Long time no see, Mr. Qin

Chapter 62 I also longed for someone to treasure me properly (3)

I went upstairs, supporting Xu Moran all the way, and he also leaned on me.It is rare for him to rely on me so completely, but this time, he gave himself completely to me, so I have to hold him, and I can't let go halfway, even though the eyes like sharp knives are always chiseling Me, but I still can't.

"Will it be heavy?" He asked suddenly after going up a few steps.

"No. You're skinny enough, you should make up for it."

"Yeah." He nodded, his voice trembling because of the excessive pain.

"Why don't you go to the hospital?" I asked him.

"No." He shook his head firmly.

I didn't ask any more.Xu Moran is the kind of person who says no, he must not, unlike many people who just talk, maybe you change your mind after a few times of persuasion, but he won't, don't look so gentle, especially with this body , as if the wind can fall down, but it is more stubborn than anyone else.

But when I walked to the elevator, I couldn't help being stunned. It said "under maintenance" in large characters, and also wrote "sorry, hope users understand" and other beautiful words.But at this moment, I really couldn't help but want to roar loudly, what did those maintenance personnel do long ago?
"I can go."

"Damn it, your leg must be in excruciating pain now. Xu Moran, will you die if you don't try your best?"

This time I really yelled out.He didn't speak, and suddenly turned his head to look behind me. Qin Ziyang was standing behind me at some point.He didn't say anything, didn't do anything, just stood like that, with a dejected expression...

Just when I thought he would stand like this for eternity, he suddenly walked over, took a deep look at Xu Moran, and then quickly grabbed his hand, the one that held mine.

I looked at him calmly, as if looking at a stranger.I said, "Qin Ziyang, let go."

His gaze paused, and even his breathing seemed to have stopped.

"Xu Moran, you punch me, this time I won't fight back."

The hand that had been stretched out to stop Qin Ziyang abruptly stopped in mid-air.

Xu Moran's originally relaxed brows immediately stood up again.

"I won't, because that will only make Nianjin more sad."

"Then treat it as if I owe you a punch." After finishing speaking, he grabbed my wrist and wanted to pull me away.But I refused to say anything, and struggled desperately.

"Let go, Qin Ziyang, let go—"

"Don't let it go."

I don't know why I went crazy, I bit it, and immediately a red mark appeared on it, which was red and red.But he just looked at me like he was unconscious, just looking at me lightly, but it seemed very deep.

This look made me turn my head away, but I didn't let go.I hesitated for a while, and then bit down deeply, until the taste of blood poured into my mouth, and the scene in my mind suddenly appeared before my eyes.

"Does it hurt?"

"It hurts." He said, then hugged my body and pressed his lower body against me, "However, it hurts more here."

"Rogue." I whispered.

"Then do you love it?"

"do not love."

"Do you love?"

"Love." I smiled, then stood on tiptoe, and took the initiative to kiss his thin cool lips, "I love the expression when you asked me if I love you, really, Qin Ziyang, your expression is special Lovely."

He froze for a moment, then pressed my lips hard, and after struggling, he said: "Women, you really like to bear grudges."

"Yes, Qin Ziyang, women love to hold grudges, and I do even more. So, if one day, you make me hurt, I will definitely make you hurt even more, a thousand times and a hundred times."

……

The bloodstains on it were burned between the gums, I raised my head and looked at him faintly.

"Qin Ziyang, as I said, if one day you make me hurt, I will definitely make you hurt even more, a thousand times more."

His expression moved, and he pursed his lips tightly.

"Yes, it hurts a thousand times."

"However, I don't think it's enough. Nothing is enough. What do you think should be done?"

"Then it doesn't hurt. If it hurts more than anyone else, then it doesn't hurt and everything is fine." He said it very emotionally, but I couldn't feel any warmth in my heart.

"But it's not good. If you let me go, I will be fine. So, let me go. Have a good time with her. "

"Without her. Many things are just that we don't want it to change, but in fact they have changed unconsciously. Now I know that she has always been a rainbow in my childhood that I didn't have time to see. It's so beautiful. I always want to keep it. That beauty, and that warmth, but it's not there anymore, long gone..."

"Men are sweet-talking. You once said you loved me, but then you just gave up. What else did you say? Oh, yes, I remembered..."

I was about to say it, but he covered my mouth.

