Love is so close, you are so far

Chapter 11
"Aren't you worried about me?"

"Call me if you want to tell me you're safe."

I got on the train, the train started, and An He disappeared from my sight.I looked at the platform that was gradually going away, and I felt an inexplicable loss and melancholy in my heart. I was still reminiscing about the smell in his embrace. It turned out that a man's embrace is so generous and warm.

I really want to stay in that embrace for 100 years.

Of course, I knew that it was impossible, and a burst of melancholy and loss gradually surged in my heart.

My uncle recovered after he was discharged from the hospital. He knew I was coming back tonight and wanted to pick me up at the station, but I didn’t agree. The winter nights are too cold, and I used to go home alone when I got off the train. I’m used to it.

I got off the train and didn't rush home, so I found a public phone and called An He.He didn't seem to be asleep yet, and his voice came out after the phone beeped. He asked me if I had arrived, and I said I had just got off the train.He asked my uncle if it was far away, and I said it was not very far, and it took ten minutes to walk there. He said it was not safe, and asked me to take a taxi, and said that he would reimburse me for the fare after returning.I said yes, but he didn't seem to believe me, and asked me to keep the taxi ticket, and he wanted to see it when I got back. It was amazing!
Later, he asked me if I had called Qiao Yang, I said no, he said I should call Qiao Yang, Qiao Yang would be worried about me, I don't like him mentioning Qiao Yang at this time.I asked him what he was doing, and he said nothing, and told me to go home immediately after calling Qiao Yang, and call him again when I got home.

So I called Qiao Yang to report his safety. Qiao Yang's voice sounded dazed, and he probably fell asleep.After the phone call, I took a taxi back to my uncle's house.

My uncle's family was very happy with my return. My aunt asked about the health and wellness, whether the train was crowded or not, and whether it was freezing. Ye Ying, who was too lazy to die, also got up from the bed and made me a cup of steaming tea... This is the first time I have The 4 yuan that An He lent me changed everything. Money is such a good thing that even family relationships can be changed.

I took out the gift from An He, and when my aunt saw it, she blamed me with a smile on my face for spending money on such expensive things, and then hugged me to express her distress.I understood An He's intentions, he was thinking about me, and he knew the ways of the world.

Everyone chatted on the phone, and finally went back to their rooms to sleep. Then I walked lightly from the room to the living room, picked up the phone and called An He.Originally, I wanted to call him as soon as I entered the door, but I was too embarrassed to call him in front of my uncle and his family. I was afraid that the shrewd aunt would catch the wind, so I had to bear it until now.

"I'm sorry, I wanted to call you as soon as I got home, but there were so many people that it was inconvenient." I explained to An He.

"It's okay, I see, have you called Qiao Yang?"

"Ah."

"Is the house okay?"

"It's okay, haven't you slept yet?"

"I'm already in bed."

"Did it wake you up?"

"No, I'm reading a book."

"sleep early."

"It's getting late."

"Sorry for worrying you."

"I was obsessed with reading, and I forgot the time. It has nothing to do with you. If, I said, if I make this call, it would be inconvenient for you, right?"

"Maybe a little bit, do you want to call me?"

"No, I'm just asking casually, well, go to bed quickly, good night."

"Okay, good night."

I went back to the room lightly, and when I was about to go to bed, Ye Ying turned on the lamp, and I was startled.

Ye Ying sat up, looked at me with a smile, and asked, "Sister, are you calling your boyfriend?"

I blushed and said, "Don't talk nonsense, it's not."

"Who is that for? Your voice sounds so gentle."

"Is it really gentle?"

"Of course, it's never been gentle."

"Okay, little girl, go to sleep now."

"Sister, are you in a relationship?" Ye Ying insisted.

"No."

"Then who did you call just now?"

"my classmate."

"Male classmate?"

"No, female classmate. Okay, go to sleep."

"No, it must be a male student. Don't lie to me. I have a lot of experience."

"Don't guess, my feelings are not as rich as yours, well, let's sleep with you."

