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Chapter 55

Yang Jinning stared straight at the painting. She didn't feel nostalgic for the past, but it didn't mean that her memory was kept for a short time. She could even remember the little things about the past that others had long forgotten.For example, when she was in elementary school, the boy sitting next to her once quarreled with her, and they blew on each other in class, and the teacher who taught them science at that time said to her unhappily: You are still a girl... That expression made her extremely embarrassed, as if she was not worthy of being a girl, just like some people's disdain when they hear women swearing, but she is still a woman...

This painting was also an embarrassment to her.

She clearly remembered how she suppressed the destructive temper in her heart, the frustration of not being able to silently become stronger and give the enemy a quick blow, and the downcast feeling of having no money and no status, all of which were doomed to her being unable to do anything.We always express disdain and contempt for those who hold privileges. In the final analysis, the reason is more why the privilege does not belong to us?If she had that privilege, she would be able to do everything she wanted to do, but she didn't, and she couldn't destroy herself, so she had to keep suppressing herself, so she made such a painting, revised it many times, designed it many times... Countless times of rework, she is gradually smoothing out those edges and corners of herself, and she can't let herself become a blaming and ridiculous person.

In the end, she didn't become the kind of person she expected, but at least she wouldn't lose her mind anytime and anywhere.

Now this painting appeared in front of her eyes again, she stared at the word "Susie", and the pain in her heart suddenly rose.Susie...It turned out to be Susie...When she thought she was successful, when she thought she was about to achieve happiness, she gave her another blow. That's all.

She is not stupid, she clearly knows that what Gu Chengdong wants is trust, so she doesn't ask, doesn't think too much, and his greatest advantage is probably that he won't lie to her.She thought that since Gu Chengdong and Ye Wanxi didn't have any emotional ties, why should she bother with others?
This fact told her that she still lost.Even more angry and injustice than when she thought Gu Chengdong's ex-girlfriend was Ye Wanxi. If that person was Ye Wanxi, she could laugh at how bad his vision was, and think of all kinds of embarrassing words to use on him , but that person is Susie... She couldn't say anything, she dared not deny Susie's goodness, and she couldn't obliterate that woman's kindness.

What's more, she felt inferior. When she knew that the person in Gu Chengdong's heart was Su Xi, she felt inferior. Her heart suddenly became empty, as if no matter what she did, she could never compare to Su Xi in this life. I believe it was the same in Gu Chengdong's heart.Even if he accepted her, it was only because Su Xi was gone, so Gu Chengdong had to reluctantly accept himself.

She, Yang Jinning, will never be as good as Su Xi, or that dead man.

She didn't dare to laugh at Gu Chengdong's eyes anymore, his eyes were not good, he was so good, so good... She bit her lower lip, but couldn't restrain the unhappiness raging in her heart.

Susie, Susie, Susie...

She hated that woman to death, and even came to torture her after she died, made her want to love her so much under the banner of kindness and beauty, made her struggle in contradictions, and now came to occupy her husband's heart.

She hated Suzie, hated that woman, who always seemed better than her.She is also Su Qing's precious daughter who can make Ye Jinpeng love her so much. She is an absolutely good child in the teacher's heart, a sacred goddess in the hearts of male students, and the most envied object of female students-good family conditions, excellent grades, and pleasant looks.

But at this moment, the strong anger in her heart seemed to prove that she herself was a vicious woman who was jealous of others who were better than herself.The irrationality that she wanted to suppress at that time was completely released by her at this moment... Disgust, hatred, and frustration attacked her, making her rush over desperately, tear off the painting on the wall, and use her hands Tear it off, preferably to shreds, as if it were not there.

Gu Chengdong has not lived here for a long time, and seeing everything he is familiar with here makes him nostalgic. People may have more or less regrets about the things they did not get.

He lit a cigarette and smoked it slowly before putting down the cigarette butt.Seeing that Yang Jinning hasn't come out yet, I feel strange in my heart, thinking that she must have discovered something interesting again, I can't help but shake my head, she seems to be more like a child most of the time, of course, the premise is that you don't mess with her Arrived.

As soon as you go in, you will see her tearing up the painting.

