Love is so close, you are so far

Chapter 23
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My trouble comes from Milan.

Milan found me again, this time instead of buying me coffee, he slapped me across the face.

I was in the office at the time, and she came in somehow, and slapped me without saying a word when she saw me, which made my eyes stare.Colleagues were stunned by this scene. Looking at me, I covered my face and felt ashamed.

I thought Milan would act like a shrew next, but she just wiped her hands with a tissue, as if my face had stained her hands, and then calmly said to my colleagues as if giving a speech : "I'm sorry to disturb everyone's work. I didn't want to come to your office to do this kind of thing. It's just that this woman avoids me. I have to do this. Do you know why she avoids me? No, of course , How dare she say that she stole someone else's husband? It sounds vulgar, right? But she is so vulgar. She seduces a married man for money, and even stalks her with a shameless face, and even threatens him that she is pregnant... ..."

I didn't expect that she would open her eyes and make up nonsense about me being pregnant. My colleague made a groaning sound and looked at my stomach. My face was burning so badly that I ran out of the office.

I don't know when Milan left. I only know that my colleagues looked at me strangely afterwards, especially the older women, who still had obvious contempt in their eyes.I originally wanted to ask for leave to leave, but there was an important program to be recorded, so I had to stay on the TV station with the cheek. No matter where I went, I felt that there were countless pairs of eyes staring at me, and I wished I had a hole in the ground.

In fact, this kind of thing is not considered news on the TV station. Girls on the TV station have a lot of opportunities to meet rich people, so there are more things about sugar daddy. There are several beautiful hosts who are pushed to the TV station because of rich money. In front of the camera, and pretending to be innocent to the audience.I don't know what kind of mentality they have for their colleagues' criticism, but I know that I am very sad. I don't want sugar daddy, I just want to have a relationship with An He, that's all.

I was absent-minded when I was recording the show, and my mind was in a mess. Although I am just a behind-the-scenes worker, every staff member is very important. The director was very dissatisfied with me. Several times, I was so wronged by the scolding that I couldn't live up to my tears.

Not only did my tears not bring me mercy from the director, but she scolded even more fiercely, "You cry, you cry, and I can't stand scolding you a few words. What kind of bad relationship are you talking about? Go to hell, with your virtue, it's not as good as Break up as soon as possible, so as not to harm that man!"

The director is a very beautiful middle-aged woman. I heard that she has been divorced three times and been in love N times. She is a problem woman, but she doesn't seem to care about other people's opinions at all. She still goes her own way. Colleagues often bump into her and a certain man together.But she is very talented, the program is very good, and the director admires her very much, so no one says anything in front of her, and no one dares to contradict her when she scolds.However, when she is not swearing, she is very kind to me. She often asks me to record programs together, telling me to exercise more, and seniority is considered on the TV station. Therefore, this kind of opportunity is very rare for a newcomer like me. If there is no one to support , I can't make it through my whole life, and when I retire, I'm just a "servant" serving tea and water.

In fact, it wasn't because she scolded me that I felt sad, but... Anyway, I felt very uncomfortable.

After recording the show, the director kept me, looked at me and said: "Look at your talent, you just got slapped by your wife, crying like a little daughter-in-law, what a shame! If you want to love, love it Be strong and stop the gossip."

I was baffled and couldn't figure out what she meant, so I stammered and asked, "Teacher, you, what do you want to tell me?"

She glared at me and said, "What a stupid girl, can't you understand what I said? Don't you love that man? If you love him, why don't you be mentally prepared to slap you and make you cry like a river?" ?”

I blushed and said, "Teacher, don't you think I was wrong?"

"Don't you think you're wrong?"

"I do not know."

"Then let me ask you, do you really love that man? Does that man really love you too?"

I nodded.

She knocked on my head and said: "That's it, who said that it is wrong to love each other sincerely?"

"Thank you, sir, I don't understand, why are you telling me this?"

"Because I like you, you have no scheming, you are straightforward, and you are more pleasing to the eye than other girls in the stage."

"I am like this, and you still say that I have no scheming and am straightforward?"

The director laughed at himself and said: "Actually, I loved a married man like you before, but I was not brave enough. I missed him, so I have regrets in my heart. I still feel regretful until now. At that time We are really in love. You know, once you meet someone you like, don’t give up, so I don’t think about other people’s opinions anymore, I only live for myself, and why should others control my life, eat Are you full? Alright, don’t worry about this, do it well, you are very talented, I will cultivate you, and within five years of keeping you from a daughter-in-law to a mother-in-law, you can do it if you become a mother-in-law Call those stupid idiots like me."

