I stand on the bridge and watch the scenery

Chapter 27 One thought of heaven, another thought of hell

Zhang Zhenglan came out early from the dinner, and when he got in the car, the smile on his face was completely gone. He leaned back in the chair, took out a pack of cigarettes, lit one, and the smoke gradually blurred his face. .

After smoking a cigarette, he called He Lan, "Tomorrow, I will go out for two days. If there is anything in the company, I will let Daguo handle it."

After writing it down there, I reported some things to Zhang Zhenglan, because the boss's cell phone had been disconnected during the day, Xiao He finally said: "Mr. An invitation came over, saying thank you for allowing her to do an interview last time."

Zhang Zhenglan hung up the phone and thought, thank him?He just suddenly remembered that this magazine was very well-known, and wondered, could she also see that kind of popularity?
He pressed his forehead and rubbed it lightly.

"Miss Xiao, how many times have you been in love?"

"……once."

"Well, I haven't talked about it, but I don't mind the woman talking about it, but I hope you have already broken off the relationship with the previous boyfriend."

She didn't say anything, and the man on the blind date didn't ask any more questions. When the man went to the toilet, he heard her muttering: "I fell in love with you, and I strangled it again. The pain was so painful that I died... Is it clean?"

At that moment, he was standing in a hidden position behind them, his whole body was stiff, he looked down and found that his hands were shaking slightly.

She said she had fallen in love with him, but he realized it too late.

A heaven, a hell.

In the afternoon of the next day, Zhang Zhenglan drove to the city where Ruan Jing was located. It was a little late when he arrived at the hotel where the wedding was held. He signed his name at the entrance of the auditorium. As soon as he lowered his head, he saw the familiar name, Xiao Shuiguang, with beautiful strokes As for Zhengzheng, he subconsciously saw the gods, and he restrained himself and signed his name until someone made a sound behind him.

Originally, I wanted to give a gift money, but people couldn’t come, but I heard Ruan Jing ask, do you still remember the girl she brought over to invite him to dinner last time, and said that she would come too, and if she was bored alone, I could just do it with her a companion.

He returned after a while, "I'll go."

Zhang Zhenglan took off his coat and walked into the hall. The wedding venue was decorated in a simple and low-key manner, without too many fireworks and ribbons, but enough fine wine was provided.Because the table has not yet opened, the guests are walking around and chatting casually.When Zhang Zhenglan walked in, she kept looking for it, but she couldn't find anyone after looking around.He chose a round table nearby to sit down, and a young woman was sitting nearby. Seeing him sitting next to him, she couldn't help but smile subtly, and after two seconds, she took the initiative to greet him, "Hello."

Zhang Zhenglan tilted her head and nodded politely, "Hello."

"Are you A Jing's friend, or a relative of her family?"

Zhang Zhenglan didn't care about that, but he still chatted with the other party for a while, until someone patted him on the shoulder from behind. He turned his head and saw the two people standing in front of him. They were the ones who had attended the wedding with Ruan Jing the year before last. As for the couple, he got up to greet them, and the tall and thin man across from him smiled and asked him, "When did you come? If we knew you were coming, we would have given you a ride."

"I just arrived too."

The man's wife asked curiously: "Boss Zhang and Ruan Jing also know each other?"

Zhang Zhenglan said, "Alumni."

The number of people gradually increased, and some people had already started to take their seats. The man's wife probably saw her friends, said "go over" to them, and then walked away. As soon as the wife left, the man invited Zhang Zhenglan to smoke by the window. After taking two steps, he asked in a low voice: "Who was sitting next to you just now? Girlfriend? It's not bad, it's pretty!"

"No." Zhang Zhenglan said indifferently. He casually scanned the banquet hall again, but he still didn't see her. When he walked to the window, he lit a cigarette and took a puff. In the past six months, he had become addicted to cigarettes again. Even pumped harder than before.

Earlier, Shui Guang received a call from Ruan Jing as soon as she arrived at the banquet hall. Ruan Jing immediately asked her to come upstairs as soon as she heard that she had arrived.In the luxurious room of the hotel, the make-up artist and the costume artist are carefully and delicately dressing the bride up and down. The girlfriends stand around and comment on each other. Finally, they all feel that the masters invited from abroad are different.

Someone heard the knock on the door, went to open the door, brought someone in, and yelled, "Ah Jing, are you a bridesmaid?"

Ruan Jing tilted her head to see the person coming, and waved her hands to tell the two masters to stop first. She waved to Shuiguang with a smile on her face, "Junior girl, are you here?"

