I Dumped Her Not Knowing That She Was My Favorite

040. morning mate

“Why… why the hell did you confess to me…?”

I have never been affectionate to her.

I’ve never wished for a single handful of love.

I couldn’t understand at all, so I grabbed her shoulder with desperation.

“Hey… why are you so angry…?”

I could feel the heat rising up on my slightly frightened face.

It’s me.

I’m the one who was ruined because of you, but why are you making that face?

“Answer me! Why the hell did you confess to me…!”

With urgency, find the reason.

“That’s it…”

At her answer, I just laughed.

* * *

“…that sucks.”

It was a dream I had for a very long time.

It seemed like I hadn’t seen it since I became an adult.

I got up and went into the bathroom to wash my face in a sticky feeling of discomfort.

I washed my face with cold water and it seemed better.

I smiled bitterly when I saw my watery face in the mirror.

what the hell is this

It’s a feature that everyone else has, but there’s something special about it.

As for whether my face was worth it, I still couldn’t get rid of my doubts.

Still, I thought there was a good thing about waking up early thanks to the nightmare.

Because today is the day I first asked Doa to go have lunch together.

It was much better to wake up early than to sleep late.

Reminds me of Luca’s broadcast yesterday.

Luctan, who was invited by a viewer to play the World Cup with his extremely hated lover.

I didn’t always think that being a streamer meant that I could express my honest thoughts on air, but I still thought that Luca’s answers were helpful enough in dealing with Doa in the future.

I don’t like lovers who lie…

Throughout the broadcast, I felt like I was sitting on a cushion of thorns.

It seemed like there was more of that feeling right after I texted him to get to know him slowly.

Even so, it was also funny to say ‘hahahaha~ I knew you were Luca-tan~’ to Doa first because I saw that.

Putting aside my reaction, it was because I just wanted Doa to tell me about it after some time.

if you get a little closer.

If the time comes when we can be a little more honest with each other, it seemed better to talk about it then.

Putting on jeans and a loose jumper, I left the front door and went down the stairs.

5 minutes before the appointment time.

If I was a smoker, it would have been time to smoke a cigarette, but I, a non-smoker, just stood in front of Doa’s house and waited for her.

“hello.”

While browsing the internet on my cell phone, I raised my head at Doa’s voice.

Light purple cardigan.

Beige tone slacks.

Doa, wearing a white shirt underneath, looked pretty today.

“hi.”

When I greeted her, I could see Doa’s lips twitching.

“ah. that. I was a bit busy yesterday, so I couldn’t contact you…”

It is bad manners among bad manners to use phone while broadcasting.

I fully understood her situation.

And to be honest, if I hadn’t done the broadcast properly to contact me, I thought I wouldn’t like it.

“I can do well tonight if it’s a little late…”

today is saturday

Since it was the day of the regular merger of closers, Doa must be talking like that.

Regular merging is usually scheduled for 2-3 hours, so it was shorter than usual personal broadcasts.

“Ah~ It’s okay if you don’t care about that. I go to bed too late.”

Normally, they would ask me what I was doing until then, but I pretended not to know and ignored reasonable questions.

“really?”

“uh. I usually go to bed at dawn.”

How am I going to sleep first when your broadcast is until 4 am.

I was the type to finish the race to the end on days when Luca’s broadcast was until dawn.

In the morning half, there was a sensibility that was only in the morning half.

people going to bed go to bed

Jammins are leaving.

Usually, there are a lot of steam fans or people who have watched the broadcast for a long time, so I tend to prefer chatting in the early morning hours.

It was not the same, but it seemed that a sense of privilege as a deceased person had been implanted in my head.

“What are we going to eat?”

“I was thinking of going to a brunch cafe later.”

If you go down the alley towards the bus stop and turn left, there is a brunch cafe.

The scale was quite large and the atmosphere was good, not matching the shabby alley atmosphere.

Of course, as a man, I had never been alone.

“The one next to Beojeong?”

“why? Is it bad there?”

“no? I haven’t been there either.”

We went down the slope side by side with Doa and went straight inside the cafe.

It was a Saturday morning, so there were more people than expected.

“Welcome~ Are you two?”

