departure tomorrow

Chapter 76 Farewell to this world
"We will make a decision after we stabilize."

Su Nan opened her eyes and looked at the doctors discussing beside her bed.

What is this doing?
The doctor saw that Su Nan woke up and wanted to see what was going on. He just walked over to see Su Nan looked at him in horror, which made him afraid to approach him.

"Is it like this yesterday?" The doctor turned to look at the nurse.

"It wasn't yesterday, but it's not that bad. At least I didn't resist or fear yesterday." The nurse looked at Su Nan worriedly.

"Then it won't work like this." The doctor looked at the intern who was taking notes beside him, and thought for a while, "You are about the same age, why don't you try it?"

"Me?" The intern looked at everyone in embarrassment, so he nodded, "Let me try."

He put the things in his pocket and walked gently to Su Nan.

Su Nan stared at the smiling doctor in front of him, wondering what he was going to do.

"Don't be afraid, I'm not a bad person, I won't hurt you." The intern told Su Nan gently, and then wanted to look into Su Nan's eyes.

Listening to Su Nan's words, it seemed that someone had said this to her before, who was it?Su Nan watched as the doctor's hand stretched out and touched her, as if it had touched a switch. She suddenly saw a dark place, and there was a person very close to her, so close that she could hear the sound of breathing, and she couldn't see what he looked like. Qing, but she felt the danger and slowly retreated and wanted to escape. He grabbed her and said to her. Yes, what he said was, don't be afraid, I am not a bad person, and I will not hurt you.

I can't recall the later memories, but deep fear and grievance suddenly came to my heart. Seeing the man in front of me tremble violently, Su Nan stretched out her hand to push him away.

"Hey, quick, quick, up, up." The doctor saw Su Nan suddenly like this, and quickly grabbed her, "Calm down, calm down."

After one injection, Su Nan slowly stopped struggling.

The doctor let go of Su Nan with a sigh of relief and then cleaned up the mess. Just now, Su Nan forcibly pulled off a lot of things on his body.

Su Nan stared blankly at the ceiling at their mercy, tears streaming down both sides.

What made her so scared?
Su Nan didn't understand.

"Su Nan, from today onwards, you should slowly drink some porridge soup. You have to slowly remove the nasal feeding." The nurse held a cup with a straw inserted in it, and then lifted Su Nan's bed up a little.

Su Nan looked at everything in front of her and felt like crying for no reason.

There are only a few beds in the huge room, and all kinds of instruments are placed beside the bed, and the doctor is busy beside it.

"Hold it lightly with your hand like this. If you want to drink, you can drink a little. It doesn't matter if you don't want to drink." The nurse gently put Su Nan's hand on her chest, put the cup on her hand and went to work.

Su Nan looked at the nurse who was writing something, and felt very warm. This scene did not reject her at all.But those people just now, Su Nan knew that they were not bad people, but they were just afraid, but it seemed that they were not the ones who were afraid, so what was it that they were afraid of?

What the hell did I forget.

what is it then.

The nurse finished her work and wanted to turn her head to see if Su Nan had finished drinking.

"Did she fall asleep again?" The nurse looked at the porridge soup that was still in her hand and Su Nan who closed her eyes tightly.

"Let her sleep. It always feels like she has been hit hard to become like this." The doctor stopped what he was doing and turned to look at Su Nan.

The nurse carefully removed the cup in Su Nan's hand, gently shook her out of bed, and shook her head as she watched her frowning while she was asleep, "What the hell is it that makes her dream like this."

The doctor brought new salt water and hung up on Su Nan, "I don't know, it feels like she has forgotten something or doesn't want to talk anymore."

"Really sometimes when I see her like this, I question whether I saved her or destroyed her." The nurse said, her eyes were red again.

"Okay, okay, I was transferred here in the same way in the emergency room before, you, if you keep doing this job, you will collapse sooner or later, so many patients die every day, we just need to do our best to save them. Ask yourself Just be ashamed." The doctor patted the nurse.

"Also tell me, when you just came, there was an old grandfather who was not rescued, so you asked for a month's leave." The nurse looked at the doctor.

"I just came here at that time, and the first patient was that grandfather. After being with me for almost a year, I finally went. I definitely can't accept it." The doctor pulled the nurse away, "Okay, okay, let's go to work."

