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Chapter 190 How Can I Have the Heart to Blame You (Su Qing Chapter 7)

One day in early October, the prison guard called Su Qing out, saying that someone wanted to see him.

Su Qing admitted that at that moment, he had that ugly hope in his heart.

He longed for her, longed to see her, even if it was hatred.

But no.

The person who came was the butler of the Su family.

His expression was serious, and he was in front of him, picking up the phone.

Su Qing put the phone to her ear slowly, still sneered as usual, "Why, our old man asked you to see if I'm dead or not?"

After coming here for so long, Su Heng has never seen him once, and he doesn't need to guess the reason.

But he had also looked forward to it, just like when he was a child, looking forward to him appearing in front of himself and his mother and taking them to a beautiful place.

But no matter in the past or now, the result is the same, no.

He never cared as much about himself as he said he did.

What am I, but an unblessed child, a bastard.

Even if Su Yichen is dead now, he is just a pawn.

So many people in the Su family stared at his position covetously, trying to drag him down so that he could get a share.

It's just that he is so ruthless and never gives them a chance.

But now, he is just a prisoner, even if he is Su Heng's only flesh and blood, he is not blessed.

He thought thoroughly, when he went out, everything would be lost, including the seat he finally got.

But he has no regrets.

Only after experiencing a real heart of giving up can one be truly convinced that a person like oneself is not worthy of having light.

He guessed about the purpose of the old housekeeper's visit, and he was ready for the sneer on the corner of his mouth, but he heard the man in front of him lower his old head, as old as a clock.

He said, "The old man is seriously ill."

Su Qing was stunned, and then began to laugh wantonly. He didn't believe it, not at all.

He is only in his 40s, still so young, he has done so many sins in his life, and he hasn't paid it off yet, how could he be seriously ill?
But what the housekeeper said next made him really give up.

He was terminally ill and had been struggling on the sickbed for a long time.

He left everything to him and just wanted a word of forgiveness from him.

He said that Su Heng had done too much for him over the years, not only because of Lin Ying.

He said that Su Heng loved him.

Su Qing's smile condensed on his face, his hands were clenched tightly, his veins were bulging, and he didn't feel it.

He is dying?

How could someone like him die so easily?

Did he think that if he died, he could go to see his mother and everything would be settled?

Why would he dare to think so?
He was full of hatred and wanted to throw everything at him, but he was going to die?
It only took a few seconds for Su Qing to go from unbelievable to angry.

His eyes were bloodshot, looking at the old man in front of him, the pain in his eyes was hard to hide.

The old man continued, like a sigh, the voice was very soft, but he could hear it clearly.

"Young master, go and see the master, he exchanged his last face for your freedom, his last wish is just hope, you go and see him.

He said, you still hate him so much, he dare not die.

But he wanted to go to the bottom so much, to see your mother.

He said that in this life, he failed your mother, and in the next life, he must make atonement and tie her tightly to his side.

He said he would never be blind again. "

Su Qing's eye sockets were sore, he couldn't imagine how fragile that man looked, in his heart, he was always omnipotent.

He is always so heroic, he is always so capable and calm.

He can do anything well, he has always been so good.

But now, is he so fragile?

He wants to see his mother, why should he?
Mother didn't want to meet him, and she didn't want to spend another life with him.

The butler didn't say any more, stood up and looked at him, "Young master, clean up and follow me. The master is waiting for you in the hospital. The company still needs you. The Su family will rely on you in the future."

Su Qing didn't quite know how he felt at this moment, but he felt the pain of being pulled in his heart. He was obviously the person he hated the most, but at this moment, he still couldn't bear it.

He returned to the cell, changed into the clothes he had worn when he came, and followed the guards out.

Seeing the sunlight outside again, he felt so glaring. He seemed to be used to living in the dark, and he didn't feel uncomfortable at all.

But once he wanted to go out into the sun, he didn't know what to do.

He only knew that he didn't want Su Heng to die, no matter what the motive was, he didn't want to.

He died, and he didn't even know who to hate.

He followed the butler to the hospital, came to his ward, and saw his figure through the small window.

He was sitting on the hospital bed with a book in his hand. He looked much thinner, not at all like the tall and stalwart in his memory.

As if he had sensed something, he turned his head and met his eyes. There was a wave of fluctuation in his eyes, like joy, and then he lifted the quilt and was about to get up.

Su Qing's body was one step faster than his brain, he walked in quickly and held his hand.

His voice was stiff, "Don't move, just lie down."

Su Heng smiled, he had never smiled to himself in his memory.

Until I made such a big mistake, stabbed him so much, and made him lose such a big face.

He laughed.

He didn't understand, didn't say a word, stood up straight, and didn't look at him.

Su Heng seemed to know his reaction, he didn't look embarrassed at all, he just closed the book and looked at him very peacefully.

As if all the grievances and grievances have been let go, he is quite relaxed now.

He gave him his whole life's painstaking efforts, and left himself with peace of mind.

He can go down to find his girl with peace of mind.

Looking at his smile, Su Qing felt that it was so dazzling, maybe she had never seen it before, and she never expected it, and now she just wanted to stop him severely.

stop laughing.

Don't laugh at me like that.

If my hatred for so many years is in vain in the end, then what is all this?
What he wants has always been a complete family. Everything he strives for now is just because his mother wants him to become better.

He worked hard to fulfill his mother's expectation, worked hard like desperately, and didn't dare to stop at all.

But mother is not satisfied, she has not entered his dream for a long time.

He could hardly remember what he looked like.

During the three months in prison, her appearance gradually blurred, and finally slowly turned into a miniature.

In the alley, the woman who called him "Aqing" so tenderly, the woman who waited for him to come home, the woman who would prepare everything for him, the woman who would accompany him patiently and comfort him, Actually, even in his dream, he refused to come again.

She may have been reincarnated and lived a better life. In her next life, she may meet better people and have more lovely and sensible children.

At that time, will she still remember her Ah Qing?

But I still remember Ah Qing who waved his fist and said "Mom, don't cry".

He was not born cold-blooded, he just didn't know how to be gentle. All his tenderness was given to his mother and stayed in a small house in that alley.

But mom, I miss you so much, I have asked myself over and over again, should I not come to this world, but when I think of you, my heart softens.

You worked so hard to bring me into this world, how can I bear to blame you.

　This chapter made me cry.

　　Su Qing is not bad, but she doesn't know how to love.

　　He has never been purely loved by others, he wants to catch a light too much, and wants someone to pull him out of the darkness.

　　He thought the heroine was the light, but it wasn't.

　　He will eventually learn how to love.

　　The light that belongs to him will eventually appear.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)