Love is so close, you are so far

Chapter 10
Feifei said that she had heard Yuyan say this famous saying no less than ten times, hoping again and again, disappointed again and again, and hoping again and again.But I really appreciate Yuyan, she understands hope, hope is better than no hope.

When I was free, I looked at the bookcase and couldn't figure out why An He didn't want to sell the bookcase to "Spring". No one told me that the bookcase was not for sale.

Since then, however, the bookcase has really become a non-sale item.

An He introduced me to a "promising young man".

The "promising young man" was Qiao Yang. At that time, it seemed that An He didn't deliberately introduce Qiao Yang to me, it was purely accidental.

One day after I finished teaching An Jing, An He happened to be at home and invited me to have afternoon tea. At that time, I was surprised that he was so leisurely.In the teahouse, I met Qiao Yang.

Qiao Yang belongs to the kind of big boy who exudes masculinity from every pore on his body. He is full of vigor and always has a pleasant smile on his face. When he smiles, he shows neat and white teeth, which is very suitable for toothpaste advertisements.In short, the first impression he gave me was that he was an innocent, straightforward and lovely college student.I didn't expect Anhe to have such a cute child. In fact, Qiao Yang is not a child. He has been working for three years and is engaged in management work in a five-star hotel in this city. It is said that this hotel is the most advanced in the city. The people who go in and out of the hotel are either rich or expensive. They once received the son of a certain king in the desert. Qiao Yang can be engaged in management work in this kind of hotel, which shows how promising he is, and he is still young, so he is like a blue-chip stock , is showing an upward trend and has a bright future.

Qiao Yang seemed to be very happy all the time, he liked to laugh, and his smile was natural, comfortable, and not at all artificial, which made people feel comfortable, at least much more comfortable than friends like Pang Xie, without a trace of worldliness.I believe there is a market for a man like him, a bit like Prince Charming in a fairy tale, he happens to be driving a white car.

The chat between Qiao Yang and An He was different from the chat between Pang Xie and An He. The latter mostly talked about topics that had nothing to do with me. If I don't want to talk about it, their topic will turn to me and push me. I can't help but say nothing, unless I am dumb, so I don't feel like an outsider.

In fact, we talked about some irrelevant topics, all over the world, from Shenzhou [-] to Korean youth idol dramas, from a certain sports star to the air quality of the city... The three of us chatted all afternoon, talking about a lot of miscellaneous things , and poured a lot of water, I ran N times to the bathroom, which made me feel embarrassed, a big girl kept running to the bathroom in front of two big men, do you think it is embarrassing.So it is impossible for me to be included in the list of ladies. If I were sent to the palace in ancient times, I believe that the emperor would never choose me when he was choosing a concubine.

But Qiao Yang chose me, not a concubine, but a girlfriend, and now there is no such thing as the emperor's concubine.

After encountering each other in the teahouse, Qiao Yang often called me. At first, it was the kind of greetings from ordinary friends, such as—"Have you sold any furniture today? I heard that you are about to become a gold medal shopping guide in the store. Is it true? But I didn't see how you talked when drinking tea that day." "The weather is really good, the sun is rare, you are in a good mood, are you interested in coming to our hotel's revolving restaurant for lunch, I will ask Mr. An for two hours leave." "Are you free tonight, I just want to go to your neighborhood, how about having dinner together, I ask Mr. An to let you leave work early."

Before I gave him an answer, An He called, "Qiao Yang asked for two hours off for you..." "Qiao Yang asked me for favors, you should leave work early today..."

Is this considered to be a front and back attack, or a combination of inside and outside, anyway, I was dragged by Qiao Yang to eat lunch and dinner, and not only once or twice, and then, every now and then, Qiao Yang would have new reasons to ask me out.An He contributed to the flames, and before I could react, I was dragged away by Qiao Yang.However, Qiao Yang does not give you any pressure and burden, and the feeling of being with him is relaxed and pleasant, just like the smile on his face.He has a lot of jokes, and when he tells you, you can't help laughing, unless your blood is cold.