"I can not sleep."

"Then you count the sheep."

"You count for me."

"You deserve a beating."

"Hate!"

Ye Ying turned off the desk lamp with a snap, and soon snored slightly.But I lost all sleepiness. I opened my eyes wide and looked at the night, and the shadow of An He couldn't help appearing in my mind.Is he still reading at this time, has he fallen asleep, or, or thinks of me.

But I have been separated from him for less than ten hours, and my mind is full of him.

How the hell am I doing this?Am I missing him?I should think of Qiao Yang!But, I think of An He, yes, I think of An He, it's true!
I was taken aback by my own thoughts.Oh my God!How could I miss him, how could I miss him, how could I miss him?Did I really fall in love as Ye Ying said?Am I really in love?

Impossible, where did I fall in love?No, I don't!Even if there is, it should be Qiao Yang, but why is there only An He in my mind?
I can't think of An He, absolutely not, absolutely not... No, I didn't think about him, really, no...

Think of Qiao Yang, his smile, his eyes, his hair, his voice...

However, in the end, they all became peaceful in the end!
I kept convincing myself, but I couldn't deceive myself. I just wanted peace, I just wanted peace. Qiao Yang couldn't replace him. He pulled him over by force. He just passed by, thinking about peace, And I miss him more and more, more and more, like this dark night, surrounded me deeply, and I have nowhere to escape.

For the first time, I started thinking about a man late at night, a little joy, a little pain, and a little sour.

Why is this happening?

I have no idea!

10
My aunt finally asked about the 4 yuan. I said it was borrowed by a classmate. My aunt asked if the classmate’s family was rich. I said yes. Then she asked the classmate’s family. I said drug dealers .

My aunt was taken aback, and after realizing that I was joking, she deliberately stared at me and called me a dead girl.My aunt also asked me if that classmate was a boy, I said yes, she looked at me and smiled, I understood what she meant, and didn't say much.

My aunt was very nice to me during the winter vacation this year, surprisingly nice, better than Ye Ying, and our relationship became harmonious, like a mother and daughter.

A relative came to ask for a debt from my aunt. My aunt had no money, so the relative quarreled with my aunt and almost smashed the chair and table.My aunt thanked me and asked me where I got so much money. I said I earned it by working part-time in a furniture store, and I also said that she didn't have to worry about the 4000 yuan, and I would find a way to pay it back.I know that my aunt is unable to repay the money at the moment, and I will graduate soon. Maybe I can repay the money after I start working. , although she is fierce to me on weekdays, and she can't even talk about loving me, she raised me up after all. Without her, if she really threw me away or sent me to an orphanage, I don't know what I am doing now. What will I look like, so I still have to repay her.

Because my aunt didn't have to worry about paying back the money, she was very nice to me and liked me even more, and made me a lot of my favorite snacks.I found that my aunt is actually not that hateful, she has a cute side in her vulgarity, once she likes you, she will treat you very well.

I also forgave her for all the bad things she did to me in the past. Now that I think about it, I can’t blame her. No one would be happy to have to raise other people’s children when life is already difficult. She just acted more strongly.

I suddenly felt that I had grown up, and that the hatred I had for her before was nothing more than youth and ignorance.Thinking of this, it's a little funny, it's all the magic of money.Money can actually allow a person to gain insight into the right and wrong in the world, and smooth out the grievances and grievances in the world.

Ye Ying was originally a arrogant little princess in the family, but because of my contribution to the family, her status as a princess has been shaken.Ye Ying had a problem with me because of this, but she didn't dare to vent it out. Now that she has lost her aunt's protection and support, she can only express her dissatisfaction with indifference.However, I didn't bother with her any more, and bought her some clothes, and she became very affectionate with me again, the little girl is still easy to coax.

This year's Spring Festival seems to be extraordinarily warm. Although the family is not well-off, my uncle's family still has a lively New Year.

Very warm home, very harmonious family, I have grown up so much, I feel the most beautiful Spring Festival.I am very happy, but when I am happy, there is often a hint of melancholy in my heart unconsciously.

