write our ending together

Chapter 14 Love Dies, Long Live Freedom

Part1
To Fan Rusheng, getting married right after college was probably the most capricious thing he has ever done in his life.

After getting married, the two are still the same as usual. They eat together at noon every day. At night, when Rusheng finishes work, he will see Qingwan squatting in the dormitory waiting for him. On his table is either her stewed pork rib soup or some small dishes. Dim sum, Ru Sheng said: "Actually, you do this every day, and if I don't eat it, I won't lose a piece of meat."

She just sat on the side and smiled foolishly, and delivered the daily snack as usual.

He didn't know that women like to make their men fat, and that's something they should be proud of.So much so that the old Yuan in the dormitory repeatedly lamented that he would find such a caring girlfriend to be his wife in the future.

Not many people know about their marriage, except for Su Yi and Cao Zhou, not even Fan's mother, so they will not be like other couples in front of others. Su Yi said: "That's because they have a strong desire to be husband and wife, and they always have a kind of expectation for things that have not been achieved, so calling each other is like a temporary Satisfy the fantasies in my heart. In fact, I don’t know until I’m married. There’s so much romance. Husbands and wives will feel nasty if they shout too much. The truth is plain and plain.”

Qingwan sometimes felt that Su Yi's thoughts were too realistic, but Su Yi retorted: "That's because I knew this world too early."

At the end of September, the results of CET-[-] came out, and Qingwan and Su Yi passed the test together, washing away their shame.

Such a happy event had to be celebrated. Under Su Yi's strong instigation, they ate a big meal at a western restaurant near the school, where Rusheng worked, of course.

Su Yi has always been popular, and there were many people who came that day, including Qing Wan's acquaintances, such as Tang Peng and Acne, as well as Cao Zhou and a few people he had met at the bar before.

It happened to be a Saturday that day, and Qingwan had made an agreement with Rusheng early and promised to come, not to mention she was afraid that he would not come, so she chose Saturday, so that even if he disagreed, she would work in a western restaurant Under certain circumstances, she can also force him to participate.But that day, he didn't show up until after everyone was full of wine and food. He asked the manager, and the manager also said that Rusheng didn't ask for leave today.

Su Yi, whose face was flushed from drinking, quietly whispered in her ear: "Your male god is too disrespectful, even though I have a sworn feud with him, but at least I'm helping you celebrate, he Why haven't you come yet?"

Qing Wan tried her best to shake off her disappointment, and explained for him: "Maybe something happened in the hospital. The work of the hospital is not accurate! When a patient gets sick, it's like God changing his face. It changes as soon as it says."

Sure enough, she expected that some things are like God changing his face, changing as he says, which makes people caught off guard.

Fan Rusheng did go to the hospital, but not as a practitioner.

Mother Fan's old illness relapsed, this time it was more serious.Only later did Qingwan realize that Fan's mother had liver cancer.

When she and Su Yi rushed to the hospital, they saw him from a distance—and Mo Luo standing beside him.Since she was with Ru Sheng, she hasn't seen Mo Luo for a long time, and she never asked the reason, just like she never asked Mo Luo about his relationship with him.But at that distance, she didn't have the courage to go up, so she could only look at it from a distance. She was wearing contact lenses, so when she saw Rusheng's eyebrows, she was a little confused and conflicted, and Moluo was like a big sister. Talk to him about something.

Su Yi asked: "What's the relationship between that woman and Fan Rusheng?"

She shook her head, not even knowing herself.

Su Yi said, "Why do I look so familiar? What's her name?"

"I heard from Rusheng that her name is Mo Luo."

"Mo Luo? What a strange name...but I seem to have heard it somewhere."

Su Yi patted herself on the head, drank too much, her brain was not functioning well, and she couldn't remember anything, but at this moment, Qingwan's mind was not on her.

Mo Luo seemed to take a look this way, and finally said something to Ru Sheng earnestly, then pointed to this side, then turned and left.

