they are bad women

So I tore out this page and threw it in my schoolbag without throwing it away. It disappeared after a long time. It may have been turned into a rotten note by the book, or it may have been thrown away by my mother as waste paper.Oh, my mother is not very literate, so don't worry about her seeing it.

By the way, someone may be concerned about the follow-up after I sat with that classmate and tell you a sad news. That day was the closest and only time we got close.That little happiness is just a one-time experience card.

Because my mother asked me to change to a cram school the next day.

I was quite unhappy at the time, thinking that it was just not easy for me to sit with yjx, so you asked me to change places?I told her that Mrs. Zhou was a good tutor and I didn’t want to leave. Then she took out my English test paper with a score of more than 40 (out of [-]) and beat me up.

My whole life seems to be full of bad luck, big and small, all kinds of bad luck.

In short, I am so contradictory and twisted, I despise my **, I despise my affection for girls.But as I got older, my desires intensified in middle school.

My desire for girls is increasing day by day, but when some girls express their affection for me, I can't help but shrink back.

I really want to have a girlfriend, but I don't dare. After shrinking back, I regret it, and after regretting it, I condemn myself for being too dirty.

Sexual repression is harmful. If you don't break out in repression, you will become perverted in repression.

I don't have the guts to explode, so I can only be abnormal.So I was still a novice in junior high school. I didn’t feel ashamed to ask the teacher what is a nocturnal emission in front of the whole class. It is something so small that you have to go over the wall to find it (at that time around 1314, the network management was very loose, and the things you really had to go over the wall to find were really small things), there is almost nothing not to look at... If you want to list If so, it will probably be banned.

Of course, I definitely don't mean to show off, I just want to say that when I am so hungry and thirsty alone, I am still cowardly in reality.

At that time, a girl in the class said, you can let you be my boyfriend, my heart jumped, and then I answered bluntly, why should I be your boyfriend, I don’t want to.

I'm such a fool, I regretted it after I finished speaking, and I regretted it even more when I tossed and turned in bed that night.Because she is pretty, petite, the shortest in the class, and has big breasts, the biggest in the class.The real giant R loli is one of my xp, and this attribute is very rare, I have only encountered such a one in more than 20 years.

But if you just cut out that section and rewind it, the girl said it a hundred times, and I would reject it a hundred times. There is no randomness, and there is no possibility that I will agree.

It's not that I don't want to, but that I dare not.

Although I would say at the time, what is the difference between men and women, nonsense.But this kind of nonsense has been deeply embedded in my heart, it is an indelible ideological stamp.I dare not take a step beyond the threshold.

Until now, it is impossible to completely get rid of this kind of thinking in reality.It is obscene to approach girls actively. I despise this kind of rhetoric, but subconsciously agree with it.

The result of the blind date was also lackluster. I did an ostrich with the woman for an hour, and finally both sides added WeChat.But if there is no accident, I don't think I will take the initiative to chat with her in my life.

I'm a bit face-blind, and maybe it's because I was too embarrassed to look at the woman's face the whole time, so that I can't remember what she looks like at all now.

Seems okay, at least not ugly, but not pretty either.But after looking in the mirror, I think it matches me quite well.For a blind date, since the parents of both parties know the basics, it means that you are worthy of this condition.

I said to myself that I’m not too young, I can try it, you don’t want to be a virgin all your life, but on the one hand, I feel that it’s a shame to think so, obviously two 256G USB flash drives are full of videos of invisible people.

Speaking of it, I have always been against blind dates, and every time I think of it, there is a kind of shame of being put up for sale.This is definitely not dissatisfaction with the woman, but the anger at being objectified after being examined by the parents of both parties with the eyes of goods.

But the most fundamental reason is because of my twisted pretentiousness.What am I expecting, a beautiful girl from the sky, and then dragging me forward regardless?

Whether it's Su Mo or Shen Mochen, I really envy them, from the bottom of my heart.

They're not hypocritical, they're good, they're young.They have girls that I don't have, who are willing to protect them all the time.

They have someone to love, I'm so envious, fuck it.

Some time ago, I got in touch with my yjx classmate on WeChat, because a reader complained, and she also knew that I had a heroine named Yin.I chatted with her happily for more than two hours until the wee hours of the morning.She also said that she can talk to her anytime if she can't sleep at night.

I talked about the time when we were at the same table, and talked about some things that I remember deeply. She answered enthusiastically, but also very vaguely. She probably didn't remember.

It is normal not to remember, what is precious to you is not a pity to others.This is the norm.

So I didn't mention to her the time we were doing homework next to each other, and she probably didn't remember it either. After all, it was just me alone.

Reality is not romantic, at least I am not.

Self-explosion to this extent, I should be the most embarrassing author at the beginning.

