Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

I think I am not afraid of "Jiang" anymore. www.dyzwwm (No.1, No.1, No.1, No.1, No.2, No.2) Even though this virus-eroded body will react violently to the movements of "Jiang", I am not afraid of purely my personality and will This monster may mess everything up, even eating it like food. I will no longer be surprised by the alienation that I have because of "Jiang", even if it is a change I never thought about.

Although the brain hardware is still suppressing emotions such as "fear" and "surprise", the calmness of me now is very different from when it is suppressed by the brain hardware-even if I lose the brain hardware, I can do the same calm.

In the retina screen, I saw my brain wave diagram beating steadily and heavily, as if no matter what the situation, it would never be accelerated or slowed down again. This fluctuation is like the coat of arms imprinted on the ancient rock wall. My once-chaotic and boiling thoughts, like cooled magma, turned into a pile of stones, as if they had some kind of charm. In this steady thought and heartbeat, I seemed to hear the blood flowing.

It was not the sound of blood being squeezed out of the heart and flowing in the blood vessels, but something more conceptualized, as if traversing innumerable time and space to recover in this soul.

"So, Gao Chuan, how are you going to collect intelligence?" The sound of the file rang in my ears, "Whether it is Doomsday Truth, Father Sissen, and they both fire, Jung, they all have themselves in this place. Information channels. We have no foundation here, and it is not so easy to obtain information on our own. "

"Mystery. It is at this time that strength can be shown." I replied.

"Oh--" The file narrowed his eyes in an examination and stared at me. "I'm curious, let me show you."

"I don't know if you can see it. However, Sakuya should be fine." I said, leaning back on the sofa, closing my eyes and saying, "Although I can't tell you the principle, the process is probably ... Dreaming, a dangerous, weird and penetrating nightmare. "

"I have never heard of it." The sound of the file passed into my ears, probably because my thoughts were under the control of subjective and brain hardware. Because of the rapid slowdown, her voice seemed to be going away, "That is to say, as long as you wake up, it's done?"

"Maybe, if you are lucky. However, I don't think I can succeed in one go." I thought I was ready, so I said to the two with my eyes closed, "Yes, you connect."

At this time, under the control of brain hardware. The subjective consciousness of "ego" seems to continue to increase, and began to soak in a deep and dark feeling. Slowly decline. I don't know how to describe it. Neither "descent" or "soaking in the dark" can fully describe the feeling at this time. I do n’t know why I did this, and how I did it. However, the idea of ​​“want to enter the boundary line” has a sense of “it is necessary to do so if you want to actively enter the boundary line”.

This feeling may be out of instinct. Perhaps it is a hint from "Jiang". Without the power of "Jiang", I should not be able to enter the "borderline". Therefore, doing so is equivalent to the concept of "proactively contacting Jiang" and telling her to drag me in. "

Before that, I never thought of being so proactive in contacting Jiang.

I don't know if this method is really feasible. However, since this is an answer similar to instinct, I must believe it-in a mysterious world, when encountering unknown factors and unable to act. Believe in your feelings is always the most common practice.

Things in the outside world seem to be separated by this deep and dark thing. Speaking of it, it is like a piece of lake water. The information generated by the perception of the outside world floats on the lake like fog, and the "self" is like a stone. , Gradually sinking into the lake. As a result, under normal circumstances, the "fog" and "stone" that should come into contact with each other and produce a chemical reaction gradually become estranged, using the lake surface as the dividing line, and become two things that do not interfere with each other. Even so, I still feel vaguely that the file and Sakuya have been directly connected to me through the data cable and gray silk.

There is a feeling of being inserted, but it is not the feeling from the back of the neck under normal circumstances, but this world composed of figurative concepts such as "lake water", "fog" and "sinking stone" is Other things that also exist conceptually have penetrated. In this state, the concept of being a "foreign body" is actually clearer, or more sensitive, than the knife caused by the body.

To be honest, it is not very comfortable, and it is completely different from the feeling of directly connecting with them under normal conditions. Although the intrusion of conceptual "foreign objects" does not bring a sense of danger and does not cause pain, it is like a "obtrusive thing" that makes people subconsciously want to resist its in-depth.

However, the idea of ​​"trying to bring them to the border of entry" deep in my consciousness is trying to stop this instinctive resistance reaction.

