write our ending together

Chapter 15 The Lover Is Not Full
Part1
Stomach hurts again.

Song Qingwan clutched her stomach, sat in front of the computer and typed all day, until her thoughts were cut off.

Looking out the window of the office, it was raining heavily like yesterday.The office is so quiet that only the sound of typing on the keyboard can be heard at the same time.

After graduating, she came here to work as an editor for a large website company in G City.

It's ridiculous to say that G City has her regrets and bad memories. Before graduation, she vowed to leave here and forget everything here, but in the end she chose to stay. The reason is nothing more than naive thinking. One day, when he can come back, maybe the two of them can meet again, what can they do when they see each other?She couldn't find the answer herself.

Living like a wandering soul every day, Su Yi left G City when she graduated, and she never had such a good friend by her side.Classmates and colleagues, although there is only a difference of two words between the two, but the differences hidden in the depths are beyond words.

From the beginning when there were only three people in the company, it is now empty. It has been five years since that year. Whether it is fast or slow, Xiaoyi said that he came back, it has been a year, but But she never met each other. Occasionally she would think, the world is still so small, one day they will pass by accidentally, he is here, she is there, is that the greatest fate between them?

In fact, in the past few years, there are many suitors around her, but she can no longer find the feeling of the past, and she is not used to the occasional touch in the relationship, so in the end they all end up breaking up. I also think that if you don’t love, you won’t love. It’s good to find someone who treats her well for a lifetime, and she’s really not young, but some people have things, and it’s really not as long as they are suitable.

Their company is notoriously yin-prosperous and yang-declining. Usually, in such an environment, there will be a group of senior matchmakers. A beautiful woman like Qing Wan is naturally the "food" that they cannot give up. What kind of cousin's nephew, The son of the uncle's family, the son of the neighbor's family, etc. are all objects that can be introduced.

At the beginning, she found the blind date quite interesting, but love at first sight can only happen once in a life, and as time goes on, she couldn't avoid the blind date.

As soon as the company got off work, she saw a certain aunt who had chased her three times as a matchmaker approaching this way again. She hurriedly packed her things and walked away. She was so anxious that she didn't even have time to tie her scarf when the mobile phone she was holding rang When she got up, she quickly picked it up, and walked towards the elevator while picking it up, avoiding a catastrophe.

"Is there an African elephant chasing you? Why are you so out of breath?" The laughing and mocking voice on the phone was still so pleasant.

Qing Wan stood firm in the elevator, "You just did me a big favor. Let me escape from the clutches of our company's matchmaker."

A chuckle came from over there: "Have all the women nowadays fallen in love with the matchmaking industry?"

"Hearing you say that, it seems that you have encountered the same trouble as me?"

"Almost." The other side paused and said, "Since I've done you a big favor, shouldn't you express something?"

"Ah?" Qingwan was taken aback for a moment, and then joked: "Do you want to express it? I will treat you to a big meal when you have time."

He said, "Okay, let's do it now!"

"Ah?" Qing Wan was taken aback, until the elevator "ding" sounded, the door opened, a slender figure was facing the door, just turned around the moment the door opened, and smiled, "I just came here to finish my business , come to see you."

Part2
The only contact person in G City is Tang Peng. He has realized his childhood dream and is currently a well-known senior translator in G City.After all, we have been in the same school for four years. Although the intersection is not too intensive, in Tang Peng's words: "At least we still have the friendship of watching the sunrise together."

Qingwan still remembers that when she first contacted him, she was a little embarrassed because of what Su Yi said during the winter vacation of her junior year.

Fortunately, Tang Peng is a person who is very good at adjusting the atmosphere. He is humorous and always inadvertently picks up the next topic when there is nothing to talk about.

Afterwards, the two gradually got acquainted with each other, but it was also plain and ordinary. Tang Peng seemed to have a gentle personality, he was good at taking care of girls, and occasionally a little naughty. Such a man attracted the attention of the opposite sex, not to mention his senior translator. The identity is there, in Su Yi's words: "The future of young talents is limitless, I can assure you of character, if you miss this one, there will be no branch!"