May there be no more marriage urges in the world.

None today, I'm too tired.

Will update the text tomorrow.

This chapter is more than 4000 words, but there is no charge.

Chapter 100 The younger brother was snatched away

"I know, you must have your own reasons..." Cai Yunjian said, biting his lip and staring at the pot, "You know, I had a blind date today, but I didn't go!"

Shen Mochen didn't understand the necessary connection between the two, but after Cai Yunjian said that, he must be angry.

"Sister Cai, let me explain first..."

Shen Mochen coughed. He used to coax Yin Huailian by hugging her from behind, then bowing his head and kissing her neck.This trick is quite effective for Yin Huailian, her neck is very sensitive, and she always surrenders before long.But this obviously cannot be used against Cai Yunjian. The former will beat him with a small fist and say you are good or bad, while the latter will beat him half to death with one punch.

"Eternal God Emperor"

"Actually, don't look at me like this, I'm actually very distressed." Shen Mochen sighed, with a sad face.

Cai Yunjian tilted his head, not knowing what aspect Shen Mochen was talking about.

"To be honest, I am actually very popular with girls, and I have been often confessed by girls since I was a child!" Shen Mochen pointed to himself.

"Um……"

Cai Yunjian froze for a moment, although I believe it is true, what did you say suddenly?

Shen Mochen sighed heavily again as he spoke: "That's why I am troubled, sister Cai, you are so good-looking, there must be a lot of boys who harass you, you should be able to understand it, right? the pain of human harassment.”

Cai Yunjian finally came to his senses, and suddenly said, "That's why you usually cover your face?"

"Yes, that's right. I just want to study hard. If I don't, I will be disturbed endlessly. And girls are different from boys. Girls are disturbed, and men are sexually harassed. They will be cast aside by the society. .If the gender is changed, it means that the woman is so handsome and sassy. Even if the boy’s response is not friendly enough, he will be blamed in turn, so I have been very distressed!”

Shen Mochen's eyes turned red as he spoke. An actor who can't act is not a good actor. The reality has already beaten him into an actor.

Seeing this, Cai Yunjian's heart suddenly softened.She turned down the fire and patted his head.

"Yeah, I see, it's not easy for you."

"Yeah, they write love letters every day, regardless of whether I want to accept them or not. They confess to me in public, regardless of whether I am embarrassed or not. They replace the breakfast I bought with theirs, regardless of whether I want to or not. They always Help me clean up, whether I need it or not. They always help me do my homework and take notes, regardless of whether I am happy or not... Some girls even pretend to be good brothers to me in order to attract my attention. Touch, don't care if I'm worried or not!"

As Shen Mochen spoke, his voice became more and more sobbing, recalling all the grievances in the past, there was actually a trace of sadness coming from it!

Do you know the pain of the girl he likes handing me a love letter just after a conflict with another boy yesterday?Everyone said that I did it on purpose, and I actually polluted people's innocence out of thin air!

You know the agony of just beating up a few people at school and their girlfriends are giving me love candles?After the news came out, they all said that I was humiliating them pettyly!

You know the pain of having my roadside breakfast thrown away and replaced with something else?Five or six breakfasts every day, milk chaos hamburgers, coffee patties and small soup dumplings, each can only be eaten in one bite and thrown away!

Do you know the pain of coming to school every day and discovering that the tasks on duty have already been done?A good student needs to develop morally, intellectually, physically, aesthetically, and labor in an all-round way. They are trying to kill my achievements in "labor"!

……

"Xiaochen, I understand, I understand, I understand you!" Cai Yunjian patted Shen Mochen on the back, feeling very sympathetic to what happened to him, although he always felt a little weird.

"So I didn't hide it from you on purpose. In fact, I also want to confess to you, but I haven't found a good time!"

Shen Mochen said with a sincere face.

"Okay, I see, I don't blame you."

She looked at Shen Mochen's face, thinking that he was as good-looking as the person in the painting, most of the anger in her heart dissipated, and she comforted him in turn.

"There is also the matter of Ekaterina. In fact, I don't like her, and I haven't dated her. She asked me to pretend to date her to lie to her father."

Shen Mochen then said pitifully that he knew this was the crux of the problem.But some previous grievances, now explained, are much easier to accept than the price.

"Why did you lie to her father?" Cai Yun blinked puzzledly, and was successfully brought into Shen Mochen's rhythm.

"I don't know the details. I just know that they have a bad relationship. She deliberately wanted to make her father angry. Then I don't know how she knew my appearance, so she threatened me with this and asked me to cooperate with her in acting." , In fact, she bought that box of...things on purpose for her father to see! It really has nothing to do with me!"

Cai Yunjian was silent for a moment, a bright smile suddenly appeared on his face, his eyes were as bright as stars: "Well, I see, it turns out to be like this! I believe you!"