When Shuiguang walked in, a girl sighed, "Ah Jing, you have such a good temperament, like a white lotus, if she is a bridesmaid, I will lose face."

Ruan Jing said: "Don't be jealous of other people's whiteness, if you think you are black, then ask the makeup artist to put on two more layers of powder for you later."

"Haha, yes, turn black pearls into white pearls."

The girl cupped her face and yelled, "Don't call me Black Pearl, whoever tells me to be in a hurry, except the bride!"

Shui Guang didn't care about other people's jokes, walked up to Ruan Jing, and said sincerely, "Congratulations."

Ruan Jing happily accepted with a smile, "Thank you." Then she said to her, "Shui Guang, I might trouble you to drink with me later, I remember you had a drink with me once, and the amount of alcohol is very good. My sister also drinks Great, but she... Where is she? She went out again? She has a special situation today. She has a cold and a fever and can't drink too much, and it's even worse for the others." The last sentence caused all the beauties in the room to be dissatisfied and said : "Could it be that the school girl never pours a thousand cups?"

Ruan Jing recruited a makeup artist to continue applying makeup, and then said to those beauties, "At least it's much better than you."

Shui Guang has never really been drunk... except for that time when he drank wine mixed with drugs.She sat on the edge of the bed and watched them busy. Do you want another flower on the bride's head?Rosebuds?How vulgar!Then get a few more pearls, it's so easy!I love Ah Jing's lip color!Will the eye shadow be more eye-catching with a little gold...

Shui Guang smiled slightly, and someone saw that she didn't talk much since she came in, so they came to sit next to her and chat with her, "Where are you from, junior?"

"Xi'an."

"Oh, what a place, one of the four great ancient capitals in the world!" At this point, the group of people brought up the topic of what city has what specialties and what snacks...

The wedding started on time at six o'clock in the evening. Shui Guang remembered that he drank a lot of wine that day. Tables passed by, red and white, and blocked almost half of the wine for the bride. Ruan Jing was already a little drunk, but she Don't forget to approach Shuiguang and say: "If you can't do it, don't drink it, don't force it." Shuiguang said it's okay, she really thinks drinking is not difficult, but her stomach will feel a little uncomfortable, and her face will turn red.

In the second half, the bride and groom were a bit overwhelmed with alcohol, but the guests were still unwilling to let it go. When they arrived at the table of Ruan Jing's classmates, a group of people even made a fuss and asked the couple to drink three glasses of wine in a row, and they had to find someone to replace them, unless there was a girl Willing to have a cup of wine with the unmarried men among them.

Zhang Zhenglan and the couple were also at this table, and Shui Guang finally saw Zhang Zhenglan who was sitting there without standing up.

She felt a little dizzy, not sure if it was because the alcohol was finally working, or because facing him?

She vaguely heard the groom say that everyone should hold up your hands, Ah Jing and I really can't drink anymore.Another voice said, let that beauty drink with me?When Shui Guang heard Ruan Jing calling her, she turned her head, and a man was smiling brightly at her, "Beauty, the bride and groom can't drink anymore, why don't you drink with me?" The people around were screaming and whistling .

Shui Guang took the wine offered by the girl behind him, and Zhang Zhenglan, who had been watching her silently, stood up at this moment. With a wine glass in his hand, he walked up to the man, and said lightly, "Let me talk to you." Let her drink."

Zhang Zhenglan was tall, and when he sat there for dinner, he was almost smoking in silence, giving the impression that he was a little distant and dignified. When the man saw that it was him, he was stunned for a while and said, "Okay, brother, come on, do more!" Come on, drink them down!"

Shui Guang looked at the person in front of him, the blush on his face had faded, and he looked a little pale under the white light of the hotel.

Ruan Jing said: "Brother Zhang, why are you making noise like them? You see, my school girl drank a little too much. For my sake, please be merciful."

Zhang Zhenglan stood upright, his body was even a little stiff, and he said word by word: "Why should I show mercy?"

Shui Guang lowered his eyelids slightly, and the noisy sounds around him seemed to gradually fade away.

This kind of scene is so familiar and so strange, when he wants to be nice to you, he can lower his posture into the dust, so that you can't help but back down, wondering if you haven't backed down enough.When he wanted to speak coldly, he was so aggressive again.But now, where does he want her to retreat to?It is said that people are among the thorns, if they do not move, they will not thorn.She really didn't dare to move now, for fear of pain.

