Mecha Star Wars

Chapter 17 New Problems

I don't know what Jin Sichen thought, but Wu Yusen sounded sympathetic to Lin Fan.

Parents urging marriage is originally thinking about the happiness of their children.But many times, urging marriage has become a formality. Fortunately, it doesn't seem to matter whether you are happy or not.

According to Lin Fan's information and her own description, she was originally an independent, cheerful, and courageous woman.Although she is still suffering from illness, after getting in touch with her in the past few days, I can feel that her personality is also very good.

Whether she signed up for fitness classes or tour groups, it was all to help her get out of the pain as soon as possible and return to normal life as soon as possible.

Just wait a little longer, Lin Fan's pain will be healed slowly, and he will start a new life.At that time, whether it is a boyfriend or a marriage, it will all happen naturally.

It's a pity that the Lin family's parents couldn't wait any longer. They didn't care that Lin Fan was still recovering from his injuries, and forcefully forced a normal person into what he is now.

Many people don't know that language is the sharpest knife in the world.

How sharp it is depends on how important the person who swings the knife at you is in your heart.

To put it bluntly, the more you care, the more hurtful your words will be.

As the closest people to her, Lin Fan's parents didn't realize that their words were like sharp knives, almost stabbing Lin Fan to death.

I don't know if they have regretted making it into what it is now.

Listening to Lin Fan's words, Jin Sichen wrote something in his hand from time to time, and asked again: "I feel that you seem to care about your parents' thoughts, is that so?"

Lin Fan thought for a while and said, "I don't know what it means to be extra caring. Why don't I tell you about my childhood, so you can judge?"

Jin Sichen nodded.

When Lin Fan was a child, Lin's father had been working outside the home and rarely participated in his daughter's life.Fortunately, he made a lot of money, so that Lin Fan could drink milk when he was a child, and Lin's mother could wear mink fur and a gold chain, always smiling.

I don't know if it's because the family has some money, or because Lin's mother has a natural personality that loves comparisons. Lin Fan's childhood has been spent being compared with other children.

No matter how good Lin Fan is at studying and how obedient he is, it seems that he will never be praised by Mama Lin.

The cousin who is the team leader is always better than her, and the children of Lin Ma's friends are always more obedient than her. Even the naughty cousin who dropped out of school has all kinds of good things in front of Lin Fan, and Lin Fan gradually feels inferior in his longing heart.

In high school, the disappointed Lin Fan began to rebel. She gave up studying hard and wanted to use her poor grades to attract Lin's mother's attention.

At this time, Lin's father's business encountered setbacks and began to suffer serious losses.Lin's mother quarreled with Lin's father all day long, and she didn't care about Lin Fan at all, let alone reprimanding, it could almost be regarded as ignoring him.

Lin Fan's mentality collapsed, he gave up studying directly, and started to live as a scumbag.Two months before the college entrance examination, the new history teacher had a long talk with Lin Fan.The care in her words was like a warm current, which made her stiff heart beat slowly again.

Lin Fan began to study hard, trying to turn the tide.But time is running out.She can only give up mathematics, physics and chemistry, and only memorize the knowledge points of liberal arts repeatedly.

After the college entrance examination, I got a relatively good score. I couldn't get into a key university, but it was much higher than the average undergraduate.

For Lin Fan who only studied for two months, this is already a very good result.If she hadn't given up studying at the beginning, maybe Tsinghua University and Peking University would have given it a go.

No one asked about university volunteering. Lin Fan chose a university far away from his home. After entering, he realized that it was a private institution with only a junior college degree, and his degree was not recognized by the state.

Things had come to this, Lin Fan could only study hard during his university days, passed the full-time college entrance examination, and finally graduated with a bachelor's degree from another university.

After leaving home, Lin Fan saw the vast world, broke free from the shackles of his family, and never wanted to return to the oppressive environment.

After graduation, she didn't follow the arrangement of her family and went home to work, and went to Gaohe City alone.

"You all know what happened later." Lin Fan suddenly realized that her life was not long, and she finished talking in such a short time.

"So you have low self-esteem in your heart and hope to be approved by your parents. Although you worked hard to get into college and find a good job, once your parents deny it, you will be very hurt." Jin Sichen concluded.

"This kind of damage keeps accumulating, and it has dealt a fatal blow to you. It directly negates the meaning of your entire life. You don't know why you are alive, and you feel that life is nothing to love."

"You hope to be affirmed by others, but it always backfires. Any affirmation and encouragement will give you strength. So the history teacher in middle school just had a long talk with you, and you studied hard. You are just a lack A child who loves and has low self-esteem."

Lin Fan listened calmly, and echoed, "Isn't it? I also discovered it. I used to think that I was very capable, daring, daring, and omnipotent. Only later did I realize that these were all illusions."

"I want them to praise me when I go to university, I want them to praise me when I get a bachelor's degree, I want them to praise me for finding a good job, I want them to praise me for making a lot of money... I still get [-] points A child who wants to be praised by her mother. It’s just that few people have praised me from the bottom of their hearts in all these years.”

"You're fine." Wu Yusen sighed, and couldn't help but comfort him.Seeing Lin Fan looking over, he was afraid that she would not believe him, so he emphasized, "Really."

