Love is so close, you are so far

Chapter 21 I want to give Yaozheng my heart (2)
He actually regarded me as An He's wife, I blushed and glanced at An He.An He smiled at me and said, "Really, is it really pretty?"

The old man said: "Yes, they are prettier than fairies." In the old man's heart, fairies are the most beautiful.

An He laughed even harder, and my face blushed even harder. The old man didn't understand the reason, and looked at us with a smile.

Later, I asked Ann and the old man how they regarded me as his wife. Didn't Milan come here? An He said he hadn't.I was a little surprised and asked him why he didn't bring Milan. An He said that he didn't want to bring him, and that I was the only one he brought.I asked him why he only brought me and he said I was the one he deserved.There was a tender feeling in my heart. If I have such a memorable place, I must take An He there too, because he is also the one worth taking.

That night, we stayed in a hotel in a small town not far from the mountain village. The night in the small town was very quiet, and all I could hear was the humming of autumn insects, other than An He's slight breathing.I put my mouth to his nose, inhaled the breath in his body, felt them flow through my body, strand by strand, strand by strand, filling my heart, I couldn’t tell which was his breath, which was his breath. It's my breath.

My Anhe, my Anhe, I love you so much, it's almost sick, but what can I do, I can only love you!

That night, I had a dream. I dreamed that An He was holding my hand and walking in the forest with fallen leaves. He put a fallen leaf in my hand and said it was him. He put a fallen leaf in his hand and said that's me.I asked him why he put me in his hands and put him in mine.He said that if we put us in each other's hands, we don't have to worry about being in the wrong place and not being able to find the one we love.

The next day, I told An He about the dream. An He held me in his arms and said that no matter where I was, he would find me.

But An He, why didn't you tell me, where can I find you if you disappear?

Love is romantic, beautiful, sacred, but also realistic.

Even though I only wanted to fall in love with An He, I didn't put any pressure on him, and I didn't have any idea about marriage. After all, I was still young, and I didn't have any classmates who talked about marriage right after leaving school. Of course, my thoughts were very naive, and I I only think about romantic romance.But An He was more realistic than me. He said he would find a way, he wanted me to be with him in a fair manner, and he wanted me to be his wife.

This is a terrible thing for me. I can't imagine how An He can get out of that dead marriage.When I think of the way Milan framed me back then, I shudder. She is so powerful, and I am no match for her. I never thought that I would really compete with her for peace. The world is really unpredictable.

An He knew that I was afraid, and told me not to think about anything, he was here to solve everything.How could I not think about anything, I was very conflicted, I didn't expect it to be so complicated, but the fact is that it is so complicated.

Because Milan had doubted me before, An He shouldn't be too hasty about this, lest she trouble me.Therefore, when we usually go out to eat, we also go into the private room like Pang Xie and Qiqi, or bring Pang Xie and Qiqi together. There are so many people that it is easy to hide. Pang Xie is very happy to have more players in his team, and he has never missed an appointment .Qiqi is also very affectionate to me, of course this kind of intimacy is half true and half false.

But I feel sad for myself. I heard that Qiqi didn’t even graduate from junior high school, and she used to sit on the stage in a nightclub. I’m not happy to be on an equal footing with such a person. Taiwan is not a glorious thing.Qiqi may not feel that it is a wronged thing for me to be equal to her, but seems to have found some balance.So what if you have read so many books, received higher education, and have an enviable job, or you will be a concubine for others, sneaky and shady.

Except that Qiqi disgusts me, I also don't like Pang Xie very much.Compared with An He, Pang Xie is simply a vulgar person. He has no taste and talks nonsense. I don't know how An He can become good friends with such a person.An He said that there are many kinds of friends, and Pang Xie treats him like a brother, who can tolerate everything about him, share happiness with him when he is happy, and comfort him when he is frustrated, so he is willing to treat Pang Xie as a friend.

