Le Xiaomi youth sadomasochism collection

Chapter 56 Liang Sheng, can we not be sad (56)
If this world is without you, who will I show my happiness to? (1)
Ginger:

Liang Sheng.If this world is without you, who will I show my happiness to?

Cheng Tianyou:
ginger.Even if we can't be together again in this life, I will leave it to you.

Let it shield you from the wind and rain during the days and nights when I can no longer participate in your life.

42 If there is no you in this world, who will I show my happiness to?
Liang Sheng lay quietly on the hospital bed, his complexion almost transparent and pale.

I was in a daze in front of his hospital bed, quietly looking at his slightly frowning brows and his beautiful slightly curled eyelashes because of his illness.This reminds me of when I was very young, I always liked to lie on the edge of the bed and watch Liang Sheng sleep.We were so young at that time, and we never knew that there would be a voyage at this time regarding our destiny.

Liang Sheng, you must get better.Did you know that soon, there will be a little life called your uncle.

Brother Liang Sheng.

Uncle Liangsheng.

The roulette wheel of fate will always put you and me on the other side of family love.

What a mysterious hyperbola family love is, it can only approach infinitely, but never intersect.

Liang Sheng, if you get better, I promise you, I will definitely be a happy bride, stand by God's side, never let you worry, never make you difficult again.

I forgot to tell you that one day, I said something stupid to Tianyou.I said, I hope I can have a little ginger.When Liang Sheng and Wei Young get married in the future, they will have a little Liang Sheng.Then, when they grow up in the future, they can be together happily.At that time, when I thought of this, I was so happy.

However, Tianyou scratched my nose and called me stupid!At this time, I woke up. It turned out that even our descendants will be placed on the other side of family affection again by the roulette wheel of fate.

There is no choice!It doesn't make sense!
Liang Sheng, I'm so stupid!

The most humble wish in my heart, but no one can fulfill it for me in this life.

Thinking of this, my tears fell down.

The doctor said, you can't cry casually now.At this time, Cheng Tianyou's voice came faintly, full of reproach, distress and helplessness.

I looked up at him helplessly.He sighed, took out his handkerchief, and gently wiped away my tears.Said, don't be sad, Jiang Sheng, Liang Sheng will get better.The diagnosis is not yet out, or it is just a minor illness.Maybe, he will recover soon, and he will attend our wedding, and then hand you over to me.

When Tianyou said this, he mentioned the word "wedding" again very euphemistically. I understand what he meant.He was reminding me with strong sadness: Jiang Sheng, you will soon be my wife.Please reserve some of your sadness for my dignity as a man.At least, don't let me see the tears and excessive sadness you shed for him, which will make me feel ashamed and ashamed.

I looked at Liang Sheng who was still in a coma, and said to Tianyou with difficulty, can you...leave for a while, I want to talk to Liang Sheng alone, I want to be alone with him!
But, Jiang Sheng, you also need to rest... Tianyou held back the sad look in his eyes and reminded me carefully.In fact, I know that he is more worried. The last photo incident has already caused extreme damage. He doesn't want anything about me and Liang Sheng to be exposed again!

I don't know why I suddenly became emotional, as if complaining, and said, please leave!Please leave!Mr. Cheng Tianyou!I beg you!In the past, every time I met my brother, it would definitely cause a storm in your place!But now, in his coma, I beg you, let me stay with him for a while!I gave you my whole life, can't I just want to be with him for a while?I beg you, be kind to me.Speaking of this, I burst into tears, and I said, do you know, how long has it been since I was with him like before?He is my brother, I am his sister, we are not your prisoners!
Cheng Tianyou took a deep breath, his Adam's apple twitched a few times, turned around without saying anything, opened the door and left.

The door, not closed, is like a bright wound between me and Tianyou, or it will heal, or it will crack.

At that time, I was only concerned about resentment and worrying about Liang Sheng on the hospital bed, and I didn't understand carefully what I said - I gave you my whole life!Can't you just stay with him for a while?How much harm would this sentence do to Cheng Tianyou.

Night, so quiet.

Just like Liang Sheng's sleeping face.

I looked at him, and what Lu Wenjun had said was always in my mind.

