departure tomorrow

Chapter 75 Save and Destroy Her
Su Nan opened her eyes, I, am I dead?Looking at the familiar environment around him, he was still lying on the bed, and the sun shone down, filling the whole room.

Is there nothing wrong with eating so much and drinking?Su Nan couldn't believe it.

Feeling his head, got off the bed, stretched his waist and turned his head, "I'm XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX, oh my god." Su Nan hadn't recovered from the output of Chinese quintessence.

If, if, Su Nan's mind is ok, and she's not blind, the one lying on the bed is herself.

Su Nan looked down at herself, touched her arm, it was real, pinched herself, hey, it doesn't hurt, it must be a dream, lie back and sleep again, yes, yes, Su Nan is going to lie back .

"Think about it, lie down and you will wake up and return to that world." A voice suddenly came out.

Su Nan turned to look at the person who made the sound.

"you are?"

"Who do you think I am?"

Su Nan looked at the old man who was smiling kindly in front of him and shook his head.

"It's the same nature as them." The old man smiled.

"Who?" Su Nan thought for a while, "Su Mu? Hero?"

"Oh, that's their name." The old man nodded, "Then what should I be called?"

"Ah?" Su Nan was even more clueless, "Then what's wrong with me?"

"You are different from us." The old man shook his head, "Look at yourself on the bed."

Su Nan turned her head to look at herself lying on the bed, her face was pale and sweaty, but she was extremely peaceful.

"Do you know why you appear in this state?" The old man walked up to Su Nan.

Su Nan shook her head.

"Although you long for death, you still want to live in your heart. The obsession is too deep, and it separates you. As long as you want, you can wake up and lie down. Of course, it means that your body has not When you die. As long as your body dies, you are really gone, and we will disappear too. You can also just watch your body die." The old man pointed to himself on the bed, "Her life and death are in your hands .”

"But no one has found me yet?" Su Nan turned to look at the old man.

"Yes. No one has found you, so you can just stand here and watch yourself die, or wake up and ask for help from the outside world." The old man still smiled and turned to look at the phone on the table.

"Humans, why did you deliberately choose me impartially?"

Su Nan saw that it was Zhu Hao's video call.

"Wow, I can't be seen from here." Su Nan was a little curious.

"You are not a human being now, so you must not be able to see it." The old man shook his head helplessly.

Su Nan sighed, she couldn't take it now.

"No, my parents should hear and come over?" Su Nan was a little curious.

"You can go and see for yourself." The old man stepped aside.

Su Nan ran to the door just as she was about to open it, when she suddenly found her hand through the door.

"Just walk out." The old man said from behind.

Only then did Su Nan react, and walked through the door.

I looked around and saw no one, where did it go?

"They went out very early, very early, probably when you were applying the mask." The old man walked up to Su Nan.

"How do you know?" Su Nan turned her head.

"I am you. I am the same as the hero and Su Mu you mentioned." The grandfather looked at Su Nan's room, "You don't have much time."

Su Nan returned to the room, and sighed as she looked at herself who had no blood at all.

"I choose to watch."

The old man shook his head, "You don't seem to have this chance."

"Huh?" Su Nan didn't understand.

There was a sound of opening the door, Su Nan was a little surprised and went out to see what was going on.

"Ah, okay, I'm here, the door is still closed and she should still be sleeping, okay, okay, I'll wake her up."

Su Nan looked at her aunt at the door, why is she here?

My aunt put on her slippers and walked over to knock on the door, "Nan Nan, wake up."

Aunt opened the door and walked through Su Nan.

"Nan Nan got up." Aunt pushed Su Nan, "Hey, why are you sweating so much? So cold?"

Su Nan looked at it and sighed, she couldn't die.

Sure enough, after pushing for a long time, my aunt panicked and called 110 and 120 immediately.Then he walked up and down the room in a panic.

"Human, I'm so restless." Su Nan shook her head, "But why did she call the police here? It's not a murder scene."

The old man shook his head.

But to be honest, the efficiency of the ambulance and the police car was really fast, and there was a ringing downstairs all of a sudden.

Su Nan sat on the table and watched a bunch of people rush in.

"Tsk tsk tsk, fortunately I took a shower and changed into nice clothes." Su Nan looked down at the clothes on her body and nodded in satisfaction.

"Wai Wai Wai, I'm not that heavy, am I?" Su Nan really wanted to curse.

The four carried Su Nan down the stairs one by one, and Su Nan followed them cursing.

"It's so lively. The essence of Chinese people is to watch the excitement." Su Nan looked at the chattering crowd beside the ambulance.

"Get out of the way! Get out of the way!" The medical staff hurriedly carried Su Nan into the ambulance.

"To be honest, this is the first time I've been sober in an ambulance." Su Nan got into the car and looked around.

Su Nan looked ahead, the police car opened the way ahead, and the ambulance followed.

"Aren't you awake? Aren't you here in a coma?" The old man pointed at Su Nan on the stretcher.

Su Nan looked at the old man helplessly.

"Wow, you ran a red light." Su Nan looked at the passing street outside.

"Wow, it's really fast. It's here." Su Nan admired, "The legendary Chinese speed."

"Hurry up."

As soon as the car stopped and the door opened, they pushed Su Nan and rushed out.

"Why so fast?" Su Nan got out of the car slowly and followed.

"If you don't hurry up, you will be gone." The old man got out of the car and followed Su Nan. "If they haven't found the reason for your coma in a short time, you really have no chance."

"Aren't I already in the hospital?" Su Nan watched the anxious doctor busy.

"You swallowed lethal doses of medicine, and they were all the kind of medicine that would poison you if you took too much. You are very good at picking. And you also hid everything. Who knows how you fell into a coma." The old man Grandpa looked at Su Nan.