At this moment, Su Nan on the hospital bed was sweating coldly and still trembling a little.

"No." Su Nan opened his eyes and looked around. He was still in that ward. Why was it so noisy?Turning to look at the door, the hospital bed was at least five meters away from the door, but the sound seemed to be coming from there.

"It's useless for you to stay here every day like this."

"It's okay, it's a holiday anyway."

"Can"

Su Nan wanted to hear something more, but couldn't hear anything.

"What did you just say?" The nurse walked up to Su Nan.

Su Nan looked at the nurse suspiciously.

"Am I hallucinating?" The nurse got up and asked the doctor who was typing on the computer over there.

"Like? I didn't hear a small sound." The doctor looked at the nurse.

The nurse scratched her head in doubt, "Call me if there is anything." Seeing that Su Nan didn't respond, the nurse sighed and left.

I seem to recognize that voice just now.

Su Nan looked at the ceiling and couldn't think of anything.

Turning around, he saw two people standing by the bed.

They were not wearing white coats. One boy was wearing a white shirt, and the girl next to him was wearing a white skirt. This boy had never seen it before, but this girl was very familiar with it.

"She doesn't seem to remember us?" The girl turned to look at the boy.

The boy shook his head, "Then we are long gone."

Su Nan looked at them suspiciously.

who are they?Do I know you?
"It's about the same. Didn't we sleep for so long before, and now it's still intermittent. It's almost gone." The boy looked at Su Nan.

"What are you looking at?" The nurse looked at Su Nan who kept tilting her head.

Su Nan raised her hand tremblingly and pointed at the place where the two men were standing.

The nurse looked over, but there was nothing there, "Did you see anything?"

"Yes, two, people." Su Nan pointed to the place where the two people were standing.

The nurse looked at the empty space with horror on her face.

"What's the matter, it's like seeing a ghost." The doctor put down his things and came over.

"Can you believe it? She just spoke." The nurse looked at the doctor in horror.

"It's a good thing she's talking, why are you so scary." The doctor was puzzled.

"But she just said that there are two people standing there." The nurse pointed to the direction Su Nan just pointed at, which was an empty wall.

The doctor opened his mouth and looked at the nurse in horror.

"It can't be black and white, right?" The nurse still didn't respond.

"Crazy, do you believe this as a medical staff?" The doctor patted the nurse.

"Then how do you explain it?" The nurse looked at the doctor.

"Wait a minute, let me ask."

The doctor looked down at Su Nan, "Who is standing over there?"

Su Nan ignored him and just looked in that direction.

The doctor slowly raised his body and looked at the nurse with a serious face, "After the founding of the People's Republic of China, you will not be allowed to become a spirit. I don't know. Call the director of the psychiatric department quickly."

The nurse nodded and went on the phone.

The doctor shivered when he saw Su Nan who was still staring at the place.

Su Nan looked at them.

"Hey, why doesn't she look very smart?" The girl asked the boy beside her.

"What happened in the past few days? Did she get into a car accident or jumped off the building here?" The boy looked at the girl incomprehensibly.

"How do I know." The girl looked at Su Nan, "Why does she keep looking at us?"

"How do I know." The boy shrugged, "Someone is here, let's go."

Who is here?
Su Nan turned to look at the opened door.

"Ah, Director Xiao, you are here. This is the situation." The doctor saw someone coming and hurried over.

Su Nan turned her head to look at the place just now, but the person was gone.

Su Nan looked at other places, no, where did they go?How did you leave here?
Su Nan began to search for the memory in her mind, where did she meet this girl?

She suddenly saw a lot of blurred scenes.

But they all have one thing in common, they all have a name in their mouths.

"Su Nan!"

"Su Nan!"

"Su Nan!"

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"Su Nan? It seems to be my name."

Director Xiao looked at Su Nan who didn't pay any attention to her, shook his head and looked at them, "She doesn't listen to me at all, what's the matter?"

"Then what should we do?" The nurse looked at Su Nan who was frowning and thinking about something.

"No matter what, at least she has to give me some feedback." Director Xiao looked helplessly at Su Nan on the hospital bed.

"Let's have a look again, I still have outpatient clinic to go first." Director Xiao shook his head.

The nurse had to send the director away.

