I stand on the bridge and watch the scenery

Chapter 26 The Imprint on the Sansheng Stone

The winter in Xi'an is particularly cold and long. The heavy snow has just started, and the accumulation of elements has subsided, and the rest is the coldness of the place.

Shuiguang is on duty in the unit holding a hot water bottle, and she is on duty on the first day of the annual leave.

When I came here in the morning, she was the only one left in the empty unit building except for the old man in the reception room.

After turning on the computer and watching the news all morning, when she went out to eat at noon, someone called her name behind her.

Shui Guang turned around and saw a smiling face, the man was wearing a bright red woolen coat, with long hair fluttering, and looked familiar, but Shui Guang didn't remember who it was until the man frowned and said, "Why? You don’t know me, old deskmate? I recognized you right away, it’s too embarrassing!”

"... Tang Moli?"

"Just call Lili." The other party looked her up and down, "I haven't seen you in five or six years, Xiao Shuiguang, you really haven't changed much, you are still young and beautiful, but you have lost weight again."

Shui Guang smiled, "Long time no see Lily."

"Yeah, it's been so long that you didn't recognize me." Tang Moli's mouth was still as unforgiving as before.

The two chose a nearby restaurant and went in to chat about the old days. Tang Moli said that she had been working in a nearby bank before, and she saw her when picking up the car, and she recognized her almost immediately.Jasmine didn't give a shit at all, she chatted endlessly about a bunch of news about her high school classmates, and finally said with emotion, "Xiao Shuiguang said that you haven't heard from me since you graduated, and the phone calls to your home at the class reunion are all to say that you are not at home. It will be difficult for anyone to find bin Laden!"

Shui Guang said: "The past two years have been relatively busy."

"I said, which year are you not busy? When you were in high school, you read and read books every day. Well, it's understandable that everyone in high school has to be busy with the college entrance examination. But in college, everyone went to eat, drink, prostitute and gamble. You Why are you still missing? I have called you several times in the class group."

Shui Guang just listened, with a smile on her face all the time, but it was very faint. She looked at the snow-covered world outside the glass, and her thoughts gradually drifted elsewhere.

After a good meal, the two saved their mobile phone numbers. When they parted, Tang Moli held her shoulders and said, "Xiao Shuiguang, Xiao Shuiguang, seeing you is like seeing the sun at seven or eight o'clock. Only you can witness it." My best youth."

So, who witnessed my best youth?
People often have to wait until they lose it to realize that something is precious.

Those that cannot be returned are always the most precious.

When Shuiguang was at home on vacation, Jingqin brought her baby to visit. That day, her parents and Luo Zhi's family went out to buy new year's goods, while Shuiguang stayed at home to look after the house.When Jingqin came in, she saw that she was washing her hair, so she couldn't help but say, "Washing your hair in the morning is easy to get a migraine."

Shui Guang said: "It's okay. I'm used to washing in the morning."

Yu Jingqin leaned against the bathroom door, hugging the child while rocking and chatting with Shuiguang without saying a word. After Shuiguang dried her hair, Jingqin hugged the child who was lying on her body and was about to fall asleep. He took the mirror and opened his mouth to look at his mouth, "It was fine yesterday...it seems that I really have a mouth sore, Guang'er, do you have watermelon cream at home?"

Shui Guang thought for a while and said no.Jingqin was helpless, "I'll go to the pharmacy outside and buy some. If it drags on, it will get worse and worse. It will hurt to death if I go back and eat."

When Jingqin went out, the child was already dozing off, and the half-year-old child was the most lethargic.

Shui Guang carried him to the back room to sleep, and she sat beside him humming a tune softly.

When Yu Jingqin was about to walk out of the alley, he saw a man approaching him slowly in the thin winter sun. He was wearing a thick dark windbreaker, with a slender figure, and he had one hand in his trouser pocket. , with his head slightly lowered, with a careless demeanor.When she looked back, the other party had already passed by her. Jing Qin walked two meters away, looked back again, and said in her heart, such a conspicuous man, she had never seen her before.

