Restricted Doomsday Syndrome

The spiritual erosion in the gray fog has entered a new stage. Although I want to go to the destination in one breath, the "mysterious" interference makes me have to consider using the magic circle. The Night Crow Quark, which could have played a greater role, was temporarily unable to summon after sending away those outside the school, and the sense of danger was approaching step by step during this period. Just before I completed the magic circle, what appeared in front of me turned out to be my own mirror-in addition to the mirror, there are also a variety of names, but in terms of nature, they are almost the same-this other standing in front of me One of me seems to be a more mature self in the image of a murderous man in the past. Although his appearance is not good, he still makes me feel a strong danger.

How did the killer Gaochuan form, what aspects of his abilities have been optimized, and what is his mental state, and what can be done under extremely harsh conditions-it is about these things, I can't understand it myself. . After all, that was the ego.

Moreover, when I appeared as a murderer at that time, it was still immature, and now standing in front of me is a "killer Gaochuan" full of polished maturity. Taking the past killer Gao Chuan as a reference, then his current combat effectiveness may be 50% higher.

Is fifty percent the limit? At the end of the conversation with him, I felt a sense of power in his words, making me unconsciously doubt my prediction.

"For me, we can coexist. After all, I have seen a lot of" Gao Chuan "that is not exactly the same as myself, but because of this, I can be sure that this kind of" not exactly the same " It is based on 'having essential similarities' that only exist. These commonalities are the reason why 'Gaochuan' can continue, but there are new possibilities. If one Gaochuan dies, the next Gaochuan and Shang There is no difference, then, even if it has been reincarnated countless times, it will only repeat the same mistake on the same problem. While considering Gao Gao as an individual, it can also be regarded as an ecosystem composed of multiple individuals, precisely because of the diversity At the same time, there is both universalization and essential commonality, so it can produce many possibilities, make people look forward to it, and think that it may be in case. Commit to the mission that I can not achieve. "I told him this : "From this perspective, when I died, I had indeed made the consciousness of committing my mission. As a result, unexpectedly, I did not die completely. For the fact that I can still live, I am very happy. When I think that I can still go forward, I do n’t want to give this responsibility to other people, even if the other party is also 'Takakawa'. However, even then, there must be When I realized it, I was also convinced that I could coexist with any 'Gaochuan'. Even the killer Gaochuan is the same ... "

When I said that, I stared at his tired, cruel but passionate and calm eyes.

"But, for you, won't it work?" I'm so sure.

"Yes, no, I can't do it, it should be mine, it should be mine." The killer Gaochuan didn't hesitate at all. "Even when I'm crushing my bones, I would never think that it is a last resort for others. Someone can be entrusted, it is happy. That kind of thing, how can it be happy? A mission that ca n’t be completed by death. It will bring a terrible sense of frustration, making me think that if you try harder, it ’s like this. Regret, burning like a flame. Ha- "He took a long breath," I don't know when I will die, but, I will die at some point, there is no doubt about it. Yes, I do n’t think that if I try my best, I can definitely complete my mission. It ’s just that I tried to convince myself that as long as my mission has not been completed, then even if I die, I will definitely die from hell. Climb out! It does n’t matter how much time it takes and how much pain you encounter. What you should do must be done in your own identity. This is absolutely not wrong! Entrust to others Peace of mind, of course, reluctantly, a wry smile to die ...... none of which fit my philosophy. "

"... In some ways, I don't hate people like you at all. Presumably, it's because I wanted to be such a person, so when I first chose, I turned myself to this pair. Look close? "I squeezed the cigarette **** and said calmly to him:" After all, it wasn't me who started the murderous ghost Gaochuan. "

"However, you didn't choose to become that kind of Gaochuan in the end." He bent down, a posture that seemed to relax his body, but made the atmosphere suddenly tighten. "Do you remember? When you decided to take off the mask, that kind of bumpy Mood. Are you actually not confident? Can you go farther than last time without the power of a murderous man? So, although I resisted putting on the mask, I always carried it with me. "So, he opened his palm There was nothing in there, but at this time, there was a familiar harlequin mask in it.

