Unrequited Love

Sheng Huainan was burdening the entire day's expenses. Luo Zhi felt embarrassed. Although the other party's behavior seemed so natural, she still felt very embarrassed.

When they arrived at the "Leopard", they went to raid separately and put the dishes on a large table, she seized the opportunity to whisper, "Thank you today."

Sheng Huainan made a helpless expression at her and said, "Please, what are you thanking for?"

It is useless to say more, she knew he would understand, so she ate quietly without explaining.

"If you really want to thank me, tell me a person who impressed me when you were a kid, as a thank you."

"Why? Sounds weird."

"But I also told you about my little queen last time. I think you have grown into the character you are now. You must have a very unusual experience as a child."

"I repeat, psychology is not such a simple learning, don't guess everything about childhood trauma."

"Let's talk, I want to listen, and I promise not to laugh at you." Just like the tone she had just begged him to talk about his first love, his behavior was more spoiled.

Luo Zhi was embarrassed, nodded and said: "Well, don't think the story is too boring."

She had an urge to tell him that story for a moment-but it seemed that it was a little earlier, and it seemed that he still couldn't understand her. Resilience is an unrealistic dream.

She lowered her head to think for a while, and kept poking the fish on the plate with a fork.

"When I was young, there was a young lady who admired and liked very much."

Her opening is very boring.

"Not little brother..."

"You come here less!"

Sheng Huainan smirked and waved his hand.

"When I was five years old, my grandmother’s old house was relocated. My mother and I rented a small house temporarily and lived in a bungalow compound on the outskirts of the city. That place is now a development zone, but when I lived there it was still Dirt roads, in the spring when dust is thrown on the face, people can’t open their eyes. When playing'red light, green light, little white light' with your friends, you will step on shit. After the rain, the road will be muddy and difficult to move. It is really not good Place. But I always think it’s beautiful there. There will always be rainbows after the rain. There are bungalows around. There are no buildings that can block the rainbow, so the sky is very vast. I seem to have all the rainbows in my life at that time. After reading it, I can only see incomplete fragments near the fountain when I grow up. At that time, the rainbow was so beautiful and complete, and it straddled the sky like a bridge. Many of our children always discussed together, what is the rainbow underneath? What? The unanimous conclusion reached is Tianchi." Luo Zhi laughed, and suddenly recovered, "Ah, sorry, I digressed."

Sheng Huainan listened carefully, shook his head and said, "No, you continue."

His expression was extremely serious, and Luo Zhi was a little nervous.

"My little friends don't go to kindergarten, and the adults in the family often drink and fight, so everything is left unattended.

"Our boss is the story sister.

"My sister is already in elementary school. I remember that she is not pretty at all. But she has a good friend who is very pretty-but this is the impression at the time, and now I think about it, the so-called pretty is just because she always wears skirts and ponytails There are always bright red flowers. Oh, there is a boy, their classmate, and the three of them always go to school together."

"Do you know what happened later? Love triangle." Luo Zhi laughed.

"That day, my sister absent-mindedly told us the story again, without the preface. When the story ended, I quietly asked her with someone behind her back: ‘Sister, XX and XX are not you?’

"I can see it because these two people have not appeared for a long time, and occasionally passing by our group of little boys are just looking at the story sister indifferently. The girl always snorted and turned her head proudly. .

"Sister Story was young at the time. It was really hard to hide her emotions. When she heard my eight-in-law's question, her eyes were red immediately and she said:'How do I know?

"One night, another little girl and I witnessed the story that my sister quarreled with the two people. I remember that the beautiful girl's red hair was flashing and flashing under the street lamp. She raised her head, speaking in northern dialect, with vigor. of.

"Our two little girls immediately rushed to defend our goddess, but their conversation at the time was beyond my understanding.

“I’ve never liked to ask why since I was a child. Anyway, adults say that I’ll know when I grow up, so I persistently believe that growing up is the answer to everything. I will remember everything that I didn’t understand at the time and keep it firmly in my mind. Yes, and then wait to grow up. Maybe this is the reason why I have a clear memory of that time. An elder said that human obsessions often start like this, because even if children can be sensible, they cannot communicate. through."

