Love is so close, you are so far

Chapter 22 I want to give Yaozheng my heart (3)
Ever since I met Milan, I always recall her words and feel extremely depressed.I don't want to tell An He about this, I'm afraid it will increase his pressure, and I don't want to break up with An He, I can't imagine what my life would be like without An He.I can't live without Anhe more and more. He is my destiny, my four seasons, my future, my hope, and my everything.I want to be with him, forever.

But can we be together? ...

I can't find an answer and I can't find a way out.

I took Mi Yao to the bar to drink away my worries, of course I would not tell her about my inner troubles.But the smart Mi Yao saw it and asked me what happened. I kept my mouth shut and didn't tell her, but she stared straight at me and asked if it was because of An He.

Her eyes and tone of voice are so direct, so direct that I have nowhere to hide, just like that time at school, she hasn't been so direct for a long time, I can't adapt to it.Finally, I nodded.So she stopped talking, ordered a few more bottles of wine, and drank one after another, as if she was going to get herself drunk.I also drink non-stop.

When we left the bar, we were both drunk, I was because of An He, and who was Mi Yao because of, I don't know.

Mi Yao shook her body and said to me: "My sister, let's go for a walk at school. I haven't been there for a long time. I really miss it."

I said, "Okay, what are you thinking about, is that 'Slam Dunk', you don't like him?"

Mi Yao said: "Why would I miss him, he's actually not him, he just resembles him a little bit."

I said, "Like who?"

Mi Yao said, "Like him."

We went to school, there was a drizzle in the sky, walking in the rain is quite romantic, but this way is more suitable for couples, and Mi Yao and I are not couples, we are sisters.

Mi Yao held my arm, and we walked in the "drunken fairy steps" on the campus. The leaves of the sycamore tree had almost fallen, and the branches folded under the street lamps to form a mottled shadow on the ground, which looked a little deserted.Mi Yao leaned her head on my shoulder, and the smoky rain entangled with my long hair. Sometimes the hair brushed Mi Yao's face, and she opened her small mouth to bite gently.

"Do you really love my brother-in-law?" Mi Yao burst out these words suddenly, her mouth was full of alcohol.

I don't know if she was very drunk, anyway, my mind was in a trance, and I was not sober.

She asked again: "My sister, do you really love my brother-in-law?"

I answered her, "Yes, I love him very much."

"Then how much love is there?"

"I don't even know how much I love you."

"Do you want to hear his voice every day, want to meet his people, want to hold his hand, want to hug him, want to kiss him..."

She seems to have a lot of love experience, but in fact she has never been in love once, maybe it came from the copy of the book, but it resonates with me, I really want to hear An He's voice every day, and I want to meet his people , want to hold his hand...

"Is your love like this, as I said?"

"Yes."

"Does he love you that much?"

"I don't know, but he calls me every day, he says he wants to hear my voice, he comes to see me when he's not busy, he says he wants to see me as a person."

"And then you hug and kiss, is that right?"

"Yes."

"Doesn't it feel good to be together?"

"Very well, I like being with him."

"You will be with him forever. In this world, you love that person, and it happens that that person also loves you. It's a good thing. I envy you so much, I really envy you."

"Don't you really mind that that man is your sister's husband?"

"Why should I mind, why should I blame you? It's over between them, and they should have broken up long ago."

"That's your sister."

"But that's not fair to brother-in-law. People like brother-in-law shouldn't stay with her. That's a blasphemy to brother-in-law."

"You really don't hate me and An He?"

"I don't hate you, because I love you, and I hope you and your brother-in-law are happy."

"Do you think we'll be happy?"

"Maybe, maybe not, whatever. Sister, do you know what happiness feels like?"

"The feeling of being with the one you love is happiness."

"Hehe, that's great. I also want to be with the one I love, and I also want to be happy."

"Yes, you will be happy too."

"I hope. My sister, it would be great if you were a man. If you were a man, I would fall in love with you and stop loving others."

"Have you fallen in love with anyone?"

"Who else can I fall in love with?"