After drinking the wine without handing over glasses, Shui Guang turned around and apologized to Ruan Jing. There was obvious concern in Ruan Jing's eyes, and she vaguely understood, "It's okay, Shui Guang." The person with the room card took her upstairs to rest, Shui Guang didn't refuse, and didn't even look at him when he walked away.

After leaving the hall, Shui Guang said to the people around him: "Go in, I'll go outside for a walk." The other party was worried, and Shui Guang said: "I'm not drunk, I'm just a little uncomfortable."

"Actually, you drank quite a lot. Well, it should be better to go outside to enjoy some fresh air." The other party still handed her a room card, "You take it first, and if you want to rest, go to it."

When the man walked away, Shuiguang went to the bathroom. She forgot to hold the empty wine glass in her hand. She put the glass on the marble table, washed her face, and couldn't help smiling bitterly. She remembered that she practiced martial arts when she was a child. Her feet were covered with blood blisters, and she walked with a limp step by step. At that time, she felt that the pain of being unable to move an inch was the most unbearable, but later she realized that there are some pains that you will never know if you have not experienced them. Exactly what it feels like.

The water light walked out of the hotel gate, it was already dark outside, the street lamps and the lights in the hotel lobby illuminated the road mottled and scattered.Someone came over and stood beside her, he was holding the coat in his hand, his bony hands were faintly exposed due to exertion, but he didn't put it on her in the end, and said in a hoarse voice: "You still have some things left behind. I'm there."

Shui Guang lowered his head and smiled, "Then throw it all away."

Zhang Zhenglan felt like he was standing on a cliff. He could pester her shamelessly in the past, but now he is not qualified.But he couldn't accept that person wanting to have a cup of wine with her, even if it was a joke, so he tried to stop it in such a disorderly manner.

"Shuiguang... Is this the only way for us?"

Shui Guang seemed to be really tired, "That's it."

Seeing that she was going to leave, he subconsciously reached out and grabbed her hand.The finger twitched, causing Shuiguang to frown slightly, she looked up at him, his expression was ugly, "Shuiguang... we really... can't do it?"

Shui Guang suddenly wanted to laugh, the words he said had been repeated in her heart too many times, she repeated softly: "Did you forget? It's up to you." No matter how stupid a person is, he will never be so stupid as to leave knowingly. There will be a fall, and the pain will be so painful that I don’t know how to get up, and I have to go there again.

Zhang Zhenglan's hand holding her trembled a little, but when he wanted to speak, he found that his throat was also sore.Shui Guang pulled his hand down, and she spread out her palm which was red from being pinched by him, and there was a conspicuous scar on the pad of her ring finger, she said slowly: "My tendon in this hand is broken, before you tell me to break up That day... After I came back, I went to see a doctor. He asked me, why didn’t I come when I was just injured? I said, at that time, my dog ​​who had been raising for five years died, and my father was framed and dismissed from his position. Finally...the person I fell in love with said that he doesn't love me anymore...he said that the tendon of the tee had died after dragging it on for too long, and it would die if it was connected. This finger is useless...but when you grabbed me, it But it hurts so much..."

The man in front of him remained silent for a long time, his eyes full of sadness.

I used to wonder why two people who once loved each other so much on TV and in books could hurt each other after they separated... It turned out that as long as the heart is hard enough, it can be done.

She didn't hate him, but she also cruelly didn't want him to have a good life.

Because she is having a bad time.

Shui Guang left, but he was still standing there, motionless.

For a long time after Ruan Jing's wedding, Shui Guang never saw Zhang Zhenglan again.

And one day during this period, Ruan Jing called her, and in just a few words, Shui Guang could tell that she was concerned about her, Shui Guang said: "Ruan Jing, you said that people have to experience it before they can fully understand. I have experienced some things... I understand that some people can't wait, and some people are wrong. If you try it once, don't try it a second time... I just want to live a normal life now."

In April, the pagoda trees on the roadside in Xi'an all sprouted buds, full of spring.

Shui Guang parked the car, then entered this quaint restaurant, and found a box, she arrived late, and there was already lively chatting inside.It is also unclear which leader invited their economics department to dinner, and it was arranged at seven o'clock in the evening.Shuiguang went home after get off work and then came out. Originally, he wanted to turn it down, but their director said it was a business meal, and Shuiguang couldn't say anything else when it came to this.She set off from home at six o'clock, which was a good time, but she didn't expect traffic jams on the road, and she was not good at driving, so she arrived nearly a quarter of an hour later than expected.

