I stand on the bridge and watch the scenery

Chapter 28 The Last Beginning

At noon the next day, after pretending all morning, Xiao Li finally approached Shuiguang and asked curiously: "Sister Shuiguang, then Vice President Feng...does he like you? Did you go to another place after dinner last night?" Activity?"

"I have nothing to do with him." Shui Guang said, thinking that she might ask endlessly, he said directly, "It's also impossible."

Xiao Li showed a surprised expression, "Why? Don't you like him? Sister Shuiguang, that Vice President Feng is so outstanding."

If it was the usual or other things, Shuiguang would be willing to answer why her colleagues frequently ask why, but today, she no longer has the patience to explain one more sentence, "He is outstanding, so I have to like him and accept him? Xiao Li, from now on, If that's the case, don't call me again."

Xiao Li was stunned. She actually did it out of good intentions yesterday. Feng Yi is very outstanding. If he really likes Xiao Shuiguang, then she can set up a line. If Shuiguang is also interesting, it will be a happy event. It was a bit aggrieved to resist such a cold remark, and finally threw the sentence "Then I am nosy", turned and left the office.

Shui Guang propped his forehead with one hand and leaned on the table, closing his eyes wearily.

A piece of news was quietly displayed on the computer screen: "...the music star Chen Minjun had a tryst with a man in a high-end nightclub the day before yesterday. He avoided being seen by the reporter. Later, the reporter learned that the man dressed in a famous brand was Zhang Zhenglan, the manager of GIT, a well-known domestic computer information company. Zhang Zhenglan initially founded GIT in 2005. The current market value of this company is as high as 13.5 billion yuan ..." At the end of the text is a photo, in the dim light, it is a picture of a woman snuggling up to a man.

After Jiajia sent her the address, she was surprised and asked cautiously: "Shuiguang, isn't this your boyfriend?"

Looking at the words above, it seems that I don't feel much anymore, and my heart is so cold that only numbness remains.

That day she heard him say, Shuiguang, I don't love you anymore, and she watched the man help him in while she sat on the stone steps under the eaves.When Jiang Yuru came out, he told her: "He's asleep, you...would you like to come back in two days? He's not in a good mood these days." She thought to herself, she really wouldn't come here in the future.

When she got up, Jiang Yuru asked her: "Are you okay?"

She smiled silently, "It's already like this, can it be worse?"

When Shui Guang walked out of the unit building when she got off work, several people rushed towards her, holding up their cameras and pressing the shutter.

"Excuse me, are you Miss Xiao Shuiguang?"

"Are you and the GIT boss always in a relationship?"

"Miss Xiao, do you know Chen Minjun?"

"It is said that Ms. Xiao, you have ever filmed a GIT game promotional video?"

Shui Guang was stunned for a moment, and she blocked her forehead with her hand when someone flashed the shutter twice again.She wants to pass through these people, but Yuji is notoriously hard to get rid of, Shuiguang can't move an inch, thinking sadly, Xiao Shuiguang, you always think that is the worst, but the next moment reality will tell you , no, you see, there are worse.

The figures in front of her and the noisy sounds around her made something in her heart go away bit by bit. When will this farce be completely over?After all, she didn't owe him anything.

Someone grabbed her wrist, and she subconsciously wanted to shake it off, but she heard the man whisper, "It's me."

Feng Yi squeezed into the crowd at some point and blocked the cameras for her.Shui Guang didn't have the strength to struggle anymore, so he took his hand and pushed those people away to take her out. Feng Yi's car was parked on the road next to him, he opened the door and let her sit in, and the closed car door blocked her. The flying outside is short and long.

Feng Yi sat in the driver's seat and started the car. After driving for about a hundred meters, he said again, "I didn't expect you to be a celebrity." There was a tone to moderate the atmosphere in these words.Shui Guang didn't even have the heart to perfunctory others, "Please stop the car in front... Thank you."

Feng Yi looked at her, "Last time you sent me to my destination, let me take you this time. Besides, if you go back to pick up the car now, those people probably haven't left yet."

Shui Guang remained silent.

When she got off the car at the alley, she said "thank you" again.

And Feng Yi, who didn't say much all the way, just said: "Take a good rest, everything will be fine."

Everything will be fine?

Shuiguang thought, this is the most impossible luxury for human beings to realize.

Early in the morning, Xiao Shuiguang came out of the house, it was drizzling, she was holding an umbrella, and when she walked out of the yard, she saw him leaning against the opposite wall.Zhang Zhenglan waited here for a long time, his hair and clothes were already wet. When he saw her, he stood up straight and walked over.