"That's when you praised me. At that time, I used to take medicine one by one. Baidu used to know that if I took too much, I would die." Su Nan watched as she was pushed around for an examination.

"Is there still time for me to rule out the past one by one?" Su Nan was a little curious.

"It's too late, come out." The old man looked at the doctor who lost his running shoes.

"But I usually can't get out of the blood test and examination for a long time." Su Nan watched as she was pushed in.

"Because you won't die for a while at that time." The old man said with a smile.

"That makes sense." Su Nan nodded.

Su Nan looked at the flustered doctor, "What are they doing?"

"They are saving your life." The old man looked at the door of the hospital. "Here we come."

"Who's here?" Su Nan turned around.

"where?!"

Su Nan watched her father rush in and shout, followed by her mother, brother, uncle and sister, aunt and some unknown people.

"When you die suddenly, the whole world starts to love you." The old man said suddenly.

"It's very trendy, go online." Su Nan looked at the old man with great interest.

"Don't forget, I'm you." The old man smiled and looked inside the door, "Go in and have a look."

Su Nan walked in and saw a bunch of doctors busy around her.

The beating lines of the instrument on the side represent that Su Nan is still alive.

Su Nan leaned over, "I'm going to go, but luckily I didn't choose to wake up."

Su Nan was lying on the bed with tubes all over his body and a bunch of other messy things. He was wearing an oxygen mask, and there was a very powerful thing beside him.

"That's a blood exchange. Because the drug concentration in your blood is too high, it's poisonous." The old man looked at the instrument.

"It's amazing, it can be exchanged for blood." Su Nan praised.

"It's a wise choice to look at it now." The old man looked at Su Nan on the hospital bed.

"What?" Su Nan stood up.

"Look, if you're awake, you won't die in pain." The old man shook his head.

"Damn." Su Nan looked at herself on the bed.

"Why?" The old man looked at Su Nan.

"Who changed the hospital clothes for me?" Su Nan shouted angrily, "I changed into such beautiful clothes on purpose."

"Anyway, don't you have nice clothes now?" The old man looked at Su Nan.

Su Nan looked at herself, yes, the skirt was still on her body.

"Then if I don't want to, I will never wake up, right?" Su Nan looked at the old man.

"Vegetable people, until they die naturally or have an accident." The old man shrugged.

Su Nan nodded.

"Hey, where are you going to push me?" Su Nan watched as she and a bunch of instruments were pushed out.

"How is doctor doctor?"

The calmest ones were a few men who went up and asked about the situation calmly.

Mother and sister hugged aunt and aunt was crying.The people I didn't know stood on the side with serious faces.

Su Nan looked at herself dying on the hospital bed, and at the sad people.

Did I do something wrong.

"The situation is not ideal, but her life is temporarily saved. It was discovered a little late, but if it is later, she will really be unable to recover. We will transfer her to the intensive care unit."

After the doctor finished speaking, he pushed Su Nan into the elevator, and everyone followed.

Su Nan and the old man sat on the bed and watched the elevator full of people.

Su Nan looked back at herself, "It's weird sitting on me."

"Do you feel it?" The old man looked at Su Nan.

Su Nan shook her head.

"That's fine."

At this moment, the elevator opened, and everyone pushed Su Nan out.

Su Nan jumped off the bed.

"Okay, I can only go here, I can't go in." The doctor stopped everyone.

Su Nan looked at the thick iron door with no gaps in front of it, with "Emergency Intensive Care Unit EICU" written on the side

Everyone had to watch Su Nan being pushed in.

Mom's emotions completely collapsed at the moment the door closed, and she couldn't cry, and Dad also wiped his tears.

Su Nan looked at her mother who was squatting on the ground and didn't know how she felt.

"Go in and see yourself." The old man took Su Nan's hand.

It seems to be an illusion, but it doesn't seem to be. Su Nan always feels that the familiarity of this old man makes her very sad.

"Look at yourself, I'm glad you didn't feel it. Otherwise, life would be worse than death." The grandfather looked at Su Nan who was in the hospital bed with nasal feeding, oxygen mask, thread all over his body, and urinary catheter. , shook his head.

"I don't know why, I'm glad I'm still alive, but sad that I'm not dead yet." Su Nan sighed.

"Think about it for yourself. The initiative of life and death is in your own hands." The old man smiled. "Look at this ward. There are not many people in total. They are all old people, and you are the only young one."

Su Nan looked at the ward silently.

I don't know why, but I naturally think of Zhu Hao.

I don't know if he has eaten well, studied hard, and is happy, but don't let him know the news now, at least wait until he is on vacation.

"You don't have to worry, no one will inform him of the news." The grandfather patted Su Nan, "If you are worried, why don't you wake up and go see for yourself."

"What about you?" Su Nan looked at the old man strangely.

"I am you." The old man smiled cheerfully.

Su Nan looked at herself at the mercy of others on the hospital bed in front of her, and thought about the sad people outside.

"Did I really do something wrong?" Su Nan looked at the old man.

"Every choice is made when you think it will be better if you do it. From your point of view, you are not wrong, but it is a kind of relief. But from the point of view of those who love you, you are very wrong. In In the eyes of those who hurt you, your death is just an after-dinner joke." The old man still looked at Su Nan with a smile.

"It's okay, it's okay." Su Nan stood in front of the hospital bed and looked at the doctor who was busy with herself. "It's really only at this time that I exist in this world."

"Aren't you worried about your boyfriend?" The old man smiled and looked at Su Nan on the hospital bed.

"The last message I sent him yesterday was, don't look for me until you have a smooth vacation, concentrate on studying, it's for me." Su Nan sighed, "He didn't contact me, he probably thought I was serious. "

"It won't be long before he goes on vacation?" The old man looked at Su Nan.

