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Chapter 191 Don't Die, Live Alive (Su Qing Chapter 8)

Su Heng looked at Su Qing's ecstasy and didn't bother him. It was rare for him to have such an opportunity to look at him blatantly.

He is a little taller and thinner, and his brows and eyes are more and more like him, but there is still a faint shadow of Lin Ying.

What Su Heng couldn't forgive himself the most was that he once questioned Lin Ying, doubting that this was not his child.

How proud he was at that time, unwilling to admit that he recognized the wrong person, unwilling to admit that he loved the wrong person.

It was because of that night that he decided to marry Su Yichen's mother, Hu Xian.

He thought it was her that night, and he wanted to be responsible for her.

Lin Ying never showed up from the beginning to the end, so he had no way of knowing that it was her that night.

He saw bloodstains on the bed sheet, and he saw Hu Xian who appeared beside his bed in the early morning.

He didn't intend to get married so early, but the concept instilled by his parents since childhood urged him not to be a heartless person.

He married Hu Xian, completely cutting off Lin Ying's thoughts.

He also cut off his last retreat.

When it comes to who he loves, he knows better than anyone else in his heart.

After many years of marriage, he and Hu Xian respect each other as guests, and there has never been that kind of sweetness between them.

But he is willing to give her face and pretend to be a good husband in front of others.

As everyone knows, how Lin Ying, who was pregnant with her child at that time, felt when she saw this scene.

He had been too confused all his life. In the first half of his life, he had been involved with Lin Ying for a long time, and finally, because of his anger, he chose a woman he didn't love to marry and have children. He thought this was his whole life.

Until she reappeared, until she broke into his life again.

Only then did she understand that those young loves will become the most difficult things in life in the future, and she can't let go of them.

They were proud of each other, and neither of them wanted to bow their heads, and then he lost her completely.

Holding her cold body, he understood the feeling of heart-wrenching pain.

If he wasn't so proud at that time, if he was willing to look for her.

They will definitely not be like this later.

Su Qing looked at Su Heng's calm appearance, as if he had let go of everything and was not afraid of life and death at all.

This kind of him makes him afraid.

I am less than 20 years old in my short life, will I lose my parents one after another?
Even if it was only a blood relative, he didn't want him to die early.

He could never say those nasty words, but at that moment, he was really flustered.

The endless darkness invaded him, made him afraid, and made him want to back away.

Could it be that I really can only respond to that sentence and be lonely and helpless in this life?

Could it be that he was born with a mistake?

The consciousness of the body is faster than the head, he bent down and grabbed Su Heng's hand, his eyes were red, and his voice was choked, "Don't die, live."

You are alive, I can not hate you.

I never knew what love was, but no matter what, I couldn't watch you die.

Su Heng was deeply touched, his eyes turned red when he looked at the person in front of him.

Since Lin Ying's death, he has never cried again, he thought that nothing could touch his emotions anymore.

But in front of him was his own flesh and blood, and he said he wanted to live by himself.

How easy it is to die, but how difficult it is to live.

His body was getting worse day by day, he didn't know how long he could stay with him even if he tried hard.

He has paved the way for him, as long as he walks along, he will be safe for life.

Su Heng's hands were shaking, his voice was barely audible, "Ah Qing, don't you hate me?"

Su Qing never said nice words, but repeated over and over again, "Don't die, live."

"Don't die, live."

When you die, I am really alone.

Even if your mother hates you and resents you, she still hopes you live well.

She has always been a kind woman.

Su Heng couldn't bear his emotions anymore, and wept bitterly. Su Qing didn't cry, he stood upright, and didn't even bend his back for a moment.

He doesn't understand love, he can only use such a clumsy and tough way to rekindle the hope of his life.

As long as there is life, there is always hope.

Don't give up like your mother did.

If you give up the hope of life, you have nothing.

Su Heng finally agreed to him, and his hope of life was rekindled.

He wants to work hard again for him, and he wants to pay back everything he owes him.

In this way, when he died, went underground, and saw Lin Ying, he would truly have nothing to worry about.

In his life, the one he cared about the most and couldn't let go of was that little girl back then.

For so many years, I thought about it, but didn't dare to see her. In the end, I could only look at the photos of the past, like a stupid person, looking at the photos and talking, talking about my nostalgia.

Such definite love will only happen once in this life, he is not brave enough in this life, and it will never happen again in the next life.

He wants to accumulate a little more good luck and use it to meet her in the next life.

Meet her, fall in love with her, spend a lifetime with her.

I hope she didn't drink that bowl of Mengpo soup.

Even if she hates her in the next life, it's better than being forgotten by her.

Su Qing returned to the Su Group. Unexpectedly, no one gave him pointers, and no one complained about the work he arranged.

Nothing he feared happened, and everything was slowly getting better.

Su Heng arranged everything for him, but he didn't include himself in his future.

But he is very greedy, what he wants is not only these empty objects, but also his living person.

The treatment will be painful, he will be there for him, he will not give up.

Only now, at this moment, did he truly understand the meaning of family.

Do you hate him? Yes, but it is because you have placed too much expectation on him that you hate and resent.

Just like my mother back then.

For so many years, it's not that he didn't see it, he was repenting.

I should give him a chance too.

You should also give yourself a chance.

He goes back and forth between the hospital and the company every day, tirelessly, and never stops.

He couldn't say nice words, he could only express his concern with actions.

Su Heng is not a fool, he can feel it.

He actively cooperated with the treatment, and he worked very hard to live.

He didn't want to give up.

He still wants to pave a bright and splendid life path for this son.

His mission is not yet complete.

As long as he wants to live, as long as he persists.

He can live a long time.

The doctor said that there are not no cases of cancer patients suddenly getting better later, and he hopes that God will bestow this good luck on him.

He didn't want a long life, he just wanted to be with Su Qing for a few more years.

Su Qing took over all the work and said nothing to make him tired. He always looks cold on the outside, but his heart is warm.

Su Heng already clearly felt that this child was slowly accepting himself.

He never demanded that he could get his forgiveness so quickly, but when he really saw that he cared, the enthusiasm in his eyes was real.

In the end, he was still more like Lin Ying.

Kind and gentle.

He was never as cold-blooded as he said.

His heart is hot, but he doesn't know it.

(End of this chapter)