He stood in front of her and said softly, "It's so early."

It was quiet in the alley where no one passed by, and the sound of cleaners sweeping the road could be heard from the street outside.Everything was so natural, he appeared here and greeted her, as if it was only right and proper.

Shui Guang lowered her eyelids and smiled, it seems that this kind of situation has happened before, she felt a little troubled at that time, but now, she is extremely tired.

"I'll take it to you."

Shui Guang looked at him, she said, no need.She said it very flatly, but that kind of unnecessary need is absolutely true.The pretended calm in Zhang Zhenglan's eyes was a bit broken, and she forced a "hmm", "Shuiguang, I'm here to apologize to you... I didn't know that those people would come to trouble you, and it won't happen again in the future." His voice was a little lower, "I have nothing to do with her."

Xiao Shuiguang listened with an indifferent expression, and said softly, "Zhang Zhenglan, you are the most hypocritical person I have ever met..."

The man in front of him turned pale instantly.

There really seemed to be an irreparable point between them.

She told him he was hypocritical.Yes, he, Zhang Zhenglan, was lying, and he gave her all his true feelings.

But all the words could no longer find support in front of her.

"I'm sorry." To this day, except for this sentence, he can't say anything else.

I'm sorry I couldn't guard you till the end, I'm sorry I let you face those helplessness alone, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...

Shui Guang didn't speak again, she passed him and walked towards the entrance of the alley, the rain was getting heavier, and it was crackling on the umbrella.When she walked out of the alley, she saw the car parked at the intersection, the body was covered with traces of long journeys, she just glanced at it, and then walked towards the bus stop not far away.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the rain floated into her eyes, but she didn't reach out to tease her, despite the dazzling pain.

Holding a black umbrella, Feng Yi approached her and said, "Morning. You didn't drive the car back yesterday, so I think you might have a little trouble getting to work this morning..." Finally, seeing the tears on her face stopped.

As if feeling something in his heart, he raised his head and looked behind her. Feng Yi saw Zhang Zhenglan standing at the entrance of the alley at a glance.

In the rain, Zhang Zhenglan looked at her back, the man put his hand on her shoulders, and brought her into the car.

It was raining heavily, and Feng Yi's speed was not fast.He turned his head slightly and saw that she was looking at the rear mirror of the car, and the person in the mirror was drenched in the rain and gradually blurred.

After turning the corner, Feng Yi said, "It is said that this rainy season will last until May and June."

Outside the half-closed window of the car, the cool wind blew on his body, and the water light wiped his eyes before he said dumbly: "Thank you." As if knowing that she would say get off the car next, Feng Yi said first: "Let me I’ll send you off again, so it’s the beginning and the end.” This sentence somewhat indicates that he will not “pursue” her again.Because Shuiguang didn't want to have emotional involvement with others, he did it very simply.But this person didn't have any malicious intentions, and he helped himself again and again, and confronted him coldly if he couldn't do it.

"Thank you."

"Miss Xiao, you should at least smile when thanking others, right?" Feng Yisiwen had a smile on his face, "In just two days, you said 'thank you' to me four times, but none of them came with a smile. smiling."

Naturally, Shui Guang didn't laugh or talk to him, his face was faint, God was just right for the occasion, there were a few muffled thunders, and the pouring rain became more and more ferocious.

Feng Yi looked at the blurred scenery outside the window, and after a while, he said: "Sometimes in life, it is always very ironic, and it may be a lifetime when you turn around."

"...what are you trying to say?"

Feng Yi chuckled, "Actually, I don't want to say this, but if you still can't let go, why don't you turn around?"

The car was quiet for a moment, when he thought Xiao Shuiguang would not answer him, he heard her whispering: "Because I don't want to miss anyone anymore, no matter whether he is alive or dead."

When Shui Guang went home at night, he was not surprised to see him again.He got out of the car, the winter night was getting dark early, and the street lights were already on the road, making his face a bit obscure.He said hoarsely, "Is he chasing you?"

"……Yes."

He leaned against the back door, covering his eyes with his hands as if very tired, "...What about you? Do you want to accept him? Is he treating you well?"

Shui Guang looked at his own reflection on the wet ground, blurry and cold, "He's not bad, at least, he loves me."

Zhang Zhenglan laughed, put down her hands, her eyes were flushed, "Are you saying I don't love you...Xiao Shuiguang, you say I don't love you?"