Maybe the friendship between men is so careless and informal, unlike women who care about everything, it depends on each other's identity, taste, and interest... After An He talked about Pang Xie's advantages, I didn't feel so disgusted with Pang Xie anymore. As the number of times increased, I gradually felt that his small eyes were quite masculine.Sometimes it's even a pity that he has such a helpless wife in his family, but he thinks it's good to change to Qiqi who is as beautiful as a flower.

I was taken aback by my own thoughts, how could I have such a bad heart, as if I hoped that all the men in the world would replace their original wives who had shared the joys and sorrows with them, and they were thinner than yellow flowers, which is really outrageous.Flowers are not popular for a hundred days, and people are not good for a thousand days. I must correct my thinking. One day, Qiqi and I will be old and ugly. what to do?
One day at noon, An He asked Pang Xie to have dinner together, but Qi Qi couldn't come because of something, so Pang Xie came alone.I suspect that Qiqi had the foresight, but she didn't come that day, and we were stopped by Pang Xie's "jewelry display cabinet" before we had time to enter the private room that day. She happened to be having dinner with a friend.Pang Xie stuck out his tongue at me and An He, so dangerous!

"Jewelry Showcase" has a good memory, and recognized me at a glance, and asked, "Hey, isn't this Teacher Ye?"

I didn't expect this aunt's eyesight and memory to be so good, so I nodded embarrassingly and said yes.

"Jewelry Showcase" glanced at Pang Xie, and Pang Xie hurriedly explained: "Oh, An He asked me to have dinner together. I didn't expect Mrs. Ye to be An He's friend. If Mrs. Ye knew that An He and I were friends The iron buddies will never stop teaching us Xiaojian, right, Teacher Ye?" Pang Xie winked at me.

I had no choice but to pretend to say: "If you say you are the child of Mi Yao's brother-in-law's friend, you will show Mi Yao's face. No matter how busy I am, I will continue to teach you." My relationship with Ann.

"Jewelry Showcase" smiled, and said to An He in doubt, "So Teacher Ye is your sister-in-law's friend?"

An He said: "They are classmates," An He said to me again, "Call Mi Yao again and ask when she will arrive."

I understood what he meant, so I took out my mobile phone and pretended to call Mi Yao. Mi Yao was quite straightforward and said he would be there in a while.In order to show that the three of us are ordinary friends, so we did not enter the private room this time. "Jewelry Showcase" pulled her friend to sit with us.

After a while, Mi Yao came, she didn't know the "Jewelry Showcase", she frowned and asked me what kind of dinner this was, I smiled and didn't answer her.

Everyone chattered nonsense, and Mi Yao didn't talk much, and didn't eat much, but took a few sips of soup cautiously, as if worried that there would be spittle from the "jewelry showcase" in the dish.Seeing Mi Yao like this made me feel a little bit sorry, I really shouldn't have called her to rescue her, she was very particular about her diet.

Mi Yao didn't ask me what kind of meal it was, she probably guessed it because she was smart.

Originally thought that the scene was performed flawlessly, but unexpectedly, the "jewelry display cabinet" saw the flaws.

A few days later, I got an invitation from Milan for coffee.Anhe didn't want me to contact Milan, so as not to have a direct conflict.I followed An He's advice, I can't afford to be provoked, and I have also witnessed Milan throwing cups and chairs with my own eyes. If I haven't learned a few boxing skills, I will definitely not be her opponent.

However, one day after get off work, I was stopped by Milan at the entrance of the TV station, so I had to sit in a coffee shop with her.

I don't know what coffee tastes like. I only know that my heart is very nervous and my mind is in a mess. Milan's expression is very cold, and the atmosphere is very dull.

Milan stared at me for a while, and finally, her eyes fell on the "Moon Goddess" on my chest. She broke the dull atmosphere and said, "The necklace is very beautiful, can it be stolen?"

I understood what she meant and didn't speak.