"Well, it's only a few days." Su Nan nodded.

"They're gone." The old man said after thinking for a while.

"Who?" Su Nan didn't respond.

"People outside the door." The old man turned to look at the door.

"Whatever. It's useless for them to be outside, and they can't see me." Su Nan looked at the door and shook his head.

"Do you have any regrets?" the grandfather asked Su Nan suddenly.

"How can there be no regrets? I didn't study hard, made my family worry, never made them proud, didn't succeed in life, didn't give my grandparents a better life, and didn't spend more time with my grandparents. There are many regrets. But all It can't be realized." Su Nan stared blankly at herself with a pale face on the hospital bed.

"Would you blame grandpa?" The grandpa turned to look at Su Nan.

"Why are you blaming?" Su Nan didn't understand.

"Behavior in the years before his death." The old man looked at Su Nan seriously.

"How can it be strange. He didn't want to become like that, and Alzheimer's disease is not his fault. It's our juniors who are at fault." Su Nan was sad when she thought about it, but unfortunately she couldn't shed tears anymore.

"Then what if I tell you that grandpa has never left and has always been by your side?" the old grandpa asked again.

"Then I will be even more sad." Su Nan sighed.

"Why?" Now the old man doesn't understand.

"Because after he passed away, my life became worse and worse. If I let him see the granddaughter he once loved turned into this appearance, and blamed himself every day, it would be good if I went to see him that day. Such a thing will happen, and he lives in regret every day. How sad he must be." Su Nan didn't dare to think, because she didn't know why, and felt that grandpa was by her side several times inexplicably, and this feeling was very sad. Strong, this kind of question was last summer, when she felt that she was going to be heated to death when she was sleeping, she suddenly woke up and felt that grandpa was there for no reason, and after the electric fan turned on by itself at this time when there was no one around, Su Nan believed it even more.

"It's a pity." The old man shook his head.

"What a pity?" Su Nan turned to look at the old man.

"No, it's a pity to say that your life is a pity." The old man returned to his smiling state.

"My life, it should be said to be ridiculous." Su Nan shook her head, "But it's a pity, I once thought that when I became an adult, I would register for organ and tissue donation."

"You still have a chance, just lie down." The old man pointed to Su Nan on the hospital bed.

"Does that mean I wake up after lying down?" Su Nan looked at the old man.

"Then you think too much. You just lost your consciousness, and your body hasn't woken up yet. You won't wake up until your body fully wakes up." The old man shook his head.

"I don't seem to understand." Su Nan couldn't turn around.

"Hey, I'm really still an idiot." The old man smiled softly.

"Say what?" Su Nan didn't hear clearly.

"I mean, you are just a conscious existence of yourself now. I understand this." The old man looked at Su Nan.

Su Nan nodded.

"Your current body is in a coma and dying state, understand?" the old man explained again.

Su Nan nodded.

"Even if your consciousness has returned, but your body is still in a coma and dying state, even if you wake up, you will still be in a very confused state, and you will be in a coma immediately, because your body is still on the verge of death. Can you understand this?" The old man looked at Su Nan tiredly.

Su Nan nodded.

"However, if your body has fully recovered and become a normal person, but you cannot wake up without consciousness, it is equivalent to saying that your subconscious mind does not want to wake up by itself. Are you clear?" The old man looked Looking at Su Nan.

"So conscious?" Su Nan was a little shocked.

"Your desire to survive can forcibly separate your own consciousness from your body, do you think it's amazing?" The old man sighed.

Su Nan nodded in surprise.

"By the way, correct me, your life and death are not entirely in your own hands." The old man suddenly remembered.

"What do you mean?" Su Nan looked at the old man.

"If your body declares death, it doesn't matter if your consciousness returns. You will die." The old man looked at Su Nan.

"Understood." Su Nan nodded, and she just said, how could she be so powerful.

Su Nan suddenly thought, "That is to say, if my body recovers, but I don't want to wake up, I have to stay by my body in this state until my body dies, and then I dissipate?"

"That's right, I've become smarter." The old man looked at Su Nan with relief.

"Isn't that also a kind of torment?" Su Nan couldn't figure it out.

"You can choose to wake up and die again, but you have to choose the one that can't be saved." The old man nodded. "That way, even if you want to live, you can't live."

Su Nan nodded and looked at herself on the hospital bed, "Do you think I will recover?"

"It's all here, it's really hard to say." The old man shook his head.

"But if I wake up, what will I face?" Su Nan was in a dilemma.

"Don't think about it so much, you can think about whether to go back after you are out of danger." The old man smiled.

"Then why did you say that I would wake up when I go back?" Su Nan felt that this was a bug.

"Because you were not completely unconscious at that time, and the effect of the medicine had not yet taken effect." The grandfather explained.

Su Nan nodded.

"Then am I going to stay here forever? Can I go somewhere else?" Su Nan looked at the old man.

"You can try it." The old man smiled and looked at the door.

Su Nan turned her head and went through the gate. Sure enough, it was empty and there was no one there. Su Nan sighed and followed the doctor who was about to take the elevator down into the elevator. The elevator came to the first floor smoothly. Su Nan followed the doctor out and saw the The street was overjoyed, and bumped into something just as he was about to go out, Su Nan looked around suspiciously, there was nothing there, carefully stretched out his hand, let me go, this is the legendary gate of the emperor?I can't see anything, but something is blocking my way out.

Su Nan shook her head, forget it, let's go back, and followed the doctor back to the intensive care unit. Just as he arrived at the door, he saw the old man standing at the door waiting for Su Nan as if he had expected it.

"I'm back so soon." The old man looked at Su Nan with a smile.