Qingwan and Su Yi walked forward, the expression on Rusheng's face made it impossible to see what he was thinking, but it gave her the illusion that he was about to go away.

She didn't ask Moluo what he wanted from him, nor did she blame him for not attending her celebration banquet, but asked softly: "Auntie, how are you?"

Ru Sheng was silent for a while before saying, "Go in and have a look."

Part2
Fan's mother's situation is really not optimistic. In order to earn more medical expenses, Rusheng is so busy that the sky is dark. Before that, it was already late enough to come back every day. When you leave the bed before dawn and go out, how much time is left for real rest?
Under such circumstances, it became extremely difficult for Qing Wan to even see him. In fact, she herself was very tired. Apart from going to class, she came to visit Fan's mother every day. In order to save time for Ru Sheng, she came to watch at night. There are other patients living in the ward, most of them are seriously ill like Mother Fan. Every night, it is either the sound of the patient on the opposite bed tossing and turning, unable to sleep, or the sound of moaning in pain from the opposite side. Going to the bathroom, so basically she doesn't sleep well every night.

She was very sleepy that day for some reason, and even though she was not sleeping well, she couldn't wake up anyway. She had a terrible dream at night, in which there were Ru Sheng, Fan Mu, Mo Luo and her.

He said to her: "Qing Wan, I regret marrying you. I can't be self-willed in my life, you see." He pointed to Fan's mother on the hospital bed: "This is the price of my self-willedness."

Then he left with Mo Luo, broke up and turned around.

When she was half asleep and half awake, she felt a pair of hands stroking her hair, and then a pair of lips kissed her trembling eyelashes, and she murmured, "Don't leave me..."

The person who touched her froze, seeing that she was still in a deep sleep, with no signs of waking up, and felt a little relieved.

Everything was tidied up too quickly, Ru Xiao who was standing at the door looked at his brother, and asked after a while, "Are you really not going to tell Sister Qingwan? How sad will she be if we leave like this?"

How could he not know how sad she would be.

It's just that sometimes choices are more difficult than hard work. Now that he has made a choice, he cannot turn back.

At five o'clock in the morning, the hospital's luggage was packed.

After going out, Mo Luo's car was already waiting outside the gate.Before getting into the car, Fan's mother said to him: "I thought Xiaowan could bring you happiness. If you insist on leaving because of me, I..."

"Mom!" He interrupted her: "Stop talking, the only thing I want to do now is to go to the United States to cure your illness."

"But Rusheng, in that case, are you happy?"

"What's not to be happy?" He said, "Some people can't look forward to it all their lives. After going abroad for further study, when they come back, their status will be different. Mom, I said that I want you and Ru Xiao to have a good life." Days. I have an opportunity now, and I don’t want to let it go.”

"What about the little night?"

Ru Sheng closed her eyes, and suddenly remembered what Mo Luo said to him that day, she said: "This time, my father and I managed to win the opportunity to study abroad. As long as you go abroad, the hospital over there will help you for free. This will not only win your own future, but also improve your mother's life. What are you still thinking about?"

"Rusheng, you know that my dad is a person who cherishes talents very much. It is because he thinks highly of you that he will help you like this. I also know that you have your difficulties. If it were the same as before, you would definitely follow him without hesitation." I'm leaving, but now... But you have to know that if you miss this opportunity, maybe you won't be so lucky in the future. If you lose love, you still have family affection and your ideals, but if you don't even have ideals Lost, what ability do you have to ensure that your love will be smooth sailing? You will lose your mother! Besides, it is only five years. If she really loves you so much, she won’t be willing to wait for five years, right? ?So, Rusheng, you have to think clearly, there are some things, if you miss it, you can’t do it again.”

But, as Mother Fan asked at the end, what about Qingwan?

He really thought about promising her a future, and the decision to get married was not completely willful, but, the world was unpredictable, and some things happened by surprise, and he couldn't give up everything about him for her alone.

What Mo Luo said was cruel, but it was not without error.

Without her, he still has his ideals.

Without ideals, he lost everything.

