Love is so close, you are so far

Chapter 12 So Close, So Far (1)
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The long Spring Festival is finally over, I got on the train back to school, looking at the receding fields and trees outside the window, I felt like returning home, wishing I could arrive in Wuping in the next second.

The train finally arrived at the station. When I got off the train, I looked around and felt a long-lost intimacy.As soon as I walked out of the station, I heard someone calling my name. The voice was very familiar. I followed the voice and saw that it was Qiao Yang.

"Are you okay?" He took the bag in my hand and smiled happily at me.

"Why are you here, are you sending someone off?"

"Pick up."

"Who?"

Qiao Yang tapped my head with his finger, "You, idiot."

"How did you know I was going back to school today?"

"It's a secret."

"If you don't tell me, I'll ignore you." I pretended to be angry on purpose.

"Okay, I said, Mr. An told me."

"Boss An, how does he know?"

"Isn't his sister-in-law your classmate?"

It turns out that Mi Yao asked about my return date, but she never thought that she would sell it to Qiao Yang as information and interrogate her carefully later.

Joyan pulled me to the parking lot and drove me to dinner.When driving, he turned his head to look at me from time to time. I was embarrassed by him and asked him: "What are you looking at, is there something on my face?"

"Have you lost weight? Do you miss me? Why don't you call me? Do you know how much I miss you? I want to call you, but I don't know how many calls you have. It's all because you didn't want to My mobile phone, otherwise I could hear your voice every day, are you trying to make me lovesick?"

"Isn't there a lot of things going on in your hotel at the end of the year? I'm afraid that the wrong time to call will affect your work. I can't afford to be blamed by your leaders later on."

"It's not that serious. No matter how busy you are, you still have time to listen to your calls. You haven't answered me yet. Do you miss me? You seem to have lost a little weight. Miss me, haha."

I was noncommittal, smiled, and cast my eyes out the window.Qiao Yang said miscellaneously, his tone was full of joy of reunion after a long absence. I thought of that decision, and hesitated. I really didn't want to hurt him, but I didn't want to deceive him or myself. It's not so important, he should be able to let it go.

During the meal, when Qiao Yang said those words about missing again, I expressed my decision——Qiao Yang, let's be good friends.

Qiao Yang was holding a spoon in his hand at the time and held it up in the air. His eyes widened and he looked at me with disbelief. "Why? Don't you like me?"

"No."

"What is that? You have changed too much. Is it because your family objected?"

"No, they don't know."

"You didn't even mention me to them? Are you sincere in dating me?"

"No, because it's sincere, I don't want to deceive you."

"But why did you mention this to me suddenly? Isn't it great that we are together?"

"We haven't been together for a long time, and you don't know me yet."

"It doesn't necessarily take a long time to know someone and like someone. Didn't Maya and Roy in "Broken Blue Bridge" fall in love with each other and decide to get married after only one day of knowing each other?"

"That's a movie."

"But it comes from life."

"Qiao Yang, don't be stubborn. I've thought about it seriously. I don't love you. It's not fair to you."

"You haven't been in love, how do you know you don't love me?"

"my feeling……"

"It feels like things can go wrong sometimes, don't jump to conclusions too early, try it out, and you'll find that you love me."

"I'm sorry, Joey."

"Don't say sorry, I will give you time."

"Don't waste your time on me, it's useless."

"I will help you, help you fall in love with me. How about going to see my parents in a few days, I told them about you, and they want to see you too."

"Sorry, I'm afraid it's not appropriate."

"How about this Saturday, you must dress up beautifully, oh, no, you are very beautiful without dressing up, my parents will definitely like you very much, oh, by the way, if you have time tomorrow, we Go shopping for clothes, okay? I'm so careless. I haven't bought clothes for you yet. It's all my fault..." Qiao Yang didn't match his words, and fell into the water like a person who couldn't swim, waving his hands desperately to think. Grab something.

It can be seen that he really likes me, but I can't... I feel a little sad, both for him and for myself.

However, I don't want to change my decision.

Qiao Yang sent me to school and helped me carry my luggage to the dormitory. At that time, two roommates were packing things, and Qiao Yang greeted them politely.They winked at me, but I ignored them.

It was getting late, and Qiao Yang left after sitting for a while. I sent him downstairs, and my roommate told him to come and play when he was free, and he said yes.I don't think I have this chance anymore. I have decided that I will not change. I know my stubbornness.