Su Nan crossed her hips angrily, "If you can't, just tell me directly, why did you ask me to make a trip?"

The old man shook his head, "It's you who didn't let you go out."

"What are you talking about?" Su Nan was taken aback.

"Go in and have a look." The old man stepped aside.

Su Nan walked in and saw a bunch of doctors in a hurry in front of her hospital bed, and the equipment next to her was beeping.

Seeing the doctors struggling to save her, Su Nan seemed to understand.

"That's right, your consciousness is getting farther and farther away from your body, and your body will become worse and worse, until your consciousness gradually disappears, and your body will lose consciousness, or die or become a vegetable. However, it is never possible. Woke up. Did you find that you couldn't get out just now? That's your subconscious mind blocking you, because it sensed the danger." The old man looked at Su Nan with a smile.

"That is to say, if my subconscious mind also gives up on myself, if I want to die, I just need to go further and further away?" Su Nan looked at the old man.

The old man nodded, "As you get further and further away, you will slowly become transparent until your entire consciousness disappears."

"Then I didn't become transparent just now?" Su Nan looked at herself.

"You can't feel it yourself, you will only feel yourself getting lighter and lighter until it suddenly disappears." The grandfather looked at Su Nan on the hospital bed, "I have been rescued."

Su Nan looked at the relieved doctors beside him and gave each other a high five, indicating victory.

"Hey, there are always people who want you to live." The old man looked at Su Nan.

Su Nan looked at the doctors, then at herself, and smiled, "I didn't expect that in the end, it was these strangers who tried their best to hope that I would live."

"And yourself." The grandfather pointed to Su Nan who was on the hospital bed.

"But I still don't know why I still want to live." Su Nan couldn't figure it out.

"There is still a glimmer of hope for this world." The old man sighed.

"This little girl is so young, she is not yet an adult." A nurse stood by the bed, arranging Su Nan's messy hair.

"It seems to have been swallowed medicine. It was almost dead when it was delivered. The parents still don't know what's going on." The doctor who was making salt water replied.

"That is to check and rule out the past one by one?" The nurse raised her head in disbelief.

"That's right. The parents said they just fell asleep and couldn't wake up. They didn't find anything in the room." The doctor shook his head.

"Didn't that mean that alcohol was found in the test? Adding alcohol to psychotropic drugs, this little girl didn't want to keep herself alive." The nurse looked at Su Nan who had no trace of blood in front of her.

"And I swallowed a lot. It's really a lethal dose. The concentration in the blood is so high that it breaks the record. The blood has been changed several times." The doctor sighed and looked at Su Nan on the hospital bed.

"I really don't know whether it's right or wrong to save her." The nurse's eyes were red.

"It must be saved. We are responsible for saving her life. This is our responsibility. The rest will be left to her." The doctor looked at the nurse with red eyes, "What's wrong? Thinking of your sister?"

The nurse nodded, "She was also at this flowery age back then, what happened to make a teenager, a child who was supposed to grow up happily under the sun, become like this."

"If I remember correctly, did your sister commit suicide because of school violence? Haven't she woke up yet?" The doctor looked at the nurse.

"Yes, I haven't woken up yet. It's been several years. Looking back now, those people were underage at the time, and the law couldn't do anything to them." The nurse wiped away her tears, "When my sister was brought by the ambulance, I I was shocked, looking at her covered in blood, as her own sister, I don't know anything. And I want to rescue her with my own hands."

"Okay, okay. I believe your sister will wake up. Oh, it's work, it will scare the patient later." The doctor came over and patted the nurse, "Okay, okay, it's time to work."

Su Nan watched them regain their mood and start busy with work, feeling an indescribable feeling.

"That sister, she should blame herself and be very sad." Su Nan looked at the nurse's thin back as she wiped the faces of the patients.

The old man walked up to Su Nan and sighed, "Yeah, what happened to this world."

"It's not what's wrong with the world. The world has always been good. It's us, it's too dark." Su Nan turned her head and looked at herself blankly.

"By the way, why didn't I see the hero and Su Mu?" Su Nan looked at the grandfather, "I can see you, doesn't that mean I can see them too?"

"They fell asleep with you." The old man looked at Su Nan.

"Then why you?" Su Nan didn't understand again.

"I am the same as them, yet different. They were blocked by you. Then I was released by you." The grandfather looked at Su Nan on the hospital bed, "That is to say, if your consciousness does not return, they will Sleep with you until you die and they disappear too."

"But so are they"

The grandfather interrupted Su Nan, "You don't need to feel guilty, they are just another version of you, they are you, and you are them. Their appearance also reflects the self in your own mind. They are just a trace of you. Consciousness is not even life."

"But."

The grandfather interrupted Su Nan again, "The hero you speak of is clean, considerate, and perfect. This is what you want yourself to be. But it is very contradictory. The hero has your own real appearance. What is it specifically? , only you know. And the sumu in your mouth, who dismisses you, even hates you, but is eager to change you, and will save you in a crisis. This is what you look like. I hate myself, but Hope to get better."

Su Nan fell into deep thought, as if this was the case, and something seemed wrong.

"Someone is coming from outside the door." The old man turned his head and looked at the door.

Su Nan went out to see who it was.

"Don't go." The old man called to stop her.

"Why?" Su Nan stopped.

"It's not what you want to see." The old man looked at Su Nan.

Su Nan looked at the gate that was close at hand, thought for a while and walked back.

"Have you figured it out?" The old man looked at her sitting on the hospital bed.

"Why should I blame myself for nothing?" Su Nan sat cross-legged on the bed.

"To be honest, this location is not very good." The old man looked at Su Nan and then at the gate.

"What's wrong with facing the gate?" Su Nan didn't understand.

"I can only see you when I go in and out." The old man looked at the doctor who was about to go out.

