Pampering the sea

"Child?" The girl on the bed moved her eyelids and opened her clear black eyes. Because she had not spoken for several days, her voice became very difficult and hoarse.

"you're awake."

"You mean child?" She sat up and looked at him quietly, her voice increased obviously, and it became much clearer in an instant.

He explained her doubts: "I went to a well-known midwife here, and she said that your bleeding is because I touched your place with too much force, so you bleed, and the baby is fine."

Seeing that she looked calm and did not overreact, he was slightly relieved, picked up the mung bean and rice porridge at the side, and said softly: "Come on, let me feed you something, it's not good to be hungry."

He tentatively pushed forward the white porcelain spoon containing mung bean and rice porridge, and found that she did not reject it, so he put the spoon to her slightly pale mouth, and put the bowl on her chin with the other hand Next, in case the mung bean and rice porridge fell on her, he said in a soft voice, "Hey, open your mouth."

When Xin Yue raised her eyes, her eyes passed through like the wind, without any waves or traces. Her eyes moved, and a sudden wave suddenly flashed in Ruyu's black eyes. After driving a long way, with a ding sound, the good porridge bowl was smashed to pieces, and the warm and sticky porridge immediately spilled all over the floor.

Chu Zhiling was startled, and wanted to scold her, but seeing her pale as paper face, he held back the faint anger that emanated from the bottom of his heart.

"Why is he still alive?! Why does he still have a child?" She frowned suddenly, staring at Chu Zhiling and asked slightly angrily, "Why didn't he let him die? What's the use of him living in this world, as long as Will hinder me, hold me back! He should die, die!"

Chu Zhiling suppressed the complicated emotions in his heart and tried to comfort her: "Madam, calm down."

"Bring me a bowl of abortion medicine, let Hao Bo grab the medicine, and bring it to me after it's ready." She shook her head, her face pale, "I must not let him be born, absolutely not."

"Ma'am, if you feel uncomfortable, come to me. Don't torture the child. You know, it's not only my child, but also yours."

"No." She looked at him suddenly, shaking her head slowly, "I can't let him be born, he won't be happy, I know better than anyone else that he will never be happy."

Xin Yue, who has lost his mother since he was a child, has long understood the loneliness and loneliness of a child without a mother to take care of him.

She can't let her children repeat the mistakes she made.

Sooner or later, she will seize the opportunity to leave here, she can't let the child be born, even if she doesn't blame him for obstructing her departure, she doesn't like her child to be brought up by Chu Zhiling, and later become infected with the bad habits of pirates.Moreover, if Chu Zhiling was going to marry a wife in the future, it was impossible for her to let her child be bullied by a stepmother.

In any case, the child cannot stay.

She raised a pair of clear and innocent eyes, fixedly looked at Chu Zhiling, and said in a low voice, "Bring me a bowl of medicine."

"impossible."

Xin Yue was very tired and didn't want to quarrel with him, not at all, and her heart didn't hurt as much as she imagined, but she was very empty, like trekking in the snow, ignorant and unable to catch anything.

After five or six days of being bedridden, she became thinner and emaciated a lot, but her eyes looked extraordinarily large and quiet, like black jade soaked in ice water, with a slightly clear brilliance flowing, very Heiliang and transparent, she looked at Chu Zhiling seriously, without the slightest wave in her voice:

"We are not suitable, let's call it a day."

The world suddenly became very quiet, even the wind outside didn't seem to move, the air seemed to freeze, almost no sound could be heard, only the sound of the man's breathing was slightly rapid, as if he couldn't accept this fact, and even more so She can't accept such a calm and indifferent abandonment of her past.

"What did you say?!" Chu Zhiling's voice was a bit heavy.

Xin Yue looked at him, his small face was pale and tired: "I'm very tired, can't you see it?"

You have to endure his repeated doubts, you have to watch your friends die in front of her and can't do anything, you have to hear his cruel and merciless questioning-have you ever been better with others?You have to give up a lot of things about yourself, you have to become docile and pure, well-behaved and obedient, and you don’t want to be like yourself.She wants to chase what she wants, but she dare not even mention it to him.Just because she knew, he would think she was going to escape, and he would think she was restless.

She was powerless to change this situation. Her efforts were destroyed by his coldness, leaving no residue. She had communicated with him before and repeatedly explained that she and Xia Chuan did not have that kind of relationship. She thought he could understand her. Thinking that he didn't even have the minimum trust and respect for her.

The repeated doubts and temptations have made her lose the courage to continue. His love is too strong and too blind, like a surging ocean, which can drown people if they don't pay attention.

Chu Zhiling got up, sat next to Xin Yue, held her icy cold hand in his, and said in a low voice, "Take a good rest when you're tired."

Xin Yue pulled out his hand, and shook his head gently and slowly.

Ten days passed by in a flash. During these few days, Xin Yue didn't say a word. It wasn't the alienation and indifference in the past, but she was simply tired. It seemed that it took a lot of effort to say a word. She sat alone in the long On the rattan chair, leaning against the back of the chair quietly, there are purple flowers blooming beside her white fox fur like jade.

She looked at the sky far away, her eyes were clear and tired, and her mood faded.

Scenes from her previous life emerged in her mind, and she remembered that a long time ago, under the distant blue sky, after she and her teammates completed the tense and difficult important tasks, they would have a short period of relaxation on the deck, At that time, they would hold red wine, chew cheese, and sit on the deck loudly, talking about some anecdotes and strange things at sea, laughing and laughing, with simple happiness and satisfaction on their faces.

At that time, large and small pirates appeared in many sea areas of country Z. They ravaged the passing merchants and seriously disrupted the coastal defense of country Z. As the deputy chief of staff of the navy, she led her teammates to meet the enemy under the signal of the Central Navy Headquarters of country Z. At that time, there were seas, winds, and bright sunshine. Destroyers were coming and going, radar lights were dangling, and colorful lines were displayed in the main control room of the ship. The screen on the screen was staggered and complicated, the artillery fire rumbled in the ears, and the water surface was frequently blasted into splashes.Sometimes the helicopter will hover overhead, and red ultraviolet rays can be seen shuttling between the clouds.

Every time is a contest between life and death, and if you are not careful, your soul will return to the nine heavens.