Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

I think that I probably don't need to go to other suspicious places anymore. In this city, the situation in the park bar is a standard. ｜ Top ｜ Point ｜ Fiction. [2] [3] [w] [x]} The doomsday truth has long been buried with pieces, but there is no large-scale activity, even if these pieces are removed Part of it should not appear. The Paradise Bar represents a universal symptom. If you want to use them to do something, it must be carried out by such a group with many members and certain social influence. However, in my prediction, the Doomsday Truth will not be subjected to this degree of coercion. Since the Doomsday Truth has assisted to a certain extent in this attack on Las Vegas, they will naturally be prepared to be bitten back. Their plans to spread out in this world of repeaters will certainly make precautions against possible actions. The actions that they can infer are also inevitable, because everything they have so far is likely to have their involvement, and the amount of intelligence on both sides is not at the same level.

If you want to win, you have to emerge from this near-transparent surveillance. The situation that I have in mind must also be prepared. This also means that since you think that you still have victory under such adverse conditions. The possibility of it proves that the killer is indeed hiding. I didn't notice any clues related to this killer before, just because they hid so well. Then again, if there is no such level of secrecy, it is impossible to fight against the Doomsday Truth that is carrying the general trend.

I don't know under what circumstances my guess will prove, but if you want to win, sooner or later you will have to kill this killer. I think about my experience. It has been proved that my actions and ideas are indeed able to cut into some key places under a kind of guidance. A story is always composed of one or several protagonists, and has multiple supporting roles, seemingly scattered. The clues that cannot be easily encountered will always rotate around them intentionally or unintentionally, and I always feel that I am such an important role in promoting the development of the plot. There are so many people in the world, why is it that some things that seem to determine the fate of the world are caused by someone and noticed by someone. Is it promoted and ended by someone?

I had this feeling long ago-my thoughts and actions can always cut into the key of the event. This is not because I have a keen sense, or excellent judgment, or some special talents. It is because my existence is such a role. This is not determined by my personal will and ability. It is some kind of power that determines my will and ability. This determined my actions and established my role.

It's like writing a novel. Someone likes to set some personalized characters, give a rough background, and then advance the plot with the interaction of the characters. It is called: the protagonist determines the development of the story. There are some people. Decide a story in advance, and then arrange characters with very different personalities for the story. The seemingly character's personality promotes the story, but in fact. This is a better plot line decided from the beginning.

I used to think that I was a role in the former type, but now it looks more like a role in the latter type. However, regardless of the former or the latter, the role itself is still "others want the role to be like this, so the role is like this", rather than "I want to be such a person, then become such a person". Thinking this way, I couldn't help but feel an inexplicable emotion in my heart, not hate or resistance, but just like eating a seemingly ripe fruit, but a slight sourness came from my mouth, but actually, This fruit is actually not bad.

In the core concept of Marxist philosophy, material determines consciousness, and consciousness has an active effect on material. From the perspective of the reality of the hospital, the study of "viruses" is still based on this point: "viruses" lead to the pathological changes of the human body (change the substance), causing ideological pathological changes (change of consciousness). Dr. Ande ’s human completion plan fully utilizes the latter sentence of the core concept: in the illusion of doomsday, use "scripts" to promote the change of patient consciousness, and then let this changed consciousness affect the diseased body (maybe) . This seems to be the extreme point that can be achieved by the actual science of the hospital. However, the existence of "virus" cannot be described by this degree of scientific view. In my opinion, this is the actual study of the hospital, and the reason why it has not made decisive progress so far.

Connecting such reality, feelings and ideas, it is not difficult to make people think that "virus" is actually the true story writer. From a higher dimension, it determines a story it likes. According to the needs of this story, it sets the necessary characters, including its character and ideas, thus establishing the inevitable action of the character. In this story, The character also started to write a story, but he directly set a character with a rich personality, giving a general background to let it interpret a wonderful story. However, the reason why this story character writes the story, the reason for creating these specific personalities The character, because the "virus" set their character and thoughts in this way, decided that they would do it. Indirectly, the role in the story of this character in the story seems to be free, but it has already been decided. A "Fate".

This idea is somewhat negative, but I think so. As far as I know, most mysterious experts feel the same way, even if they are not willing to be so, but, the reason why I think so, the reason why they are not reconciled, how can we prove that it is not a "character setting" What? The difference between these people and me is just how many layers of "the story they are in" they feel. In short, it means a story or a story in a story. Although there are many mysterious experts, because they have similar ideas to me, they feel that their life is already doomed and become meaningless. However, their thinking is probably "needed by the story."

However, from another point of view, it is precisely the roles of individuals with different personalities and different ideas that constitute such a story liked by the story's editor, in other words. Our characters are "loved". And the experience is extraordinary, and I have such a thought. I am probably also "preferred" as a character that is particularly important in the minds of editors. Suppose the true mask of "virus" is such an ultimate story writer. If it cannot be observed and understood by these characters, can Jiang be regarded as a character created by substituting itself into the story?

