The day I shared a flat with my female boss

I said, "I've read his war and peace, Anna Karenina." As a matter of fact, I have read almost all of Thong's works in the university library.

Xiao Yuhan said, "which one do you like best?"

I said: "from the height of art, I like Anna Karenina best; from the height of thought, I like his resurrection best!"

Xiao Yuhan said to me with a smile: "it's a coincidence! I also like Toron's resurrection best! This painstaking work of tuoweng not only exposes those corrupt officials, but also touches the essence of the old social system. What is most praiseworthy is that through the special experiences of the two protagonists, thon shows their spiritual and moral resurrection! The hero nekhludorf's sincere confession is finally forgiven by the heroine Katyusha! "

I said, "and nekhludov also got the revelation from the Bible that" human beings should love each other and not hate each other. "

Xiao Yuhan said to me with a smile: "people should not have lived in hatred, hatred can be added, hatred is the devil in our hearts! If we have hatred in our hearts, we may live like the devil! And only tolerance can stop the hatred in our hearts! The Bible says, "love is patience."

I turned to her and said, "are you a Christian?"

I originally said this with some irony. Christianity tells us that when someone slaps you in the left face, you should not get angry, but lean out your right face and let him slap you enough! It seems very ridiculous! But the reality is that people are weak and bullied by dogs!

Xiao Yuhan looked at me seriously, nodded and said, "yes! I have believed in Jesus for ten years

I was stunned for a moment. I lowered my head to smoke and kept silent.

Xiao Yuhan looked at me and said with a smile, "Yang Yang! Tolstoy once told a little story, which is very popular

I said, "what is it?"

Xiao Yuhan said with a smile: "I'll tell you..."

A traveler was chased by an angry Beast on the grassland. In order to escape, the traveler jumped into a well without water. However, he saw a dragon at the bottom of the well, opening its mouth to devour him. The unfortunate man did not dare to climb out of the well, or he would be eaten by wild animals; he did not dare to jump into the bottom of the well, or he would be devoured by the dragon. He seized the branches of Wild Shrubs growing in the crack of the well and would not let go!

His hands became weaker and weaker, and he felt that he would soon surrender to danger, which was waiting for him at the mouth of the well and at the bottom of the well! He's still clinging to the Bush!

All of a sudden, two mice drew a uniform circle around the main branch of the Bush he had grasped, and then began to nibble. The Bush will break at any time, and he will fall into the dragon's mouth at any time. The traveler saw all this and knew that he would die. When he grasped the Bush, he saw a few drops of water hanging on the leaves of the bush. He put his tongue out and licked the last happiness.

I felt my nose, thought about it, looked up at Xiao Yuhan and said, "what do you think this story has given us?"

Xiao Yuhan looked at me solemnly and said, "it may not be great for a brave person to eliminate some single pressure and fear at a critical moment. In order to eliminate the pressure and fear in many aspects, it is particularly valuable to fight against the sinister forces with all the strength of life in a dilemma! If we can find and appreciate the rare happiness calmly and freely when we wait until the last moment of our life in the face of the irresistible power, then we will show a kind of real heroic quality of toughness and detachment

I frowned and looked at the road in front of the car. I repeated in a low voice: "a real strong and detached heroine?"

"Yes," Xiao Yuhan nodded and continued, "any kind of valuable pursuit is a kind of compensation for risk. Therefore, the real experience of risk is the deep recognition of the essence of life! Any kind of struggle against fate cannot be once and for all. Giving up action because of fear of difficulties and dangers can only show the weakness of life force. When difficulties and dangers really come, in addition to the instinctive desire for survival, we can also clearly feel the reality of the situation. In the long suffering of depression and fear, we can seize the branches of life and fully prove the possibility of all struggle! This is a positive portrayal of the meaning of life! "

I seem to know that Xiao Yuhan's story is a reflection of the current situation faced by Xi'er and me.

It's said that women's thinking height can never be compared with men's, but I think this young girl is slightly different!

After a pause, Xiao Yuhan looked at me and said, "what do you think is the value of life?"