"She's awake now, try giving her porridge and water." The doctor handed the new one to the nurse. "I don't know why a man talks to her and she starts to get scared, and it's even worse when she meets her."

The nurse looked at Su Nan who was staring at the ceiling, and an incredible thought suddenly came to her mind.

She turned her head to take the cup and looked at the doctor, "You said, is it because she has encountered such a thing that she is so afraid of men?"

The doctor suddenly realized, "It's possible, but she's only so young."

The nurse frowned and looked at the doctor, "That's not a simple suicide."

"Then you have to let her speak first." The doctor turned to look at Su Nan on the hospital bed, "I hope she just lost her memory and doesn't want to contact anyone."

The nurse sighed, "I can only hope that's the case."

Shake up Su Nan and hand her the cup. The nurse went to work.

Su Nan looked at the thing in his hand, and took a sip cautiously. This feeling was strange. When he swallowed, he could clearly feel that there was an obvious tube in his throat. Even if he swallowed saliva, he would feel this way.

But she thought it was quite delicious, so she drank it all at once.

The nurse came over to take away the empty cup, and looked at Su Nan who was still looking dull, "Little sister, I won't shake it for you for now, just like this first, do you want to watch TV dramas? We have ipads here."

Su Nan shook her head.

The nurse sighed and shook her head and left.

"Why don't you take some of her urine for a test." The doctor said to the nurse.

"Test what?" The nurse didn't respond.

"Are you pregnant?" The doctor asked seriously.

"What are you thinking, if you are pregnant, can't you find out after so many tests just sent in?" The nurse looked at the doctor.

"Just in case, I'll send it for an emergency check." The doctor looked at the nurse.

The nurse thought for a while and nodded.

Seeing them busy, Su Nan didn't understand, especially after seeing the nurse squatting down to take a cup of urine from her urine bag.

Take it to drink?
Su Nan shook her head, how could it be possible.

She turned her head to look at the small window. It was dark again.Another day passed.

Looking at the busy doctors, she really didn't understand why there were so many jobs, and the nurse hadn't come back after taking her urine out.

Su Nan watched the doctors busy for an unknown amount of time before the nurse came back.

She happily shook her hand at the doctor.

The doctor seemed to breathe a sigh of relief.

What are you happy about?
Su Nan didn't know, and didn't want to know.

I stayed like this for a few days, the nasal feeding was also removed, and a lot of equipment on my body was also removed.

"Little friend, you will be transferred to the general ward in the afternoon. I won't be taking care of you from now on. You must be healthy. If I am free, I will definitely visit you. You must be well." The nurse braided Su Nan's hair with a cowhide band, "It's been a long time since you washed your hair, and you won't be able to wash it for a few days. Braid it for you, it will look fresher."

Su Nan looked at the gentle nurse next to her and didn't understand why she was so sad.

It wasn't until she removed all the instruments on her body and the urinary catheter that she realized that she seemed to be leaving here.

The nurse opened the door and brought a wheelchair, and the doctor carried Su Nan off the bed and put her on the wheelchair.

"Because it's too far away from the general ward, so we can only push a wheelchair there, but don't worry, we will take you there." The nurse gently touched Su Nan's head.

Su Nan nodded.

Opening the door, Su Nan was pushed out by the nurse, followed by the doctor. Su Nan looked at the person at the door, and for some reason, a feeling of disgust and disappointment filled her heart.

"Who is Su Nan's family?" The nurse pushed Su Nan and asked the person at the door.

"I, I, I, I'm her mother." A woman with white hair on her head came out of the crowd, surrounded by several people of similar age.

"We are her friends." Three people also surrounded her.

Su Nan turned her head and looked, it was the three people who woke up at the door at that time.

"Fine, follow me and take her to the general ward." The nurse looked at the people around her and pushed Su Nan into the elevator.

"Don't worry, I'm by your side." The nurse noticed that Su Nan was a little afraid of contact with the outside world and lowered her head to comfort Su Nan.

It seems to have been walking for a long time, passing through this building and going through several buildings before getting on the elevator.

Su Nan was pushed into the room. This room is small, but it has everything, bed, bathroom, balcony, air conditioner, TV series and a cabinet.

"Why is it arranged in a single ward?" The person who claimed to be Su Nan's mother asked the nurse.

