su Luoyan asked him, "But do you know where Yan Lele is now?"

"So what if I don't know? No matter how big the sky is, no matter how big the earth is, there is always a limit, isn't it? I recently contacted some of her relatives and friends, and they gave me a lot of information. As long as I look for it one by one, I can always find it." Yes." Jiang Chuan's voice rose slightly, with indescribable sadness on his face.

"Have you really decided?" I asked.

"Ah."

"Then go, I support you."

"Su Ruo, thank you for your support. My parents fell out with me after they found out about this. I don't even have a home in this city." He lowered his head sadly and poured another glass of beer. And do.

"Who said you have no home?" I patted him on the back, "What do you think of me and my brother? Jiang Chuan, let me tell you, get the hell out of me as soon as you find Lele. My brother and I are waiting." You, if you dare not come back, I will hunt and kill you even if I go to the ends of the earth!"

"Su Ruo, can't you be a lady? Be careful that Song Junmu will be scared by you when he comes back."

I was slightly taken aback when I heard Song Junmu's name, my eyes filled with mist.

"Su Ruo... I'm sorry." Jiang Chuan said cautiously.

"Bah, I'm sorry, I don't want a lady. If I were a lady, Song Junmu would definitely not recognize me when I come back." I obviously wanted to laugh, but why did tears flow?
I hugged Jiang Chuan and cried loudly: "Did you hear that, you must come back, I lost Song Junmu and I can't lose you again? You also said that if I can't get married, you will marry me, how can you forget? "

This time it was Jiang Chuan's turn to cry, and he said, "Su Luoyan, come and save me, I dare not marry such a dominatrix!"

After hearing his words, Su Luoyan said with a straight face: "Please don't affect the crowd of onlookers in your war."

"Pfft—" Jiang Chuan and I laughed at the same time.

Jiang Chuan patted Su Luoyan on the shoulder and said, "Your joke is still so cold, I'm going to wear a big padded jacket."

"If it's not cold, how can you be worthy of my title of Iceberg Prince?"

"Su Ruo, did Su Luoyan have a fever and took the wrong medicine today? Why did he become so narcissistic?" As he spoke, he stretched out his hand to try to see if Su Luoyan had a fever, but he was slapped before his hand reached his forehead. Lose.He clasped his hands and wailed loudly, "Murder—"

We all deliberately avoided the topic related to "leaving". I looked at Jiang Chuan and then at Su Luoyan, trying not to let the tears fall again.

We have gone through too much, and I believe that this separation will not really separate us.God is fair to everyone, he will let you get what you want after losing.

I always firmly believe that I will wait until Song Junmu, and I also believe that Jiang Chuan will find Yan Lele.

We drank a lot that night and didn't know how to get back to the dormitory. The only thing I remember is that Jiang Chuan said to me: "Su Ruo, I will definitely come back."

04
The day when Jiang Chuan was sent away was sunny, but suddenly it rained for no reason.Jiang Chuan has already left, maybe many years later, I can see him standing with Yan Lele, or maybe I will never see him again.

This rain was not heavy, drop by drop, I stretched out my hand, and a few transparent raindrops fell on my fingers, and I suddenly felt a little unreal.Suddenly a coat wrapped me, and I looked, it was Su Luoyan.

"Let's go back." I nodded, now it seemed that it was just me and him.

We took the bus back to school. There were not many people on the bus. Su Luoyan and I sat in a relatively rear position, opened the window, and a slight wind came in, which felt very comfortable.

Su Luoyan handed me a lollipop, I took it with a smile, peeled off the wrapping paper and stuffed it into my mouth, muttering: "Brother, why do you carry this with you?"

I remember that Su Luoyan didn't like sweets, he was slightly taken aback, there was an elusive mist in his eyes.

I touched him with my elbow: "Brother, what's wrong with you?"

"It's okay." Su Luoyan made a smile, stuffed the lollipop into his mouth and didn't speak.

At that moment, I suddenly thought of Ji Nuannuan.

A person's habits tend to change with the people who are with him often, but I don't have the habit of carrying lollipops, and Su Luoyan naturally didn't have them before.

"Brother, do you like Guo Nuannuan?"

"Su Ruo, stop talking nonsense." Su Luoyan's voice was soft, but I didn't let go of the trembling of his ending.

I said, "Brother, have you actually thought about it, that Ji Nuannuan did everything because she loves you so much. Have you ever thought about it, is it really because of me that you tolerate her in every possible way?"

Su Luoyan bent her lips: "Didn't she treat you badly? Why did you start talking for her?"