Sheng Huainan's eyes flickered, Luo Zhi didn't see it, and continued:

"So at that time, I didn't ask why in their conversation, but I remember it was very real, even if it was confusing.

"The story sister said:'You two are good, I have no objection, why do you treat me this way?' The pretty sister immediately retorted:'Don't pretend you don't know anything, don't care about anything, don't you just like ××, your point I still can’t see it? You think I don’t know the bad things you have done yourself to instigate discord?’

"Sister Story became anxious all at once and said: ‘Who said I like him?’

"The boy who has been standing next to play cool and didn't speak suddenly said: ‘Dare you say you really don’t like me?’"

At this point, Luo Zhi and Sheng Huainan laughed together.

"When I think about it now, the expressions and tone of those people are both naive and artificial, and even the purpose of quarreling and quarreling is second to none. The key is that they finally have the opportunity to act like the adults in the TV series.

"But, there is no denying that they are serious.

"The two people also have a little boy, there is only one. So I joined the other little girl in the fight, but the opponent is the little boy next to them. Although I don't talk much, I am also famous in the yard. The sharp teeth and sharp mouth belong to the kind of children who behave like a cat when they meet an adult, and are as fierce as a eagle when they see a child. Our mouth fight is basically maintained at "why do you help them not help the story sister" 'I'm happy to "I'm happy to eat fart" Boom you two miles above this infinite loop. But we both won in the end. The win was super beautiful.

"Sister Story lost terribly and ran to a place I couldn't find to cry. She was very good to me, better than anyone else, but I could only help her with low-level curses.

"I still remember the story she told me, the story of the female college student who scrambled the wolf’s brain and ate it during the biological experiment, and then went to the laboratory to steal the corpse every night. The angel who fell in love with a mortal cut off his one-meter-long blond hair to save his lover’s life and died gloriously. There is also the story of the best-looking boy in the world in the village where the base of the Rainbow Bridge is located, and so on.

"I like that elder sister very much. She vowed to say that these stories were written in some world-famous books, but she has forgotten the title of the book. In fact, these are dreams that she wove herself. She is the angel and she met the boy. In the current words, it's just YY. I don't know if you will understand, in fact, she has a particularly rich inner world, she is just too lonely.

"But now I think she should be too addicted to her own stories. She is getting more and more withdrawn. The children don’t like the horrible and eerie stories she tells, and the students in school don’t seem to like her very much. So, only I often sit with her. However, there is a six-year difference between us, it is really not easy to be friends, I can not save her loneliness.

"But on the contrary, she can make me not lonely. I told her a secret, a secret that I couldn't tell others for a long time. I don't know if she will weave this secret into another story. But I believe that it is safe to keep the secret with her.

"A neighbor's aunt told my mother that I had better stay away from her. Her father was not in good spirits and no one in the family cared about her.

"Fortunately, my mother didn't restrict my contact with her. In fact, now I can't remember the appearance of my sister in the story. I only remember the last few days when I was going to move. I sat in the passenger seat of the truck and looked back. I waved at me with a group of wild children. She cried and I cried. She said, Luoluo, you must be a very promising and promising person in the future. Luoluo, don’t forget the story that your sister told you, too Don't forget sister.

"She even said that I might be the only person in the world who remembers her.

"When I was in high school, every time I wrote an essay, narrative, or argumentative essay, I would make up a big deal. The teacher asked me which celebrity a certain argument was, and I would say that it was in a certain book. I have forgotten the title of the book that I saw in the book. In fact, she really developed a lot of bad habits with her. Such as cranky thinking and lying."

Luo Zhi stopped, looked at the thoughtful Sheng Huainan, and said, "Isn't it boring?"

He shook his head solemnly: "Not at all."

Luo Zhi breathed a sigh of relief and smiled.

"However, you just said that you also told the story sister a secret, what is it?"

She was startled, and shook her head instinctively: "I can't remember things about the little boy a long time ago."