"I'll go and have a look." Su Nan suddenly changed her mind and jumped out of bed to follow the doctor.

The group of people just came back here again.

Everyone also calmed down.

"Why on earth did she do this?" My brother asked suddenly, leaning against the wall.

"I don't know. She has been very obedient and obedient since she was a child. But in the past two years, she suddenly became rebellious." Mom cried and shook her head.

"Is it because we didn't let her take a bath yesterday? I told her to take a bath every day and told her not to take a bath. She turned her face and went back to the room. It must be trying to annoy us like this." Dad said to everyone.

"Then your daughter is too fragile. This matter is going to kill you?" An unknown uncle next to him said.

"Have you ever thought that if you are not rescued, you will have another son, maybe it will be a son." The aunt next to the uncle stood up and said.

"At such an age, how risky is pregnancy." Mom shook her head.

"I really don't know what stimulated her. This year, she suddenly changed into a different person. She made a fuss about something, and stopped doing it when something happened. Originally, she just held back when she lost her temper. Later, she scolded her After a few words, she didn't even read the book. Later, the teacher at school asked her to recite an English word, and if she couldn't stand it, she would cut her wrist." Dad stood by and couldn't figure it out.

Su Nan smiled, they only knew the result.At the beginning, the teacher pushed the whole class very hard, because he wanted to be the first in the grade.But inexplicably, I became the one who got the most attention, or maybe I was really stupid.Every time I endorse, whether it is classical Chinese, modern Chinese or English, the time given is very tight.Su Nan had a hard time memorizing, and her memory was so poor that she even wondered if she was mentally retarded.Then if you can't finish it, you will be fined hundreds of times for copying, hundreds of leapfrogs, push-ups, running, and palm-slapping.You are not allowed to eat, sleep, or go home until you finish.Continue after the punishment is completed, and then punish again if it is not completed.I didn't pass the exam, so I copied enough papers.These are okay, after all, I am being punished.Later, it is said that if one fails to complete, everyone will be fined.Su Nan had to recite on the roof of the dormitory until three or four in the morning.Copying under the quilt with a desk lamp.One unfinished and a new one.That's how it accumulates.The more anxious and difficult it is, the more I feel sorry for the people around me.After being punished like this for a long time, in Su Nan's impression, high school is a place where you are punished every day and can't even eat.I don't know why, I was used to it, and I was about to finish it, but suddenly I couldn't stand it that day.It may also be that your ability to withstand stress is too weak.But she just couldn't hold on.

But what's the use.This is my own problem, who makes me unable to complete it.These things are not worth mentioning in the eyes of a school bully.

Su Nan looked up at them with ridiculous faces.

"How obedient she used to be. She knew how to help with work when she was in kindergarten, and she didn't cry or make trouble when she was injured. When she grew up, she went home by herself in elementary school, cooked her own meals, and washed her own clothes. She was obedient since she was a child. Although the grades are not very good, they are okay." Mom continued, "I was impulsive when I was in elementary school, and I slapped her in front of my classmates, but she didn't say anything."

"Why did you slap her that time?" My sister asked from the side.

"On a rainy day, the teacher called me and told me that her clothes and trousers were wet and asked me to deliver them. I rushed back from the construction site to deliver the clothes and waited for her at the school gate for a long time. When she didn't come, I went in to find her and saw her chatting with classmates. I got angry and slapped her in the past." Mom recalled.

"Then she told me that it was useless to sue the teacher for being bullied by her classmates." The uncle asked from the side.

"That's not the case. I asked the teacher and they said it was a fight between classmates. Besides, she is so young, what do you know, and there are so many people in the school, why do you only bully her? It must be something she didn't do well. "Dad said.

"I remember at that time, she came to the store with blood on her hands and said that a classmate cut off a piece of meat from her hand with scissors. Didn't I call you later?" the aunt asked her mother.

"She was playing with a classmate, and she accidentally cut it off, which made me apologize to that classmate's parents, saying it was a misunderstanding." Mom replied.

Su Nan raised her hand and looked at the old scar. At that time, no one believed her, and that classmate still played with her afterwards.

My aunt thought for a while, "It seems that it was a few years ago. She asked me to accompany her to the hospital. When I went there, she had a gash on her stomach, and it was all blood. She was very firm and said that her classmate was on a spring outing. Time, where did it come from, pushed down and scratched."

"I also asked about that later. She was standing on the sidelines when queuing. There were too many people squeezing around. She couldn't stand still and fell." Dad said, "I even asked their class teacher specifically."

Su Nan stood by and listened, she didn't want to explain anymore.

"Your daughter has slandered others so many times, why don't you teach her a lesson?" the uncle who didn't know said again.

Mom and Dad shook their heads and said nothing.

Su Nan stood among them, as if something was in Su Nan's heart, and it snapped open.

Just as they were about to walk back, they chatted again.

"Then what did she suffer from, depression, right? Could it be a fake too?"

Su Nan turned to look at them.

I always feel that my vision is becoming more and more blurred, and I can only hear their voices.

"I also suspect that who doesn't feel sad? We all lived like this in that era, and we didn't say we couldn't live anymore."

"How could such a well-behaved child become like this?"

"If you can't save it, just ask for another one."

"It costs tens of thousands to live in the intensive care unit, right? It's a waste of money."

"Thinking about her before, she was lively, cheerful and beautiful, and she was praised everywhere. Now, with this lifeless look, she is still disabled, and I don't know what to say when I take it out and ask others."

"At the beginning, she was born prematurely and worked hard to give birth to her, and now I will repay her like this."

"It's just that she is too fragile to withstand blows."

"I look at her circle of friends, is she still in puppy love? At such a young age, it's embarrassing to spread the word."