"Speaking of this, I still have to blame you!" I took out the lollipop from my mouth, pretended to be serious and lectured him, "Without you, I might still be able to become very good friends with Ji Nuannuan." My friend, I really appreciate her daring to love and hate."

Su Luoyan smiled and shook his head, he was a little absent-minded, maybe he didn't take my words to heart.

I stuffed the lollipop into my mouth again, and after a while, I said: "Brother, think about it carefully, what kind of feelings do you have for Ji Nuannuan, don't give up on the people around you... ..."

Su Luoyan didn't know what expression he should make. He turned his head and stopped looking at me.

"Brother, let's go have breakfast, your treat." In order to ease the atmosphere, I dragged him to a nearby breakfast shop.

We entered a small food market, maybe it was the morning of the weekend, there were not many people here, I ordered beef noodles and poached eggs, and Su Luoyan wanted the same.

With the hot beef noodles in front of me, I ate comfortably and felt much happier, but Su Luoyan didn't move a mouthful.I stretched out my hand and shook it in front of him: "Brother, do you have something on your mind?"

"No." Su Luoyan smiled, picked up the chopsticks and started eating beef noodles.

But I can see that he must still be thinking about what I just said, maybe, in Su Luoyan's heart, Ji Nuannuan still has a place, but he is the same as me at that time, we all lost our eyes.

Su Luoyan put the poached eggs into my bowl, "Eat more."

I took a bite, and the poached egg stuffed my mouth full, and I muttered: "Brother, this poached egg is not as good as your cooking."

Su Luoyan chuckled: "Then brother will make poached eggs for you when he goes back."

"Are you trying to kill me?" I glanced at him, pretending to be unhappy.

Su Luoyan smiled: "You are still the same."

Yes, we seem to have returned to the past, but it's a pity that there are only two of us... My thoughts suddenly became empty, and an indescribable tremor spread in my blood.

"Su Ruo, do you still remember the night when I was brought home by my father?"

"That time? Of course I remember."

After Su Luoyan was brought to my house, my mother was very angry. After he was arranged by my father to rest in my room that night, not long after the door closed, I heard the sound of my parents arguing, and various things were thrown on the floor and cracked. the sound of.

I hid in the corner and shivered, Su Luoyan hugged me and said, "Don't be afraid, Su Ruo, I'm here."

"Actually, at that time I decided to always guard you, protect you, and never let you be afraid again." Su Luoyan smiled bitterly, "It's a pity that I didn't do it. In the end, I was the one who hurt you the most."

"Brother, don't you say that?"

"The first time Ji Nuannuan approached me and told me about my life experience, I didn't reach an agreement with her immediately. Later, she made a bet with me. She said that you like me. The way of verification is that she suddenly appeared that day. Be my girlfriend and see your reaction. Your reaction is as she expected, beyond the scope of ordinary siblings."

I was surprised, so there is such a thing, I have never known.

"What then?"

"I was shocked by the sudden change, I didn't know what to do, I didn't know how to get along with you, so I didn't dare to look for you for a long time after that, because I didn't know how to face it. Finally, I got the courage When Courage was looking for you, I realized that I was a little incoherent, and I didn't know how to get along with you."

"Brother, are you telling me this because you want to explain your relationship with Ji Nuannuan? Are you explaining to me or to yourself?"

"To you or to yourself?"

"Yes, to me or to yourself? Is it really as simple as an agreement and transaction between you and Ji Nuannuan?" I asked again.I don't want to push him into a corner, after all, only I can figure out emotional matters, "Brother, think about your relationship with Ji Nuannuan."

"Yeah." He lowered his head and stopped talking. He kept stirring the noodles with his chopsticks but didn't eat a bite. After a long time, he asked me, "Su Ruo, do you have any plans for the future?"

"Plan? Study hard and contribute to the country's construction."

"Do you still want to wait?"

"Of course continue, I believe he will come back."

05
When I saw him again, it was already winter.

The first snow of this year has fallen in the south, and there are many, full of hope.

Standing in the snow, he was as handsome as when I first saw him.

He said to me, "Su Ruo, long time no see."

I stood there in a daze, and a gust of wind blew away the drawing paper in my hand, each of which clearly showed her face.

He bent down to pick one of them, and said to me with a familiar smile on his face, "So you miss me so much."

Yes, I miss him so much, day and night.

"Is this time forever or stay?" I asked.

"forever."

I have asked myself more than once, how far is forever.

Now I know that the so-called forever means that you are always by my side.

(End of this chapter)