Sometimes Qingwan also thinks that if she insists on finding someone to take that person's place, Tang Peng is a good choice, and she herself is trying to accept it slowly.

The restaurant is a high-end French restaurant near the company. In fact, she doesn't like this style very much. The too romantic environment will make her feel overwhelmed.And such a high-end restaurant is so expensive, her money...

"Why do you look so sad? Do you feel sorry for the money in your pocket?" Recovering his senses, Tang Peng sat across from him, his black suit jacket was taken off, and he was wearing a white shirt with the sleeves rolled up loosely. Very casual.

"Yeah, I'm an ordinary person, not a high-ranking cadre like you, whose annual salary is enough to feed us for most of our lives."

He laughed: "It's as if my money was stolen. Do you have time tomorrow night? Attend a dinner with me."

Before Qingwan could speak, Tang Peng continued: "I don't want you to have any other reasons to prevaricate me this time. You know, I'm also very thin-skinned. I don't have the courage to make the same request a fourth time after being rejected three times. gone."

I can't remember how many times this is the first time he has invited him. People who accompany the opposite sex on occasions like dinner parties are usually relatively close women.It's normal for a person with a job like him to often attend such occasions. Every time he invites her in advance, but she refuses for various reasons. But this time, she changed her mind. Over the years, she I treat myself too badly, occasionally open my heart to give others a chance, and give myself a chance.

"Okay." She nodded and smiled.

A hint of surprise flashed in Tang Peng's eyes, "I thought you would refuse again, my poor darling."

"Have you ever thought that I'm not as perfect as you imagined?" She didn't know why he never gave up.

"No one is perfect, everyone has their own shortcomings, like myself, there are a lot of shortcomings, I don't think you are perfect."

"Then why..."

"Who made me like you first?"

Qingwan turned her head, it was still raining outside, falling on the floor-to-ceiling glass, the stars were dotted, reflecting the light of the street lamp, "If I still can't let go of the past in my heart, do you mind?"

"...Everyone has a past, but that doesn't mean anything. Unless they lose their memory, who can forget what they have experienced in the past?"

"Xiao Yi has mentioned you to me many times."

"Huh?" He raised his eyebrows, "And then?"

"...But I never said that you are so considerate."

After saying this, both of them laughed.

Part3
Of course, it was Tang Peng who paid in the end. After the meal, the two of them came out. Qingwan didn't know what she was thinking, so she walked out the door out of habit. It was still raining outside. She was taken back.

When it fell into his chest, there was a faint scent of cologne.

Memories are rolling in my mind, that familiar chest will always carry a faint scent of soap, and that serious but pleasant voice will always say: "Song Qingwan, when will I stop being so careless?"

The person who once thought that he would never leave him in his whole life gave himself a surprise departure.I thought that there would not be too many people who have deep friendships, but they are always by my side. Maybe this is life?
Qing Wan looked up, looked at the approaching handsome face, and said to her with a gentle smile: "Rush out without thinking when it's raining? Wait for me here, I'll drive over."

In fact, this season is not particularly cold, but whenever it rains in City G, the wind will be extremely strong, and the temperature will drop very quickly. At the beginning, Su Yi often complained in her ear: "The rain is the most annoying, wet Forget it, it was more than 20 degrees yesterday, but when it rains, it becomes five or six degrees, and it still makes people live."

Sitting in the car, the warm breath immediately surrounded her.

"I thought I had grown up a lot during this time." Qingwan said: "I didn't expect that I was still the same as before, careless."

"There's nothing wrong with it. The so-called innocence is the most precious thing. Many people have changed too much after entering the society." Tang Peng said, "I'm optimistic about you and subvert this theory."

"You think I'm too great." Qingwan smiled, "Actually, I really envy those who have changed too much, like me, it seems that no matter how you change, you can't leave your original intention."

If it is really possible to change too much, she really hopes that she can become another Song Qingwan, throw away all the memories of the past and cherish what she has now, or simply like most people who enter the workplace, everything is "money" look.

