Le Xiaomi youth sadomasochism collection

Chapter 55 Liang Sheng, can we not be sad (55)
If love can be transferred, I give up dignity (4)
I looked at him, my eyelids drooped slightly, my heart was filled with painful despair, my hands and feet were slightly cold, and finally, as if I had made a great determination, I got off the bed and walked to him.He looked straight at me, with a hint of doubt in his beautiful eyes, he said, Jiang Sheng, you... Before he finished speaking, I tiptoed lightly, wrapped my slender arms around his neck, and kissed him. Touching his lips, the tip of his gentle tongue blocked his words... His body froze instantly, everything was beyond his expectation, and he stared at me with wide eyes in disbelief.

I have read many books, which tell us how wonderful the first kiss is, but I only feel bitterness and infinite despair. My heart, eyes and mind are all by the Qingshui River many years ago. When I will When Wei Young was rescued by the river bank, the young Liang Sheng once kissed her lips like this in order to give her artificial respiration.At that time, did he ever think of the other party like me?
To whom are our lips given?
And who is our heart given to?

Thinking of this, my tears meander down, salty and astringent.

Cheng Tianyou's hand gently held my face, taking my dominant position, and gently kissed away my tears. He didn't say anything, but his eyes were full of heartbreak and pain.

The pain in my heart was unbearable, and my cold hand took his warm hand, and in confusion and trembling, I put his hand on my chest... I was talking incoherently, my face was flushed, and I babbled tearfully , God bless, God bless, you marry me tomorrow, I will give you myself, I will give you all of myself!you marry me...

Cheng Tianyou was shocked. The hand in my palm instantly changed from warm to cold. He withdrew his hand vigorously, with a cold and silent light in his eyes, and pushed me away.

Under the bright light, under his icy, pained eyes, I suddenly felt like a stripped clown.

He said, Jiang Sheng, what are you trying to prove to me?Or to prove something to others?You want to marry me so that Liang Sheng can leave with peace of mind?Let him feel at ease and happy?But, have you ever thought about where you put me! ! !If you did this, it was for that man named Liang Sheng!Well, let me tell you, I despise your charity of the body! ! !Don't insult me, and don't let me underestimate you! ! !
After speaking, he left the house without looking back!
That night, he was a desperate man and I was a helpless woman.

After he left, I was in a trance, weeping in a trance, crying in a trance.The scars on my heart, the scars on my body, superimposed on each other, made me unable to breathe, and unable to ask for help!
I don't remember what I did after he left.

All I remember is that I went to the bar...and found the Eight Treasures...and heard her complain about Ke Xiaorou's tormenting Lu Wenjun even more recently...and heard her praise my "patient makeup" for a good look...

Then, I drank lots and lots of wine...alcohol lurks in my wounds...smiles...attempts to bloom brightly...competes with wounds...

Later, I was drunk.The wounds of the body are painful, and the heart is even more painful...

Later, Babao called someone, and then he no longer remembers everything...

...I don't know how I got home...I just remember that night...the lights were dim, and it seemed that someone whispered softly in my ear...whispering...

Then, my body shattered into huge wounds, shrill and bright, blooming on the bed...

40 He held back his great anger and said, I'm sorry, Jiang Sheng.

When the morning sun shone on my face, I opened my eyes, only to see Cheng Tianyou was beside me, with tiny pain hidden in his eyes.

Seeing me wake up, he smiled lightly, and said with some difficulty, Jiang Sheng... last night...

last night?I looked at him hesitantly.

He whispered, um, last night... Then he said, Jiang Sheng, I'm sorry, I couldn't help it last night, but I will be responsible.And, I hope you, can marry me.

ah?I looked at him in surprise. Suddenly, my body felt an inexplicable pain, which made me realize something. I hurriedly lowered my head, only to see bare shoulders under a thin quilt.

I opened my mouth with difficulty and said, you mean... last night... I was with you... together...

Seeing that I was having a hard time speaking, Cheng Tianyou smiled, yes, I'm sorry, facing the girl I've liked for so long, I couldn't help myself.You got drunk and I took you home...and then...it happened...

Oh.My heart fell heavily to the ground, and I stopped talking.He looked at me distressedly, brushed my hair gently with his hand, and said, Jiang Sheng, I know you hate me and think I'm despicable...

I shook my head, and suddenly and calmly said that I was willing... Then, I said, God bless, just like you said, let's get married.

Tianyou was slightly taken aback, although he originally said the words, but when they came out of my mouth, he still felt the shadow of the man named Liang Sheng, so a thick shadow flashed in his eyes , It's pain, it's heartbreak.

He said, you rest first, I will make you breakfast.I shook my head and said, I'm not tired.After saying this very profound sentence, I was also stunned, and my face turned red.

