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Chapter 71 Shame (2)
Shen Yue sighed in his heart. He realized that he was still too anxious, so he had no choice but to ask her another question: "Miss Song, according to what you said, your biological father actually knew about your mother's pregnancy and labor. I am also a man. I can't understand why that man didn't care about his children at all after he got out of prison. Even if he was a prodigal son, he shouldn't be like that. Maybe, when he was young and went to prison again, he really didn't care about you mother and daughter, But he can't be like that all the time, people will always grow up and mature, and it is the nature of each of us to love our children."

Song Zhenzhen looked at him in astonishment, and asked, "What exactly do you want to say?"

Shen Yue said: "I'm just analyzing this matter from the psychological point of view of ordinary people. In fact, what I want to ask you is, have you ever been in your 40s these years, or have you been in your [-]s in recent years, which is special to you?" Has a good man appeared by your side?"

Song Zhenzhen seemed to understand what he wanted to ask, thought for a while, and replied, "How should I answer your question? There are men like that in the company, clients, and neighbors. What does 'very good' mean? I am the person in charge of the company's HR department, and I usually have to deal with various people, and I get along well with various relationships."

Shen Yue shook his head and said, "You actually understand what I mean. What I want to ask is, have you ever felt that a man around you cares about and loves you like a father?"

She was still stunned for a moment, and said with a smile: "How could it be? I've never felt that way before."

Is that man really so ruthless?Shen Yue felt a little unbelievable.At this time, he suddenly remembered another thing, and asked again: "I have read your information, you graduated from an ordinary university in Guangzhou five years ago, and you have moved to Zhuhai after graduation. Ms. Song, can you tell me How did you get into this company?"

Song Zhenzhen didn't understand why he asked herself such a question, and replied: "The company came to the school to recruit. What's the matter?"

Originally, Shen Yue was just guessing at the beginning, but now he already felt that his guess might be the truth.He smiled and said, "I think the recruitment requirements of this company must have been like this at that time: fresh graduates, female, about 1.7 meters tall, good temperament and appearance, etc. Is it like this?"

Song Zhenzhen opened her mouth wide and looked at Shen Yue: "How do you know?"

At this time, Shen Yue was completely sure of his guess, and said, "Don't you think that those conditions are actually formulated specifically for you? Also, when were you promoted to the head of the HR department? Sorry, I didn't mean to doubt your ability, but now, you should understand what I mean, right?"

Song Zhenzhen's face turned pale in an instant, and her lips were trembling: "But, our boss is a woman..."

Shen Yue said disapprovingly: "Where's your boss's husband? Have you seen him?"

Song Zhenzhen's eyes instantly became hot.Her body was shaking with excitement.Shen Yue looked at her and said slowly: "Now I can basically infer that your boss's husband may be your father... No, there is another possibility that your boss knows your father, and he has a relationship with your father. The relationship is still very good. Miss Song, in fact, you have been thinking about your biological father in your heart, and you really want to find him and see him, isn't that the case? Well, this is a person's nature, after all, blood is thicker than water Well, family love is something that cannot be erased from a person's heart. I think he has not taken the initiative to recognize you. There must be some difficulties that he cannot solve. But I can help you find him and convince him Come to recognize you. But the premise is that you must answer all the questions I will follow."

Song Zhenzhen clenched her hands tightly, she was excited, hesitating, and choosing.

Shen Yue pretended not to see her state at this time, and said slowly: "You are 28 years old this year, but you are not married yet. I think maybe it's not because you are too demanding, but because there is something in your heart that you can't Get rid of the shadows, and those shadows in your heart may come from Lu Wenhua..."

Song Zhenzhen suddenly raised her head and said, "I can tell you everything, but..." At this point, she glanced at Kang Ruxin.

Shen Yue immediately understood what she meant, and immediately stood up and said to Kang Ruxin: "Come here."

When the two came to the entrance of the coffee shop, Shen Yue said to Kang Ruxin: "Leave for a while, she is a woman, and she doesn't want to talk about her past in front of another woman."

Kang Ruxin was not very happy, and asked angrily, "Why?"

Shen Yue explained to her patiently: "I am a psychologist, and you are a policeman. Song Zhenzhen is a highly educated person, and now she is the director of the company's personnel department. She is only willing to tell her stories in front of a psychologist. The past is unbearable. And talking one-on-one makes her feel more secure. With you, she will feel ashamed to be naked and exposed in front of others. When I talked with Qi Min last time, I also let you and Zeng Yingjie avoided, the reason is the same."

Only then did Kang Ruxin understand, she nodded and said, "Okay, I'll go shopping in a nearby shopping mall."

Shen Yue returned to his seat just now and sat down. He found that Song Zhenzhen's hand holding the coffee cup was still shaking.Shen Yue's heart was not relaxed, and he even suddenly felt a little nervous.This woman in front of her, what has she experienced?
Song Zhenzhen finally calmed down, she put the coffee cup back on the table, and asked softly, "What do you want to know?"