I have been thinking about the relationship between "Virus" and "Jiang", trying to find hope from it. There is no doubt that "Virus" is the story writer's statement, compared to "Virus" is the instinct of the virus, and "Jiang" 's human nature observation Embodiment of the statement. The whole doomsday process is the erosion of "viruses". This statement makes people feel more warm, but also more mysterious. Because, assuming that "virus" is the story writer, then one cannot help but ask, "virus" itself. Is it also a role, one set by a more advanced author. Doomed to be the character who will compile this story? Even more, ask endlessly: How to prove that you are not a role set by a more advanced being?

There is no answer, and it is a little scary idea. However, I can't help but hope that if I am really just such a setting. The destined character, the editor who determined my destiny, can write a good and happy ending for my story, even if the perfection and perfection of the ending is absurd. How is impossible under "normal logic". And don't just write a "traveling", "logical", nicknamed "determined by the character's own character", a tragic ending.

In literature, there is a saying that tragedy can often reflect the most shocking beauty, because it smashes the most beautiful things, so it is shocking. I admit this statement, so I do n’t hope that I am a character that was deliberately smashed for the sake of "beauty"-this is probably started by the "compiler". Among the speculations about this and the destiny of the world, the most The possibility of fear.

If "virus" and "jiang" are two-dimensional super-dimensions, then relying on "jiang" still has the possibility of defeating "virus".

However, if everything I encountered, me and others, including "Virus" and "Jiang", were just a set character, a destined story, then I could only pray for the story's editor Be compassionate, and besides, there is nothing to do. At the same time, if the editor is a good person, a person who does not stick to the logic of the plot, does not allow the development of the character and the longing for a happy ending, then no matter what hardships I have encountered at this time, I can be confident. To face the next day. Because, I can know that even if it is ridiculous, my future is bright.

This idea not only hides great terror, but also contains strong hope. When I came up with such an idea, I did n’t even know if I should accept it, because until the end came, I could n’t know whether the guy who wrote this story was a casual good person, or just a Sick Wen Qing.

However, this kind of thinking also brought me peace, so that I can face the incredible, tragic, strange things I will encounter more calmly. Because I have figured out the characteristics of my role from my past experience. Assuming that my destiny is destined, no matter whether it is hustle or silence, it must be set. At this time, there is no other way than going silently.

I threw the bartender at the corner of the alley, and with the power of conscious walking, took away what he knew. He is just an ordinary person, but he is not ordinary in the true sense. The sacrificial ritual project was built by him, but he does not have the mysterious power of himself, and he can do such heart-wrenching things as the sacrificial ritual. It lacks the human heart, natural It can no longer be considered an ordinary person. In the past, I should be angry with people like him, but now I just think of him as a kind of "setting"-he is set to become such a person, and also From the story, doomed to do such a thing. Everything he seems to be subjectively active is actually just passive acceptance.

I hate people like him, but I can no longer hate them. I killed him, and my heart was calm. I hope that it was not because, I was set, or someone who would do it-but at least. I was not set up as a bartender.

I didn't go to other suspicious places anymore. My heart seemed to have collected all the debris. At this time, the good ideas made my heart full of strong and inexplicable emotions. I have to admit that I have only observed my changes rationally. Dr. Ruan Li was right. The previous nightmare, the action of searching for "Jiang" in my heart, did not make my condition better, but worsened further-I felt that I was a character in a story, and acted according to this idea. In psychology It is also a classic symptom in clinical cases.

Although, such thoughts did not really make me negative. It didn't make me feel tired, but its production is still extremely abnormal. Ordinary people will immediately forget it, and even the idea of ​​"how is it possible" will not be born, just forget it, but. My own emotions and actions are indeed step by step. Fits this idea. And I can't stop such a change.

As usual, I recorded this change and gave it to Dr. Ruan Li when I had breakfast the next day.

"Do you really think so? Is this a story?" Dr. Ruan Li thoughtfully, and the knives and forks in his hands lightly knocked against each other, making a crisp ding. "Initially, it was the predicted doomsday fate, then it became a virus that had the power to determine the human body and consciousness, then it was a mysterious, incomprehensible indescribable thing, and then it became a set story."

I could hear what she was saying, but there was nothing in her mind, but she cut the food and stuffed her mouth as usual.

"In fact, such a change can reflect an important context." Dr. Ruan Li said: "This is a change in the way of thinking from ancient times to modern times. From idealistic cognition to natural science, to social science, and finally come To philosophy. Although philosophy is very idealistic, it is also a way to try to describe the laws of objective things. Your situation is that normal people will not produce such a dramatic change in the world view in a short period of time. , Is often a relative change, not yours. "

"Isn't this a natural psychological evolution?" I asked.

