get married

Chapter 56

"Why are you crying?"

Gu Chengdong squatted in front of her, and Yang Jinning responded by pushing him, and then walked out of the study.

Gu Chengdong didn't move.

Women are animals that seem to be so annoying. If you treat her better, she will feel that it is not enough. Be good, very good. If you continue like this, and one day suddenly tired, she will be very angry and express why You have changed, you no longer treat her like you used to.But if you are lukewarm to her at the beginning, she will be moved by such a small thing you do.

Gu Chengdong stood up and walked out of the study slowly.That night, the couple didn't say a word.After Gu Chengdong made a choice in his heart, what was left behind was not the joy when the dark clouds dispersed, but the lingering guilt.There are always so many men, after they have the next woman, they take all kinds of banners to ignore the previous woman as a matter of course. It sounds good to be grasping the present, but it sounds bad... It's just inferiority, and he himself seems to be just towards the bastard develop.

The guilt towards Susie in my heart became more and more intense.

Yang Jinning also stayed up all night. She didn't know how to speak to Gu Chengdong, and she didn't want to ask Gu Chengdong how he started with Su Xi, how they fell in love, and what kind of promise he made to Su Xi.But even if she doesn't ask, she closes her eyes and seems to be able to imagine the picture of Gu Chengdong and Su Xi standing together, even she herself has to admit that the picture looks very beautiful, at least better than her standing beside Gu Chengdong .

What she did today, in Gu Chengdong's eyes, seemed to be in a mess again, and she would never be able to replace Susie, because Susie would never do such a thing.That girl will always look at each other tenderly, always think of others, and will never be jealous of others, and she will never be Suzie, and she will never be so beautiful.

What does she look like in Gu Chengdong's heart?
Must be bad, right?
The next day, they still didn't say a word, his complexion was not very good, and her complexion didn't look much better.Going back to Gu's house first, Gu Chengdong talked with the old man about Yanchuan City's plan this time, while she sat casually in the yard.She finally understood that many truths would indeed make her uncomfortable, it would be better to let herself never know.If you don't know, you don't have to worry about it, and you won't feel uncomfortable.

The more you know, the more confused you are, and the farther you are from happiness.

And she can't do anything, the last time she had the opportunity to leave Gu Chengdong, before she got into a deep love vortex, she gave up by herself, and chose to live a good life with Gu Chengdong, choose to be By Gu Chengdong's side.She can't resent anyone, her path is chosen by herself, she can only bear the consequences by herself, and she has no reason to blame others.

At that time, in fact, it was still reluctant, right?I can't bear to stay by this man's side for so long and end up with nothing, I can't bear to bear the little happiness I once had, and I can't bear to give for the sincerity I have given.

And now?After she knew the relationship between Gu Chengdong and Su Xi, she really didn't know how to face this man.

Men and women are different after all, she is so entangled, but even after knowing the fact, Gu Chengdong still doesn't show anything, so it seems that she herself is worse.

The old man's health seemed to be getting worse, but he refused to go to the hospital, so he just called a private doctor to take care of him.Yang Jinning wanted to stay here with Gu Chengdong, but the old man refused and asked them to go back by themselves.It's still those who let them live a good life, the husband and wife understand more, and she and Gu Chengdong agreed one by one, how hypocritical.

Yang Jinning was sitting in Gu Chengdong's car, and they hadn't spoken for a long, long time.People who were very close at first, she even felt that they were the closest people many times, but the strangeness at this moment reminded her that those intimacy were only yesterday.

She just can't let go, just can't let go.

The car was driving at a high speed, but the flashing scenery outside could not attract her attention.

She stared at her nails and did a few days of nail art. The royal blue color did not fade at all. It only cost more than 100 yuan, which was a good deal at the time.She even flattered him in front of him and made him hold back a few words of praise.Looking at it now, she just feels bored, or in fact, she feels bored and disgusted with everything she watches.

She slowly raised her head, staring at Gu Chengdong's back.

"Did you know Su Xi because of that painting?" She remembered that the painting seemed to be exhibited somewhere after it won the ranking. She didn't pay attention to it at the time, but the painting would be in Gu Chengdong's hands .

Women always like men to be honest, but if they are really honest, they hate the answer.

Gu Chengdong glanced at her from the rear view mirror, she would always be so entangled, until she came up with an answer that she was satisfied with.

"Yes."

Yang Jinning bit her lip lightly, so what?
Of course she wouldn't be so narcissistic and think that Gu Chengdong was attracted by that painting after seeing that painting, and then fell in love with the woman who painted this painting, and finally saw her in person.The real process is just that he likes Susie's character and is attracted by Susie, and the painting is just a fuse. The real decisive factor is Susie herself.