Cheng Tianyou smiled and left.

I stayed on the bed for a while, then put on my clothes, and then looked at the messy sheets, I suddenly understood that that period of pure and beautiful years has since passed away and will never come back.

Shigu was by the bed, looking at me with resentment.

I kicked it, pretending to be indifferent, and said, fuck your grandma, the one who lost her virginity is my old lady!What are you doing with such a lost face here?

When I picked up the phone, I saw a large number of numbers from Cheng Tianyou on it, I thought to myself, why is he still calling me in the early morning when he is obviously by my side?Could it be that you were overexcited last night?
At this moment, the doorbell rang suddenly, and I went downstairs to open the door, only to see Lu Wenjun standing at the door. When he saw me, he hesitated at first, and then said, Jiang Sheng, you were discharged from the hospital yesterday. I am worried about your injury, so I came to have a look.What's more, Liang Sheng's condition... At this point, he hesitated for a while.

I asked anxiously, what happened to Liang Sheng?
He said that the specific condition of the disease has not been revealed yet, but my experience tells me that Liang Sheng's condition is not good, very bad!Although he doesn't want me to tell you, I must let you be mentally prepared.

Lu Wenjun!
At this time, Cheng Tianyou walked down the stairs, his tone was unusually cold, interrupting Lu Wenjun's words.

He looked at Lu Wenjun who was standing beside me, a fierce light flashed in his eyes, but he suppressed the look that seemed to tear him apart, he said, I tell you, you are not allowed to appear in this house Here, don't appear in front of me!Otherwise, don't blame me for being rude!
Lu Wenjun looked at Cheng Tianyou, a smug look flashed in his eyes, which was fleeting.He said, you don't want me to tell Jiang Sheng about Liang Sheng, do you?You just don't want him to appear in front of Jiang Sheng anymore, they are brother and sister after all!Don't be so cold, okay?

Cheng Tianyou clenched his fists tightly, and there was hatred in his eyes that I couldn't understand.I gently grabbed him and complained, Lu Wenjun came here to see my condition and tell me about Liangsheng's condition, please don't be so authoritarian, okay?If you want to marry me, don't worry too much about it, okay?And... I paused, finally working up the courage, and I said, besides, I hate how unreasonable you are!

On Cheng Tianyou's delicate face, there was a tearful expression. He looked at me, who blamed him desperately, and then at Lu Wenjun, who had an indifferent expression on the opposite side. He lowered his head, as if after a long time of thinking, and finally, He held back his great anger and said, I'm sorry, Jiang Sheng.

I don't know why, but at that moment, in his voice, I could hear a kind of pain and strong despair that would make life worse than death.

That morning.

That man named Cheng Tianyou.

Under the unhappy complaint of a woman named Jiang Sheng.

In front of a man named Lu Wenjun.

Say.

I'm sorry, Jiang Sheng.

41 Tianyou said, Jiang Sheng, let's get married.

When I was very young, I thought that Liangsheng was the most precious gift God gave me. For a long time, I thought I was the happiest child in the world.

However, I never thought that one day, God would suddenly tell me, Jiang Sheng, I want to take back this gift!When God said this to me, it happened that Liang Sheng and I had known each other for less than two months—this news was told to me by Lu Wenjun, and he said it very hard, Jiang Sheng, Liang Sheng’s result came out , but he won't allow me to tell you!

I stared blankly at Lu Wenjun, holding the chicken soup that I had just cooked for Liang Sheng.

At this time, I have been discharged from the hospital for almost two months, but Liang Sheng is still staying in the hospital for "so-called observation".

This already made me faintly uneasy.Today, Lu Wenjun told me this cruel fact. He said, Jiang Sheng, Liang Sheng has myeloid blood cancer, and we are doing conservative treatment, but I'm afraid...

At that moment, I didn't say anything, I didn't cry, I didn't laugh, I just said blankly, oh, I see.

I see.

I looked blankly at the chicken soup in my hand, and looked at Liang Sheng in the ward through the glass window on the door. He was lying on the bed, his lips were as pale as snow, and his eyebrows and eyes were as calm as water.

Wei Young lay beside him, probably exhausted physically and mentally.I told her that Tianyou and I will have a wedding soon.She also smiled at me, it seems that my words let her see her happy future.

Suddenly I found myself standing here like a superfluous fool.I turned and left without saying a word.

There is her by his side, if I appear in this scene hastily, what a big failure it will be.

My life, my existence, to Liang Sheng, what a failure!

It was before, it is now, and it will be in the future!
But, my Liang Sheng, how far is your future?
How far is it?

In fact, since that day, when I insisted on asking Cheng Tianyou to take me back to Xiaoyu Mountain from the hospital, I have never been alone with Liang Sheng again.

