Love is so close, you are so far

Chapter 32 The Happiness That Slips Through Your Fingers (2)
Unexpectedly, Hana's car parked at the gate of the school in a peaceful manner. It is estimated that the principal called him.I was taken aback, screaming that something was wrong, turned around and tried to escape, but it was too late, Hana saw me.He immediately jumped out of the car, grabbed me, and said angrily, "Hey, am I a tiger? Why do you run away as soon as you see me?"

An He was in a nearby bookstore. I was worried that he would see me, so I hurriedly said, "Let go, hurry up, do you hear me?"

"I don't, who told you to press my phone that day and keep turning off the phone, don't you know how worried I am about you?"

I didn't care to listen to his nonsense, and said: "I told you to let go, do you hear me, if you don't let go, I will bite!"

Hana smiled and said: "If you are a dog, you can bite, my meat is delicious and nutritious." After saying that, he handed me the hand that was holding me.

Seeing that he still didn't let go, I was anxious, so I really bit down.

"Ouch!" Hana yelled, let go of her hand reflexively, and shouted, "Grandma, you are really a dog!"

I ignored him and ran away.

Han Ya chased after her with her hands covered, and said, "Hey, what's wrong with you, is something wrong, I didn't offend you, did I?"

"Sorry, my boyfriend is here."

Hana was taken aback, and looked at me with a complicated expression on his face.I didn't want to talk to him, so I ran away quickly, but Hana didn't catch up.

I ran to the bookstore, and An He was looking down at a book. I glanced at the gate of the school. The bookstore was a little far away from the school, and it was not facing the school. I wondered if An He could see the scene just now.No change can be seen on An He's face, his smile is as gentle as usual, his eyes are as affectionate as usual, maybe he didn't see it, otherwise he wouldn't have changed at all, I was secretly relieved in my heart , if An He misunderstood me, how sad he would be.

This Asiana almost made me doomed, but also wanted me to like him and dream of his spring and autumn!
An He kept his arms around me that night. He smoked a lot, and the room was filled with a strong smell of smoke.

I can't sleep either, because Anhe will be going back after tonight.I put my face on An He's chest, listening to his rhythmic heartbeat, An He gently stroked my hair, gently entangled it between his fingers, then separated and entangled again.

"Xiaomei, if you hadn't met me, and I hadn't met you, what kind of life do you think we would be living now?"

"I'll know someone else and live an ordinary life, and you may still live a lonely and hopeless life."

"Do you enjoy being with me?"

"like."

"why?"

"Because I'm very happy."

"Do you really feel happy?"

"You've asked that question a thousand times."

"I want to make sure again."

"happiness."

"Have you never regretted it?"

"Have you regretted it?"

"I want to know how you feel."

"No."

"Sorry, I owe you so much."

"What do you owe me?"

"Because I haven't been able to give you what you want most, and let you live this kind of life."

"Don't talk nonsense, what I want most is you, and you have already given it to me."

"But I want to give you more happiness."

"With you, I have everything. As long as you are by my side, I feel very, very happy."

"Xiaomei, if one day I disappear from your life, will you live well?"

"I forbid you to say such things."

"I mean if."

"No ifs."

"You're going to live on, aren't you?"

"As long as you don't leave me behind, I will live a good life. You won't leave me, will you?"

"will not."

"That's it."

"Xiaomei, promise me one thing, okay?"

"what's up?"

"You have to promise me first."

"Okay, I promise you."

"No matter what happens in the future, you must be happy and be as strong and optimistic as before. I like you like that."

I was taken aback for a moment, "Alright, why are you saying such things, is something wrong?"

"It's nothing. I'm worried that you will be sad when I go back."

"You are not by my side, of course it is inevitable to be sad."

"So I want you to be happy forever, be strong and optimistic, remember that you have promised me, and keep your promise."

"Well, I'll keep my word."

I never imagined that a promise would require a lot of courage and strength to bear, yet I agreed to him so easily.

