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Chapter 72 Shame (3)
"Lu Wenhua didn't have a chance to get close to me, but I could feel his anxiety and the desire in his eyes. I was more afraid and alienated him even more. He gave me money in front of my mother and younger brother, and I went straight to him. Rejected. I said, 'The money I earn from part-time jobs is enough for me to spend'. My brother doesn't like me, he hates me, I know it all, but I can't explain it to him. Actually, I don't like Lu Zhan either. It was Lu Wenhua's blood that was shed."

"Every time after the Spring Festival, before I went back to school, my mother would secretly put some money in my pocket. The money was not much, sometimes a few hundred yuan, and the most was more than 1000 yuan. I know that the money in the family is Lu Wenhua. I don’t care, the money my mother gave me was saved by her. My mother is very careful in front of Lu Wenhua, and every look of Lu Wenhua will make my mother afraid. I asked my mother why she was so afraid of Lu Wenhua before. My mother said, "As long as he Just be nice to you, mother will be like this in her life'. Until now, I don’t understand why my mother is so afraid of him, because I have never seen Lu Wenhua act violently towards her mother. I think, maybe it’s in my mother’s heart Inferiority, after all, she brought me to marry Lu Wenhua."

"In my junior year, my mother died of illness. I hurried home after getting the news. Looking at my mother's body, I didn't cry, and I felt relieved at last - my grandparents were gone before that , now that my mother has also left this world, there is no one I miss in this place, and I will never go back again."

"But at night, when I closed the door and lay alone on the bed, I cried. I didn't want my cries to be heard, so I covered my whole body with the quilt, curled up on the bed and cried .Later I was tired from crying and fell asleep without knowing it.”

"In the middle of the night, I woke up suddenly, and I felt that something was wrong. When I opened my eyes, a sense of terror came over me, and I saw Lu Wenhua leaning over to look at me. I was terrified and sat down suddenly. Get up. I dare not scold him loudly, Lu Zhan is in the next room. I casually grabbed the scissors under the pillow, which I had prepared a long time ago, and I used to put that thing under the pillow every time I went home."

"Lu Wenhua smiled at me and said, 'Zhenzhen, you are getting more and more beautiful'. After finishing speaking, I left the room. I was relieved immediately, but at this moment I suddenly felt that something was wrong with me. , hurriedly opened the quilt to look, and found that the pajama pants had faded down, and the underwear was also... At that time, I felt that my mind was blank, and I didn’t think about anything. After pulling up the pants, I picked up the scissors and jumped off the bed .”

"But when I rushed to the door, I stopped suddenly, because I suddenly found that my body didn't feel any abnormal. I hurriedly locked the door and checked my body carefully. I breathed a long sigh of relief ..."

"I left early the next morning. I said to myself, that place is no longer my home, and I will never go back again... I heard about the murder of Lu Wenhua a few days ago. Phone It was Lu Zhan who called, and I said to him, 'What does his death have to do with me?' Lu Zhan scolded me on the phone, and I laughed into the phone inexplicably."

When Song Zhenzhen started to tell the story, it was still a little difficult to speak, and she kept looking down at the coffee cup in front of her.Shen Yue knew that she was struggling, worried, and ashamed, so he deliberately turned his gaze out of the window.Later, Song Zhenzhen's narration finally became smoother, which means that the pain in her heart was slowly released, and the shadow covering her heart was slowly drifting away.

After Song Zhenzhen finally finished her story, she suddenly felt an unspeakable sense of relief, so she dared to look at Shen Yue.She said: "Dr. Shen, you are a psychologist, so I tell you these things about myself."

A blush crept across her face.Shen Yue understood what she meant, and said, "Thank you for your trust in me, and thank you for letting me know more about Lu Wenhua. Don't worry, neither I nor the police will keep it secret for you. Actually, Lu Wenhua Haven't really violated you, can I understand that?"

She doesn't speak.

Shen Yue sighed and said: "He did hurt you, and that kind of harm caused a huge psychological shadow on you. But in my opinion, the shadow in your heart is mainly caused by yourself, and the root cause is that you can't forgive yourself You once longed for material things and couldn't refuse the temptation of money. So, what you really hate is yourself. Miss Song, this is the hurdle that you really can't get past. Is that so?"

Song Zhenzhen's tears were falling, she wept softly and said, "But, I just can't get rid of it. What should I do..."

Shen Yue looked at her, and said gently: "It's very simple, forget everything. Of course, it is really difficult for you, because those things from the past have already been deeply imprinted in your heart. But you must Forcing yourself to forget all that, it's not your fault, because you were young at that time, and you didn't have the ability to support yourself. But after you went to college, you were able to get rid of those temptations completely, why? Because your soul is clean, You really know what dignity is. So, you should be proud of yourself, you know self-esteem and self-love better than many people, and you are a very good girl."

Song Zhenzhen's face instantly glowed like sunshine, and Shen Yue's words just now pushed away the dark cloud deep in her heart.She said softly to Shen Yue, "Thank you."

Shen Yue sighed in his heart: Although what he said just now had a certain effect on her temporarily, it could not completely free her from the shadows.Psychological shadows have a huge impact on a person, and it is not an easy task to truly free her, because they have already infiltrated into her soul, like poison that has penetrated deep into the bone marrow.