"Well, thank you sister Cai, I'm really sorry to have misunderstood you!" Shen Mochen sincerely apologized again.

"It's okay, it's okay!" Cai Yunjian waved his hand.

……

When the food was hot, Cai Yunjian was brought up one by one, and Shen Mochen served two bowls of rice at the side.

"Sister Cai, there is one more thing I want to apologize to you." Shen Mochen sat at the dining table with a serious face.

"What else is there?" Cai Yun was puzzled.

"It was last night, I..."

"Ahhh!"

Cai Yunjian immediately reacted, and before Shen Mochen finished speaking, he kept yelling to stop him from continuing.

Her face quickly turned red, round and juicy, like a red persimmon on a tree, so alluring.It feels sweet and sour juice burst out with a light bite.

"I can't blame you for that matter, but you are not allowed to mention it again!" Cai Yun whispered with a blushing face.

"Hmm, I'm sorry, I really didn't mean it, and I didn't expect..." Shen Mochen continued.

"I can't even mention it anymore!" Cai Yunjian became more and more shy, and resisted punching Shen Mochen.

Shen Mochen took the punch with a smile and finally solved all the problems. He unloaded his burden and started to eat.

Caiyunjian also snorted, lowered his head to poke his rice bowl, and took small bites to eat.

"I kicked your foot yesterday, does it still hurt?"

Caiyun asked crisply.

"No... It hurts a little, but it's okay, it's my own fault."

Shen Mochen bullied honest people.

Cai Yunjian felt guilty: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it."

Shen Mochen coughed, with an open-minded face: "It's okay, just treat it as even!"

Not long after, the two of them finished eating, and Caiyuncui went into the kitchen to wash the dishes.

"It's good for two people to eat. I thought today that my brother was going to be snatched away." She bit her lip and smiled.

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"Sister Cai, what are you talking about?"

Because Caiyun's crisp voice was too soft, Shen Mochen couldn't hear it clearly.

"Hey, it's nothing!" Cai Yun smiled crisply, "How will Ekaterina handle it? I think it's better to communicate well if you have conflicts with your parents. I'll go and talk to her on Monday!"

"No need, the situation in their family is more complicated, because they are nobles, different from us ordinary people, many conflicts are irreconcilable..." Shen Mochen subconsciously objected, he thought of Yekaterina's peaceful expression , couldn't help sighing, "Actually, she is quite pitiful, I heard that she seems to be going on a blind date next month, and the other party is coming from Roman specially!"

Cai Yunjian was stunned, wiped his hands after washing the dishes, and couldn't help feeling: "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh's the nobles are like this?"

Shen Mochen smiled and said, "Don't ordinary people want to go on a blind date? I'm so sorry that I disturbed your blind date today."

Wait a minute, what does it have to do with me if she doesn't go on a blind date, and I was tied up again... Could it be that I didn't go because I affected her mood?

"It's okay, it's because I didn't sleep well... and I don't really want to go on a blind date, so it's not a pity!"

"Speaking of which, I remember you said before that it was your family who urged you to go on a blind date, but you..."

Cai Yunjian cut the fruit after the meal, and smiled helplessly: "It's my grandma, she is in a hurry. She is married at the age of 16 every day, and I am 21 years old now. If I don't get married, I won't be able to get married. La!"

Shen Mochen also smiled: "The elderly are more concerned about these things. When I was in Maple Leaf, a grandma came to hold a parent-teacher meeting and insisted on grabbing my hand and letting me be their grandson-in-law."

"Hehehe... that's because you're handsome!"

"Handsome also has the trouble of being handsome. At that time, she came to attend her grandson's parent meeting. Her granddaughter is only two years old! It's outrageous!"

"Haha, in the words of my grandma, you have to find a man as soon as possible, otherwise the good ones will be picked up by others!"

"No way, sister Cai, you are so good-looking and have a good figure..."

When Cai Yunjian heard the words "good figure", he suddenly remembered the incident of being seen naked by him last night, he was ashamed and angry, blushing, raised the kitchen knife angrily, and stared at him to scare him: "Say it again! "

Shen Mochen took a step back subconsciously, and said with a smile: "Sister Cai, you are too sensitive, you can see that you have a good figure even in your clothes now!"

When the words "wearing clothes" came out of Shen Mochen's mouth, Cai Yunjian's face became even hotter.

She threw away the kitchen knife, squeezed Shen Mochen's face hard, and acted like she was desperate: "Ahhhh... don't say any more, forget it! Forget it! Forget it!"

"I forgot, I forgot, it has been deleted from my mind!" Shen Mochen hurriedly begged for mercy.

Forget about it, I will remember the scene last night forever!he said in his heart.

"Humph! That's about the same."