The baby soon fell asleep, and Shuiguang heard voices in the yard, thinking that Jingqin would not come back so soon, she casually tied up her shoulder-length hair behind her with the rubber band on her wrist, got up and walked When I arrived at the door, I thought it was the water delivery master who was called in the morning, but I didn't expect it to be him.

Unexpectedly, it was because I felt that I would never see him again in this life.After all, he is the one who has the final say, if she leaves, if she doesn't see her, the two of them should never see each other in this lifetime.

Shui Guang looked at the people who came up, there were still some wet marks of melting snow in the place where the sun couldn't shine in the yard, coldly printed there, he stopped one meter away from her, and then said: " I... dreamed that you... had an accident."

In half a year, Shuiguang felt as if she had passed away, she lowered her head, and the TV would always show a scene where a couple reunited a few years after breaking up, some would turn around and walk away, and some would say hypocritically, haven't seen you for a long time.

But she can't do these things, he said I dreamed about you, she thought it was a little funny, but she couldn't laugh either.In the end, Shuiguang heard himself say: "I'm fine." It was plain, but it made the listeners feel a deep pain.

Zhang Zhenglan stood outside the threshold. The tall man was covered with a light layer of sunlight, but he felt an indescribable sense of loneliness. He let out a dry voice from his throat, "Shuiguang, can you let me go in and sit down?" ?”

Xiao Shuiguang lowered her head, making it difficult for people to see the expression on her face. She hesitated for a moment, and finally turned sideways to let him into the room.

Although they have been together for less than a year, there are too many things that entangle them. After they separated, even though there was too much melancholy in their hearts, after all, there was not much hatred. She told Xiaoqin that she did not hate, it was the truth, it was too uncomfortable, but it was also the truth .But the discomfort is my own.

Zhang Zhenglan followed her into the room and kept looking at the figure from behind. She said you should sit down and I'll make you a cup of tea.

He sat on the chair as promised. He never thought that he could come in. He came here once during the Chinese New Year last year, and they were still fine at that time.He was the one who proposed the breakup, and when he ran to her half a year later, she calmly went to make tea for him.Zhang Zhenglan closed his eyes.

Shuiguang made a cup of black tea and put it on the table next to him. A child's cry came from the inner room. She said she was sorry, so she turned and went into the room. Something suddenly flashed in his eyes, but he immediately shook his head bitterly.

Zhang Zhenglan hesitated for two seconds, and walked to the door of her room. He had visited this small room in detail, and told her that Sansheng was lucky to finally see the place where his lover slept since childhood as he wished.

Shui Guang saw the person who followed, and said nothing. She hugged the child, patted him on the back to comfort him, and when the baby closed his eyes and fell asleep again, she carefully put him on the bed and took out a baby tissue Wipe the drool off his little face.

Zhang Zhenglan stood and watched, with an indescribable feeling in her heart, if, if they could go on, wouldn't they... have a child now.

When the water lighted up, she saw that he was still standing, motionless. She was afraid that the sound of the conversation would wake the child up again, so she said softly when she walked to the door: "Go outside."

Zhang Zhenglan followed, and Shui Guang held his left hand with his right hand. When pouring water before, that ring finger ached again, almost breaking the teacup.After the two sat down, Shui Guang was silent, she was a little distracted, thinking, why hasn't Jing Qin come back?

"Shuiguang, talk to me..."

She let go and turned her head to look at that person. When they were together, she seldom talked. What else can she say now?Shui Guang couldn't figure it out, "What do you want to say?"

yeah, say what?He just doesn't like such speechless, her attitude has exceeded his expectations too much, what else does he want?
Zhang Zhenglan smiled wryly, feeling how shameless he was to appear in front of her again, drinking the tea she made, hoping she would take another look at him... He raised his hand to wipe his face, and said, "I'm sorry."

When he got up, the water light also rose, but they quietly opened a little distance from each other.He noticed it, and after a moment of silence, he couldn't help but want to press his hand on his aching forehead, "I'm sorry..."

