Love is so close, you are so far

Chapter 13 So Close, So Far (2)
Later, he said that employees often see that it is not good for us to be together.I really saw some people looking at us from time to time, I don’t care, anyway, I don’t know them, and they don’t know me, they just treat Zhang Junrui badly, so I was dragged to a restaurant by him, and I couldn’t have an AA with him in the restaurant , I can't afford shrimp and hairy crabs.

In addition to eating with him, we also had some contacts, which seemed to be coincidences. For example, after I finished class for An Jing and walked out of An He’s community, his car stopped beside me and said that he happened to pass by. Here, you can take me for a while, so I got into his car, but he dragged me to the teahouse instead of the school.Also, for example, when I got off work at the furniture store and was about to go back, his car stopped next to me, saying that he happened to be working nearby, so he pulled me into the car, and then went to another place...

Many accidents, many chance encounters, it seems that I really have inextricable relationship with him - he and I are destined.

Later, we became very familiar.He took me to the movies and took me to friends' parties.He is different from Qiao Yang. Qiao Yang always respects my opinion and cares about my feelings, but Zhang Junrui is not. He will take the movie ticket and ask me to go to the movie. He will take me to the hotel and tell me to accompany him. Whether it's good to go to a friend's party or not, I don't have a choice.I understand his way of doing things because he is not very good at interacting with girls, but this is not the case, it is because he is too egotistical and too proud.

My relationship with Zhang Junrui went beyond the scope of work, and I was no longer a "sacrifice" for Anhe.

Zhang Junrui looked at me with ambiguous eyes, Qiao Yang also had such eyes, I know what it means.

I don't know what to do, I'm a little hesitant, I want to escape, but I don't know how to escape, because if I'm not careful, it will cause trouble, Qiao Yang has no interest relationship with An He, but Zhang Junrui is different, he is An He Important client, I can't treat him like I did with Jo Young.

But Zhang Junrui didn't understand what was going on in my heart, he still asked me out, had dinner, and watched movies, and he regarded me as his girlfriend.

One day, he said something like that to me in the teahouse - I call you Yingying, okay?

It's okay to call me cousin Yingying, but I can't. My name is Yemei, at most I can be called sister.

Of course, I understand, not just the simple words "Yingying" or "Sister", but I understand the deeper meaning.

I can't say it well, I keep my head down when I say this.

He asked why.

I didn't answer, just bowed my head.

He asked me again if I loved him.

I was silent for a while, saying no love, I still bowed my head.

He seemed to be a little surprised and sat next to me. He was originally sitting opposite me.

"You don't love me?" His voice was a little unnatural.

I didn't dare to look at him, he suddenly raised my chin with his hand, his move made me startled, I wanted to avoid it, but his fingers clasped me tightly, he seemed to have expected me to do this .I can't move.

He forced me to look at him, with a smile on his face, but there was a murderous look in his smile, he refused to admit defeat, he was different from Qiao Yang.

"You really don't love me?" His tone sounded like he was asking.

"do not love."

"Do you love it or not?"

"do not love."

"Then why are you dating me?"

"I do not have."

"We eat together, watch a movie together, doesn't that count as a date?"

"It's not what you think."

"How is that?"

"Yes……"

"Are you playing with me?"

"I didn't. Please let go, you hurt me."

Instead, he squeezed even tighter, as if he wanted to crush me.

I was a little annoyed, no one touched me except An He, Zhang Junrui was nothing, I used my hand to break his fingers, but he was still tightly pinched, I couldn't move him.He tried hard, he was angry, because I violated his pride, he couldn't let others act wild in front of him, not to mention a girl like me who is good for nothing but young, and there are a lot of girls like me on the street, easy to catch One came back to accompany him to drink tea, chat, eat, watch movies, and even go to bed.It's because I don't know the importance and the heights of the sky and the earth, so why should I disobey him? He called me Yingying to give me face and value me, otherwise I would not even be a sparrow in his mouth.

But, I don't care, I don't want to hear your name Yingyingyanyan, you have no right to touch me!You are not qualified!

In desperation and anger, I picked up the teacup and poured water on his face...

I didn't think about the consequences, I just wanted to get rid of him, no one can touch me like this, except An He.

Maybe the water was too hot, maybe Zhang Junrui's self-esteem was hurt, maybe...