Shen Yue felt a bit bitter in his mouth, but he forced himself to say: "Tell me about the matter between you and Lu Wenhua. I'm sorry, we must find out the cause of Lu Wenhua's death and uncover the truth of this case."

Song Zhenzhen raised her head, eyes full of doubt and pain: "What does the matter between me and him have to do with his death?" As she spoke, she seemed to understand something, and suddenly became excited: "I didn't kill him! He I was in Zhuhai when I died, and many people can prove it for me."

Shen Yue explained: "I know his death has nothing to do with you. But we have to investigate what kind of person Lu Wenhua is, maybe the cause of his death is hidden in it. A person will not be murdered for no reason, In the absence of any other clues, we can only look for clues from Lu Wenhua."

Seeing Song Zhenzhen's face turn pale again, Shen Yue became more convinced that his guess was correct.He said softly, "I know you have an unspeakable past. How about this, let me ask the question, and you can nod or shake your head when you don't want to answer. Is this okay?"

She is nodding.

Shen Yue thought for a moment, and decided to go straight to the most critical question: "Lu Wenhua hurt you, didn't he?"

Her tears fell instantly.However, the expression on her face gave an ambiguous answer, which surprised Shen Yue. He asked, "What's going on? Didn't he ever hurt you?"

Song Zhenzhen said suddenly: "Let me say it myself. For so many years, I have never mentioned this matter to anyone. Those things from the past are piled up in my heart like stones. I am afraid and painful. I can't convince myself to fall in love and live like a normal person..."

"In the eyes of outsiders, even my mother and younger brother, they think that Lu Wenhua is very good to me. At the beginning, I thought so too. I was very young when my mother married Lu Wenhua, and I can't remember some things. Now I just remember that he often bought me sweets, and he bought my new clothes."

"One year after my mother and Lu Wenhua got married, my younger brother was born. I was in elementary school when my younger brother was in kindergarten. I found that Lu Wenhua didn't particularly like his biological son, but he was still as good to me as before."

"Later, I grew up slowly, and I gradually understood some things. When I was young, he gave me...baths for me. When I grew up, I learned how to be shy, so I stopped letting him bathe me. He just bought me more things to coax me. In fact, I was not really sensible at that time, I just thought it was just a way to get him to buy me more and better things. When I was in primary school, I Her pencil case is the best in the class, she always has delicious snacks on her body, and she wears the most beautiful dress."

"He likes it when he bathes me, likes to look at me...below, every time, every time I look at it carefully. When I was young, I didn't think there was anything. Later, I had a concept of gender, and I never wanted him to do that again. But I still can't convince him, he will use beautiful toys and delicious things to negotiate terms with me. I didn't really understand what shame is until I went to junior high school, so no matter how good he tempted me, I I no longer let him bathe me. One afternoon, my mother took my younger brother to my grandmother's house, and Lu Wenhua said to me furtively, 'I want to see where you are'. I was very angry, so I pinched him. He Enduring the pain and let me pinch it, he took 200 yuan out of his body and said, 'If you let me see it, I will give you the money'."

"Before that, whether it was Lu Wenhua or my mother, the pocket money they gave me was 10 yuan or 20 yuan at most. The 200 yuan in front of me made me fall in love... Later, every time he wanted to see me They would give me money. As I got older, my sense of shame became stronger and stronger, and I hated myself for not being able to withstand Lu Wenhua's temptation, and I also hated Lu Wenhua's perverted behavior."

"After entering high school, I never let him approach me again, and I refused to accept whatever money he gave me. But I still have tempting moments, but I just hold back. Lu Wenhua He was very angry every time, and I ignored him."

"Shortly after the college entrance examination, I began to fill in the application form. He quietly asked me which school I was going to apply for. At that time, I was already very disgusted with him, and I hated the things he had done to me before. I said, 'I have to apply far away. Schools far away from you, the farther the better'. He smiled and said, 'I won't let you apply for schools in other places, otherwise I won't give you the money for college'. I said, 'I'll go find my grandfather Grandma wants it, and I don’t want your money.’ He said, ‘If you don’t obey me, I’ll tell the story about us. My life is finished anyway. You’re still young and so beautiful...’”

"At that time, I was really naive, and I was frightened by what he said. Seeing that I was so frightened that I stopped talking, he took out an envelope from my body and said, 'Here is 5000 yuan in it. You asked me to give it to you again. Look at that place, the money is all yours'. I was terrified, but I had already learned the shame, and I still strongly disagreed. Then he said, 'Well, if you agree to let me see it again, I will I agree with you to apply for schools in other places. And I assure you, this is definitely the last time'. I agreed to him."

"After I went to university, I didn't go home every summer vacation, and I worked outside. I didn't want to see him again, and I was afraid to see him again. But I had to go back during the Spring Festival, because my mother would call me to urge me to go back. Afterwards I was with my mom all the time, and after she went to work I just ran out and wandered aimlessly in the streets by myself. I never went to class reunions or had anything to do with my classmates, I felt dirty .”

(End of this chapter)