"I'm leaving...you, fine."

From the alley outside came the voice of a child half-reading and half-singing, "24, sweep the house; 25, fry tofu; 26, cook white meat; 27, kill a rooster; 28, make noodles; 29, steam steamed buns; thirty nights boil One night; on the first day of the new year, twist around"...

Shui Guang watched the figure walk out of the courtyard. She had gone to him and tried to redeem him. Now that she knew he was in her heart, she went back there after the matter with her father finally came to an end.At the door of his residence, Jiang Yuru helped him out of the car.She looked at it for a while, and finally went up, she said "thank you" to Jiang Yuru, and helped the drunk man, she frowned and asked him how he was, did he feel uncomfortable?
He vaguely said Shuiguang, Shuiguang, he said Shuiguang, I don't love you anymore.

When Jingqin came back, she saw Shuiguang lying on the table, she went up and called softly: "Shuiguang, are you asleep?"

Shui Guang raised his head after a while, just smiled, "No, why is it so slow?"

Speaking of this, Jing Qin was a little depressed and said: "All the pharmacies are closed for the Chinese New Year. I didn't pay attention on the way when I first came here. I ran twice for nothing. Forget it, go home and apply the medicine. There should be some in stock at home." .The baby is asleep? Why is there no sound. "

"Well, fell asleep."

Shui Guang remembered a book she read when she was young. She said: If emotions and years can be torn apart gently and thrown into the sea, then I am willing to be silent at the bottom of the sea from now on.

She didn't know if she had sunk into the bottom of the sea, but she couldn't say a word anymore.

At noon the next day, Shuiguang accompanied her parents to her grandma's house for lunch. As soon as her aunt saw her, she came up and told her about her partner, "Before your mother was worried that you planned to stay outside and not come back, but now it's all right, come back I'm here to work. The young man is two years older than you, and he has a good job and good looks. Go and meet him. He's a good guy, and my aunt won't lie to you."

After hearing what his aunt had said, Shui Guang reluctantly said, "I don't want to find a partner yet."

Shuiguang's aunt is a straightforward person, "What do you mean you don't want to look for it? You are 24 now, and you will be 25 after the new year. Once girls pass 25, they will not be popular. Now you can still pick someone. In two years, when you are thirty, someone else will pick you. Listen to your aunt and go to see her. Ah, it doesn’t matter if you don’t like it. In the future, your aunt can introduce you to others. Your mother won’t rush you. , but I don’t know how anxious I am.”

Shuiguang knew that his mother had been worried about her "feelings" all the time. She had been worrying about her daughter before, now, and for so many years. Although his father didn't say anything, he was the same.

After all, he couldn't go against his family's concerns.

After dinner, she went to the intersection again and took the car back to the city.I communicated with the other party before, and made an appointment to meet in a teahouse at two o'clock.Shui Guang saw that the time was still early, and his cell phone was running out of battery, so he went home first, and only went out slowly at 01:30.

When Zhang Zhenglan came again, he just saw Shuiguang walking out of the alley. He asked the driver to stop and watched as she stopped the car and got on.He wanted to say goodbye to her. He was supposed to leave yesterday, and even he felt untenable staying here, but he still stayed in the hotel for one night, and made excuses for himself on the way to the airport the next day , look at her again, and then he leaves.Zhang Zhenglan looked at the car driving away, and asked the driver to follow. He told himself that no matter what, he would always say goodbye when he left.

When Shui Guang arrived at the teahouse, it was not yet two o'clock, so she went in first to order tea, and while waiting, looked through the list on the table introducing some new refreshments. The man came at 02:30. After the two met, the other party explained to her: "Sorry, a friend came to the house, and the conversation went too far."

Shui Guang said, "It's all right."

The other party seemed to have a good impression of her, and they actively talked about many topics in the subsequent chats. Shui Guang cooperated with him and tried not to be cold.

He finally said: "Miss Xiao, I think you are very good, but I am a traditional person. If we really want to date, I want to know first... Are you still a virgin?"