After Shui Guang entered, he didn't see clearly who they were, so he nodded and apologized, Xiao Li reserved a seat for her, and she went to sit down.The director said, "Okay, everyone is here. Vice President Feng, shall we order food then?"

Only then did Shui Guang see that the man sitting almost opposite to her at the other end of the round table was the man she had driven for a while.

The other party looked at her with a smile, and then said, "All right, let's order."

This meal, there were five people in Shuiguang's department, all of whom came, plus three people from the other bank, a total of eight people, of which the only women were Xiao Shuiguang and Xiao Li.The person known as Vice President Feng asked the two ladies to order, and Xiao Li did his part, "Vice President Feng, my family owns a restaurant, let me order something and I promise you won't be disappointed."

The other party said with a gentle smile: "That's good."

Later, Shui Guang asked Xiao Li who were there in a soft voice, and Xiao Li leaned into her ear mysteriously and said, "The organizer, the operation manager, and their vice president of the bank next door... Tsk tsk, I'll tell you." Said, their vice president is only 29 years old, really young and promising, it is said that he doesn't have a girlfriend yet, I don't know if it is because of high demands, so he is still single."

Naturally, Shuiguang has no comment on this issue.And this day is said to be a business meal, but there is not much business talk at the table.In the second half of the meal, everyone at the table drank some wine and the atmosphere improved a lot. It must be said that wine can add to the fun.After going to the restraint, the careless Xiao Li looked left and right and saw that no one was toasting, so he stood up and raised his glass to Feng Yi and said, "Vice President Feng, I respect you, I will do it first to respect you as you please, and then I want to ask you something after I finish. The question is not sure if it is possible?"

Feng Yi also got up politely, and he said with a smile: "Except for the measurements, everything is ok."

Xiao Li chuckled, straightened his expression after drinking a glass of wine and asked, "Excuse me, Vice President Feng, do you have a date?"

Feng Yi smiled, "No."

"Then what do you think of me?"

"Very good." Feng Yi said, paused for a moment, with a regretful expression, "But, I'm sorry."

Xiao Li reacted, but she was not particularly disappointed. In fact, she just had a sudden whim. Seeing the other party's refusal so tactfully, she smiled and said, "Then Vice President Feng, if you have good unmarried male compatriots, please Introduce me a lot, the little girl is eager to help her husband and teach her children."

This remark caused everyone present to laugh, and Feng Yi nodded and said, "Definitely."

The next day in the unit, Xiao Li asked: "Then how did Vice President Feng reach the level of president at such a young age?"

Someone said with emotion: "The people who are successful and famous in this world are either from a good family background or their own talents. If you have both, it will naturally be more smooth."

Xiao Li sighed, "This kind of person is really hard to find and even harder to find."

But after that, Shui Guang often ran into Feng Yi, either in the parking lot or in the two restaurants opposite the unit.

This day, Shui Guang had just removed the chopsticks to eat the noodle soup, when someone sat on the opposite side, he looked up and saw Feng Yi.

He nodded to her to greet her, and then explained: "Those vacancies have already been reserved, Miss Xiao, don't you mind sharing a table with you?"

There were already a lot of people at lunch time, and he had already sat down by himself, Shui Guang thought she could still say she didn't mind, so he nodded and said nothing else.

Shuiguang is wearing jeans today, a dark gray cardigan over a white cotton shirt. The sleeves of the sweater are too long, covering half of the back of her hand. She eats very slowly, as if time has passed. Anxiety will not disturb her steps, or manners.

Feng Yi suddenly wanted to know what kind of life background and experience this person in front of him was like.He remembered the last time, it was also in this restaurant, she said, I am too tired to fall in love, and I have gray hair.He looked at the hair scattered on her shoulders, and he could vaguely see a few strands of silver-white hair sandwiched between the black hair.

When Feng Yi's meal came, she had just finished eating, and put down the chopsticks in his hand, he somehow asked, "Miss Xiao, do you believe that instant is eternity?"

She glanced at him, "I believe there are not so many eternities in the world."

She took out the money and put it on the table, and she said to him, "Use it slowly" and got up and left.

Feng Yi looked at the back of the person who was going out. She was tall but also a little thin. She went out, and it was drizzling outside. She was going to cross the road and stood there waiting for the vehicles to pass by. A kind of tenacity.

He watched her cross the road and into their unit building.According to news reports, there will be continuous rain in the next few years, and the sun will not be seen for several days.

