Roaming in the dark

Chapter 220 In the Eyes of Many People

"In the eyes of many people, being an official is so good and prestigious. Once you become an official and have power, you can do things that many people can't do. You have resources that many people don't have. You seem to have more power than others. Others have more possibilities to realize their own personal value, no matter whether this kind of self-realization is due to your personal selfish desire, or the desire to perform, or, to put it more broadly, it is an ideal.”

Sister Chen and Sheng Chuncheng said: "I agree, this is a fact. Sometimes in this position, accomplishing things does give me a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction, but these, to put it bluntly, are all false. Yes. There are more things that others cannot see. What others see is only what you get, and what you pay is invisible to others.

"You don't have to demand yourself, you can go with the flow, you can do what others do, and you can even try your best to get what you want, but in this way, the road is not long, and the final result will be like Shuangshuang like my dad.

"Do you think Shuangshuang's father didn't know that he might have such a day? No, no, he knows, and I have reminded him many times. All the corrupt officials you see, no matter their official positions, they have thought that there will be such a day. On this day, lying alone on the bed at night, in the dark, they both couldn't sleep, and they all had times of fear.

"But they can't control it. They just can't control themselves. They have to go that way. On the one hand, it's a fluke mentality. On the other hand, when everyone else is doing it, you don't do it, too It's hard, you are a time-bearer, Xiao Sheng, do you know how difficult it is to be a time-bearer and a different kind when we are in a position like ours?

"It's beyond your imagination. To a certain extent, I can say quite frankly that I am such a time-bearer, a different kind. On this point, I have a clear conscience, and I want to become a time-bearer. Becoming a different kind, how much pressure is this, only I can experience it, others can't.

"I became a time-bearer and a different kind. It's not how high my consciousness is and how high my self-demand is. It's because I have a cleanliness addiction. I have been cleanliness since I was a child. In this regard, Shuangshuang is very similar to me. If she didn't Cleanliness, will not make yourself depressed, and will not let yourself be cornered.

"When I became a time-behind, a different kind, only Shuangshuang would tell me 'Mom, you did the right thing, I support you.' At that moment, I was very proud of myself and very proud of Shuangshuang pride."

Sheng Chuncheng listened, he really couldn't understand what Sister Chen meant when she said ghosts and aliens. In his opinion, Sister Chen was not always beautiful, whether in front of the camera or behind the camera, that Qian XX, She has always been capable and confident, doing things vigorously and resolutely, what is the pressure she is talking about?Did someone stop her from doing things?
"This kind of scenery has a price." Sister Chen and Sheng Chuncheng said, "The pressure first comes from your relatives, by the way, Xiao Sheng, you have seen or heard the cool grandparents, grandparents, uncles and aunts Uncle and aunt?"

Sheng Chuncheng shook his head. He had never seen or heard of the people Sister Chen mentioned.

"We have stopped dating a long time ago, no, no, they have already cut off ties with me." Sister Chen snorted, "I offended my own parents, my own brother and sister, and walked in On the way, they just walked towards me, and when they saw me, they would turn their heads away as if they didn’t see me.”

"Why?" Sheng Chuncheng couldn't help asking.

"In the words of my parents, it's selfish and unreasonable. When you give birth to me, you give birth to a beast. My father once pointed at my nose and scolded me. If a person doesn't even have family affection, what's the difference between you and a beast? "

Sister Chen sneered: "In their eyes, I am a beast that my relatives do not recognize. In the words of my brother and sister, I am prudish and hypocritical. For my personal future and official position, I can step on others to climb up. They Think, I'm stepping on them."

"Why do you say that?" Sheng Chuncheng asked.

"It's very simple. From my parents' point of view, if your own brother and sister don't help, what's the use of being an official? From my brother and sister's point of view, it's only natural for me to help them, and I can't even think of the benefits. Your own person, are you still your own person?
"But they never thought that if I did what they hoped, I wouldn't be sitting here talking to you today, and I would end up like Shuangshuang's father, or when Shuangshuang's father went in, I would Also followed in.

"For so many years, the hardest thing for me is to refuse, to refuse the request of relatives and friends, this kind of rejection is the most hurtful, hurting others and hurting myself, I have always asked myself this way, let myself become If I get stiff, even if I offend them all, I can't open even a small crack, it's really ruthless.

"To be an official is to do things, but also to be a person. If you can't even be a good person, you will definitely not be able to do good things, let alone be a good official. A good official is a good official, and a good person is a good person. No one can be both a good official and a good person. She is a good person. The good person I am talking about is not what is advertised in the media, but for those close to her, and for those around her, that is the case, unambiguous at all.

"I know how many people are now, and they are happy at the moment. They are waiting, and they can finally see my joke, 'Why are you so arrogant, didn't you think you have today?' I know they will be like this Think. Xiao Sheng, do you think it’s a bit complicated?”

Sheng Chuncheng nodded and said yes, I don't quite understand.

"Actually, it's easy to understand." Sister Chen said, "As I said before, when you have a high position, your resources are indeed great, and you can indeed do things that others cannot. For example, my sister graduated from university. Sometimes, I could let her enter the unit she wanted with a single phone call, but I refused, and I didn't make the call.

"Later it was Shuangshuang's father who made the phone call and arranged for her to come in. It was a unit under my system. People saw it, of course it was my face. After I found out, I scolded the supervisor and asked him Clear my sister out immediately. You think, how could my sister not hate me? She went to my parents to cry, my father called me, and I hung up the phone.

"Is it ruthless? Indeed, I feel that I am ruthless, but I have to be so ruthless. I am like this to my sister, and I am also like this to my brother. My brother's company, through an open bidding, took me under I disqualified him from the project, and my brother ran to my office in a rage, and if it wasn't for being dragged by others, he would have beaten me.

"Xiao Sheng, do you think I am a time-reversing ghost, and is this alien very different?"

Sheng Chuncheng nodded and said, "Indeed, it's very unreasonable. To be honest, if you are really my sister, I will be angry with you if you treat me like this."

(End of this chapter)