It seems too hard, the "stone" has become lighter in the lake water, and there are signs of floating-I know that if this "stone" transformed from "self" really surfaced, again and the lake surface If the floating mist touches, then everything you do now will be abandoned.

I tried several times, and I was unable to guide the conceptual "foreign objects" that should represent "rasps" and "Sakiye" to myself under the lake while maintaining the falling trend of "stones". When the stone representing "ego" continued to increase and became silent to a certain distance below the lake, the longer the dive distance became, the more obscure the consciousness completely dissolved like a broken line.

Yes, "dissolved", I can only describe it that way, at that moment, I felt that I was originally a "stone", turned into a pool of water, became this dark and vast, dark lake water of unknown depth a part of.

When I woke up again, it should be said that when I felt my existence again, it was not clear how long it had passed, like a continuous picture. A critical frame break occurred, and it became less smooth before and after. I don't know if I met Jiang after "dissolving", nor do I know why I "dissolve". However, the feelings of physical weakness, weight and pain, as well as the cold and hard feeling of the metal from the palm of my hand when I subconsciously lifted the wall, let me be sure that I have once again entered the "boundary".

Probably because of active cooperation, or has gradually adapted. Or, Jiang ’s control of the boundary has increased, no matter what the reason is, the process of entering the boundary this time is more relaxed than the previous two. Although it still gives people a nightmare feeling, the scene in front of them is still distorted, noises of unknown significance are everywhere, and the body is still weak, but the dizziness phenomenon has weakened a lot. In this state, you can move smoothly without holding the wall. When running, there seems to be no problem. I once again observed my reflection on a mirror-like metal wall. After confirming that there is no difference between the appearance and the previous two, he clenched his fists.

weak. However, it is not without power. I do n’t know if this power comes from the burning flame in my heart, but I am quite sure that my present self is completely different from my previous self when I came here twice.

Since this is the world closest to the subconscious, then there is a conscious self. It is certainly not exactly the same as the one who only told himself to be conscious.

How strong is the will, how strong is the self who appears here? Although I hope to be sure, this kind of thinking should be one-sided, and there should be more factors shaving my existence model in this place-the state of "reality", the integrity of personality consciousness, the strength and will no. And the influence of "Jiang" should all appear on the body of "I" existing here.

All these speculations about yourself in the realm are just speculations.

However, I did feel it. In this realm, the difference between the present self and the past self is so intuitive. The emotions suppressed by the brain hardware in the normal world are rolling like magma at this time, releasing the burning power, and is injecting power into my weak body. The sound of surging like a rush is getting louder and louder, gradually overwhelming the disturbing noise.

Wow—Wow—Wow—

The quietly running sound circulated in the blood vessels.

I opened my mouth and a white hot air squirted out. The burning sensation seemed to have turned into substance. Even after entering the boundary line, the body suffered all the time and was burned into steam, which was sprayed out of the body with breath.

Burning and rushing are gradually replacing pain, weakness, dizziness and noise.

I lifted my eyes again and looked at the mirror image on the metal wall-the young man with red left eye and blue right eye, where there is a terminally ill patient, the will to burn in the depth of my eyes makes this thin His body seems to contain a violent force, which can tear himself and his enemies at any time.

Is this ... me now?

"Sakuya! File!" I suddenly turned away and shouted in the empty circular corridor, and the answer to me was a burst of echoes.

I used to think that the last time I saw Sakuya when I entered the borderline was because she was directly connected to me in the normal world. Like a surging water washing away wooden blocks, it would also take away the sand. Without her being aware of it, part of the subconscious mind was pulled into this realm by the power of "Jiang", and reorganized into the ghostly night I saw.

To prove this idea, I did some preparatory work, but it did not seem to be successful.

However, it does not matter, although a bit lonely, but perhaps this is the best. The environment at the borderline is too weird, and no one knows what kind of dangers will arise, and what kind of load-bearing injury and consciousness trauma it will cause to itself.

In the boundary line, there is no inhibition of the brain hardware, and there is no coldness of prostitute. In this burning and running sound that originates from the soul, I am no longer suffering from the pain, weakness, and dizziness of the maggot Plagued by noise, I felt lonely and calm in this quiet and empty corridor.

I don't speak anymore. This is not the normal state, everything is quantified by the brain hardware without saying much, but because I enjoy this silence. This loneliness, calmness and silence made me feel that I truly became a person.