Father's love, real father's love may be able to free her completely.At this moment, Shen Yue decided to find a way to help her properly.He called the waiter, asked for paper and pen, wrote down his email address and QQ number on it, then handed the note to Song Zhenzhen, smiled and said: "This is my contact information, if you trust me If so, I can be your psychiatrist from now on. Of course, it's free."

Song Zhenzhen took the note, carefully put it in her satchel, and said sincerely to Shen Yue, "Thank you."

Shen Yue said again: "I hope I can find your biological father for you. Some things are better if we come forward. You must not get excited, and you must wait patiently for news from me."

Song Zhenzhen gratefully said: "Thank you." Suddenly, she realized something and said, "No, I won't bother you about this matter. Since he doesn't recognize my daughter, I don't have to find him."

Shen Yue immediately realized that this is a smart woman, she must have guessed my real purpose.Shen Yue looked at her and said, "You need him, you can't lie to yourself about this. We must find him too, because he is also the subject of our investigation. Miss Song, there are some things that cannot be avoided, each of us You must learn to face it, which is also part of your future life. In fact, I don’t have to find him entirely because of this case. I also hope to help you, because what you lack most is true fatherly love. No matter who your biological father is, no matter why he abandoned you and your mother back then, he is always your biological father, and his blood flows in your body."

Song Zhenzhen's eyes were filled with fear, and she said, "But, what if it's him..."

Shen Yue shook his head and said: "Before the truth of the matter is known, any speculation is meaningless. However, no matter what the final result is, you must learn to face it. Lu Wenhua is dead, take him away This is actually God punishing him, but also to save you. You have to believe in yourself, believe in your future, and everything will be fine. Isn’t it?”

Shen Yue's tone was gentle and deep, with strong psychological hints.She finally nodded.

Shen Yue and Kang Ruxin are strolling on the couple's avenue in Zhuhai.After coming out of that coffee shop, Shen Yue noticed the difference in this city.This is a real garden city, full of greenery, rare high-rise buildings and wide roads.Lovers Avenue is built along the coast, and the blue sea and lush green grass convey a romantic atmosphere.

It is a pity that both Shen Yue and Kang Ruxin can only temporarily put aside their desire for romance in their hearts. They came here for Lu Wenhua's case, but now they still haven't found a clear and clear clue, and they feel quite lost in their hearts. .Kang Ruxin's hands were in Shen Yue's arms, and after listening to his narration, she asked suspiciously: "Song Zhenzhen is telling the truth? Lu Wenhua is so bad, why didn't he really violate Song Zhenzhen?"

In fact, Shen Yue was also a little puzzled after listening to Song Zhenzhen's narration, but he soon understood the reason.At the beginning, Song Zhenzhen was still young, maybe Lu Wenhua just had that abnormal mentality at that time.Later Song Zhenzhen grew up and became more and more beautiful, but as her stepfather and status in the factory, he had to stop at that level.

But later on, as Lu Wenhua's abnormal psychology became more and more serious—it was a kind of extreme psychological imbalance caused by his disgust towards Song Mei—he knew that his heart was twisted and abnormal, but Can't change myself, restrain that desire.It can be said that it was actually Qin Wenxiu who temporarily relieved his twisted heart.

"Although Qin Wenxiu is ugly, Lu Wenhua got what he wanted most from her. He once tried to get it from Song Zhenzhen, but he was afraid, afraid that his evil deeds would be exposed, because Song Zhenzhen would grow up one day, Once the matter is exposed, he, Lu Wenhua, will be doomed. So he finally chose Qin Wenxiu, because the possibility of Qin Wenxiu bringing him danger is extremely small. An ugly woman with a disability, her request is very simple, and the villagers treat her I won't be interested in anything else." Shen Yue analyzed Kang Ruxin.

Kang Ruxin still didn't understand: "But..."

Shen Yue understood her doubts, and said: "Lu Wenhua has already got what he wants, but Song Zhenzhen's beauty is still attracting him. Maybe it is Song Zhenzhen's beauty that keeps her from being really hurt. Although Lu Wenhua is abnormal, but He is not a demon, nor a beast, he is a human being, and he cannot bear to destroy such a beautiful thing."

Kang Ruxin didn't agree with Shen Yue's analysis, she curled her lips and said, "Is he still a human? I think he is a beast, a demon."

Shen Yue said seriously: "Kang... Ruxin, we should look at this person realistically and not with prejudice. The fact is that Lu Wenhua did not commit any real violation of Song Zhenzhen in the end, which fully explains everything. Otherwise, There's no way to explain his behavior."

This was the first time that Shen Yue called Kang Ruxin from "Officer Kang" to "Kang Ruxin", which made her feel an unspeakable warmth and excitement in her heart.At this time, she also suddenly realized that she really hated Lu Wenhua so much that she had such an evaluation of him, but Shen Yue was really looking at this person rationally and objectively.

Kang Ruxin asked: "Then, what should we do next? Until now, there is still no clue."

Shen Yue sighed and said: "The only way is to continue the investigation. I have a feeling that Song Zhenzhen's biological father is in this place. Maybe he has been paying attention to his daughter, otherwise Song Zhenzhen would not come to work in this place It's gone." At this point, he suddenly laughed: "I'm very interested in this person, what kind of person is he?"

Kang Ruxin's curiosity was also immediately aroused: "Yes, I really want to see this person right away."

(End of this chapter)