"What else do you do all day long, star chasing, what is your name Wang Yuan, treat him better than your relatives, he is not famous all day long."

"I was really annoyed by her before, so I yelled at her why she was so tired, why didn't she just die, just die. After that, I became more peaceful."

"Okay, okay, I can't see it today anyway, go back and rest, the doctor will call if something happens."

"let's go"

"."

Su Nan followed them to the elevator.

A group of people scattered in the hospital lobby.

Su Nan stood in the middle of the hall blankly.

Walk forward and stretch out your hand, sure enough, there is no obstacle.

Walking out of the hospital, I looked up at the sun, and then at myself. The sun passed through my body without leaving a trace.

"Have you figured it out? You are being rescued up there now." The grandfather appeared in front of Su Nan, "You just need to walk across the street, and you can really disappear. Forever."

"Will there be a next life?" Su Nan turned to look at the old man.

"Yes." The old man thought for a while.

"But I don't want to have what to do in my next life." Su Nan looked at the old man dully.

"Then it will exist in this form." The old man smiled.

Su Nan stood under the sun, looking up in despair, the weather is really nice today.

"Go back." Su Nan turned and walked towards the hospital.

"Okay." The old man followed Su Nan.

Su Nan stood by and watched a group of doctors frantically operating.

The young nurse was even helping while crying.

"Why do you need to press that area for rescue?" Su Nan looked at the sweaty doctor a little curiously.

"I don't know." The old man shook his head.

"It's straightened." Su Nan pointed at the instrument.

"It means you have no heartbeat." The old man was still cheerful.

"Woooooh, no, no, no," the nurse became even more flustered seeing the appearance of the straight line.

"Really, it's ridiculous." Su Nan looked at the busy nurse who was crying.

"How to say?" The old man turned to look at Su Nan.

"One day, there will be a person who will be sad because I am about to die. And that person, I don't know her at all." Su Nan said quietly.

"Wow, is it such a big battle to save me?" Su Nan watched as the door opened and several doctors ran in with a lot of things in their hands.

"After all, it is a life." The grandfather sighed, "Because you have been away for too long and too far, I am afraid it will not be easy to deal with."

"The most important thing is that your subconscious desire to survive is getting smaller and smaller." The grandfather continued, "It's difficult."

"Drip, drop." The alarm of the instrument was released.

Everyone breathed a sigh of relief.

"It's okay, it's okay." The nurse wiped away tears.

"Hey, you have been working for so many years, and your ability to resist stress is so good. What will you do in the future? Birth, old age, sickness and death are the most common in hospitals, let alone you work in the intensive care unit." The doctor patted the nurse on the shoulder, sighed and left.

The nurse brought a sterilized towel and wiped Su Nan's face earnestly, "Little friend, you must wake up."

Su Nan stood by and watched, feeling very uncomfortable.

"Alive, what is it for?" Su Nan sat paralyzed by the bed.

"In order to become the person you want to be and live the life you want to live." The old man thought for a while.

"But, what should I do?" Su Nan lowered her head helplessly.

"It would be great if someone could stop my birth." Su Nan looked at himself who was still breathing.

"It exists for a reason." The old man looked at Su Nan.

"What's the reason for my existence?" Su Nan looked at himself who existed and didn't exist.

"You should live for yourself." The old man looked at Su Nan.

"I told myself that you shouldn't be alive." Su Nan wanted to go out and let it go, but she was afraid that rebirth would just be to forget what she had experienced in this life and do it again.

"I am worthy of anyone, and I have never done anything harmful to the world. I try my best to be kind, not to fight, and try to be a good boy in the eyes of the world. Even if I am sorry for myself, I have never done anything to be sorry for others. I try to live and change, but why, no one is willing to let me go. I don't ask others to treat me well, I just hope that I can be an ordinary person, even if I am a little transparent, it doesn't matter. But it is very difficult. "Su Nan muttered to himself.

"Everyone in the world says that God is omnipotent. But why can't God save this world?" Su Nan looked at the ground, "I always feel that my name should not be Su Nan, it should be Su Nan, it's too difficult. "

"There is no so-called god in the world. The only one who can save you is yourself." The old man looked at Su Nan.

Su Nan looked at the old grandpa in front of her, feeling very familiar and sad, but she didn't know this grandpa at all.

"Do you know me?" Su Nan said nonsensically.

"Hahahahahahaha, I am you, how could I not know you." The old man smiled.

"Maybe, I think Daxia and Su Mu are familiar." Su Nan nodded.

"It's getting dark." The old man looked at the small window on the top of the wall.

"Then will I sleep?" Su Nan looked at the old man.

"No." The old man shrugged, "You are not human, how can you sleep."

"God, what about that night?" It was the first time Su Nan felt that people could be so boring.

"You will feel very fast." The old man said with a smile, "Because our carrier has a very vague concept of time. Do you think today is fast?"

"It seems so. I don't feel anything. One day has passed." Su Nan nodded.

"You will feel faster in the next few days." The old man looked at Su Nan cheerfully.

"What do you mean?" Su Nan looked at the old man.

"Look if you don't believe me." The old man looked around.

Su Nan followed his gaze, it was the clock on the wall, it was normal, Su Nan turned to look at the old man.

The old man smiled at her, and suddenly everything around him seemed to be in a state of double speed. The doctors, nurses and the sky outside were changing rapidly. Su Nan stared at the changes around her, and she felt that she was getting lighter and lighter. what happened?

"Okay." The old man smiled and looked at Su Nan. Su Nan looked up, and the people and things around him were normal again.

"That was just now?" Su Nan was a little confused.

"Just quickened the pace." The old man smiled and stood up.

Su Nan walked quickly to the edge of the workbench and looked at the computer, "I'm sorry, two days later?"