Anyway, slap, I got him across the face, of course, he let go of his fingers, I was free, I could move, but my face was sore, he hit me.He was a different person, completely different from usual, I didn't see the other side of the moon, I almost thought he was a very nice person.

I covered my face and looked at him, and he also looked at me, no, staring at me, his eyes were full of anger, I don't think he has ever experienced someone being rude to him, just as I have never experienced others beating him The same thing happened to my slap, even my aunt, no matter how much she hated me and hated me, she never slapped me.

My tears were about to fall, but I held back, I can't cry, I can't, I can't, I can't let him underestimate me.I don't care about him!

Zhang Junrui may not have thought of my stubbornness. He stood up, picked up the teacup I used just now, let go of his hand, and with a snap, the teacup fell to the ground, shattered, and shattered. He was hinting at me.

The waiter ran over in panic, but Zhang Junrui stopped him just as he was about to make a sound. His eyes were so fierce that no one dared to provoke him.

"Go back and tell Mr. An that I don't want you." He pointed to my nose and said word by word.

What?Is An He going to give me to him?
"What do you mean?"

"Pretend to be confused? Don't you want to find a boyfriend?"

I'm like falling into the clouds, who said I'm going to find a boyfriend?Anhe?Did An He arrange it? !

I stood there in a daze for a long time, and the broken teacup lay silently under my feet.

It turned out that everything was arranged by An He - those important documents were just waste paper, the store manager's instructions were intentional, and those accidents were not accidental...

When Zhang Junrui said this, there was a mocking smile on the corner of his mouth.There are conditions for him to be a man. He will treat you well if you treat him well, and he will love you only if you love him.He is an extreme person, he treats you as a treasure if he wants you, and tramples you to death if he can’t get it, he doesn’t even give you a chance to breathe, and the more embarrassing and painful you are, the happier and more proud he is.

Yes, I am embarrassment and pain.

I thought of Qiao Yang, was Qiao Yang also arranged by An He?Yes, it must be.Otherwise, how could An He always remind me to have this and that with Qiao Yang.

Ah, how well he arranged it!
Then what have I become?Jumping clown?I can't think about it...

Am I nothing more than that to An He?Like a stray cat or a stray dog, if he ran to him by chance, he would help me find an owner, help me find someone willing to adopt me, but he didn't think about himself, he didn't need me.

Ah, yes, of course he doesn't need me, how could he need me.

Zhang Junrui got satisfaction from the expression on my face, he thought he had poked my scar, stepped on the fragments of the teacup, and walked away.Those pieces made a creaking sound, and I knew it was the sound of a broken heart, and it was my heart that was broken.

An He knew that I was slapped by Zhang Junrui, Zhang Junrui told him.He is a real gentleman, dare to act.

An He was extremely guilty and unexpected. Like me, he did not see the other side of Zhang Junrui. He had known him for many years, and he only knew that he had excellent conduct, no bad habits, no romantic history, and a bright future. .People have multiple faces, even biological parents may not be able to see all the faces of their children, let alone friends.Therefore, it's not his fault that An He misjudged the person, and I don't blame him either.

However, I still blame him-he shouldn't treat me like a cat or a dog and give it away casually.Qiao Yang couldn't do it, so he sent Zhang Junrui again. If Zhang Junrui didn't tell me the truth, maybe there would be Li Junrui, Wang Junrui, and Zhao Junrui, until someone wanted me.

An He said that he didn't treat me like a cat or a dog, he just wanted to help me, he thought I needed...

"You think, you think you understand me, don't you? Your thinking is wrong, what you think is what you think, not what I need, why do you think, do you understand me, do you understand me, you know What do I need?"

I was no longer afraid of him, and I no longer had any scruples. I yelled at him, and my true face appeared in front of him, hideous and terrifying.Isn't it just that I borrowed tens of thousands of dollars from you? I still have a lot of time to earn money, and I can still afford it. My life may not be so cheap that it is only worth tens of thousands of dollars. Who can guarantee that I will not be able to make a fortune in the future? How about returning it to you with interest?

"Sorry, I may have misunderstood, can you tell me, what do you need?"

"I need—you!" I lost my mind, and without thinking, I revealed the secret in my heart.