I know exactly what he means, and he is all right, my deepest thoughts. I did hesitate. I have been advancing in the hesitation, including "Is it necessary to kill the ghost", there are many things that can be more determined, but difficult to be determined, have been wrapped in my heart, but I was forced by my will. Only, the boiling of thoughts all the time, also has a deep relationship with the existence of these hesitant things in the heart.

but--

"Is it really wrong to hesitate?" I asked, "decision in action does not mean simplicity of thinking."

"Really." He threw away the mask. I touched the inner pocket of the combat trench coat. Sure enough, the harlequin mask I carried was gone. I'm afraid it was the one he threw at his feet. "What is exactly right?" I ca n’t judge whether things are really correct or not. Although there is a contradiction in thought, I ca n’t be completely sure what to do is the best. Whether the thing I ’m doing is absolutely the best. It does n’t matter if you do n’t give feedback on actions. On the other hand, I also think that it is not a straight line of pure mind, and the hesitation after deep thinking is good. However, this is not what a murderer should be. . "

That's right, it really shouldn't be the appearance of the murderous ghost Gao Chuan. The silence of the killing ghost Gao Chuan should be more sharp and direct. That's not simple thinking. But from the beginning, the direction of the decision has been fixed. When you kill someone, you will think about many questions, but even if there is no answer, it does n’t matter, because. This does not hinder "killing people", as long as "kill the past and kill to the end", just put all the tedious things through like a knife. Beheaded, there is no need to worry about encountering thorns, just cut down and rush to the past.

Such a murderer, Gao Chuan, will have no doubt about "putting on a mask". My current behavior and way of thinking are indeed far from the time of the murderous ghost.

So, did the murderer Gao Chuan take the mask from my arms?

because. He believes that I no longer need this thing, I have embarked on a different path from him. Even so, did he stand in front of me with the idea of ​​"I must go down"?

Now, is he standing in front of me, under a new stage of mental erosion, presenting another reality that belongs to me?

"Look. You're thinking again." He moved his wrist and said, "But every time I can't find the answer, because even if someone tells you the answer in person, you won't believe it, you want to get it "Is an answer that I found personally and enough to make me believe." However, such a thing may exist for me, but for you, it does not exist at all. Because, the origin of your thinking, It's because of 'you don't believe the answer you think'. "

"Can you understand this?" I couldn't help feeling heavier, because the enemies in front of me, although they were talking, wouldn't be the enemies who wouldn't strike on this, really knew me too well. Even if there is doubt about "He is me", the degree of doubt does not decrease as the conversation progresses, even if it does not completely become zero, but 50% and 1% doubts The feelings here are quite different.

One who knows me very well and is a bit more extraordinary in combat effectiveness-such an enemy, even if he does not do it, the pressure brought by it is not a joke. It is simply the feeling of "both mental erosion and physical attack caused by mystery should be upgraded by one level". Without the night crow quark, I am just an ordinary person, magic circle ... also not completed, can I really win? As soon as this thought surfaced, I was thrown away.

No, it's not a question of whether you can win, but you have to win.

"You are still doubting me standing here. I know very well. I understand everything about you. Although you know me the same, you cannot rely on this understanding to close the gap between us. In your heart Is n’t it very clear? ”The killer Gaochuan ’s posture has been lowered, making people feel like a bow string that is gradually being pulled out. Just after a round of war, the body and spirit have not recovered, but the remaining strength is still better! "

"So, if you don't want to die--" His words came and came behind me when they sounded again, "Come on!"