Su Nan turned to look at the old man in disbelief.

The old man looked at Su Nan with a smile.

"No, no, who are you?" Su Nan felt that it was impossible for him to be so powerful.

"I am whoever you think I am." The old man looked at Su Nan with a smile, "Your situation is getting worse and worse."

Su Nan walked to the bed, looked at herself who was still pale, "How can you tell?"

"On the bed, your breathing is getting weaker and weaker, and your consciousness is getting weaker and weaker." The grandfather looked at Su Nan.

"No wonder I just felt lighter and lighter." Su Nan suddenly realized.

"You don't have much time left." The old man looked at Su Nan on the bed.

"Why?" Su Nan looked at herself.

"Consciousness is getting weaker and weaker. If you have a chance to go back before your consciousness completely disappears, and your consciousness completely disappears, you will never wake up again." The old man looked at himself.

"Then why did you shrink me for two days?" Su Nan didn't understand.

"Don't you think time is too slow?" The old man looked at Su Nan curiously.

"Back it up for me." Su Nan looked at the old man with her hips crossed.

"You treat me like a fairy, and you can't go back." The old man shook his head.

"Then why are you fast forwarding so much?" Su Nan didn't understand.

"I'm just taking you to see what you want to see. Besides, no one has come to see you in the past two days. Oh, yes, your mother came to pay the fee, and she was cursing when she left because it was very expensive. "The old man said solemnly.

"What is this really? No, what do I want to see?" Su Nan finally realized.

"Here we come." The old man looked outside the door. "The person you want to see. And his friends."

Su Nan seemed to know who the old man was talking about.

Through the door, it was really him.

Zhu Hao squatted by the door with his head in his arms, while Yin Yun and Pei Chengjun stood beside him.

"Zhu Hao, I really didn't know it was this kind of thing. You didn't listen to my explanation along the way." Pei Chengjun stood beside him in a hurry.

"Why is he in such a hurry? Isn't he your boyfriend?" The old man appeared next to Su Nan.

"Because I told him that if anything happens to me, I must find a way to hide it from Zhu Hao, and tell him after Zhu Hao is on vacation, otherwise I will follow him even if I die." Tell Zhu Hao to put his phone in Pei Chengjun so that he can study hard and not get distracted."

"He's thoughtful." The old man praised, "This boy is keeping his promise. It's really hard for him."

Su Nan smiled helplessly, "I'm a little sorry for him. Calculate the time, didn't they just have a holiday yesterday?"

"It's good to be here this morning. The things and things in the school must be here before they are finished." The old man shook his head.

"It's fine, as long as it doesn't delay his studies." Su Nan knelt down and looked at Zhu Hao who was crying, "I'm sorry."

"Hey, doctor doctor."

Yin Yun saw someone coming out and hurriedly called out.

"Is there anything?"

Su Nan stood up and saw that it was the sentimental nurse.

"Sorry, we are Su Nan's friends, and we want to ask about her situation." Yin Yun pulled Zhu Hao up from the ground, "Cheer up."

"Ah, it's that little girl, right?" The nurse looked at them in front of her.

"How should I put it? The situation of the people who will live here is definitely not very optimistic. And this little girl has been in a coma for about a week. The longer the coma, the less chance of waking up, hey." The nurse said. "This little girl has been rescued many times. Although she has been rescued every time, the time for each rescue is getting longer and longer, which means that the difficulty is getting more and more difficult. If she can wake up , then there should be no life-threatening. But if you still can't wake up in a few days, you must be mentally prepared that you may become a vegetable, or be declared dead."

Su Nan stood beside the nurse and looked at Zhu Hao who was stunned.

She softened.

"Moreover, the most important point is that this little girl never thought about waking up. She is in a very bad state. It means that she doesn't want to let herself live. She has this kind of thinking, and it is very difficult for us to save her." The nurse sighed, and just as she was about to leave, she heard beeping alarms coming from inside, and hurriedly opened the door and rushed in.

Standing at the door, Su Nan could clearly see that her own alarm had sounded. She turned to look at Zhu Hao, and they saw it too. The door gradually closed, and only the panicked shouts of doctors and the alarm of the machine could be heard inside.

The three of them stood blankly at the door without reacting.

"Just now, was it Su Nan who was lying on the bed at the door, and the nurse rushed in just now because the alarm for making the bed sounded?" Yin Yun turned to look at Pei Chengjun.

"If I'm not mistaken, yes." Pei Chengjun nodded hesitantly.

"Ding"

Zhu Hao picked up the phone and jumped up suddenly, "This, this, this, this is what Su Nan sent, right? Does it prove that she is still fine?"

Su Nan leaned over to look suspiciously.

"Ah, I forgot about this thing." Su Nan remembered.

"What?" the old man asked curiously.

"I used to be always worried about accidents, and then I made a fixed-point message. If I haven't logged in to this software for five days, the message will be sent automatically." Su Nan nodded, "It will really come in handy one day. It was fun."

"What did you write?" The old man looked at the thoughtful Su Nan.

"To Zhu Hao is (Your life should be bright, not me, I hope you can be happy.) Let me think about it again, what to Xu Linlin is (Have a better temper and make better friends.), Then it was sent to Wang Lihui (I will leave first, I hope you will be as happy as before in the future.), and what was sent to my parents was (I will honor you in the next life.), and then, there is no Alright." Su Nan nodded.

The old man nodded and turned to look at them.

"Well, Zhu Hao, I think this may be a scheduled message set by Su Nan." Yin Yun looked at Zhu Hao nervously.

The light in Zhu Hao's eyes suddenly disappeared.

"He may be sad for a long time when I leave, but it doesn't matter, I believe that sooner or later a beam of light will pull him up." Su Nan looked at Zhu Hao who was sitting on the ground.