Shui Guang kept clasping his palms, and tightened his grip even after saying a word, "Is it...it's none of my business anymore."

The man in front of him suddenly became ashamed, and said bitterly: "Really?" At that moment, people felt that he would fall down.

When the car drove away, Shui Guang let go of his tightly clenched hands, and the pain gradually eased.But the pain in the hand was gone, but the pain in the heart became more and more painful.It is said that there is nothing more sad than a dead heart, but why does it still hurt when the heart is dead?
"Miss Xiao, if you've thought it over and are sure you want to get rid of this child, just sign here..."

"Hello?"

"I'm looking for Zhang Zhenglan..."

"Boss Zhang is not here, are you Miss Xiao? I'm He Lan, do you still remember me? Well, the boss has gone out, and the phone has been left in the company."

"Can you help me find him?"

"This... How about I call Ms. Jiang to see, it was Ms. Jiang who came to pick him up earlier, can you wait?"

"Sorry, Zheng Lan doesn't want to answer the phone right now. Who are you? If you have anything to tell me, I'll pass it on to you later."

"...No need, it's fine."

Shui Guang woke up from the dream, it was already the beginning of May, but she felt a bit of coolness coming up from her back, it was bitingly cold.

At the age of 24, he has already carried a life on his body, his own flesh and blood.

The pain at that time was due to the body, but now recalling every night, it was as if the body and mind were being cut by a knife.

There is nothing in this world that you cannot let go of. When it hurts, you will naturally let it go, including the only hope in your heart.

On Saturday afternoon, Jingqin handed over the child to Shuiguang to take care of her, and went to the movies with her husband, saying that a blockbuster American movie was released recently and it was very exciting.Shui Guang smiled, wished them a happy date, sent Jing Qin and the others away, and she carried Si Lan into the room.

At that time, the child was still fine, and Shui Guang took a nap with him.After dinner, the parents went for a walk in a nearby park, but the baby started crying and vomited out all the rice noodles that had been soaked for him.

Shui Guang immediately went to get a towel to wipe him, but she didn't expect the child to twitch slightly. She was very anxious, touched his forehead and found that he still had a fever, and the child's condition suddenly deteriorated.

When he opened the door and entered, Shuiguang was hastily wrapping the child in a blanket.When she looked up and saw him, she just froze for a moment, then turned around and picked up the child, picked up the wet towel next to her, ran to the living room, took her bag and ran out.

Zhang Zhenglan put down a bag of things in her hand, it was her belongings, and returning it to her was an excuse to come to see her, and she finally figured it out during the few days she went back, or rather, she had to admit that she I don't want to have anything to do with him anymore, so I come here for the last time and tell her that I won't come to her again in the future, so that she... can rest assured.

He chased after her, and the sound of anxious footsteps echoed in the alley. Her back looked a little thin, so he gritted his teeth and followed.

A car just stopped at the intersection. Shui Guang stretched out her hand to stop her, and got into the car with her child in her arms. Someone came in next to her. She took a look and didn't stop her. She only said to the driver, "Go to the hospital, hurry up!"

In the car, Shui Guang repeatedly measured the temperature on the child's forehead, "Master, please drive faster."

"Girl, I'm almost at 130 yards."

"...Shuiguang, don't worry, you'll be fine." Zhang Zhenglan finally opened his mouth. Compared with Shuiguang's anxiety, he seemed much calmer, but Shuiguang had no intention of paying any attention to him at this moment.

The taxi drove hurriedly and nervously for about ten minutes, when suddenly there was a screeching sound of brakes coming from outside the car, which was particularly frightening on the quiet road at night.

It turned out that an electric car driver on the side rushed into the motorway because it was a turning and couldn't brake in time.

After the safety pass, the driver put on the brakes and stepped on the accelerator, looked in the rearview mirror, and cursed a few obscenities angrily.At this time, Zhang Zhenglan suddenly saw the situation in front of the car, and his face changed, "Be careful!" But it was too late, just when the driver was speeding up, a minivan drove up, and the taxi Shuiguang was riding in It was driven in the opposite lane next to it because of people before.Facing the glare of the oncoming truck's glare, the driver turned the steering wheel in an emergency, and could only instinctively borrow a seat to give way, but the accident happened too fast, and under a violent impact, the car was slammed into the road On the side of the trunk!
At that time, Shui Guang only remembered being thrown underneath, and then there was darkness.