"Please remember, I love you." Qiao Yang reminded me that it was the first time he told me that he loved me, which shows that he is not a casual person. Maybe he didn't intend to say it so early, but it's too late. So hurry up, hurry up on me.

I had nothing to say, just smiled at him, laughing awkwardly, it's useless to remember, I don't love him.

Qiao Yang started the car and left. At that moment, I couldn't help another picture in my mind. An He also started the car and left here. If the person who picked me up today was An He, how would I feel, at least It won't be as heavy as it is now.

When I entered the dormitory building, I looked up, and I saw two little black heads sticking out of our dormitory.

It is estimated that there will be a burst of chirping, and I am too lazy to care about them.

That night, I still thought about An He, he should be back, he should be in this city, not far from me, breathing the same air as me, but I couldn’t see him, he was so close , but so far away.

My heart hurts a little, is this the so-called so close?

In the end, I still didn't go to see Qiao Yang's parents. Meeting them was even more troublesome, entangled, and impossible to get rid of.

Qiao Yang was reluctant to let go, and always wanted to help me, to help me fall in love with him. He tried his best and even bought a diamond ring. The shiny stone was bigger than the one in Milan. The dazzling light made me unable to open my eyes, but I didn't accept it, it's not suitable.

Qiao Yang invited An He to be a lobbyist again. After all, it was because of him that we got to know each other at the time, so he can be regarded as half a matchmaker.Although Qiao Yang felt that finding An He as a lobbyist was a bit embarrassing, and it was useless for a big man to fall in love with a matchmaker to help spread the word, but if he wanted to take care of his face, he would lose his beauty.Life and death are all on the face, but once the beauty is gone, it can't come back.It is not so easy to find one person to replace another in this crowd.

An He then appeared by my side as a lobbyist. I felt very awkward and a little sad. Anyone can be a lobbyist, but An He can't, absolutely not.

Fortunately, An He didn't act like a lobbyist. I think he should understand me, but he still shouldn't. Is Qiao Yang so important to him? They are just friends, but he and I— He and I are not even friends.

An He smoked a cigarette and asked me why I didn't accept Qiao Yang in the hazy smoke.I said I didn't feel it.

He laughed at my feeling.

But I don't think it's funny. For me, the feeling is the most important, otherwise I wouldn't miss "Spring", maybe that person is really interesting to me, otherwise he wouldn't be arrogant, knowing the profit margin of the bookcase and accepting that price .

Maybe he also has a bright future, can treat me sincerely, can give me a love, and can... Who knows, things are unpredictable, but my feeling keeps him out, I believe in feeling .

An He no longer insisted, but emphasized that Qiao Yang has a bright future and is indeed a "promising young man". Let me consider it.

I didn't think about it. I had already thought about it very clearly at my uncle's house. I needed material stability, and I also needed emotional sincerity. Since I can't have both, I can only choose something.

I feel that I have really inherited the genes of my parents, and only now have I experienced the courage of my mother and the pain of my father. Loving someone turns out to be mixed joy and sorrow.

Qiao Yang was helpless and helpless.After all, the times are different. It is not like in ancient times, when you are forced to hold your head down and worship the sky and earth, and then you are dragged into the bridal chamber, the door is locked, and the uncooked rice is cooked into cooked rice.

A twisted melon is not sweet. Qiao Yang understands this truth. In the end, he had no choice but to let go of his hand. In fact, he never grabbed my hand. What he grabbed was just some illusion.

So, with regard to Qiao Yang, this is the end.

He is not without melancholy, and I am not without melancholy.

It's just that their melancholy is different.Falling flowers and flowing water, each has its own worries.

Mi Yao knew the whole story, but she didn't say anything. She just walked around the campus holding my hand after the matter between me and Qiao Yang came to an end, or sat on the basketball court watching "Slam Dunk" , watching the basketball being snatched by everyone, then thrown into the basket, fell, and then continued to grab.

There seems to be a joke that compares women at a certain stage to basketballs, snatching them around, and throwing them away after grabbing them. Women seem to be nothing more than men.

I don't want myself to be a basketball, I hope I am a treasure, who has snatched me, and hugged me tightly for life and life. Like... Hey, there are some thoughts that cannot be spoken out, and they will disappear into nothingness. It is really melancholy and sad. Why is it him?
On the basketball court in the evening, there are still clouds floating in the sky, and one or two bird calls can still be heard, and nothing seems to have changed.