The corner of her mouth twitched, and she said again: "Why, I dare not deny it, it seems that it was really stolen. Do you want to steal when you see other people's good things?"

I still didn't speak, and I knew she would say something harsher if I did.I believe that if she doesn't fight back when she is scolded or beaten, she will have nothing to do. No one can fight with the air, bear with it first, don't talk, don't get angry, hold on, hold on!

She said again: "Do you have the habit of stealing things? You look okay. How can you be a thief?"

I still don't speak.But yes, I stole from her, I was a thief, so I couldn't justify myself in front of her.She can look down on me with a lofty posture, but I can only lower my head and swallow my anger.I can't help but feel a little sad. It turns out that loving someone has to pay so much, and I have been called a thief for no reason.

Maybe she didn't expect me to be so calm. She paused for a while and said, "Why don't you justify yourself? Do you feel that you are in the wrong and have nothing to say? But you stole something from me, you should at least tell me Say sorry."

I fell silent for a while and said, "I'm sorry."

She smiled contemptuously and said, "Since you say I'm sorry, you should know that you are wrong, right? If you know that you are wrong, you should correct it, right? As for how to correct it, don't I need to teach you?"

"Sister Milan, I'm sorry, I know I'm wrong for you, but I'm not wrong for my feelings." My tone is very sincere, and it's really wrong for me to get along with An He from her perspective , In addition, I have to give Mi Yao some face, I have to respect her, the elder sister who makes me hate and fear.

"What? Your feelings, what feelings? Don't talk about your feelings as a cover, pretending to be innocent in front of me, do you think I don't know what you think? I've seen a lot of girls like you, greedy You are vain, you are jealous when you see other people's good things, and you don't care about morality or immorality. Didn't your parents teach you what you can and can't do, what you can want and what you can't, and you won't want it Shall I teach you?" Unexpectedly, when I opened my mouth, she shot at me like a machine gun.

"Thank you, no need."

"Well, I won't waste my saliva with you, and you don't do things that are sorry for your parents. You have a skin and a face, and I believe they don't want to lose face because of you."

I don't know whether she doesn't know that I don't have any parents, or she deliberately talks about them to stimulate me. In short, her words make me feel very uncomfortable. Maybe if my parents are still alive, they will really feel ashamed because of me. .

"Think about your parents, lest someone behind them point fingers."

"I will."

"Well, I won't say anything. Don't let me hear the gossip and gossip of you and the surnamed Ann together. If you are stubborn, don't blame me for not warning you in advance. I also advise you, don't steal any more People have something."

Her tone was extremely contemptuous, but I held back. I didn't want to argue with her, and it was indeed my fault. I "stealed" her husband, so it was reasonable to "steal".

However, she made another call later, which I don't remember.

I left the cafe with mixed feelings.From today's confrontation, I found that I was not as brave as I imagined, I was a little timid, and I didn't dare to say to her that I love Anhe and that my love with Anhe is innocent.

Why did my love suddenly become so fragile? A little bit of wind and rain would make it sway. Didn't I dare to go on a rampage?I feel confused, is there really love between me and An He?Is it just like what Milan said, I am greedy for vanity, I have taken a fancy to An He's money, if An He is poor and white, I will still have a good impression of him, will I still love him like that?
Don't I really love him?However, if it wasn't for loving him from the bottom of my heart, what would that kind of longing and daydreaming be like when we meet every day?

I don't know, I really don't know.

But why should I love Anhe?Why should I be a third party?Why am I so shameless?No, I can't go on like this, I want to rein in the precipice, it's still too late, if I take another step forward, I will be smashed to pieces...

My courage, my fighting spirit, suddenly disappeared, I was timid, and I wanted to retreat.

I was dizzy, one voice told me to give up, and another voice told me not to give up. I thought a lot, thinking of my dead parents, thinking of everything I endured in these years, thinking of the suffering that An He endured, and thinking of An He’s longing ...

What should I do, what should I choose?

(End of this chapter)