"Hehe, teacher, am I an idiot?"

"You are the most stupid idiot among idiots."

"Then why are you so nice to me, an idiot?"

"Idiot, I won't say the same thing twice. I have a birthday party tonight. Come and celebrate that I'm one year older. Women really can't bear the ravages of time. I can't even take pictures of your delicate appearance. Looking in the mirror, I think back then I also had a pale pear face and a light willow waist..."

"Teacher, you are still - enchanting, with a pretty face; slender, full of beauty."

"Oh, ghost girl, you still picked up my words. Well, you must come tonight."

In fact, I don't have the mood to participate in any PARTY, but I can't refuse the affection of the director.

The director's birthday party was held in a private KTV room in an entertainment city. Except for one or two colleagues from the TV station, I didn't know anyone who came.The director specially introduced her boyfriend to me, and whispered in my ear that he is also a man of his own.

I looked at the beautiful face of the director, and I was in a daze. I don't know if she really loves this man or to commemorate a relationship that she couldn't love. I don't know if she will marry this man, but I know that she is now with me. The same, a man's lover, a lover detested by a man's wife.

I suddenly kind of hate this lover role.

I accidentally ran into Qiqi in the bathroom, she was leaning against the wall and smoking.

She was dressed very revealingly, her white breasts were particularly dazzling under the light, her face was heavily made up and painted in various colors, she looked like a female ghost, with two big gaudy earrings hanging from her ears, her skirt couldn't be any shorter, revealing With a large section of white thighs, she looks like a lady sitting on the stage in this attire.Usually when she and Pang Xie were together, even though they dressed avant-garde, they were not so revealing.I realized that Qiqi must not be with Pang Xie, and I remembered that Pang Xie seemed to have gone to another place.I glanced at her bare breasts, I don't know how many men have touched these breasts, I feel a little pity for Pang Xie.

When Qiqi saw me, it was too late to hide, so she smiled at me awkwardly and said, "Ye Mei, what a coincidence."

"Yeah, what a coincidence, is Pang Xie here? Last time I heard that he went out of town, has he come back?" I asked intentionally.

Qiqi probably wanted to lie but was afraid of being exposed in the future, so she said, "No."

"Oh."

Qiqi saw that my expression was calm, so she said, "Ye Mei, you won't say anything to Pang Xie, will you?"

"say what?"

Qiqi smiled, stared at me and said, "Ye Mei, you are a smart person." She was really straightforward.

She used to sit on the stage, it's really hard to change her nature, and I despise her even more in my heart.

Qiqi said again: "I believe you will not be so boring." It blocked my way to death.

I smiled and didn't speak.

Qiqi explained: "Actually, I don't want to sneak out to make money like this, but I have to plan for the future."

"What's the plan?"

Qiqi looked at me as if looking at an alien and said, "You don't naively think that Pang Xie will marry me, do you?"

I've never thought about this question, but Pang Xie and Qiqi look like a couple of gods, it's not impossible that Pang Xie really wants to marry her.

Qiqi laughed at herself, and continued: "He won't divorce his wife because of me, at most he's playing with me, and in a few years he'll get tired of kicking me, don't even think about asking him for it again. A penny. I don’t have a job, and I don’t have any security for my life. When I’m too old, no one will want to sit on the stage. If I don’t earn more while I’m young, I’ll have to drink Northwest Wind.”

I looked at Qiqi's ghostly face, and felt a chill in my heart. It turned out that she had seen her life and future so thoroughly.

I asked, "Since you know so well, why are you still with him?"

Qiqi laughed at herself and said: "At first, I was reluctant to leave him because I loved him, but now I don't want to leave him because I need money."

An old choreographer and a young lover, they all have reasons to be lovers, but I can't tell the reason why I am a lover.

"Did you really love Pang Xie?"

"You think I'm lying?"

"I do not know."

"It's no wonder that no woman like me would believe it, not even Pang Xie believed that I loved him."

"You often ask Pang Xie for money?"

She paused and said, "Yes, he didn't give me love, so I had to ask him for money."

