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Chapter 354 354. Tormenting People

When I was young, I used to think that I could know how good my parents were when I looked at my parents, because my father has always been a very respected teacher. That is, many times, many people know what kind of person their father is, and he is always very gentle when he speaks, but I can actually see that my father is seldom very close to me. gentle.

Because when I was young, I was not very strong in everything, even sometimes it was much less than others, but in the beginning, my father actually liked me very much, and told me how to get these things. , but after more time, my father just didn't have the patience to look at it, and I could see that my father was impatient in his eyes.

I actually understand that what my father said at the time, sometimes people have no talent, if people don’t have talent, no matter how hard they work, it’s useless. This sentence, because I know this sentence, is for myself Listen, I am really smart sometimes. When I was young, others could quickly understand what the teacher said, but I couldn't understand anything, and my father was a very strong person. , It must be very annoying to have a daughter like yourself.

But I don’t want to be like this. I also want to be a person who makes my parents feel very proud. When I was a child, I worked very hard to catch up with others. I felt that as long as I have achievements, my parents will be happy. But what my father said seems to be saying that even if you work hard, no one else will get good grades from a gifted child, so you should stop working hard, and after that time, you don’t want to follow yourself father shared.

I feel that even if I talk about my father, I will not be happy, and I may even be unhappy, because I am not a talented person, and at this time, after Lili's parents came out of this hospital, in fact, this At that time, Lili's mother already knew what happened to them when she was a child, and what kind of harm she caused to this child. In fact, she felt very guilty about her child in her heart. After all, what happened when she was a child was the fault of her adults , but let the children bear it.

But I actually understood what happened at that time in my heart. In fact, the other person was this Lili's father. When I saw this father appearing in the hospital today, Lili's mother was very surprised, because this person has always been very indifferent to everything. I knew it before, and I went to see it later. However, it is said to be a natural emotional disorder.

This is the kind of person who doesn’t have a keen sense of all emotions, but can only feel that others seem to be happy, others seem to be uncomfortable, and their tears and so-called smiles seem to be weapons for survival, because they don’t want outsiders I can see that I am a disguise of an abnormal person. In fact, I don’t know these things. I have never told this Lili about this, because I really can’t find the time to talk to my children. this matter.

But even if you say it now, your daughter may not believe it. After all, you are in all kinds of embarrassments when you need help from others. In the past, you had no embarrassment at all. This is obvious. It's not right, but this is what happened directly in their home, something that even Gu Molian couldn't think of. At this time, Lili's mother saw this Lili's father, sitting in a small room that came out of this hospital. on a small stool.

It is the feeling of loneliness in this person's eyes that can be seen in an instant, this is the kind of expression that can rarely be seen in this person's eyes, it seems that he understands something uncomfortable, standing next to him Even the younger brother didn't know what to say because he had never seen his father like this, and among the people at this time, only Lili's mother could understand why this person was like this, because it seemed that he suddenly felt that there was something wrong with his relationship.

Knowing about her emotional problems, Lili’s father had actually actively treated them, but at that time, when he didn’t understand the problem well, it made people feel ugly like you had a mental illness. Sometimes because I was afraid that people who didn’t understand would be misunderstood, so I never went there. The expression of this feeling became more and more a huge problem, and even the divorce was also because of this, that is, you are in a person who has no expression Life around you is pain.

In the past, everyone actually thought it could be overcome, because it was not a big deal, but when you feel uncomfortable, or when you are very happy, when you look back and find that the people around you all have the same expression, then everything will be okay. It's the same, that is, the person you need to accompany you should have a lot of changes in your feelings about yourself, but when you see this person, there is no change, and most of the time, the feeling is a kind of emptiness.

In fact, at that time, I felt that it should come to an end, because many things will be fine if you say nothing, or when there is a very important thing, I also think it is something worth sharing, and then When you tell this person the way he smiles, you can tell it's fake at a glance, but you also know that this person didn't do it on purpose, but you still feel uncomfortable in your heart. At that time, it was a big trigger. , is unacceptable.

And being with this person for such a long time is actually a very good way to get along with each other, but sometimes I don’t know what to say because of this person’s face without any expression. A good feeling is that kind of state of being very scared. I actually knew that this feeling was something that I didn’t want even when I was in the past. At the beginning, I still persuaded myself, but after a long time, I couldn’t do it.

At that time, the child was not by my side, and I had to learn to face it by myself every day, and when facing the child's problems, Lili's father still didn't have any expression at this time, even if he wanted to have an expression, but The state of being unable to do it yourself is also very tormenting.

(End of this chapter)