Say it, say it, there is nothing to regret, anyway, it's no longer relevant, it's better to say it than to hide it in your heart, if you want to laugh, just laugh, anyway, I will never see you again, and I will never be with you has anything to do with it.I will resign my quiet tutor, my job in a furniture store, and the employment relationship between us. I will no longer be arranged by you, and I will no longer let you see me as a clown.

An He looked at me in surprise, without any expression on his face, like a frozen sculpture.

There is no arrow to turn back when I open the bow, so I have to go down one road.

"You think it's funny, don't you?"

An He shook his head, lit a cigarette, and started smoking. He didn't ask me if I minded, he didn't mind my feelings anymore, he only minded his feelings - a girl told him that she needed him, okay A frivolous girl with a sinister mind.Hurry up and hide far away, don't get involved, otherwise there may be a lot of trouble.

It's useless for me to guess so much, he refused to tell me, I can't guess his thoughts.What kind of world he has never experienced, what kind of people he has never seen, a girl like me, what kind of onion is she, she can't think of herself.If he really wants to find a little lover, there will be a bunch of girls who are as beautiful as flowers and jade, who are a hundred times more beautiful than me, a hundred times gentler than me, and a hundred times more understanding than me. I can't even join the team, and I can't get my turn.

"Don't quit your quiet job as a tutor and furniture store, okay?" was all he said to me as he finished his cigarette.

I couldn't guess what he was thinking, but he could guess what I was thinking. Jiang is still old and spicy, so I can't count him out.

I looked at him and had nothing to say. If I insisted, he would look down on me.Like a woman who has been abandoned by others, she has no choice but to cry and threaten - if you don't want me anymore, I will die, and I will die for you.But everyone knows that she will not die.Life is the most important thing, who would give away life so easily, it is better to live than to die, to live a lifetime, how much scenery there is to see behind.

He blocked my way of retreat, didn't want me, and didn't allow me to leave. He trapped me there, unable to move or play.

I regret it so much, I shouldn’t have spoken out my thoughts, it’s okay now, he sees me like a transparent person, but I see him as if I’m always looking at flowers in a fog, I can’t understand, I can’t understand, it’s too unfair.

He doesn't tell me his thoughts, he knows how to measure, what can be revealed and what can't be revealed, and he doesn't need to waste his words with me.So, he stopped talking about my needs, and just apologized to me for what he did, and said that Zhang Junrui would apologize to me in person.

Later, Zhang Junrui really booked a luxury private room in the restaurant at home, set up a table of delicacies from mountains and seas, and apologized to me.

In fact, Zhang Junrui's apology means nothing to me at all. What I want is a peaceful attitude, but he won't give it to me.

But I believe that An He used some tricks for Zhang Junrui, otherwise, Zhang Junrui would not be able to let go of his airs. Doesn't he also have a respectable relative?I don't know all aspects of this, and An He won't tell me, so I don't want to cause more trouble for An He. As for Zhang Junrui, I will accept it as soon as I see it. What's up.Stories of bullying have abounded since ancient times, so King Xue beat Mr. Feng to death and still swaggered on the street?
From then on, Zhang Junrui is no longer relevant to me, and I don't know what happened to him in the future.However, from him, I learned that people have multiple faces, so I became more cautious when dealing with people, and I also became more discerning when I saw people.But I still can't understand some people, because the other side is hidden too deep, and when I see it, it becomes a tragedy, such as Mi Yao...

So sometimes I think again, never know if the other side of some people is better.

But, who knows, people are the most elusive.Thinking about it, it would be better to fight and grab food with Ye Ying when I was a child. If you like it, you like it, and if you hate it, you hate it. There is always only one side.

Zhang Junrui has been erased from my life, but An He cannot be erased. He is imprinted in my heart, branded in my dreams, engraved in my bones. I know how I feel, what I love, and what I want The love you want, the person you want.

However, I was late and didn't arrive at the right time, unlike the fallen leaf, which fell on the roof of his car just as he was leaving.

An He no longer talks to me, no longer looks at me, no longer appears in my sight.

He is deliberately avoiding, avoiding my mind.

He is like a king, and I am like his courtier and concubine. Because of a reckless disrespect, he was thrown into a prison and put in a cold palace. He can see me when he wants to see me, but I can’t see him when I want to see him. I can only Waiting, and this kind of waiting is hopeless, I don't know if I can wait, I believe that if he decides not to see me again, I will never be able to wait.

(End of this chapter)