I touched my nose and said, "I personally believe that the value of life is the value of personal existence. And the value of this kind of existence is reflected in their own career. What's more, get the satisfaction of love and truly love the people we think are worthy of love. These are my thoughts on the value of life! "

Xiao Yuhan hit the steering wheel, looked at me and said with a smile: "Yang Yang, you understand very deeply! However, we want to talk about the value of life, we want to realize the value of life, the biggest premise is that we must have life! Are you right? "I nodded my head to show my approval. At the same time, I became more and more sure that Xiao Yuhan's seemingly casual topics actually pointed directly at the despair and predicament I was facing! Including Xi'er!

Xiao Yuhan continued: "also, I think people live not only for themselves, but also for your relatives and friends, for those who care about you, but also for those who are hostile to you. To live for those who love you and those you love, your wonderful life is the greatest comfort to them. To live for those who are hostile to you is the greatest irony to them. So, in any case, we should strive to live! Yang Yang, do you think my understanding of life is right? "

I feel my nose, but I don't answer. I smoke with my head down. I know Xiao Yuhan doesn't want me to answer. She just wants to tell me the truth!

After calming down, after reason conquers emotion, when the angel side of the soul conquers the devil side, I have realized that my previous behavior is completely in an emergency state of reckless blasphemy of life!

In other words, my behavior today is that the devil in the soul has defeated the angel, which is the evil devil side of the soul!

Now in retrospect, I have a lingering fear! It's too difficult to achieve one's life, but it's only in one thought to destroy one's life! If I was shot dead by Xiao Delong, what would my mother and Gu Tong do? What about Xi'er?

Should we think more in adversity, be more compassionate in tribulation, and think about others before making a decision? At least think about the rickets of the elderly parents and the empty eyes of the white haired people when they send their black hair? Should you ask yourself, "even if you are out of the ordinary world and in the paradise, there will be no pain or trouble, but what you leave to your family, parents, relatives and friends is eternal pain. Is it too selfish?

Back to the hospital, Xi'er was shocked to see me like this!

Although I have cleaned the blood stains on my mouth and nose in the street clinic, treated the knife wound on my left arm, and put on a clean shirt bought by Xiao Yuhan from the street clothing store, the bruise on my face is very obvious, and there is a white medical bandage wrapped around my arm. After I came out of the clinic, the oozing blood quickly turned white again The bandage is red!

Xi'er grabbed me and asked, "Yang Yang! Where the hell have you been? What's the matter? "

I reluctantly said with a smile, "something happened on the way back from breakfast on the street!"

"What's the situation? Hit by a car? " Xi'er looked at me and asked in an urgent voice.

I said, "yes."

Xi'er said, "are you ok? Is the injury serious? "

I said: "it's OK. I scraped a little skin and went to the clinic for two stitches. No big problem. "

Xiao Yuhan said to Xi'er, "Fanny! I happened to meet him on the street, so I accompanied Yang Yang to the clinic to deal with it. "

Xi'er looked at me and Xiao Yuhan, and let out a breath.

I stare at Xi'er and say, "where's Xi'er? What happened to her? "

Xi'er said, "go in and have a look! Xi'er woke up just now, but she couldn't speak. Only her eyes were turning there. She seemed to be looking for you! Maybe she's too weak. Seeing you never show up, she just fell asleep again! "

My heart suddenly jumped up and ran to the ward

"Xi'er Xi'er... " I excitedly called two times

a little nurse at the bedside who was doing venous cannulation, stretched out her middle finger to her lips, looked at me and said in a low voice: "keep your voice down! The injured person is still very weak. She needs to rest now! She just fell asleep... "

"Wife Sorry I'm sorry! I should be around you, I shouldn't leave your bed, sorry! I'm sorry... "

I called with guilt in my heart, slowly approaching the bed, lying on the head of the bed

Xi'er's forehead is still pale, her lips are still bloodless, her eyes are closed, and the oxygen mask in her nose and lips has been replaced by a tube type oxygen supply.

I knelt by the bed, looking at Xi'er with tears in my eyes, and said in a whisper: "wife! I will never leave you! I promise that when you open your eyes again, I will be the first one you see! My wife... "

Xiao Yuhan reached out and patted me on the shoulder to comfort me!

Xi'er's eyelashes vibrated slightly twice, and then vibrated slightly twice. Her eyelids opened slightly, and then opened a little

I was so excited that I couldn't help myself. I leaned over and looked at her closely. My nose was sore