Lin Fan looked at Wu Yusen's smiling face with all eight teeth exposed, and felt a little sour and warm in his heart, he gently pulled the corner of his mouth and replied, "Thank you."

Jin Sichen got a general understanding, and said to Lin Fan: "I found that you have a clear understanding of your illness, which is a good thing. It is right to live separately from your parents. If you can't get affirmation, at least you must avoid harm. Living alone now Are you in control of your emotions?"

"It's okay when it's okay. It's just that I can't manage things. I don't know when, when something happens, I start to have convulsions."

"Sometimes, maybe when I see a tree branch on the side of the road being sawed off, I keep thinking about it, feeling sad, tossing and turning, unable to sleep all night, and thinking about it every now and then, obviously it has nothing to do with me." Lin Fan sighed road. "So I don't go out very much now, because I'm afraid that I will be annoyed by these inexplicable things every day."

"It is difficult for you to deal with emotional problems at present. Not going out is indeed a solution, but there will be problems in the long run. I only hope that after a period of time, your psychological resistance to stress can be strengthened, and you can gradually get in touch with the outside world. This time can't be too long. People It’s a social animal after all. Long-term isolation from social interaction can cause problems even for normal people. It won’t help your condition.”

"The best way is to put you in a safe environment, where you can get in touch with a certain external environment and get rid of the factors that make you uneasy. At the same time, it can also be accompanied by psychological treatment, a three-pronged approach. Only in this way can you Improve your state in the shortest possible time."

"It's just that it's easy to say, but it's not so easy in practice." Of course, Jin Sichen knew that Lin Fan stopped treatment due to economic reasons, and he couldn't do what he said.

Lin Fan had known for a long time that it was impossible for her to get good treatment in her current situation, and she had to fight hard by herself, and it didn't matter where she carried it.I have already calmed down my mind, so I don't feel it is a pity.

Seeing that Jin Sichen seemed to be ready to move on to the next topic, Wu Yusen hurriedly interrupted and asked, "Then what if the side effects of her medicine haven't subsided?"

"What side effects haven't gone away?" Jin Sichen flipped through the documents, "The medical records show that she has stopped taking the medicine for 2 years. Are there any other symptoms?"

Looking at Lin Fan's swollen body, it was indeed caused by the side effects of the medicine. It should not be so swollen after 2 years, but it is also possible that he ate too much in the later period and superimposed obesity, so Jin Sichen didn't care at first.

Lin Fan explained his symptoms again.

Headache.

My mind is not clear, my reaction is very slow, and I keep forgetting things.

I no longer like the things I liked before, I am not happy when I should be happy, and I am not sad when I feel sad.

My eyes hurt, I always feel tired, and I can't open them.

The ear always hears the sound, but if you listen carefully, it seems that there is no sound.Also tinnitus.

Always nauseous and retching, but unable to vomit.

Sometimes it feels like the head is so heavy that it is about to fall off the neck.

My heart hurts, my stomach hurts, and my intestines hurt.

Arm pain, hand joints, shoulder blade pain.Thighs, knees, butt hurt too.

There are also different types of pain, sometimes it’s a stabbing pain, sometimes it’s an inflammatory pain, sometimes it’s numb, and sometimes it’s like a fire...

Hearing this, it was really faulty from head to toe.

Jin Sichen frowned when he heard that, and he and Wu Yusen brought over the medical report and read it carefully.

"She said that outside hospitals couldn't find out, but I thought we would definitely find out here. It turned out that everything was normal." Wu Yusen said next to him.

"Emotional disturbance is a manifestation of depression." Jin Sichen said. "If it hurts, I suspect that it may be a somatic disorder. There may indeed be some side effects of drugs in terms of eyes and ears, but hers are a bit too much."

"What is somatization disorder?" Wu Yusen asked.

"Simply put, it is a mental disorder caused by mental anxiety. It is mainly manifested in various unexplained pains in the body and limbs, nausea, etc. that cannot be detected by medical means. It is often accompanied by obvious anxiety and depression."

"Isn't it depression?" Wu Yusen asked.

"No, it's another mental illness." Jin Sichen was looking at Lin Fan's brain CT. "It's usually caused by genetic factors, physical or psychosocial factors. Her CT scan showed no obvious problems, but I suspect it's because of the somatization disorder associated with her depression. Some depressed patients do have symptoms of somatization disorder in the severe stage .”

Well, another mental illness.Lin Fan couldn't complain anymore.

"When did you feel these symptoms?" Jin Sichen asked Lin Fan.

"Probably after stopping the medicine, I can't remember clearly." Lin Fan recalled.

"That's almost two years, which is in line with the time of diagnosis. It should be somatization disorder." Jin Sichen concluded.

"I can't find out what's wrong but I feel pain. Is it an illusion?" Wu Yusen asked.

"It's not a hallucination, it's subjective pain." Jin Sichen replied.

"Let me explain to you this way. Physical lesions produce pain reflexes, which are transmitted to the brain by nerves, so that you can feel pain. Somatic pain is a lesion with no substance in the body, but the nerves feel pain. Although it is subjective pain, it is also real. pain."

"Then how can it be cured?" Wu Yusen asked again.

"..." Although Jin Sichen was very knowledgeable, he couldn't help but pause, "I need to take antidepressant medicine."

(End of this chapter)