Roaming in the dark

Chapter 219 Do You Know, Xiao Sheng?
"Do you know, Xiao Sheng?" Sister Chen and Sheng Chuncheng said, "Before Shuang Shuang was born, I didn't even raise cats or even dogs. When I was in school, many classmates raised silkworms, but I didn't raise them. In the hospital, the doctor put Shuangshuang next to my pillow. Looking at her, I was terrified. What should I do with such a little brat? I don’t know anything. Can I support her?

"Shuangshuang grows up day by day. Others look at it, as if it was me, the mother who brought up the child, but I feel that Shuangshuang brought me up. That feeling is very strange. I didn't know how to raise the child before. Changing diapers, she taught you how to change them. If you don’t know how to feed your children, she taught you how to feed them. If you don’t know what to do when your children are sick, she also teaches you.

"Really, Xiao Sheng, I feel like I was taught by Shuangshuang how to be a mother. The first time I heard her cry and saw her look at you and smile, you felt that the whole world Has been changed, she is a treasure in your eyes, why not you a treasure in her eyes?
"She doesn't know anything. When she looks at you, she knows to smile at you, and then she will get into your arms. She cries so hard that when you hug her, she becomes quiet and stops crying. You are not her." What is your treasure?"

Sister Chen started to cry as she spoke, and she cried, "But this treasure is no longer her treasure, no longer, she won't look at you and smile, she doesn't even want to look at you, no Going into your arms again, she will run far away, away from you, far away from you, to a place where you can never find her again, do you know, Xiao Sheng, I am no longer Shuang Shuang that treasure.

"I killed her, I killed her, Xiao Sheng, I will never forgive myself in this life."

Sheng Chuncheng sat there, stretched out his hand to hold Sister Chen's hand, he felt that he couldn't say anything, at this time, the language was weak, the language was like the wind, and when he spoke, he would run away, rootless There is no evidence, nothing to rely on, words can't keep up with the gone Guo Shuang, and can't keep up with Sister Chen's sadness.

Sister Chen's hand in his was cold and twitching non-stop. Sister Chen's cry was like the darkness around him, wrapping him tightly.

"Listen, Xiao Sheng, listen!" Sister Chen hissed, and asked softly, "Xiao Sheng, did you hear any sound? In Shuangshuang's room, did Shuangshuang come back?"

Sister Chen suddenly yelled loudly: "Shuangshuang, Shuangshuang!"

She wanted to stand up, but Sheng Chuncheng held her back, and she fell into Sheng Chuncheng's arms, crying loudly, and Sheng Chuncheng hugged her tightly.

"Impossible, impossible. Shuangshuang won't come back. Shuangshuang hates me and this family to death. She doesn't want to come back for a second." Sister Chen said in pain, "I'm no longer Her mother is dead, I don't deserve it, I killed her!"

I don't know how long she cried, but Sister Chen's voice became softer, and finally she couldn't cry anymore. She lay motionless in Sheng Chuncheng's arms, as if she had fallen asleep. Sheng Chuncheng gently stroked her back, he hoped she would fall asleep and have a good night's sleep.

The reality is too cruel to face, so go to sleep, go to dream, in dream, you may meet the person you want to see, and you will be forgiven.

"I know what heartache feels like." Sister Chen didn't cry any more, but said almost in a whisper: "Heartache was just a word before, but now I know that it is a real existence, it is not pain, it is a Doors are closed in front of you, and you finally have no way to go. In the darkness, there is more darkness, closing the doors one by one.

"Heartache is not pain, you can escape from pain, and in the past, did you have heartache, heartache will make you die, make you despair, by the way, Xiao Sheng, the world you see, the world in your eyes, right? It's pitch black?"

Sheng Chuncheng shook his head, he said no, "Although I can't see the outside world, there is still light. For example, when I think of Guo Shuang's laughter, my eyes are bright."

Sheng Chuncheng closed his eyes when he said this, he imagined Guo Shuang looking at him, tilting his head, and giggling, there was really a dazzling light in front of his eyes, Guo Shuang was in this light He giggled, the bright light blinding his eyes.

"That's great." Sister Chen said.

Sheng Chuncheng nodded, and Sister Chen sighed.

"I can't see it anymore, Xiaosheng, Xiaosheng, you can still see Shuangshuang, I can't see her anymore, as long as I see her, I will turn my head back in pain, I dare not look, and I can't see her her."

Sister Chen said: "Before I seemed to fall asleep, I saw Shuangshuang, but as soon as I saw her, I woke up, I wanted to stay in the dream, stay there and take a good look at her, but I couldn't. I just woke up, I couldn't even look at her and say to her, 'Shuangshuang, I'm sorry', she won't give me this chance, I can't even ask her to forgive my mother."

Sister Chen cried again as she spoke, shaking her head constantly while crying.

"Why is it so unreal? I really don't know if all this happened for real or if I was in a dream. Xiao Sheng, am I still in a dream?" Sister Chen asked.

Sheng Chuncheng couldn't answer this question. Whether he said yes or no, it was cruel. He felt that at this moment, he was not only really blind, but also lost the ability to speak.

The two of them sat quietly in the dark. For a while, Sheng Chuncheng felt that Sister Chen had fallen asleep. He wanted to get up and hug her to the sofa to make her sleep more comfortably. His hand just moved After a while, Sister Chen let out a long sigh.

This sigh seemed to rise from the depths of the darkness, and then seemed to fall towards the depths of the darkness.

"Xiao Sheng, do you know that once, I was the pride of Shuang Shuang, and Shuang Shuang was also my pride. Our mother and daughter are both proud of each other. No one understands me. When they misunderstand me, Shuang Shuang will Come over and say to me, 'Mom, you are doing the right thing, I support you.' As long as there is this sentence of Shuangshuang, I feel that everything is worthwhile, and all the efforts have been rewarded."

As Sister Chen spoke, she sighed again, and she went on to say:
"I don't know when, everything has changed. Shuangshuang is no longer proud of her mother. She just hates me. She starts to think that I am hypocritical, that I am a dramatist, and that my life is just I carefully planned and directed a play myself, I don't know what went wrong, but I know that I let her down, I am no longer her pride."

After being silent for a while, Sister Chen sobbed: "Her father has let her down, and her mother has let her down too. When there is no hope, it is despair. Xiao Sheng, we are the ones who let Shuang Shuang have nowhere to go. Go, she can't go on!"

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