So, what did he promise her a future?
That was the choice he finally made after struggling for many days. After the result came out, he realized that he was so selfish.But who in this world is not selfish?They think everything is too simple, they are too young, and they can't afford many things. Faced with such a dilemma, the only thing he is generous about is that he doesn't want her to wait.

He thought, the future is still very long, maybe one day there will be a better episode in her life, maybe there will be someone she loves so much at the next intersection, and then he will hold on tightly and write a beautiful story together ending.

But I never thought that the beautiful people or things in life are always limited, and I miss them accidentally.The next one will be better is just an excuse to comfort yourself.

Part3
Fan Rusheng didn't know what it was like to look at the empty bed and the divorce agreement on the table when Qingwan woke up.

Anyone who said that must be sad, right?

But that's just talking, if you're not the person involved, you can't feel the tearing pain.

When Qingwan called, Rusheng was about to board the plane, and Mo Luo answered the phone, he paused, and took it.

"I heard..." Her voice came from the microphone, very calm, not as choked up as he thought.

He was silent.

"No matter how many years you go, I will wait for you..."

"No." He refused almost immediately: "Don't wait."

She was silent for a while before asking, "Why?"

"Because it's not worth it...because I can't afford your waiting."

Everything in the world seems to have suddenly quieted down, only the slight breathing of each other can be heard, so cautious, for fear of disturbing someone.

"light……"

"Beep beep..."

When he chose to say goodbye, there was a busy voice over there, and she didn't even have a chance to say goodbye.

Saying goodbye is too heavy, if possible, she may hope that she will never see him again in this life.

Qingwan hung up the phone with her hands still trembling slightly, standing on the highest floor of G University, facing the wind, her face was indifferent like a piece of stagnant water, without any ups and downs.

Su Yi stood beside her and looked at her worriedly, "Qingwan, don't let yourself be too hard on jumping from here, it's too high, you will die ugly."

She smiles and looks at the sky.What a beautiful cloud, what a soft wind, she stretched out her hand, closed her eyes and said, "Xiao Yi, did you see that? I thought I had finally found happiness, and it didn't take long before I fell from the paradise of happiness..."

It turned out that Fan Rusheng was still the cruelest person who could hurt her the most.

"Qingwan..." Su Yi looked at her with worry in his eyes.

"If everything could be done again, I would rather never meet him." She murmured, regretting meeting him for the first time, "Even though we have been together for so long, I always have a sense of insecurity that he will leave. But I still tried to work hard, grasping the last sliver of hope, and revolved around him all the time, even thinking about getting married. But in the end, in his heart, I was not that important. There has always been a relationship between me and him. It’s two people running and chasing one after the other, just like the lines of an X, they finally found a point of intertwining, but eventually parted ways.”

It turns out that things like feelings cannot be brought back through unilateral efforts.

Su Yi saw that something was wrong with Qingwan, and called her name loudly.

Maybe it's because the sun is too strong today, and Qing Wan only feels the surroundings are quiet, but faints deeply.

Part4
I opened my eyes again, and the smell of hospital medicine filled the surroundings. It seemed that something had been lost in my body, and it would never come back again.

The door opened, and a doctor in a white coat walked in. Seeing her on the bed, he chuckled softly, "Are you awake?"

Su Yi got out from nowhere, saw Qingwan on the bed opened her eyes, and hurried over: "Thank God

, you finally woke up. After finishing speaking, he said to the doctor beside him, "Dad, come and see if she's okay." "

Qingwan stared blankly at the familiar doctor who walked up to her, and said with a smile: "Except for some malnutrition, there is nothing serious. Remember to take more supplements when you go back."

Su Yi naturally saw her eyes with question marks, and holding the doctor's hand, he said, "You haven't forgotten, have you? This guy always said that I listened to my daughter...that and that, and so and so, and so and so. The doctor who passed, he is my father."

Fan Rusheng, three words, is the name that I can no longer say last night.

Qingwan understood, and smiled slightly: "Hello, Uncle Su."

Father Su nodded, and after exchanging a bottle of medicine with her, he left space for the two children.