Xibao said that without love, it is good to have a lot of money.Maybe women are mostly similar, if they can't get love, they will settle for the next best thing, even if they have money.But I think that once you get involved with money, you don't even want love.

"So he doesn't believe you."

Qiqi smiled mockingly, and said: "So what if you believe me? He won't marry me. Do you think he will treat me as sincerely as An He treats you? I have been with him for four years, and he He has never mentioned any divorce with his wife. He sees gains and losses more clearly than anyone else, and knows which is more important than others, so he will not make a little sacrifice for me. To put it bluntly, in his opinion, the relationship between me and him Time is just a trade, he's paying me for something his wife can't get."

"If Pang Xie had no money, would you have loved him at the beginning?"

"No, who wants to love a poor man."

"Do you really need money?"

"Yes, I want to live a better life. There should be nothing wrong with that."

"Perhaps, but don't you have any choice but to do this kind of thing?"

"Do you think I have any choice besides sitting on the stage? Do you think I can be like you, educated and beautiful, can sit in an office building with beautiful clothes, and have a serious conversation with a man with good conditions A relationship, but I haven’t even graduated from junior high school, I have nothing but youth, what can I do, should I go to the restaurant to serve dishes, go to the mall to mop the floor, and then find someone who lives in the same environment as me, A lowly man like me marry and have children and live in poverty, and then let my children repeat our life?"

I looked at Qiqi, her expression looked a little weird under the dim light, half a smile, half a smile, half hate, I couldn't understand her, and I didn't want to understand her, but there was one thing I understood, her heart is sad.

In the end, I told Qiqi that I would keep it a secret. I didn't want to think about whether she was right or wrong. I just wanted to know whether I was right or wrong.

However, before I could figure out whether I was right or wrong, I was kidnapped. It seemed that something that could only be seen in a movie happened to me.

That day, I just left the TV station after get off work, and I was stopped by two men wearing sunglasses. Before I could react, I was put into a car by them.I realized something was wrong and shouted "Help", a man immediately sealed my mouth with tape, and another man quickly covered my eyes with a cloth, their movements were very skillful, like... when the "underworld" "When the three words appeared in my mind, I was stunned, how could this happen?
I want to ask who they are and what they are going to do, but my mouth is sealed, I want to break free, but I am held tightly by them and I can't move, my heart is beating wildly, I am terrified, I I don't know what they're going to do or what they'll do to me.

The car was driving very fast, I didn't know where I was, I felt out of the city, the car was bumping very badly, after a few sections of bad roads, the car finally stopped, the surrounding was very quiet, it seemed to be in a very remote place .They pulled me out of the car and pushed me. The road under my feet was full of potholes. Because I was blindfolded, one foot was high and the other was low. I was wearing thin high-heeled shoes, and I almost fell several times.It felt like they took me into a room and my hands were tied to something fixed with a rope. I tried to struggle, but it didn't work. A man pinched my face and told me to be quiet.I stared but couldn't see anything, I just heard their footsteps and I was terrified.

It was as if a man went out and made a phone call, then came back.They don't talk much, they seem to sit on the sidelines, I don't know what they are doing, I don't know if they will sexually assault me, anyway, I am terrified, and I can't move, I can't do anything, if they really want to What I do, I can't resist.Man is the knife and I am the fish.

After a long time like this, I felt a man standing next to me, his body smelled bad, his hand touched my face, and then penetrated into my clothes, I shouted, mouth He whined, but he ignored it and touched my skin roughly. No other man had touched me except An He, and I was so disgusted that I cried out loud.The man let out an adulterous laugh, and his movements became more presumptuous.I was so angry that my hands were tied, so I had to kick him with my feet. I didn’t know where I was kicking. Anyway, I kicked him. I slapped my face and there was a burning pain in my face.He was not only angry, but also pulled my hair, saying that he would give me some color.

"Okay, it's almost enough, don't play too much and miss the job." Another man stopped him.

Only then did he let me go, and cursed: "Damn it, this little girl has the courage to kick the uncle, see if I don't punish that kid to death..."

"Shut your mouth!" the other man yelled at him.

The man muttered a few words in his mouth, they didn't speak, and the surrounding became very quiet, so quiet that it was frightening.The quieter they are, the more frightened I am. The more frightened I am, the more I want to be peaceful. How I wish he would appear by my side at this time.Thinking of An He, I was very sad and couldn't help crying.

(End of this chapter)