Shui Guang was taken aback for a moment, but she couldn't laugh or cry the next moment, she said, "No."

Zhou Zheng's man on the opposite side frowned, and his words were obviously less after that.Shui Guang was still the same as before, politely replying, her fingers absorbed the temperature on the teacup, so that the fingertips would not be too cold.

The two said goodbye at the door, and the other party said, "Miss Xiao, let's get in touch again."

Shuiguang just smiled and said goodbye to him, and probably won't see him again in the future, Shuiguang doesn't mind, but he doesn't know how to explain to his aunt and parents.

He stopped the car for her, and when the water went up, he said, "Thank you." The car left, and the man sighed in a low voice, "Why are there no more serious girls now?" Just as he turned around to pick up the car, he He staggered and almost fell to the ground when he was hit by the oncoming punch. The man glared at the person who made the shot, "Why are you hitting someone?!"

Zhang Zhenglan stood there with a serious expression on his face, the man subconsciously took a step back, Zhang Zhenglan said coldly, "Get lost."

The man was furious, but seeing that the other party was obviously not easy to mess with, he cursed "crazy" and walked away.

Zhang Zhenglan really wanted to kill this man, he was so precious to his heart, how could he allow others to bully him, but wasn't he the one who hurt her the most...

Zhang Zhenglan watched the car Shuiguang was driving away, but finally did not dare to follow.

In the early morning of the first day of the Lunar New Year, Shui Guang followed his mother to Xiangji Temple to burn incense.There were a lot of people on the mountain that day. After the two worshiped the Buddha in the temple, my mother went to the side hall to listen to Zen lessons. Shuiguang stood under the century-old tree and waited, watching the people coming and going.She brought him here during the Chinese New Year last year. He said he didn't believe in Buddhism, but he knelt in front of the Buddha and folded his hands in worship. She knelt beside him and folded his hands like him.When he pulled her up, he asked her what she was asking for. She said that she wanted everything to go well. He smiled and said, "You are doing it once and for all. I only ask for one thing this year. Guess what it is?"Shui Guang didn't guess, but she knew it well, and this was included in her everything. I beg all the old things to go with the wind, and I beg him and her to come to the end...

The Buddha said that blessings cannot be obtained by seeking, but by cultivation.Are they unable to cultivate their blessings because they are not sincere enough in prostration or because they do not love each other enough?
Just like that time, in Lingyin, the phrase "no complaints and no regrets" that she begged for may never have anything to do with her heart, but he and her are not destined, one step forward is greed, one step back is resentment, that's all.

The wind passed through the branches, rustling, Shuiguang heard her mother calling her, she woke up like a dream, and went to join her mother.

Xiao's mother said that she still wanted to buy some incense to go home, Shui Guang took out her wallet and gave her, and stood behind waiting for her mother to go to the incense stand to buy good incense.

Someone suddenly patted her waist from behind, "Fortune-telling is the beauty?" Shui Guang turned his head to see a gentle face, and the other party was also taken aback, "I'm sorry, I thought..."

"Brother!" The girl running next to her was about the same height and hairstyle as Shui Guang, and she stood panting in front of them. Just as she was about to speak, the gentleman frowned and criticized, "Didn't you say you want to tell your fortune? Where are you going?" Already?" When he said that, he glanced at the water, with obvious apology on his face.

Shui Guang didn't care about this kind of mistake. Seeing that her mother had bought it, when she walked away, she heard the girl behind ask: "Brother, who is she?"

What the man said was silent, and Shui Guang didn't listen.

During the Chinese New Year period, Shuiguang was not very comfortable. From time to time, people from relatives and neighbors would come to her mother and want to introduce someone to her.My mother asked her to go a few times before, but she stopped calling her after that, and when others came to be matchmakers, they also turned them down.In fact, she doesn't mind blind dates, but she has never been able to do what she wants.

On the fifth day of the fifth day of the lunar new year, Shuiguang received a text message from Liang Chengfei, saying that she had died.Since then, there has been no news of him.

Who said that there is no feeling in this world that is not riddled with holes.