"She is in a special situation and can only live alone." The nurse signaled the doctor to transfer Su Nan to the bed, "Let her sit first."

The doctor nodded, picked up Su Nan, put her on the bed, and covered her with the quilt.

"What special circumstances? Is the price here the same as that in the intensive care unit?" asked an aunt next to her.

"It must be cheaper than there. The intensive care unit costs tens of thousands a day, and it's almost [-] a day here." The nurse explained to her.

"Isn't it already? Why can't you go home?" The uncle next to the aunt came up and asked.

"She's just out of danger, not cured." The nurse explained again.

"Okay, okay, you guys go out first. The doctor needs to know something about the situation." The nurse saw a bunch of doctors coming in and pushed everyone out.

"Are you saying that she doesn't talk and ignore people?" The doctor at the head looked up at the pile of papers in his hand and looked up at the doctor and nurse who followed Su Nan.

"Tell me, let me talk to her." The nurse patted the doctor.

The doctor nodded and let her go.

Su Nan watched the nurse walking towards him, and a bunch of doctors over there were chattering about something.

"Don't be afraid, these doctors are very good." The nurse looked at Su Nan with a dull expression and explained.

Su Nan looked at the nurse and stretched out her trembling hands to grab the nurse's clothes.

The nurse was stunned, and grabbed Su Nan's hand, "What's wrong?"

Su Nan looked up at the nurse, "I don't see them." She pointed to the door with the other finger, "Except, that, three, people." Su Nan spoke with difficulty.

When she was just pushed out, she saw that those people were particularly resistant, but when she turned her head and saw the three people, her emotions changed. It was shame and reluctance. Although she didn't know what happened, she believed in her own feelings.

The nurse looked at the determined Su Nan and nodded, "If you have anything to ask me, just show this piece of paper to the doctor, and the doctor will contact me." The nurse took out a piece of paper that she didn't know when she wrote it from her pocket , is the phone number and her department and name.

The nurse stuffed the paper into Su Nan's pocket.He touched Su Nan's head and hugged her.

The moment she hugged Su Nan, she suddenly felt very familiar and sad. She saw a person running towards her in a blur and hugged her tightly.

Who is this?
The nurse let go of Su Nan and looked at her, "It must be fine."

"Go back." The doctor came over and called the nurse.

The nurse took one last look at Su Nan and followed the doctor out.

I don't know what I said when I went out, but there was a sudden quarrel outside, as if someone else was pushed down, because a woman kept shouting "The doctor pushed someone! The doctor pushed someone!"

The doctor standing next to Su Nan just wanted to ask a few questions, but they all ran out when they heard the noise outside.

Su Nan looked at the quiet ward and listened to the noise outside, feeling extremely peaceful.

He took out the paper the nurse gave him just now.

"Hello."

Su Nan chanted the name, "A really good name."

Putting the note back in his pocket, he looked up at the scene outside the window. The sun was shining brightly and calmly. If it wasn't for the noise of quarreling outside, Su Nan would have liked the feeling now.

Su Nan lifted the quilt and wanted to go outside to have a look, but obviously she overestimated herself.

With a thud, he fell off the bed, hitting his head on the stool next to the bed just in time.

But the strange thing is that Su Nan didn't feel pain, but felt something flowing down slowly, touched his head, oh, it was bleeding.

Fortunately, it doesn't hurt, it doesn't matter.

Su Nan got up on the stool, and there were armrests on the walls, which was quite considerate.

She walked slowly to the balcony and locked the door. The sun outside was really good, but for some reason, she couldn't feel any warmth.

Standing on the balcony and looking down, it is very high, and the people below are not very clear, but I can hear what is being said.

After looking at it for a while, I lost my strength, and I slumped under the window of the balcony, and I didn't have the strength to go back to bed.

The quarrel outside slowly subsided, and someone opened the door and came in.

"Where's the person?" A voice asked anxiously.

Then someone came to open the balcony door "It won't open."

Someone shouted above Su Nan's head, "There is no one from the window."

"There's no one in the toilet." It was the nurse who heard the voice.

"I'm going to check the surveillance." A man ran out.

"Go and find it." Someone shouted.

Then the ward returned to calm.

It was finally quiet.