He said, Jiang Sheng, the only way to save Liang Sheng is a bone marrow transplant, otherwise, he still has two months at most...

He also said that Liang Sheng's blood type is RH-negative B blood, which is a rarer panda blood than yours, so bone marrow matching is very difficult, and only one in [-] people in the world has a similar match ...

He said, as his younger sister, you may be the only one who can successfully match his bone marrow...

But, how should I use my most humble attitude to protect God Bless's child?

Thinking of this, in the pain of the dilemma, my tears flowed down again.

Liang Sheng looked at me and said with pale and chapped lips, fool Jiang Sheng, stop crying.It may be that Xiao Mi misses me in heaven, and her parents also miss me, and they need me to accompany them.For so many years, perhaps, they were too lonely in heaven.

I shook my head, snot and tears flowed together, like an unwilling child, regardless of my own image.I said, what about me?If you are gone, if I am lonely, who will take care of me?If I am unhappy, who will accompany me?
Liang Sheng raised his hand with difficulty, trembling slightly, reached out to my face, gently wiped away my tears, and said, Jiang Sheng, why are you still like a child? ... who is going to be a mother... When he said this, his tone was bitter, his eyes slowly filled with tears, and he slowly suppressed it.

I gently held his cold fingertips, trying to give him the greatest warmth.

He said, Jiang Sheng, believe me, you will not be lonely.Because, you have God Bless, and in the near future, you will have a little God Bless... In the future... You will be very happy in the future... Speaking of which, the tears he held back for a long time finally collapsed, and he was in pain Panting, the words are difficult, Jiang Sheng, I seem to see you again when you were a child...you and Xiao Mi...and Xiao Wu...I don't know what will happen if he knows about Xiao Jiu...

Speaking of this, Liang Sheng sighed, for Xiao Jiu, and also for his good brother Bei Xiaowu.He said, Jiang Sheng...you grow up like this...I can no longer walk with your back on my back, I can no longer run holding your hand, and I can no longer squeeze the two of us together under the quilt to listen to your chirping. Speak...you just grow up like this...and...then...we just grow old...well, Jiang Sheng...don't feel sorry for me...okay?I have had a sister like you, and I have been very happy all my life... When he was talking about this, his body temperature gradually increased, and he gradually became like talking in a dream. Titanic?You pointed at Ruth and asked me, do boys like such women?I just ran away with the excuse of drinking water...

I nodded vigorously and said, I remember, Liang Sheng, I remember everything!

Liang Sheng smiled in a coma and said, Jiang Sheng, you must live well for me and remember more things for me... Believe me, brother, you will be like Ruth in "Titanic". I lived happily, and gave birth to many little Jiang Sheng... Xiao Tianyou... Cheng... Cheng Tianyou will accompany you well...

I cried and said, Liang Sheng, Liang Sheng, I don't want to listen to this, I just want you to live well, I don't want Cheng Tianyou!I don't want happiness!I don't want Xiao Tianyou either!I only want you!I only want you to live well!If there is no you in this world, then who will I show my happiness to!

Liang Sheng frowned in pain, and said, silly girl... After finishing speaking, he fell into a long, long coma...

Beside him, I was only concerned about being heartbroken, but I didn't notice that there was a man named Cheng Tianyou outside the door behind him, leaning against the wall, panting heavily in pain...

——I don't want Cheng Tianyou!I don't want happiness!I don't want Xiaotianyou!I only want you!I only want you to live well!

——If there is no you in this world!Then who will I show my happiness to!

At that time, how did I know that these words, like a sharp sword, passed through his chest domineeringly and cut his heart.

There was a deep wry smile on the corner of his lips, the crazy words I said were lingering in his ears crazily... making countless painful echoes rise from the bottom of his heart——

--Oh.It turned out that without him in this world, no one would watch her happiness?

--Oh.It turned out that all her smiles and happiness were all for him, a performance.

The smile gradually cooled on the corners of his lips, and there were faint tears in his calm eyes.He raised his face and took a deep breath.

Take a deep breath.

43 He murmured to my lower abdomen, Little Jiang Sheng, please coax Da Jiang Sheng's mother to stop being angry with me.

After Wei Young arrived, I walked out of Liang Sheng's ward.