"Why not, you will fall in love with someone."

"My sister, let me tell you one thing. I am going to resign and I am going to Beijing."

"Why did you resign and what to do in Beijing?"

"Looking for someone I can fall in love with."

"Why do you have to go to Beijing, can't Wuping?"

"Wuping can't, he's here."

"He, who is he?"

"This is a secret, will you bless me?"

"Okay, I wish you the best of luck in meeting someone you can fall in love with."

"Thank you, sister, I love you, you have to remember, I love you!"

"I love you too, Mi Yao."

"Thank you, just love me all the time, okay?"

"Ok."

The rain was gently floating, the wind entangled our hair, and the street lamps stretched our shadows very long, overlapped for a while, separated for a while, and then overlapped again...

I woke up the next day with a splitting headache, it was so bad, I swore I would never drink alcohol again.

I moved my body and found Mi Yao lying beside me, I can't remember how I brought her home.She hugged me and she was naked and I was naked and I freaked out, I don't know how we got all our clothes off and what does it mean for two women to hug each other naked like this, gay ?I quickly broke her hand away, but she held her tightly.

I broke her apart with great difficulty, but she burst out laughing suddenly, and I realized that the girl had woken up a long time ago. I was so angry that I beat her, and she rolled on the bed laughing loudly.Her body is exquisitely curvy and uneven, and her skin is smooth, delicate, white, and tender. I am a little dazed when I see her. I think if I were a man, I would definitely be unable to hold it.

At some point, Mi Yao hugged me again, her face pressed against my back tightly, a little wet.I was stunned, turned around, and raised her head, only to see that her eyes were full of tears, and there was a touch of sadness in her pupils.

I couldn't help feeling a little cold, and my body shivered.I looked at her in surprise and asked, "Mi Yao, what's wrong with you?"

Mi Yao squeezed out a smile and said, "It's nothing, I just feel very happy suddenly, sister, I really love you!"

She told me she loved me early in the morning, and she said it so tenderly. I touched her forehead, and she didn't have a fever.

Mi Yao said again: "You are like a sister, so I love you. You are better than Milan, she is selfish and cold, I don't like her."

Of course I don't like Milan either, but I don't want to comment on her in front of Mi Yao. After all, they are also sisters. I smiled and got up to look for clothes.

Mi Yao lay on the bed, held the quilt and said, "My sister, your smell is really nice."

I knocked her on the head and scolded: "It smells like your head, so get up quickly."

Mi Yao intentionally said with aggrieved face, "Sister, you are so fierce."

So I said fiercely: "Why, did you know?"

Mi Yao smiled and said, "I really want my sister to kiss me."

I'm too lazy to talk to her, this girl doesn't seem to have sobered up yet, she was talking nonsense early in the morning.

Not long after Mi Yao left, An He came, and I was startled. There was a scar on his face, as if he was caught by something, and he was caught very hard.I asked him what happened, did he fight with others, but he is such a calm person, it is impossible to fight with others.An He said that it was the branches. I don't believe it, how could the branches blow so badly.

In the end, he told the truth when I questioned him, that Milan had arrested him.

I was stunned and said, "Why are you fighting with her? Can't you just sit down and talk about it calmly?"

An He said: "There is nothing to talk about. I proposed to break up with her. I know she looked for you a few days ago, and she may look for you again. Don't bother with her. Don't worry about this matter. I will deal with it." OK, don't you worry."

My mind was a little confused for a while, today is a scar, what will it be tomorrow... I can't imagine.

An He asked, "Xiaomei, are you scared?"

I looked at the scar on his face and asked, "Is it painful? Is the inflammation gone? Let me help you deal with it."

An He took my hand and said, "It doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt at all with you by my side, don't be afraid, remember, you don't think about anything, don't be afraid, I'm here."

I looked at An He, and there was worry in his eyes, as if he was afraid that I would not be strong.I felt a little distressed and said, "An He, I really don't want to hurt anyone. I don't know if we are guilty of doing this?"