"Those are bastard words, don't listen to them."

He seemed to know what I was going to say.That's right, I've said that sentence thousands of times, but I still like to mention it every time.Women are like this sometimes, and they don’t want to blame, but certain words just take root in our hearts, and we can’t pull them out even if we want to.It's not that I want to say, it's because it bloomed, scattered leaves, and then it was too lush, and suddenly popped out.

"You men are always like this. What you can't get is always the best. Because you can't get that sunset glow, so you say it is beautiful, and you always think of its warmth in your heart, so you desperately recall it, wanting to go Grab it, but only when you get it, you realize that’s the case. Now I’m the same with you, and you’re thinking of my best: I’ll stay by your side when you’re down; I’m telling you, Qin Ziyang, let Let's love each other; I would rather be a bad woman like Lu Zhi and force you to accept the check; I resolutely went to the United States with you in my bad English, and I lived with you in a small room that was not warm. In your house, I use your body temperature to keep you warm, and when you come back, you cook a table of dishes every day waiting for you... all you think about now is for my own good..." I said slowly, every time Every word is very slow.

"No, it's not just these. I still remember the way you scolded me hysterically; I remember the way you broke into the private room, took the wine on the table, and yelled at the woman in my arms asking how long you had been drinking; I remember your expression I remember the pain when the knife was inserted into my arm; I remember the mourning when you cried and mourned; They floated up as if under control, no matter how hard I pressed them, they would not give up."

Qin Ziyang looked at me with an expression that cannot be faked, he was really in pain.But so what?Only pain is the most memorable thing in this life, and only this kind of love is the most unbelievable.

"Hehe, I know it's useless to say anything, and you won't believe it now. But Su Nianjin, you can't marry him. If you marry him, I will destroy him. It seems too small to say these words behind his back. , I'll be right in front of you..."

Qin Ziyang spoke lightly, and the corners of his lips curled up while speaking, but it always made people feel a little desolate.

I didn't say anything, or it should be said that I haven't thought about what to say, Xu Moran has already walked over with strength, stood between us, looked at Qin Ziyang motionlessly, and said in a very low voice, "I have everything. Only people who are afraid of losing are afraid of losing, but I have never had anything before, and it is unreal to have it. Do whatever you want, Young Master Qin, you can do whatever you want, but..." He took my hand and sternly Hold it firmly, "I won't let go."

His fingers were too long, with distinct lines, but they were a little cold, icy, without the slightest warmth.

But I still held it, holding such a pair of hands.

Qin Ziyang turned around and limped out.It turned out that he was also injured.

After Qin Ziyang left, he helped Xu Moran upstairs.

This time, he cooperated exceptionally just like before.

"Why do you keep looking at me?" I entered the room, took out the medicine box, put it on the table, and looked at him immediately.

He pursed his lips, and then smiled, but he was still shy, and completely lost the sharpness he had when facing Qin Ziyang just now.

I didn't say anything else, and after bringing the medicine kit, I hurriedly helped him lift up the pants on his legs, and it turned out that there was a big red and swollen piece, which looked quite scary.

"Why is it so serious, go to the hospital with me." I said.

"No, no need, you can simply bandage and bandage..."

"I can't, I'm afraid it will get worse after you're done, I'd better go to the hospital and let the specialized medical staff deal with it for you. I'm a half-assed person in this regard, and common sense things are fine, but if you do something serious, you'll be fine. no……"

"I believe you..." Xu Moran said firmly.

The words I wanted to say were stuck in my throat like this, and I swallowed, feeling that my mouth was still very dry.I picked up a glass of water on the table and drank it, only to realize that it was scented tea when it reached my mouth.It is chrysanthemum, which has been completely cooled, with astringent bitter taste, which is more or less weird.Although the tip of my tongue felt uncomfortable, I still drank it all.

Xu Moran lay on his back and lifted his legs up so that I could bandage him more easily.

I sighed and had to do it for him.I have been doing it for a long time, first cleaning, then applying medicine, and finally bandaging.

It's just that when I was about to take off his prosthesis, I obviously felt his body move, and even my hands trembled slightly.

I looked up at him, clean coat, thin body, clean eyes, they were so bright, I blinked a couple of times, but I couldn't see very clearly because I was wearing gold-rimmed glasses.The overhead light shone down, and because the head was tilted and covered by glasses, a shadow was cast on half of his face, making his entire expression hidden in the dark, without changing for a long time.