The car drove smoothly all the way.

He asked: "Go back like this?"

"Yeah." She nodded, looking at the rain flowers outside the window, "I still have a project to catch up tonight, I could have put it off tomorrow, but I agreed to accompany you to the dinner party."

"Hearing what you say, I seem to have sinned a lot..."

As soon as the words were spoken, there was a loud impact sound. Qing Wan was wearing a seat belt, her body was pushed forward by inertia, and then flung to the back of the seat.The eyes suddenly went dark, and the labor pain came from the back of the head.

Tang Peng cursed a sentence in English in a low voice, followed by the sound of keys on the mobile phone, the sound was a bit vague.

At that time Song Qingwan was thinking, if she was going to die so soon, at least let her see him again, right?

As a result of the examination at the hospital, both of them had mild concussions.The reason was that the driver of the large truck driving behind Tang Peng was drunk driving, and it was raining today, and the road was slippery, so he hit it.

The drunk driver was so disturbed that he was completely sober and asked to bear the maintenance and medical expenses of the other party after taking notes.

When he walked out of the doctor's office, Tang Peng patted his head: "Fortunately, I didn't drive the broken car at home today. Otherwise, if we were hit by that big guy, would we both survive?" He turned his head. Said to Qing Wan, "If you feel uncomfortable after you go home, remember to speak up, otherwise my conscience will be disturbed."

"There shouldn't be anything wrong, right?" She tilted her head unintentionally, and found that in the hall window, illuminated by white fluorescent lamps, was a familiar half-length photo, hidden on the top of many famous doctors in the hospital, with the words Black Song typeface—Dean: Fan Rusheng.

Part4
Tang Peng was still whispering something in her ear, she couldn't hear clearly, but she came back to her senses when she heard "You must have been fooled, right?" She smiled, a little far-fetched, "I'm really fine, I can accompany you to the dinner party tomorrow!"

"Really? That's good." He said, "Let's wait at the door. I just called Dayong and asked him to come pick us up."

"Actually, it doesn't need to be so troublesome. I can take the bus back."

"It's not good to be so much. Of course I brought you out and I'm responsible for sending you back."

The two talked and walked to the gate, it was still raining outside, so the two retreated back, planning to find a place to sit and wait, when a slightly complaining voice came: "...Auntie said that the President of the United States I'm not as busy as you. If I hadn't come here, when would you plan to do it? Even if you don't think about yourself, you should think about it for your aunt. She survived so hard, and it's not worth worrying about you to death ah……"

Then came a deep and steady voice: "I see."

"I know, I know, you say that every time, but every time you just say you can't do it..."

When Qingwan saw him coming out arm in arm with Mo Luo from back then, the only two words that came to her mind were: Ha ha.

In these years, she never admitted in front of anyone that she was waiting for him. Even if it was Su Yi, she just said that I would forget him, and you should never mention him in front of me again.

Sometimes, self-deception is what every woman who loves deeply but can't let go will do.

Every night, she thought of him and couldn't sleep, she kept telling herself, wait, wait, maybe at that time he did have a last resort, after all, he owed her an explanation.

Countless times, she was not making excuses for herself or for him, finding reasons, a reason to wait for him.

It's just that when he really stood in front of her, the woman beside him was the one who could make him more dazzling, the one she never dared to mention in her memory.

Years of waiting and longing have become extremely naive at this moment, Qingwan has never found herself so ridiculous, like a clown who has performed a joke on stage for five years, thinking that if he paints himself with colorful paint, others will see I don't know what I'm thinking, in fact, everyone just doesn't say it.

When she touched his eyes again, she had completely covered her inner world.His eyes were still so beautiful, and there was still a hint of surprise.

Surprised?These four words really can't describe him, that young man was so arrogant back then, but now he is even more handsome, mature, but still outstanding.

Obviously, he also saw her, his lips moved slightly, as if he wanted to call her name, but he didn't know how to say it.

Maybe it's been too long, and it will feel strange and strange to call this name for a long time, right?
On the contrary, she greeted her generously, as if they just went out for dinner, instead of being separated for five years, she said: "Fan Rusheng, I haven't seen you in five years, are you okay?"