Su Nan grabbed the handrail of the balcony and got up.

The edge of the balcony just reached Su Nan's chest.

I didn't know the strength I used, so I climbed up. It may be because the buttocks are too small, or it may be too wide. It's the same as sitting on the bench. The blood on the head is still flowing, and the clothes are all wet when it comes down. stained red.

Consciousness seems to be getting more and more blurred, but it is extremely clear.

Looking down, it seemed that someone had spotted Su Nan and pointed at her, and more and more people surrounded her.

She could still vaguely hear what they were talking about.

"It looks like someone is going to jump off the building."

"No shoes on."

"Your head is still bleeding."

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I don't know who called the police, so the inflatable blanket began to be placed directly under Su Nan.

The side is full of people watching the fun.

Behind him came the sound of banging on the door and knocking on the glass.

In fact, at first she just wanted to bask in the sun.

Ever since she woke up, she never thought that she would get out alive. Although she didn't know what happened to her, she didn't want to see this world again from the bottom of her heart.

She recalled some things recently, but for some reason, they were all hopeless things.

Su Nan stood up slowly, and the people downstairs started screaming.

She turned to look at the crowd at the window.

The door is about to be knocked open.

She heard someone downstairs saying that she wanted to jump, jump now, don't be sympathetic.

Is Bo sympathy?

The people outside the window shouted desperately not to jump, and the people downstairs shouted desperately to jump quickly.

The door was knocked open, and the first person who rushed was a firefighter. He stood at the door and shouted to calm down, and then slowly approached Su Nan.

Why don't you go down and go back.

"Are you jumping or not!"

"Hurry up!"

The people below are shouting.

Su Nan looked at him with a smile, "Listen, they really want me to jump down."

The firefighter quickly shook his head, "No, no, come down and talk about it."

She looked at the other side of the window, the so-called family members of Su Nan, watching all this indifferently.

The firefighters were getting closer.

I'm going to meet Su Nan soon.

Lean back.

She heard the people above desperately shouting no, and there was a lot of shouting downstairs.I don't know whether to celebrate or regret.

Looking up again, he actually grabbed her.

"Let go." Su Nan looked at the veins on his hands and head.

He shook his head.

Su Nan raised the other hand with difficulty, trying to pull him away who was holding her tightly.

"No, no." He tightly grabbed Su Nan's wrist with both hands.

"Why do you always want to suffer for those who are trying to live?" Su Nan suddenly remembered everything, including the memory that should have been forgotten.

Su Nan pulled his hand away with all her strength.

fall down.

"No!" The fireman watched Su Nan fall in despair.

Close your eyes, the height of ten floors is enough.

Enough to end it all.

"boom!"

In a daze, Su Nan saw a lot of people in orange clothes and white clothes surrounding him.

It seems to be on the wrong side. Why did I jump to the inflatable blanket? I clearly saw the side.

Forget it.

do not care.

Su Nan closed her eyes.

She had a long, long dream.

I was born surrounded by people, and everyone was overjoyed, because this was the birth of a new hope for a family.My young self was playing with my parents in the amusement park, and my mother hugged her on the merry-go-round and said hello to my father below.After school, parents always prepare her favorite food to welcome her at the school gate.New Year's Eve, all relatives gather together to talk and laugh happily, celebrate New Year's Eve together, and set off fireworks together.After graduating, the classmates gathered together excitedly to take pictures of their graduation certificates, crying and laughing, and promised to keep in touch in the future.In a blink of an eye, the college entrance examination came, and all the people in the class tensed up to prepare for the challenge. After the college entrance examination was over, the whole school tore up their books to celebrate the beginning of a new life.Enter the university and study with the people you like, go to the company for an internship, and then end the university life perfectly.Entering the society, running from nine to five for life, when you are tired, your lover and relatives will always give you a haven to rest. When you are unhappy, your friends will drag you around to play.Slowly, she ushered in her own new life, and everyone in the family surrounded her to grow up, just like when she was born.The children are getting bigger and bigger, and they are getting older.It ended up being a grandma sitting on a recliner listening to the radio.The children will come to visit me on weekends.When the children are away, I enjoy my old age at home with my wife and chat with the little sister who lives next door.Just go through life happily and happily.

Her life is long and she is very happy.

(End of this chapter)