I only had time to backhand the arm blade to the side, and the strong slashing power was transmitted. Because I failed to reach the best ergonomic angle, I could not fully resist this impact. In order to maintain balance, I had to roll on the ground, during which the blade of the murderous man moved forward mercilessly and simply brought a few blood marks on my body. His actions did not reflect the effects of quick swept superpowers and chain judgment, that is to say, he was also fighting in the "ordinary man" posture, but his skill, physical ability, mental concentration and willpower were all right. Wait, but feel that he is completely downwind.

The killing ghost Gaochuan is such a pervert. Under the same quality, as long as it is a killing behavior, it can get a bonus as if it comes from instinct. Even if it is just a small gap, it can be grasped with extraordinary fineness and turned into a gap that is difficult to bridge. I will fall into the disadvantages of myself, and I will be injured in the first match, and I have been mentally prepared before the war. The impact of the war still cannot be completely eliminated.

If you do not make some unexpected changes, then you will lose. I rolled, dodged, counterattacked, jumped, sprinted, and jumped again, but there was a feeling that the shadow of death kept approaching, even when struggling. You can pass by this feeling of death, but, in the next moment, it will appear closer, without the feeling of temporarily pushing it away once. The body was constantly ripped open. The tingling pain and the occasional blood spewing from the exposed skin are proving that he is slipping a little bit in the direction of failure.

Obviously the qualities are the same, but I am so embarrassed that the murderer Gaochuan. Even if I couldn't completely escape my counterattack, it was full of ease while being injured.

I know that the murderer Gao Chuan has long been used to this feeling of dancing on the blade, no, exactly. Dancing on the blade is his realm. When trying to hurt others with the greatest effect, he will also be injured in the counterattack of the other party, not giving others a way to live, and others will not be merciless, this point, the killer Gaochuan is the most clear. however. Recognizing this clearly, but doing so without hesitation, it is equally terrifying.

I don't care about hurting others or hurting myself. As long as you are fighting, the thought in your mind is just to "kill the opponent", and you will never think about things like "killing the opponent's sequelae" and "killing the opponent can really end", because. The target of the murderous ghost is always close at hand, right under your feet-through the act of "killing", it is enough to deal with the trouble that reaches before you. Troubles that are still far away are completely ignored. Because, if it really blocks itself, it will definitely come to himself, then just kill it again-killing ghost Gao Chuan, is such a "very practical" person.

I understand him as if I understood myself, but, as he said, understanding or disgusting or identification is completely meaningless in the battle with him. Because, he will not become weak because of being seen through by the enemy. His strength is extremely delicate and stable.

On the contrary, my strength is always fluctuating. My emotions, feelings and thoughts, as well as feedback from the outside world, will make me in a state of restlessness every moment. My calmness and calmness came about when I recognized this volatility, acknowledged it, and accepted it.

However, even for himself, the fluctuating state of his ability is acceptable and accepted, but in the face of a more stable and sophisticated party, such an attitude cannot be a factor in breaking the situation. The ability demonstrated in the battle of life and death is the truth that has been proved by practice.

Today, the gap between me and the murderer does exist, and this is the truth that has been proven.

What can be expected to be the key factor that can reverse this gap? From the past experience, it is the volatility of night crow quarks and strength.

However, if the night crow quark can arrive in time, it is impossible to guarantee that the murderer Takakawa will not enter the state of the Mageweave messenger. If he has a quick sweep and chain judgment, even if the night crow quark is stronger, he will be caught The inherent flaw of the electronic demon-user body. Therefore, the improvement of the winning rate based on the night crow quark is not worth looking forward to.

The other is the volatility of its own strength. Although this volatility often shows a decline in the face of fine and stable strength output, it is because of the state of fluctuations, so it will cause "sudden The illusion of becoming stronger makes the enemy unable to take precautions and achieve a reversal victory.

However, this time the enemy is another self, and the killer Takakawa is also familiar with my affairs. As I understand how fine and stable he is, he must also understand what kind of situation my volatility is. For those who have taken precautions, sudden fluctuations, if not up to an absolute intensity, cannot have a decisive influence. Once you let the other person adapt and slow down, it will be difficult to win again.