An He put my hand near his mouth, kissed the shallow scars, and said sorry.

In fact, if I can be with An He forever, even if I am covered in scars, I will have no regrets.

That night, An He held me tightly in his arms, kissed me passionately several times for no reason, and tears fell on my face.That was the second time he cried in front of me. I didn't expect him to be so reluctant to part with me. Later I realized that he was not only reluctant.

An He left Beijing.

I never dreamed that after this farewell, An He quietly withdrew from our love, and I was still foolishly waiting for him here, waiting for him to pick me up one day.

How joyful it is to be together, and how sad it is to part.After An He left for a long time, I couldn't take my heart back. I missed him more than before, and my desire to go back to Wuping was even stronger.

An He comforted me every time on the phone to wait.

Does he know how difficult it is to wait for a word.

In fact, he knows, and he also knows what the final outcome is, but I don't know.

After An He went back, his phone calls gradually decreased. He explained that he was too busy, which meant that his career or life might have changed.I asked him if the situation had improved, and An He said yes, so I hoped for a happy life with him in the future.

Life slowly returned to the way it was before An He came to Beijing. I went to teach at an art school every day, and Mi Yao went to the art troupe to rehearse.

During this period, there was an episode about cats and cats.

One afternoon, I had no classes, and my cat didn't have to go to the catwalk. The two of us watched the movie "The Bridge of Madison County" by Phoenix Film Channel at home.In fact, I watched this movie when I was in college. I didn’t know An He at that time, so I didn’t watch it on purpose, but just to appreciate an Oscar-winning movie.I guess Mao Mao also watched it, but she didn't change the channel, so the two of us just watched inexplicably. Mao Mao seemed to be very absorbed in watching, and didn't say a word. We know each other very well, so we don't have a common language, and even if we do, it's just nonsense.

Are you seeing Robert?When Jin Kai was staring at Francesca in the rain and waiting for her to make a decision, the doorbell rang, and I went to answer the door. There was a middle-aged man standing outside the door, looking haggard, looking for a cat.

Mao Mao was a little surprised to see the man. The man said he wanted to talk to Mao Mao, but Mao Mao asked him to go out, but the man disagreed.Maomao looked at me and said nothing. I understood her thoughts, maybe she didn't want me to know about her, so I went into the bedroom.

The man talked with Maomao. At first, the voice was very low, and it was difficult to hear what they were talking about.Of course, if you put your ear against the door, you can hear it, but I don't want to do it, and I'm too lazy to do it.The principle of my life is that I have nothing to do with myself, and I hold it high. Of course, a great man once criticized this so-called practice of being wise and safe, but I can’t help it. In today’s society, I care about all trivial things. The aunts and mothers in the center have to be laid off.

The two of them didn't know what they said, and they quarreled while talking, but Mao Mao's voice was still soft, but it was a little impatient compared to usual.The man couldn't hold back, raised his voice, and revealed that Maomao maintained a lover relationship with many men, and defined Maomao as a slut and a vixen.

Even so, the man still begged Mao Mao to marry him, and said that he had divorced his wife, how much he loved Mao Mao, and could not live without Mao Mao, etc. He described his situation in a very miserable way, which made people think he was a Lover.If he hadn't called Mao Mao a slut, a vixen, etc., I might have a little affection for this man, or sympathy...

Then someone slapped whom, and then there was another bang, and something broke.I was afraid that something might happen to the cat, so I came out, only to see shards of glass, scattered rose petals, and someone broke the vase on the window sill.

Maomao and the man stared at me for a moment, then Maomao raised his hand and told the man to leave.

The man remained motionless, looking at Mao Mao with pain in his eyes.He suddenly picked up a shard of glass and scratched it on his wrist, blood gushed out and dripped on the roses, it seemed that the scratch was not shallow.

I was stunned, but Maomao sat on the sofa without changing her expression or saying anything. She took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it. any expression.I admire Maomao's composure, if a man does this for me, I will definitely cry in fright.