The short is life, and the long is suffering.

During the holidays, Jiang Yuru actually doesn't like to visit relatives very much, on the contrary, he goes to more gatherings among friends.

And at the reunion of college classmates, it was rare to meet Zhang Zhenglan.

It's rare to say that it's really been a long time since I saw him, sometimes no one answered the phone when I called him, and occasionally he said he was busy without talking.He is really busy. She went to his company to look for him once a year ago. There was no flaw in his appearance. His clothes were neat and his chin was cleanly shaved. But there was an indescribable tiredness between his brows. , day and night, the kind of mentally exhausted.

Yu Ru went up and patted Zhang Zhenglan who was drinking and playing dice with others, "Today is really rare, I almost thought that you, Boss Zhang, had disappeared."

Zhang Zhenglan raised his head slightly, smiled, turned his head and rolled the dice, opened it to see the number, two two three five, smaller than the other party, he drank the wine in the glass without saying a word.

The people who played with him laughed, "Brother Lan, you are really unlucky today."

Zhang Zhenglan was noncommittal, Yu Ru glanced at him, sat next to him and said, "How much have you drank?"

"Three bottles of red wine!" Someone answered for him.

Jiang Yuru couldn't help frowning, and wanted to get the wine glass in his hand, but was avoided by Zhang Zhenglan, who said with a smile, "Jiang's talented girl, don't disappoint." The people around him also booed immediately.

Jiang Yuru gave a contemptuous "tsk" and stopped intervening.Later, Zhang Zhenglan probably got tired of playing, so she sat next to her and played with her mobile phone.Yu Ru looked over, and under the dim light, she saw the tear mole on his side face. According to legend, the person with the tear mole was because when his lover held him and cried in his previous life, the tears fell on his face. The mark formed on the face is used for reunion after three lives.

The imprint carved on the Sansheng Stone is a trace that cannot be erased even by reincarnation, isn't it...

The New Year of 2012 has passed, and Luo Zhi went there on the eighth day of the Lunar New Year.And on the first day Shuiguang went to work, people in the same department said she was a little fatter when they saw her, and said she looked so good, but she was really a little thinner before.The girl who was admitted in the same batch as Shuiguang and who was one year younger than her half-jokingly said, "Sister Shuiguang, are you eating too much at home during the Chinese New Year?"

Shui Guang said, "Probably so."

After laughing, the girl came again, holding a magazine in her hand, and said, "Do you think this guy is handsome? Does he look like those movie stars? But he is even more flavorful than those stars. He looks amazing. I'm so excited! Sister Shuiguang, what do you think?"

Shui Guang glanced down, smiled and said: "Have you ever heard of a saying, if the heart is not moving, people will not move rashly, and if they don't move, they will not be hurt; if the heart is moving, people will move rashly, and it will hurt the muscles and bones .”

The other party thought for a while, and then showed a surprised expression, "This kind of words sound so sad, it seems like the kind of people who give up on everything would say it?"

The director of their office said, "Okay, Xiao Li, stop chatting and go to work."

Xiao Li Yixing, who hadn't finished her annual leave yet, let out a dull "Oh" and walked back to her desk.And the magazine that the girl brought over on a whim was left on her desk. Shui Guang typed the document for a while, and finally picked up the magazine. On the left side of the photo on the cover, it was written in thick crimson strokes: GIT in power , Zhang Zhenglan.

Shui Guang came out of the unit, and looked up to see that the sky was gray, as if it was going to rain.She went to the parking lot to pick up the car. She just got her driver's license after the Chinese New Year. The car was her father's half-used and half-new Volvo.Just got in the car, someone knocked on the window, pressed the window, the man bent down and said to her: "Hey."

Shuiguang took a slow step to recognize who it was, the man who mistook her in Xiangji Temple last time, I don't know what his intentions were because of the accident, "Is there something wrong?"

This man is very gentle and gentle, "I didn't expect you to work here too. I work for the Agricultural Bank next door." He smiled just right when he spoke.