As soon as Shuiguang entered the unit building, brushing off the rain from her hair, the phone in her pocket rang. Jingqin called and asked her if she would go shopping in Hong Kong. Shuiguang shook his head after listening, "There is nothing to buy." Jingqin Unbelievable, "Is there any girl who doesn't like shopping?" So Shui Guang said, "There is no money."

Xiaoqin obviously didn't believe it, "Don't talk about anything else, what about your salary, you don't leave the door, and you don't leave the door, do you use all the money you earn to origami airplanes?" Shui Guang said with a faint smile: "I've used up all the medical treatment. "

On the weekend two days later, Shuiguang had no activities, so Xiao Li invited her to a famous restaurant in the city to have soup, only to find out that there were other people there.Feng Yi got up and raised his hands towards them. Xiao Li whispered to Shuiguang when he walked over: "The vice president took the initiative to ask me out, saying that he wanted to introduce me to someone. What about me, I was frightened temporarily, so I called you , I’m sorry, Sister Shuiguang, I have committed a heinous crime first, and I will kill you if you want to kill me later, but I will ask you, old man, to help me support the scene and become a group of relatives and friends.”

Shui Guang thought he could only settle accounts after the fall.

After the two went to sit down, Feng Yi poured tea for them, saying that his friend would come back later, and asked them to order some boiling water first.It was no surprise that Xiao Shuiguang also came.

Xiao Li held the menu and asked with a smile: "Vice President Feng, what does your friend do?"

"He's a middle school teacher who teaches mathematics. He's a nice guy."

While the two were chatting, Shui Guang ate the peanuts on the table. She ate carefully, took one, peeled off the red layer, and put it in her mouth. She had just eaten the fifth one. , I heard a gentle male voice say: "This layer of red clothes can replenish blood and black hair."

Shui Guang raised his head and looked over, Feng Yi said again: "Let's eat it with the skin on, it has many benefits for the human body, it's a waste to peel it off."

Although he was a little puzzled by this man's words and deeds, Shui Guang still replied: "I'm used to eating like this."

Xiao Li said: "Sister Shuiguang has a lot of eccentricities, Vice President Feng, just leave her alone."

"Oh? Are there any quirks?" Feng Yi seemed quite interested.

Shuiguang doesn't like this kind of topic, and he doesn't like being the topic of discussion, "It's nothing. Don't you call your friends?"

Feng Yi looked at his watch, "He should be arriving soon."

Sure enough, not long after, Feng Yi's friends arrived and sat opposite Xiao Li. Feng Yi introduced them, but did not mention Xiao Shuiguang. The tall math teacher looked at Feng Yi thoughtfully, said nothing, and drank Over tea, I chatted with Xiao Li.

The two people on the blind date had a rare chat. When the soup and several side dishes were ready, the four of them ate and chatted.Of course, Xiao Shuiguang is basically silent and eats little, but this kind of silence does not make people think that she is withdrawn, or introverted, just very... dull.

When Shuiguang and the others went to the bathroom in the middle, the math teacher said to Feng Yi: "So you like this type."

Feng Yi smiled, he still remembered that he said to Xiao Li before: "When you come over, call your colleague Miss Xiao, I want to talk to her more."

This kind of saying is very implicit, and it is too straightforward to say it bluntly, and Xiao Li seems to understand it. After being surprised, he cleverly said OK, without any unnecessary words.

After Xiao Li was sent away by Feng Yi's friends that day, Feng Yi stopped Xiao Shuiguang who was going to pick up the car, "Miss Xiao, do you want to go for a walk and digest?"

Shui Guang looked at him for a while, and then said: "Vice President Feng..." As a result, before he finished speaking, the other party said, "You can call me Feng Yi."

Although Shuiguang is traditional and conservative in terms of emotions, he has never been slow.This Feng Yi's attitude towards her is very ambiguous, and this kind of ambiguity is what Shui Guang is most resistant to now, she shook her head with a wry smile, and walked away to pick up the car in the distance.Feng Yi didn't think much about holding her back, but Shui Guang avoided her first. He couldn't help frowning, and then said softly: "I know, you are single now, why..."

Shui Guang listened indifferently, and took his words in a leisurely manner, "Mr. Feng, we can't."

Feng Yi was speechless for a moment, such decisive words made him a little helpless, because he had never encountered them before.

He didn't stay when she left because there was no reason, not even an excuse.She rejects all people and things she doesn't want to touch, and there is no room for accommodation.

(End of this chapter)