It seems that God still loves kind people to a certain extent.

No matter what path it takes, at least it will be given a chance to exist.

After returning to Yehua, Yang Jinning still wouldn't take the initiative to talk to Gu Chengdong.And Gu Chengdong's followers usually can't change others, they can only restrain themselves, so he doesn't think about changing her.

After Gu Chengdong went to the company, someone sent some things, which were mailed to Gu Chengdong.Yang Jinning looked at those things, but frowned slightly.

Yang Jinning asked Huang Ma to hand it over to Gu Chengdong herself.

midnight.

Wearing pajamas, Yang Jinning got up from the bed and walked slowly to the door of the study.

Gu Chengdong sat in his usual office, and on his desk were some notebooks and letters, all of which were mailed by others.The box containing the letters was opened and put aside, with a lot of tape wrapped around it, but it was not completely destroyed, and it still looked neat.She suddenly felt that they were really very different. After the things she bought online arrived, she would be very happy to open them, and immediately tore them with her hands. Take the scissors.Gu Chengdong always acts so rationally.Counting it this way, she didn't know if she should be thankful that she had made him irrational, even if it should be put on the dark side.

She saw Gu Chengdong carefully take out a letter and open it carefully, his expression was very solemn.She observed his expression and acted very boldly, but even though she was standing here, he didn't realize that his attention was completely attracted by those letters, and he entered a world of selflessness, or entered a world that Yang Jinning could not approach. world.

She grabbed the edge of the door with one hand, and an uncontrollable emotion came to her heart. She just knew that in his world, the person living at the moment was Susie, and that was the world that belonged to those two people.

Those letters should also belong to Suzie.

In fact, Susie's handwriting is not very beautiful, one stroke after another, like a primary school student's writing, but people who have read it probably can't deny it, they will think that the handwriting is serious and cute.

Gu Chengdong tore open a letter and read it again.

Some of them were written by Suzie at home after he went abroad and were not sent.As Susie once said, she didn't want to influence him by herself, so she recorded her love in words, so that he wouldn't find out.

His expression, so pious, made Yang Jinning feel more bitter.

Gu Chengdong opened a certain diary, staring at a sentence on it lost in thought.

Suzy: I've often wondered if one day you'd marry someone else and drive me out of your heart and forget about me...

Do you know how?

Will such a thing happen?

If I were to give an answer myself, I selfishly hope you won't.

He touched the faded words with his hands.

Suzy, "They say you can write with carbon ink to last longer, but I just like pure blue ink, it looks better."

Gu Chengdong, "What do you want to keep?"

Susie, "There are many, many, such as you...hehe."

Gu Chengdong, "Then you have to use carbon ink."

Suzy, "I'll just use pure blue ink..." She paused, "I believe what's mine is mine, and what's not mine can't be forced...and, will it really fade?"

Yes, yes, everything fades, just for a different amount of time.

Perhaps, even with feelings, some people's feelings fade.

Yang Jinning walked back to the room slowly, did not turn on the light, did not make a sound, and moved cautiously.When she was lying on the bed, she felt that she was too cautious. She was thinking that even if she made a huge noise, Gu Chengdong should not be affected by her in the slightest. She couldn't be like a voyeur, even if she was indeed a voyeur. .

She couldn't stand Gu Chengdong's pious expression, but that expression was still lingering in her mind, her chest was tight, as if everything was stuck there, but it didn't hurt, she could only know how uncomfortable she was .

In fact, there is still some anticipation, I hope that Gu Chengdong can still think of himself this night.Of course, she was disappointed, Gu Chengdong was not the same as in the past, even if they were not happy, he would lie down beside her.

He did not return to the room.

This made her think wildly again, whether he was completely immersed in Susie's world, or whether he felt that Susie was more valuable after comparing himself.Is he, examining this marriage, whether it is what he wants?
Could it be that her wife is not the woman he wants.

She hadn't slept all night, and after the light got brighter, she jumped out of bed.The first thing to do was to run to the study room, which was as clean and tidy as ever, without any trace left by yesterday.It was as if everything she saw yesterday was all her hallucinations.Even, she rummaged through the study, but couldn't find those letters at all.

She firmly believed that it was Gu Chengdong who put them in a hidden corner, or a corner in his heart, a place that she would never go into.

After she calmed down, she heard Huang Ma say that Gu Chengdong left very early, and no one knew why it was so early.

However, she knew that her chest was becoming more and more dull, but it still didn't hurt.

(End of this chapter)