The man's complexion was gray.I quickly found disinfectant and gauze to bandage the man's wound. The man shook off my hand, but I grabbed his hand again. I didn't want to see him dripping with blood.

The man glanced at me, his eyes were full of despair, for some reason, I thought of An He at that moment, so I bandaged his wound with my heart.He didn't thank me, I think maybe he was too sad, it's not sad to be hurt by the woman he loves so much.

After bandaging the wound, he stared at Mao Mao and said word by word: "Have you ever loved me?"

Maomao was speechless.

The man smiled self-deprecatingly, tore off the gauze from his hand, and left sadly.

The gauze was lying on the ground, stained with blood.

Mao Mao was still smoking intently, without looking at it.

What a hard-hearted woman.I feel a little pity for that man, the imposing seven-foot man actually made such a naive behavior, maybe at that moment he was dazzled by the so-called love.

I cleaned up the house, Maomao turned on the TV, "Bridges of Madison County" was over, and there was an advertisement on the TV, it was an advertisement for chocolate, which filled people's hearts with sweet affection.

Maomao lit another cigarette, took a few puffs, exhaled a puff of smoke, and said to me: "Ye Mei, do you think I'm bad?" She knew that I heard the content of her quarrel with the man.

I don't know Maomao, and I don't know her affairs, so I can't judge whether she is good or bad, and I don't give her an answer.

Mao Mao laughed at himself and said, "It's not very good anyway, is it?"

I couldn't stay silent anymore, so I said, "Everyone has their own way of life."

Maomao said as if talking to herself: "Actually, I never thought about marrying anyone, so I never asked any man to divorce me. He broke the rules of the game and embarrassed himself so much. No wonder I."

"Do you really have many lovers?"

Maomao exhaled a puff of smoke and said lightly: "Yes."

"You like playing the role of lover?"

"Maybe, it's better than playing the role of wife anyway."

"why?"

"I hate marriage, I've seen failed marriages, I'm not interested in marriage."

"Do you love them?"

"Are you referring to my lovers? Don't you think it's absurd to talk about love in this day and age. Why should you love them? It's enough for them to love me. Love means that others squander your feelings and end up scarring you Tired, being loved is the other way around, which means you can squander other people's feelings."

"Do you feel happy squandering other people's feelings?"

"What is happiness? Life is nothing more than this." She seemed to see through the warmth and coldness of the world and was tired of the love between her children.

One person has one person's outlook on life, I have nothing to say.

"Have you ever had a lover?" Maomao changed the subject and looked at me.

I nodded.

"you love him?"

"Yes."

She smiled, "Do you still believe in the so-called love in this world?"

"Yes."

"What kind of love is that?"

"Feeling very happy love."

"Is he divorced?"

"No."

Maomao smiled again, but said nothing.

I knew what she was laughing at, but I didn't want to explain.But since then, Mao Mao and I seem to have gotten closer. Maybe it's because we both have lovers, but it's just that the number of lovers is more or less, or the original intention of our relationship is different.

Later I understood why Mao Mao played the role of lover.Because her parents' failed marriage left an indelible shadow in her heart when she was young, she developed marriage phobia.But like many ordinary women, she also longs to be loved, but she is afraid of marriage, so she chooses to be a lover, to be a lover for different men, and exchange youth and appearance for "being loved".Of course, it's hard to tell whether those men's feelings are real or not, but the injured man seems to have real feelings, but Mao Mao doesn't love him, she just gets "loved" from him.She didn't know how to love, but she knew how to protect herself, so it was the man who was hurt and bleeding, not her, and she was indeed a cat.

I am very glad that my lover relationship with An He is not so calculated. I love An He with all my heart, and An He also loves me with all my heart.

The injured man never came to Mao Mao again, and Mao Mao's "Carmen Overture" still played from time to time at night.Maomao is still the same as before, dating different lovers, and every time she goes out, she smells of "green poison" perfume. It smells good, but I think it will be poisonous if I smell it too much, like opium.

(End of this chapter)