The relaxed dinner atmosphere was still disrupted by Luo Zhi's inexplicable memories, but unlike their first meal, this silence was not embarrassing, on the contrary, it was a little leisurely tacit understanding.

"Speaking of composition, I remember when you were in high school, you seemed to write very well in composition."

Luo Zhi raised his head suddenly, and Sheng Huainan was startled.

"Isn't it, Lord praised you, are you so excited?" He laughed.

Luo Zhi retracted his gaze and asked quietly, "Have you seen it? To be honest."

Sheng Huainan was a little confused, but still told the truth: "At that time, the Chinese teaching and research group always sent us excellent compositions for us to see. I didn't read any of them. All of them were used as calculation papers because there were no words on the back. Sorry."

"What's so sorry about? The composition is the same, fake and vulgar." Luo Zhi lowered his head and said hurriedly.

"By the way, are you in a hurry to go back to the dormitory? On the way back, can I take you to a place?" Sheng Huainan suddenly approached her, with a sincere light flowing in his eyes.

On the top floor of the Science Building, Sheng Huainan tried hard to pull the iron door a few times, and was covered with dust, but he was still locked tightly without moving.

"Usually it's not locked." He sighed and turned to find Luo Zhi annoyed. Luo Zhi walked away a few steps before ran to the distance and opened a window at the end of the top floor.

"There is no lock here!" She smiled openly.

Then he climbed onto the window sill first, and the cat's waist got through and landed gently.

The cold and refreshing air filled her arms, and the air flow suffocated her for a moment. Her hair was flying, blocking her vision, she finally held it down with her hands, opened her eyes, and the gorgeous scenery hit her eyes, caught off guard.

The science building is close to the north gate, and the view from the platform just divides the inside and outside of the school into two distinct worlds-half of it is the quiet and dark night on the campus. The heavy shadows of the trees are like the stagnant sea surface, undulating in distant places, hidden by the trees. The dormitories and teaching buildings in the city are like islands protruding from the sea, calm and quiet; while the other half is the bright lights of the business district. The river of jewels decorated with car lights slowly passes through the dazzling buildings, proud Against the dark night sky.

"It's beautiful, isn't it?"

Sheng Huainan's breath was in her ears. She shuddered, but she wanted to look back, but she couldn't bear it.

"Like it?"

Luo Zhi nodded vigorously, and suddenly remembered that he was facing away from him, so stupid.

For a long time, they watched the two worlds silently, without saying a word.

"I... I like people standing up high and looking down. I don't know why. What I said... is not just standing up and blowing hair. You understand... It seems like looking at things from that perspective, just It must be clearer. Actually, I can't tell."

He confided these chaotic but deep thoughts to her for the first time. She was naturally warm in her heart and cherished them.

"Me too, but I was forced before."

"forced?"

"I was uncomfortable in the crowd and couldn't get along. Maybe it was because I had too few friends when I was young, so I didn't know how to blend in, and there were fewer and fewer friends. I simply stopped embarrassingly pleased the central figures in those groups, and then I played alone. , Becoming more and more marginalized. But just like standing up high and watching others, I actively chose to climb up, and then slowly transformed from a lonely and rejected outsider to a different person standing above all living beings. It seems that you can be blatantly lonely, lonely otherworldly, no longer need to be pitiful by others, and even feel satisfied. To put it bluntly, it is just to develop a habit, and then put these simple states for the sake of good face Given a special meaning, it seems to be truly otherworldly."

She was confused as she spoke. She awoke and squinted embarrassedly, and said, "What about you? You shouldn't be a rejected outsider? You have a choice."

Sheng Huainan cast his gaze to the few lights in the south.

"It always feels like you have known me for many years."

Luo Zhi originally felt that the last sentence he said did not know the depth, so he hurriedly apologized for the presumption of that sentence, but raised his eyes to see him with a somewhat regretful wide and smile.

"You will catch a cold if you blow it for too long, let's go-you like it, I will come here often, let's go together later.

Later, together.

Luo Zhi smiled and said, "Okay, we're done."