On the night of New Year's Eve, when the New Year's bell was about to ring, I called Mi Yao's number, which is our habit.It was very lively on her side, I wished her a new year, and she also wished me a new year, she seemed to be watching the Spring Festival Gala, maybe the cross talk or sketches at the party were very funny, she laughed hard, like wind chimes, tinkling, Because the wind was too strong, there was no rhythm.

I originally wanted her to congratulate An He for the New Year on my behalf, but after thinking about it, I hung up the phone without saying anything.

There were bursts of firecrackers outside the window, and the ban on setting off fireworks and firecrackers was lifted, so there were extraordinarily many fireworks this year, one by one, one by one, rendering the night sky colorful and dazzling, plus waves of earth-shattering firecrackers one after another , Between the heaven and the earth, there is a festive, peaceful and lively scene.

Ye Ying took me to the balcony to watch the fireworks. The fireworks were gorgeous. At first, I enjoyed watching them, but then I suddenly felt a little lonely for no reason. I had never felt that kind of loneliness before. My chest seemed to be blocked by something.But there was a smile on my face all the time, a gorgeous smile like fireworks, no one saw the loneliness in my heart, and of course I wouldn't let them see it.

Just when I was watching the fireworks blooming lonely, my aunt asked me to answer the phone. At this time, who would it be? I have very few friends.

"Happy New Year!" It was An He's voice.

My heart moved, holding the microphone, speechless.

"Why, don't you wish me a happy new year?"

"Oh, you, you too, Happy New Year!" I stammered.

"Thank you, why are you stuttering, are you eating?"

"No, I'm a little surprised, are you in Sanya?"

"Yes, and there is silence."

"Is she all right? Is the weather all right over there?"

"It's quiet and the weather is fine. How about you?"

"I'm fine too, it's just..." I was startled, almost said what was on my mind, and stopped quickly.

"Just what?"

"It's nothing, it's just a little cold here."

"Oh, pay more attention to your body and wear more clothes."

"Okay, put on more clothes, too."

"Hehe, the weather here is very warm, so you don't need to wear more clothes."

"Oh...my brain is a little hard to use, ha ha."

"Did you wish Qiao Yang a happy new year? He asked me about you. I was afraid that you would be inconvenient, so I didn't tell him the phone number."

"Not yet."

"If it's convenient, wish him a new year. He misses you very much. I'm dying. By the way, I wish your uncle and his family a happy new year!"

I hung up the phone disgruntled.How do you know Qiao Yang is thinking of me?Did you call me just to remind me to bless Qiao Yang?
"Is that the male classmate?" My aunt asked mysteriously.

I came back to my senses, laughed at myself, and shook my head.

My aunt was dubious, "Really, who is that?"

"It's another classmate."

"It must be my sister's boyfriend!" Ye Ying shouted.

I blushed, clenched my fist and shook Ye Ying, but Ye Ying continued to shout with a rascal face, "That's right!"

My aunt looked at me with a smile, and I knew what she was thinking.

Maybe my aunt wants me to find a rich boyfriend, so maybe I can help her at some point, just like my uncle was hospitalized last time, when she was in despair, I could appear in the world as a savior to her.Therefore, she never stopped Ye Ying from having a boyfriend, and of course, she would not stop me from having a boyfriend, but the other party had better be a rich man.

I still called Qiao Yang's office later, but no one answered. I didn't want to call his cell phone, and I didn't want him to call from time to time after knowing the number of my uncle's house, which would add a lot of fantasies to my aunt.I believe that if my aunt knew about Qiao Yang's conditions, she would definitely raise her hands to support her.In addition, I believe that Qiao Yang must have received a lot of New Year's blessings, and it doesn't matter if I have one more or one less.

This year's Spring Festival is the warmest and the longest, because I miss someone, so it is long, really - last night was very short, tonight is very long, how long will it last?
During these long and short nights, I made a decision, I don't know if it's right or wrong, but I don't want to deceive myself.

(End of this chapter)