"I should have noticed earlier, how could she be a different person all of a sudden." Zhu Hao said to himself.

"Go in and see yourself." The old man walked into the intensive care unit.

Su Nan took one last look at Zhu Hao and went in too.

The doctor inside is still rescuing Su Nan.

"Have you figured it out?" The old man looked at Su Nan.

"What?" Su Nan turned to look at the old man.

"You really don't have many chances." The old man looked at Su Nan.

"Is this the last time?" Su Nan looked at the straight line on the instrument.

"Probably. If it's still a straight line in another two minutes, it's completely hopeless." The old man looked at Su Nan on the hospital bed.

Su Nan looked at the door, and then at the sobbing nurse at the side.

"Still hesitating?" The old man looked at the instrument.

"I choose to wake up." Su Nan looked at the old man.

The old man smiled and nodded, stretched out his hand and suddenly pushed Su Nan.

Su Nan looked at the old man in shock, and before he could react, he fell on the bed, on top of himself.

Su Nan felt that the surroundings were getting warmer and warmer. Looking at the old man who was still smiling beside the bed, his expression suddenly began to change.

This!This!how is this possible!

Su Nan looked at this familiar face in disbelief, and wanted to reach out to touch it but couldn't move.

"Nannan, I didn't take you away in the end. Grandpa is leaving and can't be with you anymore. You must live a good life in the future. When you wake up, you will forget everything. But you must know that grandpa never I never blamed you, Grandpa loves you."

That's right, that face is the grandfather Su Nan misses day and night.

No wonder, no wonder it felt so familiar.

No wonder.

The sight in front of her gradually blurred, and she wanted to take one last look, but she couldn't see clearly until it was pitch black.

She felt that she was falling infinitely in the darkness, and her memory became more and more blurred. She wanted to try her best to remember the way grandpa smiled at her at the end, but it became more and more blurred until there was nothing left.If you forget this memory, you'd better forget everything.

Su Nan gave up.

She doesn't want to remember anything.

The doctors on the hospital bed were all exhausted. Looking at the instruments that were still in a straight line, they gradually lost confidence. The nurses covered their eyes and dared not look any more.

Su Nan opened her eyes suddenly, and looked blankly at the doctors all around her. The sirens behind her stopped abruptly, and she shed tears for some reason.

"Wake up! Wake up! Wake up! Finally wake up!"

Su Nan looked at the cheering doctors all around and was even more at a loss. She only felt a lot of sadness. Did I forget something? Why am I so sad?
She looked at the instruments all over her body, in her nose, on her mouth, and in her throat, but strangely, there was no pain at all, only numbness, and great sadness, so sad that her heart ached.

"Do you know where this is?" A nurse with red eyes and nose asked Su Nan with her head down.

Su Nan looked at the nurse blankly, her head a little unresponsive.

"This is the intensive care unit of the People's Hospital. You should rest first." The nurse looked at Su Nan with a smile.

why so familiar
The nurse smiled and walked to the door. Su Nan turned her head and watched the door open. The nurse was talking to the people outside the door, and the people outside the door kept saying thanks.

The nurse pulled the door and pointed at Su Nan.

Who is that?
Su Nan looked at the boy in black at the door looking at him excitedly, and there was a man and a woman beside him.

Who is this?
Su Nan watched as the nurse closed the door and came in.

"Is there something wrong?" The nurse looked at Su Nan with a smile.

Su Nan shook her head.

"Then you rest first, I'll call your family." The nurse smiled and got up to make a call.

family?

Why can't I remember anything.

Su Nan stared blankly at the ceiling.

What did I forget?It seems to be a very important thing.

Why am I here?
Why so sad.

Su Nan felt very sleepy.

very tired.

She just felt that she had a long, long and uncomfortable dream.

Who are you?
Su Nan raised his hand with difficulty to touch the tears in the corner of his eyes.

"Don't raise your hand, don't raise your hand." The nurse came over and put down Su Nan's hand, "There are a lot of instruments attached, don't move around."

Su Nan looked at the nurse, and then looked around. She had never been to this place before, so how could she have a very familiar feeling.

"Is she so sick that she can't speak?" The nurse asked the doctor next to her in a low voice.

But Su Nan still heard it.

The doctor looked at the nurse in shock, and then at Su Nan.

"Little friend, do you know your name?" The nurse looked at Su Nan worriedly.

Su Nan looked at the nurse in front of her, but couldn't figure out where she had seen her before.

"It's over, it seems that I have lost my IQ." The nurse stood up and looked at the doctor.

"Can you hear me?" The doctor lowered his head and asked Su Nan in disbelief.

Su Nan ignored him, still wondering where she had seen her.

But why I don't remember anything.

"Can't she hear?" The doctor looked at the nurse suspiciously.

"Impossible, you can still communicate with me when you just woke up." The nurse shook her head.

"No, no, contact the director." The doctor turned around and started calling.

The nurse opened the door grimly.

Why is the door opening so harsh?
"It's not very good."

Su Nan turned her head, why could she hear them talking?

"At present, she may not be able to live like ordinary people."

She was obviously fine, Su Nan looked at the nurse at the door suspiciously.

I want to hear something, why can't I hear it again?

Only their mouths could be seen moving.

The nurse nodded and closed the door.

Su Nan was even more confused.

Looking at the ceiling, she just felt so sleepy, the ceiling was getting smaller and smaller in her eyes.

"Is she asleep or in a coma?" The doctor looked at Su Nan who had her eyes closed.

"Sleep." The nurse looked at the instrument, everything was normal.

"Then let her sleep." The doctor shook his head.

Go to sleep, Su Nan is really tired.

(End of this chapter)