Although, at this level, I am still a thin patient. However, I feel that this self is more purely powerful than the normal self, a force that can allow "Gaochuan" to pass through time and space, and to cross the boundaries between life and death.

If you want to use a word to describe it, it is "core will".

The external physical model will eventually be destroyed. The physical body in "reality" is so weak that no matter how powerful the body is in the illusion of doomsday. No matter how high the ability is, it is meaningless to "reality" before the completion of the human completion plan. However, the will is different, the will can penetrate everything, through science and unscientific, illusory and real, normal and abnormal.

I think that I have been stupid for more than a month. Either brain hardware or prostheticization. All kinds of mysteries and weapons that are beyond imagination, and the power that cannot be inherited, what is the meaning of "Gaochuan"? Is there any regret for the physical incompleteness, incomplete personality, and cognitive errors? A truly strong will will never care about any "defects", only wills that are not disturbed by "defects". It is the really strong will.

"Gaochuan" will die after all, but what makes Gaochuan fearless of death, let "Gaochuan" grow again, and go all the way to the present, is not any powerful ability in the illusion of apocalypse.

My dream of becoming "Super Takagawa". The "Super Gaochuan", which was longed for by the Gaochuans in the past, had high hopes. If there were no "Gaochuan" efforts to climb the ladder, there would be no transmission of this core will. There is absolutely no possibility of birth.

I understand why I was so anxious in the past. Even with the suppression of brain hardware and the extremely powerful prosthetic body, the feeling of being forced never disappeared. The harsh environment to be faced is naturally one of the reasons, but it is definitely not the most important reason. Just because of various defects makes me feel that once I die, it will dissipate like dust, and it will no longer be stored in any one place. It will eventually be forgotten and replaced by the next Gaochuan, so I have to force myself To do better, to make people can not ignore, can not forget, even in this era of Gao Chuan, to end all nightmares.

Obviously saying "Gaochuan will not die, a Gaochuan will die, there will be countless Gaochuan standing up", but in fact, he has never understood the meaning of this sentence and the essence of Gaochuan hidden by this sentence.

As one of "Gaochuan", this will is already in my body, so even if my Gaochuan dies at this time, the next Gaochuan will continue this will. My body will turn into dust, and this flaming will will be passed on.

Why has it been ignored in the past?

Even if the potential of the flesh has been exhausted, even if the personality has various defects, but at the time of death, not everything will remain. Because there is always something left, so do n’t be afraid, do n’t be anxious, your death is near, no matter “reality” or this “doom illusion” is time-critical, there are too many unfinished things, too much hope to achieve Things, there are too many things that seem impossible to do but must be done, but all this does not end by yourself: if a Gaochuan dies, there will be countless Gaochuan standing up, and, at an unimaginable speed stand up.

This is the truth of the "countless Gaochuan" in the past-in the world of personality consciousness, with an absolutely strong will as the core, the speed of the birth and growth of new personality consciousness is actually based on the speed of thought Odds. For the newly born Gao Chuan, regardless of whether the "Apocalypse" is updated or whether the script is rewritten, it is a new world for him, because he inherits only the will, not the memory.

Because of this, the "Gaochuan", which integrates 60% of Gaochuan information like me, is special. And this particularity can also be used as a signal for the official launch of the "Super Gaochuan Project".

The remainder has not yet been integrated and cannot be passively integrated. The “Gaofuan Information”, which occupies 40% of the total, hides the secret of whether the “Super Gaochuan” can be born. No matter what kind of mentality ~ www.readwn.com ~ I did not press the confirm button before, which is great.

In this way, I can sharpen my will before my death. And this will will also witness my previous existence and efforts as a part of "Super Gaochuan".

I suddenly awakened from the loss of mind, but, unlike the past, there is no longer the kind of doubts about gains and losses. When I wake up, I feel more pure. I can feel that my will grows in these thoughts, and these thoughts are like a step-by-step ladder on the road to "Super Gaochuan".

Now, the body in this realm no longer has any feeling of weakness. I walk here as if moving with the waves. At this moment, I seem to penetrate directly, not just a scene, but a more conceptual Sexual things. When my thoughts rose and looked up, I had reached the end of the circular passage, and in front of me was a familiar door.

This is the gate of the leisure facility service center.

"Achuan." Sakuya's voice came from behind, but I no longer felt strange and weird about it. (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point (m) to vote for recommendation and monthly tickets. Your support is my biggest motivation.)

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