Immediately changed color, and ran to her in a few steps, "What are you doing?" He didn't look at her, but just stared at the painting that was almost destroyed by her, some fragments fell to the ground, and some remained in her hands , and his hand held her tightly.

He was angry, and very angry.

She stared at his face. This kind of anger seemed to have happened not long ago. Fortunately, he didn't show any more anger than that day... She couldn't help laughing at herself, but she felt very sad.

"I hate this painting." She whispered this sentence softly, hating it to the extreme, "Very, very annoying."

He didn't let go of her hand, "It's just a painting." But his hand was even harder.

She was still staring at his face, or that face, why she looked so uncomfortable, "It's just a painting..." She grinned, "Is it used to miss his ex-girlfriend? It's so simple, I thought I'm such a fool."

Gu Chengdong pulled out the pieces from her hand, and with a shake of his hand, she fell to the ground, but he didn't even look at her, he just squatted down and picked up the pieces on the ground.

He was so careful, that thing seemed to be the most precious thing in his life.

Her tears fell down all at once, and she couldn't control it anymore.

"Susie is the irreplaceable person in your heart?"

"Yes."

She seems to have said that his advantage is honesty, but she wishes he could deceive her. She knows that as long as he wants to, it is actually possible, but he is not willing to deceive himself.

"It's because of Susie that you send money to Ye Wanxi to take care of their mother and daughter?"

"Yes." In fact, it's not about taking care of them. Except for financial help, he has no other contact with them. When Su Qing fell ill, Ye Wanxi was really too flustered to call him... At that moment, Suzie's words flashed in his mind: If possible, please help my sister.

Everything was explained and everything fell into place.

Ye Wanxi did go to Gu's by his own ability, and Gu Chengdong did not give him any privileges, even when Ye Wanxi offered to return the money, he did not refuse, he would not be willing to have a relationship with a woman Many entanglements, especially emotional women.They often "self-righteously" think that your humanitarianism to her is a good impression of her, thus giving wrong information.

Yang Jinning still looked at him, Su Xi's face is really big...Death can still influence people like this.

He had already picked up all the pieces, and when he was about to stand up, she got up from the ground, rushed towards him, grabbed the pieces of paper in his hand, kept tearing, and kicked Gu Chengdong hard foot.

"Why do you like Susie? Why is it Susie?" If it was someone else, she could not care, she could be very confident, but why should that person be Susie.

She looked embarrassed and ferocious, she didn't want to destroy the painting, she just wanted to vent to this man.

All her unhappiness, all her grievances.

Gu Chengdong just looked at her with a very calm expression.

This painting is the only thing Susie left for him, the only...

She punched and kicked him lightly, and he grabbed her hand to stop her movement, "Do you mind?"

"Yes." She looked at him stubbornly with teary eyes.

Gu Chengdong looked at her for a long time, nodded, let her go, and turned to go out.

When he walked to the door, he threw all the pieces into the trash can at the door, but he still didn't look back, "Yang Jinning, where did your confidence go?"

She still stood there blankly, watching the direction he left, and stood there for a long time.Finally, as if she had lost all her strength, she sat down on the ground.

Where did her confidence go?

Why did she immediately lose her mind when she encountered these things?
But she doesn't want to think about these things now, not at all, she just wants to cry a lot, cry a lot, and it's best for no one to pay attention to herself.

Gu Chengdong didn't go far, he just stood outside the study.He held a cigarette in his hand, but did not light it.

He listened to her cry, and the picture of her face covered with tears appeared in his mind.

He was indeed very angry just now, and very angry, but after seeing her tears, his mood seemed to have changed, and he refused to think about what it meant.

It's just that he was thinking that if Susie was here, he would definitely persuade him to treat Yang Jinning well, don't bother with her, and don't get angry with her.

In many cases, we have to admit that a person with a good personality or who is easy to compromise is often the one who is sacrificed, such as Susie today, she is a representative of kindness, so he feels that Susie must understand his behavior just now .And Yang Jinning is the person with bad personality, so those with "good" personality should be more accommodating.

This kind of theory is unfair, but that's it, what can be done?
Gu Chengdong was a little annoyed by the thought that came to him, Yang Jinning's crying naturally dispelled these annoyances, he put down the unlit cigarette, and walked into the study again.

(End of this chapter)