"Of course not, although it looks very regular, but because it is too regular, it is full of deliberate feelings. The heart of a normal person, the perception of the world, is often more muddy, fixed from the baby to the world view. Adults, its development law should be: a period of clean water in its infancy, and then stir this clean water to make the sludge float, make the water cloudy, and then sieve to get a fixed concentration of water quality, this fixed concentration of water quality is adulthood Human heart. "Dr. Ruan Li described it and said," Your situation is too linear. It's like, instead of being stirred into muddy water and then sieved, it's something that deliberately injects specific water into the water. The ingredients that produce the inevitable chemical reaction step by step will eventually become a specific concentration. "Dr. Ruan Li pressed the temple. She seemed to feel that it was not appropriate to make such a description in my own face. Perhaps, this can be seen as Is it a testament to her inner vibration, "This kind of situation is that your own natural development possibility is very low, and it is not a mental mutation caused by a physiological disease. In the cases I have contacted, the situation similar to yours was due to being deliberately guided, and it was influenced for a long time. Achuan, are you sure that you did not encounter anything special during the time you went to school? ? "

What I mean by Dr. Ruan Li understands that wanting to exert a long-term influence on a person cannot be achieved on any occasion. For a student like me, the personnel encountered during school time are the most influential. However, during my time in this world of repeaters, I did not encounter such people and things. Although the school is a bit of a mystery, in terms of educational content, it is quite standard and positive.

Dr. Ruan Li said that my condition is not the result of natural development, and the body's pathology is not the cause. This statement is wrong from the reality of the hospital. Precisely because of experiencing hospital realities and failing to find "hospital realities" in hospital realities is still evidence of illusion of consciousness. Therefore, the cognitions obtained in hospital realities and the illusions that appear to be broken memories, To a great extent influenced my view of the world and life.

It is also because the reality of the hospital is more like reality than this world of repeaters. Therefore, I cannot regard what Dr. Ruan Li said in this world of repeaters as part of reality.

Dr. Ruan Li stared at me for a long while, and seemed to sigh and digressed and said to me: "I'm going to meet some old friends today, and let them know about your situation by the way, to see if they are better. Approach. "

"Have you always studied on your own?" I asked, raising my head.

"Yes. But, as it turns out, I look too high on my abilities." Dr. Ruan Li's face appeared guilty and sad. "Maybe, I shouldn't have concealed your situation from the beginning. In Paris and others There are many psychologists who are more capable than me. I have some friendships with them and I believe they will be interested in your situation. "

"No!" I immediately refused. A slightly strong tone made Dr. Ruan Li raise his eyes in surprise.

"I don't want them to study my situation." I said straight away: "I only confess to you, mother." I don't know where this emotion came from, probably brought from the actual experience in the hospital, However, I really do n’t want to be surrounded by those doctors anymore, to prove from the front and side all the time, that I am a mental patient, how strange and valuable my condition is and how it is getting worse. Even if you know that you are a mental patient, no, just because you know that you are a mental patient, so I want to live like a normal person. I can face Dr. Ruan Li without any pressure, because, because we have lived together for many hours, the emotional bond between us makes me feel like a parent-child relationship. But this does not mean that I can face other psychologists with the same mood.

This kind of strong rejection seemed to make Doctor Ruan Li feel stunned. After a while, she said: "Although you say that, I am very happy, but in fact, in the past, I have sent some of your information to them. Because of their assistance, I can come up with so many ways, and the medicines you need are also made by entrusting them. You do n’t need to have the idea of ​​being violated, the doctor will inevitably offend, especially It ’s psychology ... Achuan, you ’ve been by my side for a long time, knowing this. "

"I know, but whether I know it has nothing to do with personal emotions." I said to her: "I simply have no mood, to accept other psychologists except you. Psychology is not a general pathology, and the patient's subjective emotions are also Very important, isn't it? "

Dr. Ruan Li nodded after a while, did not mention this topic again: "I will deal with it ~ www.readwn.com ~ I will not come back to dinner at noon, can you take care of yourself?"

"Of course." I answered without hesitation.

"If someone finds me, let him make my phone call." Dr. Ruan Li emphasized cautiously: "Don't ignore the other party's reasons, even if you can't get through, no phone number, no need to pay attention. Just let him Call me directly. "

"You look nervous, mother." I was a little surprised. "Is there any danger?"

"No. There is no danger." Dr. Ruan Li's face calmed down and said, "I just don't want you to be stuck with some brown sugar. Many people here don't know what kindness is, especially for children of your age."

"I don't mind teaching them." I smiled. The atmosphere on the table became soft.

Half an hour later, Dr. Ruan Li, who packed up a box of information, went out as scheduled. I watched her from the window as she got into the taxi, and left my room in my coat. I am going to the stronghold in Paris. The performance of Dr. Ruan Li and the reason for this trip made me feel that she should be placed under surveillance to ensure her safety. Therefore, I need the help of the force. (To be continued ...)