"Qingwan, I..."

"Needless to say." Qingwan interrupted her, "Xiaoyi, from this moment on, I want to start over."

Yeah, start over.

It turns out that when the heartache is numb, it will not hurt anymore. Love is gone, and he is gone, and only she is left. Suddenly, it seems that she wants to be herself again, so don't say anything...

During the whole semester of her junior year, Qing Wan spent her time in the eyes of others mocking and sympathizing, but for her, even the biggest heartache has survived, so the eyes of others are nothing.

Everyone expected her to do the one thing some lovelorn must do—cry, but she didn't seem angry at all, just calm, like the ruins of a fire.

She ate and slept, just like when she was a freshman, thankful that she had Su Yi by her side.

Both Tang Peng and Acne visited her when she was hospitalized, and everyone talked and laughed together, and she never shed a single tear from the beginning to the end.

On December [-]nd, as usual, Song's parents called her one day in advance to wish her a happy birthday, and sent a tip for her to spend as usual. The difference was that she no longer had to be busy for another person on her own birthday. In the dark,.

She invited all the people in the dormitory to go out to have a rub together. That day the four girls drank so much that the sky was dark.Both Chen Jiaojiao and Xu Fen were the first to drink and party, and only she and Su Yi were left singing loudly while banging on the table desperately, and laughing "haha" from time to time.

All eyes are on this side, are these two girls crazy?
The boss looked at them and couldn't help feeling: It's nice to be young!
Qing Wan looked at Su Yi and smiled ambiguously: "I heard that a man is chasing you!"

"What do you want a man for?" Su Yi curled her lips: "A good friend is suffering so much because of a man. Men are not good things."

"Well, it's not a good thing..." Qing Wan laughed.

"Cheers! Die love, long live liberty!"

"Long live freedom!" Qing Wan's tears fell, one drop, two drops, faster and faster, all the courage was destroyed.

That day, Su Yi opened her arms, hugged the fragile girl, and let her cry out all the sadness accumulated in her heart.

Part5
When the end of the senior year came, the plane drew a beautiful arc in the blue sky.

After taking the last course of the university, Ancient Literary Theory, Su Yi was as casual as ever. When answering the question, he criticized Yu Qiuyu's article without any character, and it was completely full of rhetoric. Unexpectedly, it was exactly what the lecturer wanted.

The penultimate one left, Song Qingwan sat in the classroom and gossiped about some things with Su Yi, seeing the lecturer was about to leave, Qingwan thought she should say "goodbye, teacher", hesitated, the lecturer had already walked outside the door, That "goodbye" still only stays in my heart in the end.

In the evening, Su Yi went to take a shower. Qingwan sat in front of the computer and was bored. She opened Qzone and saw that her last diary was posted a year ago. At that time, she was still innocent and messed up.I don’t know when I put the song in the space, GiGi’s "Missed": Missing the sky is all fault, creating joys and sorrows, we have to bear the results, each person is another person’s scenery, when you are lonely, what is better? Love is more naked.

She couldn't help typing out a diary with her ten fingers on the keyboard, and she was as self-literary as: "The school days are over, and there are some "goodbyes" that I haven't had time to say, so I won't have a chance to say them again, such as the teacher who is about to say goodbye, Classmates, and..." After writing this, her hands paused, and she finally failed to type out those three words.

At this time, Su Yi called in the bathroom: "Qingwan, help me get some underwear from the closet, I forgot to bring it in."

She laughed, and suddenly remembered that earlier, when they were planning how to catch up with Fan Rusheng, Su Yi suddenly changed his face and said that he needed to go to the bathroom, but he forgot to bring toilet paper.

Looking back, it all seems like it happened yesterday.

I remember reading it in a book: For a woman, love is the whole of life, but for a man, it is only a small part of his life. No matter what promise he made at the beginning, when faced with the choice Sometimes, they are always more realistic and rational than women.

Sometimes, feelings are not necessarily thicker than paper.

(End of this chapter)