"Yeah." After all, he was Fan Rusheng, and instantly regained his usual composure: "Long time no see, how have you been these few years?"

not good.Thinking of this in her heart, she still smiled sweetly: "Okay, how about you?" She looked at Mo Luo who was beside him, "You must be living a happy life, right? Sister Mo Luo, I haven't formally met you yet. I've met you, and I've always liked your name, it's very special."

Mo Luo smiled: "You are Rusheng's former...university classmate, right? Rusheng hasn't met an old classmate for a long time, it's such a rare coincidence, why don't we go out for a meal together?"

"No need, we've already eaten." Qing Wan smiled, "My boyfriend just got here because of a little accident while driving, we have to go back." After speaking, she took Tang Peng's hand naturally, The corner of the mouth is still smiling.

"Are you okay?" Mo Luo asked.

Qingwan shook her head.

Mo Luo turned her eyes to look at Tang Peng: "This is your boyfriend? It looks familiar... I remember, it's the well-known translator in G City, Tang Peng?"

"It's a pleasure to meet you." Tang Peng maintained a gentleman's demeanor: "Speaking of which, Dean Fan and I are also at the same school, but you haven't met much before, and we will get to know each other better when we have time."

Fan Rusheng stared at her deeply, his eyes fell from his shoulders to his arms, and landed on the hands they were holding.

Part5
Qing Wan turned her head away, she didn't want to look any more, she smiled at Mo Luo: "We still have something to do, let's go first."

Turning around, the smile collapsed in a mess.

When walking out, it was still raining outside, Tang Peng looked at the raindrops outside, turned around, held the hand she was holding on his arm in his palm, and said with a smile: "I just heard the word boyfriend, You can't afford it."

"..." Qing Wan lowered her eyes, her eyelashes trembled slightly, and bit her lip, "Just now...that person was my ex-boyfriend."

"I know." Tang Peng nodded, suddenly let go of her hand, and patted her on the head like a child: "I was joking with you, I think it scared you."

"You're angry?"

"How can there be?" He laughed, "Do I look like such a stingy person?"

Light night silence.

Tang Peng suddenly held her hand again: "Qingwan, I..."

"I'll think about it." Qing Wan said in a small voice.

In the hospital lobby, Fan Rusheng stood where he was, with his hands on both sides of his body, clenched tighter and tighter. He never thought that he would meet him in such an unprepared situation. It's not that he didn't think about looking for her in the past year. I was so busy years ago that I had no time to separate myself. After I finally settled down, I wanted to find an appropriate time to say an apology. I rehearsed it thousands of times in my heart, but I never had a chance to say it.Even though she expected that she would not be able to wait for him all the time, she still looked forward to it.

But, after all, is it too late?

Waking up in the morning, the fierce pain in the stomach made it difficult for Qingwan to even get out of bed.

He fell back on the pillow weakly, and sighed no longer to be brave.Since that person reappeared in her life, she has suffered from insomnia for several nights in a row. In addition, in the past five years, she has lived alone, eating irregularly, and suffering from old stomach problems. It is not surprising.

In the past few years, her life alone has been too simple. She works, eats and sleeps. Occasionally, she ignores the time because of her busy work. In the blink of an eye, several days have passed, followed by numb repetitions.

With a sigh, she got up from the bed, no matter how uncomfortable she was, she still had to do work. Now, apart from being busy at work, she really didn't know what she could do, and she was afraid of locking herself in a room alone. I only asked for leave once, and then, I never dared to do it again.

It seems that after falling in love with a Fan Rusheng, he spent all her happiness.

She suddenly remembered the cold joke that acne told her when she was in college. One day, there was a man who was fishing, and he was fishing, fishing, fishing, fishing, fishing, fishing, fishing, fishing. Fishing fishing fishing fishing fishing fishing fishing fishing fishing fishing fishing fishing it fell.Just like her love, she fell in love with love, and couldn't get up again.

(End of this chapter)