When waking up in the hospital, Shui Guang felt unreal.She was stunned for a while, and in the next second she was looking for the child in a hurry.The nurse held her back and told her the baby was fine.But she had to see it with her own eyes to be relieved, struggling to get up to pull out the needle.At this moment Jingqin was coming in with a kettle.She rushed over and pulled Shui Guang and said, Silan is fine, you lie down.Xiaoqin also said that the child only had some minor scratches on his body, but he had a convulsion before, and the doctor had already seen it, and he was fine. Ou Shaohua was taking care of him in the children's ward.

After confirming that Si Lan was fine, Shui Guang still felt a throbbing pain in his heart, and... what about him?
Jingqin has always been able to look at people, "Shuiguang, that person, the doctor said, his hand was injured a bit, and there are no other problems, and he has been discharged from the hospital."

Discharged... Shui Guang repeated this word in his mind, and finally closed his eyes and leaned against the head of the bed. After completely relaxing, his chest was still a little tight, and he realized that he had been holding his breath when he was thinking of him.

He was discharged from the hospital, but did not come to see her.Maybe seen it, when she was unconscious.Shui Guang thought, no matter what, as long as there is nothing wrong, it will be fine.

Xiaoqin said again: "The driver who was driving was lucky. Nothing happened. They all hit the co-pilot. Fortunately, none of you were sitting in the co-pilot seat."

Shui Guang vaguely thought of something in his mind, but felt that he was thinking too much.

She sat in the back seat with him.

Seeing that she was in a daze again, Yu Jingqin helped her raise the quilt, and said softly, "You just woke up, don't think too much. Although the doctor said that you are not seriously injured, you have always experienced a big danger. , should rest more."

Shui Guang nodded silently, and lay down in a restless state of mind.Her injury recovered quickly, and she went through the procedures and was discharged from the hospital soon accompanied by her family.

After that, everything went back to normal.

It seemed that this car accident was just a fantasy, it happened so suddenly, and ended so vaguely, it didn't even leave any obvious scars on the body, if you don't think about it, it's as if it never happened.

Shui Guang sometimes wondered if he was dreaming again, dreaming that he came and then left quietly.

Then one day Shuiguang met Feng Yi at the entrance of the supermarket.In fact, the two have met before, either at work or in a restaurant near the workplace, but because they were with their colleagues, they just nodded at each other without saying a word.

Feng Yi saw her at this moment, and came up to greet her, "What a coincidence, Miss Xiao. I heard that you were in a car accident earlier, but after hearing from your leader that you are fine, I didn't bother you."

Feng Yi seemed to be born a modest gentleman, no matter what the occasion, whether it was retreating or advancing, he behaved appropriately, without making people feel uncomfortable at all.

Shui Guang said: "Thank you."

Feng Yi couldn't help laughing when he heard this sentence, "Look, thank you is what you tell me the most. But I didn't help you at all." He didn't wait for Shuiguang to reply, this kind of superficial Go, she probably didn't know how to deal with it, so he went on to say, "Your big bag is a bit heavy, isn't it? Would you like to help you get it to the car?"

"No need." Shui Guang originally wanted to say thank you again, but stopped.

Feng Yi smiled, "Alright then." The two chatted for a few words before saying goodbye naturally.

Feng Yi took two steps before turning his head to look at the back. He is a person who judges the situation very well, and it can be said that he is a very measured person.

Know that the object of your heart has someone in his heart, and it is deeply rooted in his heart.So before the love was deep, he withdrew that heartbeat in advance.

Some people say that there are many things you can ask for in the world, but fate is the most difficult to find.He believed this. Before you meet someone, no one else can catch your eye. When you finally meet the person who catches your eye, she may already be someone else's fate.Then she is just a fate for you.If there is no destiny, why bother to worry about it?

If it's impossible, don't force it.

As the weather gradually warmed up, the water light reduced the intensity of the morning jogging, and her body was not as good as it was a few years ago.When I was a teenager, my energy seemed to be inexhaustible, but after the age of 20, it was not as good as every year. Age, mentality, all have something to do with it. Later... I got a serious illness after removing the fetus that was less than six weeks old , it becomes even worse.At that time, she always thought that maybe God was punishing her for killing her life so ruthlessly.

After running and taking a shower, Shuiguang received a call from the taxi driver when he went out.After the other party revealed his identity, he said that the purpose of the call was about a car accident claim. He needed to deal with her problem first before going to the insurance company to get the compensation.Shui Guang almost forgot about this matter, reminded her to get some necessary documents, and then made an appointment to go to the traffic police team for mediation.There was no dispute about the car accident, so the rest is just a matter of routine.