She looked at me, eyes slightly slanted, and said, he is waiting for you outside.

When I went out, I saw Tianyou standing in front of the window at the end of the corridor, with indistinct loneliness and loneliness in his back.I watched from a distance, watching his lonely shadow.

At that moment, my heart was so sour.

I called him, God bless...

He turned his head silently.The wind lifted the corners of his clothes and his hair, making him look like he might drift away from this place at any time.

He walked forward slowly, took my cold hand and held it in his palm.Frowning slightly, with a distressed expression, he complained softly that he already has a baby, so don't always be disobedient.In the future, don't shed tears, it's not good for your health.I am worried about you.

I looked at his gentle eyebrows and eyes, and my mood was wet.

When he went downstairs, he saw Ke Xiaorou messing around with the guards. He screamed at the guards who blocked him, saying, "If you don't let me go, I'll blow this place up!"I want to see Lu Wenjun!You let me see him!

Cheng Tianyou frowned, looked at me, and said, let's go through the elevator.I'm afraid he will affect you and the baby.

I looked at Ke Xiaorou, and I didn't want him to see my swollen eyes.So, I followed Cheng Tianyou and left from the elevator.

I said, actually, Lu Wenjun is not in this city these days, he is on a business trip.Ke Xiaorou definitely couldn't find him, it wasn't that the security guards didn't let him see Lu Wenjun.

Cheng Tianyou frowned and said, I don't want to hear this person's name!
I glanced at him dissatisfied, wondering why he had some inexplicable objections to Lu Wenjun.So, I replied to him very hard, you don't want to hear it?I didn't tell you that!

Cheng Tianyou's face suddenly darkened, he looked back at me with burning eyes, and said, Jiang Sheng, do you love to defend him?
I said, no need to defend, he was a nice guy!Unlike some people who always lose their temper inexplicably and find trouble inexplicably!

You... Cheng Tianyou's face was ugly, he said, Jiang Sheng, you are so unreasonable!I'm not arguing with you about him.But, I want you to take care of me... our... child!I know, Liang is sick like this, it's hard for you!However, I am more miserable than you. Until now, I dare not tell Grandpa the news.I'm worried that his old man can't stand such a blow!

My complexion also darkened, and I threw away his hand. The grievances of many days gathered together, and the dilemma caused by Liang Sheng's illness made me vent all my unhappiness on Tianyou.I said, are you feeling better?You just want him to die!He is like this now, you are happy!Now, I am completely yours, and no one will bother you again!Cheng Tianyou, you are too selfish!

You... Cheng Tianyou's face was pale, my words made him miserable.He grabbed my arm, looked at me sadly, and said, what should I do to be unselfish?Do you want me to say, Jiang Sheng, kill my child, go save your brother, go save Liang Sheng!Is this magnanimity?You treat your child like this, you are simply inhuman!
My sadness and despair due to Liang's serious illness were completely ignited by Cheng Tianyou's words, I sneered and said nothing.I said, yes, I am just inhuman, I just want to kill your child!I don't care at all, I hate you at all, I can't help hating you so damn much, I hate you so quickly that I can't save my brother!
get out!Cheng Tianyou was finally furious, but his raised hand stopped in mid-air and did not land on my face.

I looked at him with a sneer and said, you want to hit me?

I do feel sad.

I never thought that Cheng Tianyou would actually make such a move.At that time, I didn't even know how deeply my words stimulated him.

I said, I just want to kill your child!These words made him lose all dignity.

Cheng Tianyou has been silent, silent, and finally, when I stared at him stubbornly and tears were streaming down, he hugged me tightly, tightly, tightly.

He said, Jiang Sheng, I'm sorry, it's all my fault!it's all my fault!
That day, the two of us, like hedgehogs, started this quarrel that made each other sad because of something unknown.

In the end, it ended with his compromise gesture.

In the evening, when I returned to Xiaoyu Mountain, I was always depressed.

Cheng Tianyou is a happy little cook in the kitchen. During these days, he has been taking care of my life.He said, Jiang Sheng, you know what?The feeling of cooking for one person is indeed very happy.

I saw his happy appearance, and suddenly felt extremely sad.At this time, he definitely doesn't know what kind of decision I made.