From this perspective, it is also very difficult to show the "unexpected" side in front of him.

I brushed it again with the attacked blade, and the tricky angle made it impossible to fully defend it. So, at the beginning, I went away with the idea of ​​replacing the wound with the wound. While using cheeks with bleeding marks, I used the same technique Stabbed in the past.

The murderer Gao Chuan and I alternated positions, spinning like dancing, hitting, being hit, crossing, being hit and flying, the moment the blade cut through the fog, it looked extra bright. The gray fog flows in the wind, the tattered windbreaker, swaying in the wind, the sound of trampling, the sound of friction, the sound of striking, the breathing sound, crisp and hurried, making people feel tired but unable to stop. In a spiral that never stops, until one of them can't continue.

He jumped up lightly, and the movement made completely by inertia was like a swan landing on the water. It was natural and elegant, but the edge of the blade in front of him was in the sense of life and death.

His body has long been tired, his eyes, in the aura of excitement, can not hide the gray exhaustion, but this does not prevent him from showing lightness and sharpness in battle, swordsmanship, etc., Not at all, not every hit, can reach the best condition of human mechanics, but-

Soon, very free, no matter what angle can be imagined, or an angle that cannot be imagined, will pierce. In the martial arts novels I have seen, there is a similar description. The opponent is a swordsman who only uses assault, but the same speed, the same angle and the same freedom. In the past doomsday illusion, the enemies I have encountered have similar types, but the killer Gaochuan attacks faster than the other, without any trace of thoughts, more pure and bright.

It's too late to react when you see the blade light, so you can only sense in advance through the instinct and intuition of the battle.

Then, once again, I was inevitably hit. I stumbled back and tried my best to prevent the deadly pursuit. I couldn't care about it elsewhere. The cut and pierced area has gradually become numb, and the temperature of the body is also decreasing as the blood passes. Although the wound was not fatal, it was hit too many times, further aggravating the cost of exercise.

The killer Takagawa had no idea of ​​stopping at all, and did not plan to talk to me again. He is silent, direct, and decisive. Unlike the enemies who like nonsense, the conversation with me before is probably the most talked about by him. And this step-by-step pressing, no hesitation, no hesitation, and will never be merciless, like the chariot who intends to crush until the victory of the enemy, in the end, in order to reverse the disadvantage and defeat the victory? I can't get an absolute answer, and it seems that this is the first time I have encountered such an enemy.

The idea of ​​"face-to-face life-and-death battle with oneself in a state of murder" has never been seen before. Today, when I actually appear, I can better understand how much I can become stronger if I become a murderer, Gao Chuan. The one in front of him is the closest reference.

I was biased with great power, and when I stood firm again, there was a soft sense of feeling under my feet-I didn't look with my eyes, but the touch and the memory of the environment let me know what I stepped on.

The mask of the harlequin ~ www.readwn.com ~ proved that the murderer Takagawa was thrown here by him before the battle started.

The chasing murderer Gao Chuan, like me, did not wear a mask.

This must have meaning.

However, I didn't pick it up, and maybe I shouldn't pick it up, but being forced to do unnecessary things is also an important reason.

After my embarrassing dodging, the murderer Gao Chuan stopped his attack for the first time and looked at the harlequin mask on the ground with a dull eye, not knowing what was in his mind. However, his hand-off gave me the leeway to think, and I didn't fight back because he turned away, because that would probably not work. I thought so, and took out the cigarette with a trembling hand.

"Put it on." Gao Chuan, the murderer, said to me suddenly.

Sure enough, as I thought, he said so to me. However, the key issue is not whether to wear it, but whether I really want to pick up the power of the murderous ghost Gao Chuan again. (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote for recommendation and monthly tickets. Your support is my biggest motivation. Please read it for mobile users.)