Because, I know, many pairs of suspicious eyes have been staring at me and him.I promised her and promised them that I want everyone to be happy.I am no longer stubborn, no longer childish.

Many times, in front of so many people, looking at Liang Sheng, his pale face, and his faint smile, she lost her mind.

And every time, recovering from this kind of absent-mindedness, looking at other people's searching eyes, I would turn my face, smile, and then leave quickly.

Does anyone know that I will hide and cry?
Does anyone know that I am really in pain and hopeless?
Does anyone know how I tried so hard to convince myself to be strong, to be strong, to mature, to grow up, and then to be strong enough to forget, to forget the wrong thinking for so many years.

but.

Not thinking about it, unforgettable.

Lu Wenjun said, Jiang Sheng, are you okay?I shook my head and didn't speak.I just walked forward on my own, as to where I should go, I don't know.

I just remember that Lu Wenjun said, Jiang Sheng, the only way to save Liang Sheng is a bone marrow transplant, otherwise, he still has two months at most... But, Jiang Sheng, don’t worry, we will try our best to find a suitable one for him. The bone marrow type of...

I said, you go away, I want to be alone, go away.

On that day, unconsciously, I had already walked to the eye hospital where Miangua was. For such a long time, she had been placed in the hospital by God Bless for treatment.I know Tianyou's intentions. He is trying his best to make Xiao Miangua recover.He didn't want me to carry so much despair and burden.

However, I still remembered how little Miangua's face was dripping with blood when it was scratched. Suddenly, I retched, and a feeling of dizziness hit me.At the moment of fainting, I seemed to see the lost childhood in Weijiaping.

Those tiny little children on Weijiaping.

Play around.

chase.

Laugh.

Later, they grew up.

Scattered all over the world.

When I woke up, I was already lying on the warm bed at home.Cheng Tianyou leaned against the window alone, with a strong sense of loneliness on his face.

When I was struggling to get up, he came back to his senses and hurried forward, he said, Jiang Sheng, don't move around!When he said this, there was an indescribable feeling of loneliness in his eyes.

I pouted and said, I am not a child.Why are you so nervous?

Tianyou smiled and said, but, you are going to be a mother, so you have to be careful.

What did you say? !Cheng Tianyou's words almost made me jump out of bed.

Cheng Tianyou pulled me back nervously, he smiled and said, Jiang Sheng, don't jump around, even if you jump to the sky, you are going to be a mother.Can't be changed.

I almost collapsed on the bed.

It turned out that fate never discussed with me when making various arrangements.

For example, when I was four years old, it sent Liang Sheng into my life; for example, when I was 21 years old, it sent a small child into my belly.

At that moment when I was in a daze, Cheng Tianyou said, Jiang Sheng, marry me.

I looked at him and said nothing.

After a few days.

After hesitating for a long time, I told Jinling that I... am going to marry Tianyou, because I have his child.

At that time, Jinling and Babao were taking care of Xiao Miangua in the hospital.

When Babao heard this, he hurriedly turned his head and said, Oh my God!You are pregnant out of wedlock!From now on, you will be my idol!

Jin Ling looked at me, extremely shocked, but in an instant, her face softened, and she said, um, the baby blessed by God will definitely be a handsome man in the future!Bless you, Jiang Sheng.After speaking, she hugged me tightly.

In her embrace, I suddenly thought of Xiao Jiu. At this time, she was in our city, but we were unable to find her whereabouts.Suman also went abroad. Because of the exposure of the sex trafficking scandal, she went abroad to relax.Therefore, we couldn't find her, and couldn't ask any news about Xiao Jiu.

They could only wait quietly for Xiao Jiu's sudden appearance, or for Su Man to return home.

Once, like Jinling, I hugged Xiao Jiu and blessed her and Bei Xiaowu, but they still didn't have a happy future.

In this world, there are many children who are neither loved by God nor blessed by Jesus.

Such as Xiao Jiu, such as Bei Xiaowu, such as Jiang Sheng, such as Liang Sheng.

Liang Sheng's condition fluctuated and deteriorated day by day.Many times, whenever Wei Young left, I would secretly stay by his bedside.

See him frowning because of his illness, and he is in a coma.

Then, I silently shed tears beside me, crying.

It turns out that the term happiness is for us to see, not for us to feel.

Liang Sheng, do you know?
I have already decided to marry Tianyou, and I have decided to let you stay with Wei Young well, so that you will live happily and peacefully for the rest of your life.

So, Liang Sheng, you must, must get better.

Because there is a woman named Jiang Sheng who desperately needs to see you happy.

Only if you are happy, her original decisions are meaningful.

So, Liang Sheng, you must wake up.

(End of this chapter)