"Mo Ran, you..."

"Don't say..." he said, his voice was a little difficult, low, with a trance-like magnetism.

"Mo Ran...let's be together..."

Xu Moran looked at me in disbelief.

"Nian Jin, what are you talking about? What did you say just now... Am I..."

He was like a child repeatedly confirming something he couldn't believe, but his posture was so pious and cautious, as if he felt that even breathing became a little difficult, and something would change between breaths.

"Mo Ran, let's get married..."

I repeated.

"Nian Jin..."

He sat up straight all of a sudden, regardless of the pain in his leg, looked at me, his whole body seemed to be shaking, and finally grabbed my hand.His fingers were originally cold, but now his fingertips seemed to be on fire.

"Are you telling the truth? Su Nianjin, this kind of joke is unacceptable."

Although he said so on his mouth, his hand has been refusing to let go of me.The stern expression on his face was in stark contrast to him, making people look endlessly desolate.

I suddenly wasn’t sure if my decision was right or wrong, or if I clearly thought it was wrong, but I wanted to be selfish again, like a person who has been drowning for a long time grabs a piece of driftwood and thinks, Perhaps this is a redemption for the driftwood and itself.

"Mo Ran..." I called softly.

"Tell me first, is that sentence just a joke?" He interrupted me eagerly, and his originally cold voice became sharper, like a hedgehog with spines all over his body.

"It's not a joke, it's just..." I paused and continued, "It's just..."

"You don't need to say, I understand." Putting away the trembling, Xu Moran became unmoved again, but those eyes, the eyes looking at me, had complicated emotions that people couldn't describe in words .

"Maybe for many people, it will be painful when it starts and ends, but for me, this kind of pain is far better than nothing. It's just a chance. If it doesn't work, I'm willing. So, please don't take it back , don’t take it back since you said it. We will get married next week.”

"Don't be in such a hurry..." I hurriedly said.

He gave me a deep look.

"Okay, don't be in such a hurry, let's get engaged first."

"Yeah." I nodded, suddenly out of breath.For some reason, there was an emotion, an emotion that seemed to be suffocating.

"I'll go first, Mo Ran..." After finishing speaking, I hurriedly picked up my purse and walked out without looking at his expression.

About marriage, about the grand wedding, I have never thought about the scene of wearing a white wedding dress.

More than once, I thought of the green lawn on which I ran barefoot in my white wedding dress.

I think of the days when we were together.

I said to Qin Ziyang, when will you marry me?
He smiled, and the arc of the corner of his mouth was always so high, that even I, a woman, was jealous of his charm.

He said: Marriage is not important, the key is that we are happy together.Then he put down the red wine in his hand, pressed me over all of a sudden, and firmly controlled me under his body.I wanted to ask something again, but was buried by his kiss and the hot skin, my mind was blank, and my mind was full of his smell.

He said: Su Nianjin, I just like your fierceness.

It's just that I want to say that there has always been a corner in my heart, which is so gentle that water can overflow, and what I actually expect in it is the simplest little happiness.

The elevator door opened, and I shook my head, trying to put these things aside, but what I didn't expect was that just as the figure of that person in my brain faded, the real person in reality appeared in front of me.

It's like a nightmare, and I can't get rid of it no matter what.

Maybe he is my catastrophe. I said that I will experience it, and I am destined to be unable to escape.

Qin Ziyang squatted on the ground, with one leg curled up and the other stretched forward, there was still blood on his wrist, it should have been done when he fought with Xu Moran just now, but I didn't have time to notice, now under the light, it seems to be magnified N times, it looks particularly conspicuous.

When he saw me coming out, he immediately got up and stood up straight, but maybe his legs had been curled up for too long, so he couldn't stand up straight all at once, so he staggered.I instinctively stretched out my hand to help, but an image immediately appeared in my mind. When he received her call and I held him back, he pushed me away, and his hands were in mid-air He paused and shrank back.

Fortunately, he reacted quickly and quickly supported the wall with his hands, but with too much force, the injured wrist was hit again, and Qin Ziyang's entire face suddenly paled frighteningly, and it took him a long time to hold his breath, but he didn't He didn't look up at me, but lowered his head, the shadow blocked his face, and I couldn't see his expression.

(End of this chapter)