An He smiled slightly, and said, "How can it be a crime for two people who really love each other to be together, but it is a crime for two people who hate each other to be together."

I said, "Really?"

An He said: "Don't think about it, if I am trying to move forward and you are slowly retreating, what do you want me to do? Listen, I don't allow you to have the slightest idea of ​​retreating. You must stand here and wait for me. do you know?"

I nodded and said, "Understood, I will stand here and wait for you."

An He hugged me tightly in his broad and warm arms. I really like this man's arms.

Mi Yao really quit her job in the Propaganda Department of the Municipal Party Committee and resolutely got on the train to Beijing.

On the day she left, her parents didn't send her off, neither did Milan, she was alone.

In fact, I can't understand why Mi Yao, who is so good, went to Beijing, so far, so far, and unfamiliar with the place.Whether she, a young lady who is used to being pampered at home, can adapt to a strange environment, can she find a suitable job, what should she do if she is alone... In short, I am very worried about her, but she insists on leaving, even her parents I can't stop it, and I, as a friend, can't help it. I have to accompany her through the ticket gate and the platform...

Mi Yao didn't bring many things, only a suitcase, and the pair of silk figurines I bought for her. She didn't put them in the suitcase, but put them in her handbag, and she could take them out to read at any time.

I asked her if she wanted me to send some clothes for her in the future.She said no, she said she would buy a lot of new clothes in Beijing, and said that the old ones would not go, the new ones would not come, and that she would start a new life.

I don't know why she is so tired of life here, maybe the good clothes and good food make her feel boring, she wants to find some suffering and excitement, she is really in the blessing but does not know the blessing.If I had a family like hers, I would definitely not go anywhere, just enjoy life, even if I go out, it's just traveling.

Mi Yao kept holding my hand, her hand was very cold, sometimes she looked at my hand blankly, as if she was a little reluctant, but in fact I was also a little reluctant.Over the years, we have been like sisters, playing and laughing together. We have never been separated, except for winter and summer vacations, but we will not be separated for a month at the longest, and we don’t know how long it will be.Mi Yao didn't say when she would come back, maybe she would never come back again.I'm a little scared, I want her to come back, but there's no sign of it in her eyes.

I sat with Mi Yao in the car for a while, and she kept looking out the window without saying a word.

When the conductor reminded that the train was about to leave, Mi Yao turned her eyes away and landed on my face, "My sister, do you miss me every day?" Her expression was like a helpless child.

"Of course I will. I will miss you every day, even in my sleep and in my dreams."

"Really, don't lie to me, I will feel it."

"Don't worry, I will miss you."

"Also... Also, you have to take good care of your brother-in-law. He is very tired. You must be strong and you must be happy."

"I will, thank you, Mi Yao!"

Mi Yao hugged me, leaned on my shoulder and said, "My sister, I love you! And brother-in-law!"

I patted her on the head and said, "I love you too!"

"My sister, can you kiss me?" Mi Yao whispered in my ear.

I froze for a moment, hesitated.

Mi Yao left my shoulder and said with a smile: "Okay, I'm just joking, you should get out of the car."

I got out of the car, I wanted to find the window where Mi Yao was, but she closed the curtain, I couldn't see her face, I called her cell phone to ask her to open the curtain, but she didn't answer the phone, I kept calling , but she still doesn't answer, I know she must be crying now, I can't imagine her crying, but I can't get on the train, I can only watch the wheels start to turn, and watch the train gradually go away from my eyes .

Looking at the shadow of the car going away, my heart was very lost, I was afraid of losing Mi Yao, tears wet my eyes at some point.

I have always regretted that I didn't agree to Mi Yao's request. I should kiss her, even if it was just a light kiss.

Soon after Mi Yao arrived in Beijing, she told me that she had joined an art troupe. She told me about her work, her colleagues, and her life. Everything sounded reassuring, and she seemed to like her life there. , just a little worried that I didn't miss her.

I said I miss her every day, which is the truth.

Mi Yao asked me if I was doing well, and I said fine, but it was a lie, a white lie, because I was in constant trouble.

(End of this chapter)