But I know, changed, my state of mind.

I fell in love with someone I shouldn't love. There is no future, no result, nothing but melancholy.

A "promising young man" left, and another "promising young man" came.

"Promising Youth" is also An He's friend, and they also met by chance.At that time, it seemed that they were all accidental acquaintances, but later I realized, no, it was deliberately arranged, can it be called accidental acquaintance?Of course not!Those "accidental acquaintances" are there for a reason.

A "promising young man" runs a computer company and sets up twenty or thirty desks in a high-end office building. It is said that an official in this city who often appears on TV is his or something. Relatives, once a businessman becomes an official, it will be difficult not to make a fortune.Therefore, the career of "promising young people" is booming, and the future is bright and promising.But the fly in the ointment is that the 27-year-old is still single, and doesn't even have a girlfriend. It is said that he is busy with his career and delayed.Why does a man have no wife? It can be seen that he is a far-sighted person.

I forgot to mention his last name. This young man is called Zhang Junrui. I found it very interesting when I heard his name for the first time. Zhang Junrui, isn’t he Zhang Sheng in "The Romance of the West Chamber". I don’t know if there is a girl named Cui Yingying. A good story.

"I'll call you Yingying, okay?" Zhang Junrui said to me later.

I didn't meet Zhang Junrui as if I was "dating" like Qiao Yang, but because of work.After school started, I still worked as a shopping guide in a furniture store. I only taught one day on Sunday and taught Jing Jing on Saturday.But it’s not like being responsible for a certain kind of furniture like during the winter vacation, but doing some chores, or taking care of her for a day when it’s her turn to rest.The store manager often asked me to go to Zhang Junrui's company to deliver some documents to him, and it was precisely because of delivering the documents that I was able to "accidentally know" Zhang Junrui.

At that time, I wondered, how could a furniture seller have so many documents to deliver like a computer seller, and the delivery of documents could be called express delivery.The store manager explained that I had the most time, and I was worried about the courier. The documents were very important, and I was afraid that they would be lost.What document is so important that I act as a courier to run errands?In addition, the store manager also told me not to offend Zhang Junrui, he is an important customer of the company.Maybe there are some origins in it, this inextricably linked relationship is not what I consider.

So I dutifully worked as a courier, and I gradually became acquainted with Zhang Junrui after going back and forth.At first, because of the careful instructions of the store manager, I thought that Zhang Junrui was a difficult person to get close to, but this is not the case.Every time I send documents to him, he asks the secretary to make a pot of tea, and then asks me if I have time to drink tea with him, saying that it is the best tea, a friend specially brought it from somewhere, and he seems to be interested in it. Very interested in drinking tea.

I didn't want to drink tea with him, but the store manager's advice was still in my ears, so I hesitated.

Seeing my hesitation, Zhang Junrui called the store manager—Is it okay for me to keep Ms. Ye here for a cup of tea?

I don't know what to say over there, anyway, Zhang Junrui said with a smile that I can go back later.

Since they have prepared fragrant tea and asked for leave for me, I can't refuse. In addition, sitting on the sofa drinking tea is better than standing in a furniture store. You can't sit when you work in a furniture store. From 08:30 in the morning Stand until 08:30 in the evening, except that you can sit down for half an hour for lunch, everything else is standing.The most important thing is that I am afraid of accidentally offending him.When the store manager talked about Anhe, wouldn't it damage my image in Anhe's mind.When drinking tea with Zhang Junrui, I felt like making sacrifices for Anhe, but this feeling was happiness, even though no one knew about it.However, after knowing the truth later, I felt that I was a complete fool.

Every time I drink tea with Zhang Junrui, the shortest is half an hour, and the longest is an hour. If Zhang Junrui is not busy, it will be longer.

Zhang Junrui invited me to a few meals. His original words were not to invite me, but to have a work meal together. It is time for the meal. This is the fact, and I may not have a meal when I go back, so I had a few work lunches with him. .In order to show that he really eats work meals, he first took me to the restaurant in the office building, which is not expensive, only 30 yuan for a meal.So I asked for the AA system. I have two jobs now, so I can afford AA with him.Seeing me like this, Zhang Junrui smiled and agreed, and made AA with me every time.Maybe he just thought it was fun.

(End of this chapter)