Raiders of the favorite concubine of Qing Dynasty

Chapter 385 Don't Mention the Past (Part [-])
Not far away I heard the voices of Shui Ling and Yan Ran calling me, I turned to them, Shui Ling was a little frightened when she saw Fulin, but Yan Ran still had a superficial expression.

Fulin handed Jiujiu to Shui Ling: "Take the child away, I want to talk to her alone."

Just like this, I stood there, watching the crowds of people in front of me, and in the end it was only me and him left.

"Shouldn't you say something to me?" Fulin turned his back to me.

What should I say, I heard myself say in a trance: "This is my own idea, if you want to blame me, punish me alone!"

Fulin's body froze, and he turned around before I was caught off guard. His eyes were a little red, and his face was a little more struggling. He pulled my shoulder hard. I thought I would be pinched if I tried harder. broken.

"Do you know that when I woke up that day, there was no one around me, and I couldn't find you anywhere, how helpless I was?"

"Do you know how cruel it is for me to lose and get back, and lose again?"

"Do you know that I sent people to search all over the north, and all the garrison barracks near the capital and the imperial guards in the palace were spilled?"

"Do you know that for several days and nights I have not fallen asleep, and I see you all in front of me?"

"Do you know how much I miss you these days, I hate you for leaving without saying goodbye, but I think about you appearing in front of me again like this every day, do you know?"

Fulin's voice gradually weakened in my ears, he buried his head on my neck, I felt some warmth and humidity fainting in my neck.

My eyes were wet with disappointment, I never dared to imagine what he would look like after I left, I thought he would be sad, but after a few days he would cheer up and concentrate on government affairs.I thought that with Dong E's gentle company, I would soon disappear faster than Borzigit's at that time.I thought..., but when his tortures were in front of me one by one, I was puzzled, how much of my thought was true, and how much was my own cleverness?
"The emperor is diligent in government and loves the people. He will definitely not be swayed by some children's private affairs. Besides, the imperial concubine is by her side, and she will definitely be able to solve the emperor's worries. But I am just an insignificant person. In terms of appearance, I am just inferior in the palace. Virtue and talent are inferior to me in the palace, and in terms of human behavior, there are many people in the palace who are kinder than me, gentler than me, and more upright than me..." My voice became weaker and weaker, and finally turned into a person talking to himself.

"After all, you never trusted me!"

"You trust anyone, even a person whose hands are stained with blood, but you don't trust me."

A cool wind hit my shoulders, and I couldn't help shivering, and his voice became cold.

trust?Perhaps from the day when Dong Eshi appeared, there will be no more.His attitude towards me has also become ambiguous since then.

I shouldn't have said anything, but I've lived enough days when I wanted to say something but didn't dare to say it. Why should I shrink back now that Jiangnan is vast? I looked up at him, and my voice became more self-deprecating: "The imperial concubine Can you trust me?"

Fulin was stunned for a moment, and said with a wry smile: "Do you know Concubine Xiandichen?"

"I don't know. If I'm still in the palace, I may be another concubine in the hearts of others." Ever since Dong E's appearance, I have been a universal shield, and no one thinks that I am the woman who favors the harem.

I am a little puzzled, what does he mean by mentioning Concubine Chen?
"With the precedent of the previous emperor, how many people would think that you are the concubine in my heart?" Fulin sighed, and said slowly under my surprised gaze: "You think you are a target, and Dong E's Ann enjoys grace." Pet, you think so, those people in the palace are not as smart as you? You have no family, and in her eyes, your favor is just a thought, how many people really regard you as a thorn in their side? I always thought that if I protect you well and give you enough protection, you will understand, you will trust me, and you will be safe and healthy by my side, but I never thought about what you want, maybe I can't afford it at all."

The target theory in my heart was shattered. Indeed, I saw other people too simply, and the relationship between people in the palace was too simple.How many people in this palace live for love, but they are all for profit, how insignificant I am to them.Even if I dote on the harem, even if I am arrogant and domineering, when Long En is exhausted, I will be as weak as an ant.For me, they don't have to go out of their way to kill them all.

On the contrary, it was Dong E's family, who was born in a famous family, bright and beautiful, gentle and kind, who stayed out of the matter, but could see it clearly.

I twitched the corners of my mouth, unable to tell whether I like it or not.

I am not a very kind person, but I base my happiness on the pain of others, because I have experienced that pain, and I will never be happy.

Can't go back after all.

Silence, long silence, two people standing opposite each other, I really feel the lack of words.

After a long time, it was Fulin who broke the silence: "I came this time because of the flood."

I lowered my head, not daring to look at him, and nodded.

"Relief for disasters and the poor, open warehouses to distribute grain, Zheng Youliang is obsessed with others, and filled his own pockets, it's really abominable!" Fulin's tone was really angry.

Under the influence of Fulin's emotions, I also said with righteous indignation: "There are troublesome people in the poor mountains and rivers. If you can eat and wear warm clothes, you don't have to worry about being displaced. Who will oppose the government and the court? Every time a disaster occurs, it is violently suppressed in the end. They are all mobs who don't know the emperor's kindness, and the people are so innocent."

"The magistrate, the prefecture, the magistrate, and even... the water here is deeper than you think. The government and businessmen collude, and the officials and officials protect each other. The chain of interests in this is deeply hidden and not easy to shake." Fulin frowned as he looked at the rolling river in the distance.

"Then you don't have to come in person, the mountain is so high that the emperor is far away, if someone does something cruel, the consequences..." I couldn't help but worry about him.

He glanced at me and didn't speak.

After a while, he asked: "I heard that Zheng Youliang held a Hongmen Banquet, are you also on board?"

I glanced at him in surprise, I know all of this, it seems that he has been in Jiangnan for a few days, and it is not by chance that we met today.

"Yes." I nodded.

"Since that's the case, I want to take this opportunity to meet them. A Zhuangzi can't just have his wife and no master."

I have no reason to refuse, whether it is for the righteousness of the world or selfishness, I continued to nod, but... I always said that the master was ill, and I have been avoiding the world to support myself.

I don't know why I'm thinking about this, and I don't know what to think about, my head is buzzing and chaotic, everything is so sudden, so unreal.

I followed Fulin and walked towards Zhuangzi. Yanran and the others in the distance were a little puzzled when they saw it, followed me, and asked closely: "What's the situation, Wuhuada is kidnapped and returned to Beijing?"

Shui Ling became more and more worried: "My brother, what should I do?"

Jiujiu took my hand and was very excited: "Daddy, that's my daddy! Mother, where did daddy go before? But it doesn't matter, I have a daddy now, oh, no, daddy won't run away again Are you leaving?"

I looked at Jiujiu, but I couldn't answer a word. I had nothing to say except guilt. Her father would run away after all.

Seeing that I ignored her, Jiujiu got excited with her little short legs and ran in the direction of Fulin, calling Daddy, Daddy.

Fulin heard it, turned around, squatted down, caught Jiujiu's bear hug, and stroked Jiujiu's head with a look of love.

"Daddy, you won't run away, will you?" Jiujiu turned her back to me, but she insisted on looking up at Fulin's stubbornness, which made me feel even more distressed.

"will not!"

"Nine nine!"

Fulin and I spoke out at the same time, I didn't expect Fulin to say that, even if it's a moment of deception, I don't think we want Jiujiu's little thoughts to fail.

(End of this chapter)