His offense is a needle hidden in the cotton, and by the time you realize his goal, he is almost there.This big boy can't be said to have no scheming, but his scheming seems to be very pure - all because of liking.

Later, Qiao Yang told me very directly that he liked me—because I was a special girl.

What's so special about me?

The way you speak, the way you smile, your thoughts... In short, many places are very special.

MY GOD!

If I say I want to fall in love with you, will you come to MY GOD again?

ah? !Allow me to think slowly...

It’s not that I haven’t heard of people who want to fall in love with me. When I was in high school, a boy with fluff on his mouth said this to me, but I sternly refused. I don’t have time to fall in love. I have to study hard. Important, life is important.

But it is different now. I will graduate from university in half a year. I have a lot of energy and time to fall in love. Qiao Yang is a very good candidate. He comes from a good background, is single and aristocratic, has a car, and has a bright future. Marry him I don't have to live in poverty anymore, and with his relationship, I won't have a problem finding a job after graduation. He has already hinted at me that I have a bright future and happiness is within reach.

But do I love him?I have no idea!I was just passive, standing beside him in a daze.I have never loved anyone, and no one has loved me. I don't know if I am in love with Qiao Yang, or if it is love.

The love I imagined is beautiful, wonderful, joyful, and happy, but I have never experienced all these things when I am with Qiao Yang, and I have never even experienced a rapid heartbeat.Of course, Qiao Yang never helped me fasten my seat belt. I have already learned how to do so. Qiao Yang always respected me and never touched me with his fingers. The most recent man, Jo Young is not.

Why do I always think of An He and compare him to Qiao Yang? What's wrong with me?The person who wants to fall in love with me is Qiao Yang!But, can I really fall in love with Qiao Yang, do I love him?will i love himcan i love himI can't decide. It turns out that love is not beautiful or wonderful, but troubles, indecision, and hesitation.

Qiao Yang thought he was scaring me. He knew that I had never been in a relationship. I told him that, even though it was hard to believe this kind of thing, he believed it.For this, I am very grateful to Qiao Yang. His respect for me comes from the bottom of his heart.

Maybe because my love is a clean white cloth, Qiao Yang loves me more and wants me more, he wants to paint the first stroke of vermilion on my white cloth.Qiao Yang asked me to accept him in his way, he thought I was born mentally handicapped in this respect, and he just liked my mentally handicapped.

In fact, he got it wrong. I am not mentally handicapped, but I don’t know whether I love him or not, whether I will love him or not. I am not sure whether he is the one in my life.

Fortunately, the Spring Festival is approaching, and I have to go home to celebrate the New Year. I can temporarily escape this matter, and this is the only way.When you can't decide on one thing, it's also good to choose to escape.

Before going home, Anhe paid my salary, tutoring plus furniture store work, 5000 yuan, I was very surprised.

"I said that I would thank you very much. You made Quiet very happy." An He explained to me.

"But, that's too much."

"Don't worry, I'm not a philanthropist. I need your return for my efforts. You will be better for Quiet, right?"

"Boss An..."

"Okay, I said I have a request for you, accept it, little idiot."

Call me a little idiot, what do you mean, do you say I have a low IQ?But there was a trace of intimacy in his tone, as if he was quiet.

I couldn't find the answer, so I counted 1000 yuan and kept it, and returned the rest to him, "Let's pay you 4000 yuan first."

"What do you mean?"

"You lent me money last time. As I said, I will pay you back when you have money. Let's pay you back first."

"Since paying back the money sincerely, why don't you give me all the money in your hand?"

I blushed and said, "Uncle has lived in the hospital for such a long time. I'm afraid that the family will be tense during the New Year, so I have to bring some money back home."

He pushed the money to me, "You'd better take it back for the New Year first, and pay that money back when you have money later. Paying yourself back with your own money sounds a little funny, doesn't it?"