These nights, after dinner, Tianyou would watch me sleep peacefully, and then leave and return to his house.

At this time, he gently covered me with a thin quilt, looked at my tightly frowning eyebrows, turned his face to my lower abdomen, and said to himself like a child, Xiao Jiangsheng, you must be obedient , Remember to tell your mother, Da Jiangsheng, don't be angry with your father.He didn't quarrel with his mother on purpose.

After speaking, he gently turned off the light, kissed me lightly on the forehead, and then left.

At that moment, fortunately, the lights were turned off, and in the dark night, no one could see the tears on my face.

I am in pain and deep pain for the decision I just made.Facing the back of Tianyou when he left, I murmured, I'm sorry, Tianyou.

I'm sorry, God bless.

But please don't hate me.

Please, don't hate me.

It's not that I don't love it, it's just that I can't just watch that man named Liang Sheng, who has been in my life for more than ten years, leave me like this!

So sorry, God bless.

44 It is so small that it has transformed into a group of fragmented flesh and blood, smiling brightly and brightly at me.

Many years later, I no longer remember what day it was.

I just remember that the sun is very warm.

Warm sunlight shines through the cold glass into the white operating room, and the air exudes a knife-cold breath.

On the operating table, I seemed to see that six-year-old Liang Sheng came to Weijiaping in a sunny afternoon many years ago.

From then on, I, who was four years old, and him, who was six years old, began their lifelong destiny.

Then, under the effect of the anesthetic, I passed out.

At the moment when I passed out, I seemed to feel a small bulging hand gently pulling my trousers. A little child crawled to my feet on knees and almost sank into the dust. Talk to me, it calls my mom.oh yes mom.

Its eyes are as clear and blue as the sky, and have not yet been stained with the dust of this world. They stare at me closely, stare straight at me, piercing my heart and lungs like two sharp knives.

It said, mom, mom, why don't you want me?

It said, Mom, I'm so young, I will be scared!Don't just lose me like this, okay?

It said, Mom, please!Stay with me for six more months, 180 days, and let me come to you in a healthy state, and I will give you the greatest happiness and the most beautiful smile in the world.

It said, Mom, I promise to be the best-behaved baby when I grow up, not to cause damage, not to cry.I'm grown up and will make cute mistakes, to amuse you.

It said, Mom, this world is so cold, I can't leave you, I will die, I will be flushed down the toilet, I will be thrown into the stinky ditch, and there will be countless dirty things to bite me.Mom, I'm really afraid, afraid of the dark, afraid of the cold.

It said, Mom, it turns out that you really don't love me anymore... You love Uncle Liangsheng so much, so you want him instead of me...

Finally, it gradually disappeared on the ground... It said: Mom, I hate you!

When I woke up faintly from the hospital bed, I only felt that there was darkness in front of me.

The only voice that rang in my ears was that little child, it said to me: Mom, I hate you!

I hate you!
I hate you!
These three words, together with its glass-like clear eyes, formed a tight spell, tightly enveloping my breath.

With my shattered body and bone-piercing pain, I fled this bloody and killing place hastily.

I dare not look at any corner of this room.

I'm afraid to see that little one, transformed into a mass of fragmented flesh and blood, smiling brightly and brightly at me.Then, it stabbed my eyes and fell into my heart, which I will never forget for the rest of my life.

When I came home from the hospital, the night was already fading, and the dim lights, just like my thoughts, flickered but did not dare to be too bright.I always feel that there is the giggle of a child in my ears, but when I listen carefully, it is the cry of a child in pain.

There is anger!There is a grievance!There is resentment!More puzzled and helpless.

The grievance and helplessness of a small mass of flesh and blood.

Suddenly, I was so dizzy that I almost passed out on the street.The giggles and cries of those ethereal children seem to have taken root in my ears, no matter how I escape or run, they will never go away!They are like a life-seeking rope, tightly strangling my throat.

I seem to have seen that cold operating room.

That pile of bright and ferocious flesh and blood, they looked at me mockingly, at me who was irresponsible!

They can no longer return to my body, can no longer turn into a warm child, croaked to the ground, grow up unsteadily, shake their little hands, and run towards me with their feet swaying.

(End of this chapter)