We nodded at the staff’s guidance, and we were seated at a window seat in the corner.

“I will live today.”

“uh? no? I’m half-hearted!”

Doa urgently tried to reject my invitation, but I had no intention of responding.

“No no. You gave me a present when you came to my house, but I don’t think I was able to take care of it when I went to your house.”

“…then can’t you just give me a present?”

Doa, holding the menu tightly, looks at me with a pale face.

I don’t know if it’s because I don’t like eating rice, or if it’s because I want to receive a gift from me, but my answer was fixed.

“Yeah~ no~”

Doa frowned at my determined reaction.

Luca Land. I already did a lot for you.

Take a look.

Rather, I wanted to properly prepare the present for Doa’s birthday next week.

“It’s okay to order whatever you want to eat here instead.”

“You don’t know I eat really well, do I? brother?”

to lie

No one who watches the live broadcast knows that Luca has a short mouth.

“Then I…”

In the end, Doa, who decided to listen to me, started holding the menu and holding the ceremony again.

“Have you not made a choice yet?”

I think I waited for 2 minutes.

“I want to try kaya toast, but I also want to try this one with bacon and eggs.”

“Then order two like that.”

“What about your brother?”

“I’ll share too.”

I wouldn’t have come here in the first place if I was going to eat my favorite food.

Go over there next door and eat hot soup or size up.

Drinks came out first and food was ordered so we had to wait a bit.

“brother.”

“yes?”

“Yesterday…that brother said something…”

Immediately grasping the context, I nodded my head.

“But there’s something I don’t want you to misunderstand…”

“yes. What?”

“It’s not that I just wanted to do it that day… An older sister I know said I had to take it with me…”

At the moment, I wanted something like that, but Doa’s blushing ears were telling me why she was trying to communicate with pronouns.

“ah. So, I really didn’t mean to do that? Is that… is that…?”

I understand the meaning, but I don’t know what to answer. When I asked for confirmation, Doa rolled her eyes.

“That’s not… oh… anyway! Please don’t misunderstand me!”

There was a separate firefighter in the conversation where the fire broke out, and it was the clerk who served the food.

“I’ll upload the toast and brunch set you ordered.”

“yes. Thank you~”

Perhaps because she was nervous, Doa thanked the clerk in a voice close to Luca.

“brother. I will eat well.”

“uh. Let’s eat quickly.”

To evaluate the taste of the food soberly, it was just so-so.

It wasn’t worth the money to eat.

However, the amount of money should be regarded as the value of the atmosphere.

“tasty?”

“Is it delicious?”

Doa also chewed and ate the grass, probably because her taste was a bit different from mine.

“we.”

When I opened my mouth, Doa opened her eyes wide.

“Would you like to exchange timetables?”

“A timetable?”

“yes.”

Probably because they are in the same grade and the same department, there must be many overlapping subjects, but there must be some that are not.

Deciding to get to know Doa, I wondered if it would be good to start with something like this.

“Wait.”

Doa took out her phone, opened the screen, moved her finger, and then held the screen out in front of me.

“I sent!”

“I will send you too.”

Each other’s timetables come and go in the messenger window.

6 doors. I have 8

There were 4 overlapping classes.

“Brother, you are taking 22 credits.”

“Because I was in the military, I had an obsession to do something hard.”

“Isn’t there a lot of assignments?”

“If I could go back to the past, I would never do this.”

Looking at the classes full of Tetris, I sighed.

I won’t work so hard, I’ll just do 6 coolly. No, I wondered if I should have listened to only 7 of them.

Rather, Doa thought that it was a good thing to weave it loosely.

It would be difficult to do the broadcasting right now, but if there were a lot of classes, I probably wouldn’t have been able to sleep properly.

Doa, who was still looking at her phone, started counting something in a low voice.

“I think I have to go to school at the same time on Monday and Thursday and Friday…”

Doa, who was still fixated on her phone, glances up at me.

I turned my eyeballs round and round at the face like a cat wanting a snack.

“Uh…then, shall we… go together in the morning…?”

I wondered if it was the correct number, and when I slightly raised my tail, Doa nodded vigorously up and down.