Meeting the driver again, Shuiguang handed him and Si Lan's medical records, diagnosis certificates and the invoice issued by the hospital to him.

The middle-aged driver flipped through the paper roughly, and asked puzzledly: "Miss Xiao, you and the child's receipts are all there, but what about your husband's? Isn't he the most injured?"

Shui Guang only felt a bang in his head, and didn't even correct the other party's wrong words. It took him a long time to come back to his senses, "What do you mean by the most serious injury? Where did he get hurt?"

The other party was puzzled this time, could it be that this is not a family?But the woman in front of him was so nervous, he hesitated to say, "His entire arm was pierced by a branch."

Shui Guang found that his voice was trembling, "I was in a coma at the time, and I don't know what happened... Please explain in more detail."

The other party was taken aback, and said: "Actually, I don't remember it very clearly. At that time, the car hit the big tree, and the right side was deformed. I only saw a tree branch coming in from the passenger seat. Yes. Seeing your position, he blocked it with his body, his shoulder blade was pierced, and he was bleeding non-stop, I almost thought..." He wanted to say that this arm was going to be disabled, but when the person in front of him was pale His face gradually lost his voice.

Seeing her standing there in a daze, the driver panicked, and asked tentatively, "Are you okay?"

good?It seems that she hasn't been better for a long time...

She just begs... If there is an afterlife, don't fall in love with anyone again.

The sun shines in from outside the window, and there are no clouds in the sky.The plane took off slowly, and Shuiguang's ears couldn't hear the sound, only his own weak and chaotic heartbeat, one by one, accompanied by slight pain.

By the time we got there it was early evening and the thriving metropolis was brightly lit.

In the evening rush hour, taxis stop and go, and the driver is bored, so he asks the silent passenger behind, "Is the girl here for sightseeing?"

"No." Shui Guang's hands slowly folded up and down, "I'm here to find someone."

"Oh? Are you looking for relatives?"

There was radio music playing in the car, melodious, Shui Guang didn't answer, the driver saw that the last passenger pulled before the shift was really silent, so he stopped chatting and turned up the volume.

There was a love song playing on the radio, it was about love, it was about parting, it was about pain.

Shuiguang did not find anyone in his residence, and his house was pitch black, and the neon light he bought to hang on the ginkgo tree in the front yard was not on.He once said that the colorful lights on the trees would light up at night, regardless of the wind and rain, so that she would not lose her way when she came back.

The night wind blew up, and the water shivered slightly.

Getting out of the car again and walking into the former campus, she wasn't sure if he would be here, she just found it here with her heart.

This was the place where she followed Jing Lan's footsteps, and later, it was also the place where she met him.

Because it was summer vacation, the surrounding area was very quiet, there were not many noises, and the moonlight shone dimly, giving me a sense of loneliness and coldness.On the bench she used to sit on, she saw the man sitting quietly with his back to her.

She walked over step by step and stopped two meters away from him. He turned his head and saw her.There was no surprised expression.His face was thinner, with sharp edges and corners, and his eyes were always black and bottomless.

A wind blows off the leaves on the treetops, and they fall slowly, silently looking for their destination.It is said that one flower one world, one leaf one bodhi.Shui Guang didn't understand it before, and always felt that the world was so big that one flower and one leaf could describe it all.Now it seems that she has always been too stubborn to mistake the other shore as a maze. She is already on the other shore, but she thinks she is still at the ferry, and she is looking for a boat to cross over, making a wrong step.After right and wrong, we meet again, have grievances, don't want to take another wrong step, but don't know that we are still walking on the wrong road, obsessed with obsession, and can't get rid of it.You have to walk those roads more to know that no matter how you went around and stumbled before, in the end, you have to walk back here.

He got up and walked the remaining two meters.Each other's breathing is shallow, and no one can bear to break it.

He finally said in a low voice: "We have walked too many roads, right and wrong. But it seems that we only took one step. We met, and then I told you, my name is Zhang Zhenglan, and you said your name is Xiao Shuiguang. "

Shui Guang shed tears silently.

Zhang Zhenglan raised his right hand, gauze was still wrapped around his arm, and he said softly, "My name is Zhang Zhenglan."

The sound enters the ears, and the words are engraved in the heart.With tears in her eyes, Shuiguang imitated him by raising her hand and holding it, her voice disappeared with the evening wind, only he could hear, "My name is Xiao Shuiguang."

(End of this chapter)