Shui Guang knew that their unit shared the parking lot with the Agricultural Bank of China next door. She wondered why he came to find her. The other party saw her doubts and apologized: "Sorry, there is something wrong with my car..." He Pointing to the back, "Can I trouble you, take me to the intersection of Shangpu Road, where I can take a taxi." He looked at his watch and added, "I'm in a hurry."

Three or four hundred meters away from here is Shangpu Road. It does take some time to walk there, and I myself have to pass there, so I can't say no.Seeing her nodding, the other party said "thank you" with a smile, then walked around to the other side and got into the car.

Shui Guang slowly backed out of the car, because he was a novice, so the speed did not exceed 60 yards all the way, and the car did not drive far, the sky gradually became dark, and then a flash of lightning, accompanied by the roar of thunder, fell Suddenly, big raindrops fell, and the sudden rain frightened the pedestrians on the road. People without umbrellas hurriedly looked for shelter from the rain.The person in the passenger seat also had a headache, "What a mistake, I didn't bring out the umbrella."

The car was quiet for a while, and Shui Guang asked, "Where are you going?"

The other party hesitated to report the location, "I'm really sorry, if you have something to do, just put me at the intersection."

"I passed by there." Shui Guang said simply.

The man is no longer polite. After all, it is unrealistic to take a taxi by the side of the road without an umbrella in such heavy rain.He couldn't help but glanced sideways at the quiet driver, and finally looked at the rain outside.

The car stopped at the entrance of a hotel full of flower baskets. The man thanked her again before getting out of the car. Shui Guang nodded slightly, and when he got out of the car, he started the car and left.At the same time, the person who had been waiting at the door came up to him, "Vice President Feng, you are finally here. We will be waiting for you when we open. Come, come, please, please!"

After the warm front passed through, the weather gradually became warmer. One day in early March, Shuiguang received a call, and the people over there laughed, "Shuiguang, I haven't contacted for a long time, how are you doing?"

Because the number displayed was the landline number, Shui Guang didn't know who it was at first, but then he heard a voice: "Ruan Jing?"

Ruan Jing said that she was getting married in mid-March, so she must attend.It has only been a year and a half since the last time the two met, Shuiguang wished her sincerely after the accident, and did not ask if the person who married her was someone who had made her sad, no matter if it was an old person or a new person, It can be heard that Ruan Jing is satisfied now, that's enough.

Ruan Jing repeatedly emphasized: "You don't need to pack money, but people must come. You are my favorite school girl."

Shui Guang responded with a smile.

Feng Yi went with his subordinates to have lunch at the restaurant not far from the bank. As soon as they sat down, they saw her and her colleagues sitting at the next table. The two chatted.

Feng Yi asked his subordinates to order, and he drank tea slowly.

"Sister Shuiguang, do you think we are a bit of a failure? We don't even have a boyfriend at this age."

"Isn't it nice not to have a boyfriend?"

"Where is it good? I have to squeeze the bus by myself when I go home. My computer is broken and I find my buddies. My buddies often see sex and forget friends. There are no appointments on weekends and so on! Well, it’s actually because our social circle is too narrow, isn’t it? Being at work means staying at home, so how can I find a partner like this.”

"Take your time, what's yours is yours after all."

"I'm afraid I'll be old when my man shows up. I'm just waiting for someone to introduce me to someone. The more I meet, the better my chances will be. Speaking of which, I have a cousin who is still single, very handsome , the job is not bad, our staff of the Electric Power Bureau, how about introducing you to Miss Shuiguang?"

Feng Yi saw her shaking her head, "No need."

"Why? Do you reject blind dates?"

"No. I just don't want to be in a relationship anymore."

"Why?"

"I'm so tired." She lowered her head slightly, and her shoulder-length hair fell a little. She picked up a bunch and said half-jokingly, "Look, I already have gray hair."

Feng Yi looked over, only to see that there were a few gray hairs in her black hair, very few, if he didn't look carefully, he wouldn't have noticed.The gray hair of a teenager is not a congenital graying, but it is too much effort.

(End of this chapter)