In the end, the 5000 yuan remained in my hands, and I was a little discouraged.

But I was a little happy, after all, it was the first time I "earned" so much money.

On the day I went home, Qiao Yang couldn’t send me to the train because he was busy. The hotel had a lot of affairs at the end of the year, and his position determined that most of his time belonged to the gods, I can understand.But he bought me a gift - a mobile phone, he hopes to hear my voice at any time, and wants to know if I miss him every day.I confiscated his gift, our relationship is not that deep, and I can't promise to miss him every day.

After all, Qiao Yang is still a little discouraged, but he can’t force me. He respects me. He has a different style from An He, and he allows me a lot of room for maneuver. Unlike An He, who says one is one, and two is two. I have three.

Qiao Yang couldn't give me a gift, but An He gave it to me, and bought me a gift, some health care products, which he said would be helpful to his uncle. Knowing that I live a life of being dependent on others, I know how to improve interpersonal relationships.

An He proposed to send me off after knowing that Qiao Yang couldn't send me off. He seemed to be doing it deliberately, and called Qiao Yang in front of me, saying that his daughter wanted to send me off. An Jing did come, but he didn't let me go. She got off because the station was crowded.Qiao Yang talked to me through An He's mobile phone, and cared about me very much.All I said was "oh", I didn't want to be close to him, especially in front of An He, and Qiao Yang and I didn't establish a relationship.

The first time someone delivered me, it felt good.Although there are a lot of people on the train, the sleeper compartment is relatively loose. It was the first time I took a sleeper compartment, and I was grateful to Qiao Yang, who helped me get it.An He got on the bus and helped me put my luggage. It was still early, so I got off the bus with him and stood on the platform for a while.People are in a hurry with big bags and small bags, and the happiness of returning home is written all over their faces.

I remembered that Mi Yao and Milan had gone to Sanya, so I asked Anhe how they spent the Spring Festival.

"Go to Sanya with Mi Yao's parents, they like to celebrate the New Year there."

"You must be very happy. The weather over there is much better than here, and it's not cold."

"Okay."

"What about your parents, don't you celebrate the New Year with them?"

"I was an orphan and they died when I was very young."

I looked at An He in surprise, our fates were so similar.

"Sorry, I didn't know you..."

"It's okay, I've come over."

"You must have suffered a lot."

"We are both fallen in the world, you and I have a deep understanding of that kind of suffering, so you don't have to sympathize with me."

"It's not sympathy, it's..."

"Be careful!" An He suddenly interrupted me and pulled me into his arms.

This sudden movement surprised me. I came back to my senses and followed An He's eyes. I saw a man carrying a big woven bag running past me in a hurry. He seemed to be in a hurry. So caught up with the train that I didn't notice anyone else on the platform.

I was held in An He's arms, his arms were very warm, giving people a very safe feeling, making people reluctant to leave.In his arms, I felt my petiteness and frailty, and I liked such an embrace.His arms were strong, holding me tightly, and I didn't feel any pain, I just felt my heart beat faster, my head was a little chaotic, buzzing, and my face was burning badly. The first time I was hugged by a man, I felt dizzy, nervous and strange. Is this a hug?

Like a panicked child, I stared at An He with wide eyes.

An He also stared at me, his eyes were confused, loving, hesitant, contradictory, and painful...

Finally, he averted his gaze and, at the same time, let go of his hand.He seemed a little embarrassed, smiled, and said that the man was rash.I also said in a trance, yes, that person is really reckless.

The ticket inspector reminded the passengers to get on the bus, so An He said to me: "Okay, you have to get on the bus, and pay attention to safety on the bus."

I said, "Okay, no more bumps."

He smiled and said, "Don't fall asleep, be careful sitting and standing."

It was midnight when the car arrived home.I said, "No, I don't sleep."

"When you get home, report to Qiao Yang that he's safe."

(End of this chapter)