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Chapter 197. 194. Walking on Kneeling
The night was dark, and the light of the sky dissipated.

An Zai has been out of contact for more than three hours.

In the vast sea of ​​people, how easy is it to find someone?
What's more, no matter how rich and powerful An is, as long as she wants to go, she can go anywhere in the world.

Ji Canghai sat in the base, trying to recall all the places An Zai had been to.home, Internet bar, school, favorite restaurant and even Chuci
Based on his understanding of An Zai, leaving the base might cause her to wander around without direction at first, but after such a long time, she will definitely not stay in a completely strange place for so long.I believe that An Zai at this moment will definitely find a familiar place that can make her feel at ease, so that she can feel safe.

All the ferocity and strength of Zaizi are displayed on the field. In fact, Zaizi in real life is full of anxiety, hiding her identity and joining the team. She may have never felt at ease for a moment this year.Ji Canghai wondered about An Zai's heart, and couldn't help feeling sore.

Ji Canghai, oh Ji Canghai!Could it be that a year of getting along still doesn't get enough of her?Where is this place where she can be at ease?
An Zai sat cross-legged in the grass, staring blankly at the lights of the small building in the OD base.It is only a hundred meters away from the OD gate, but the distance of this hundred meters seems to be separated by a galaxy that cannot be crossed.

One year is enough for her to use up all her courage and self-confidence.The blood that kept her alive turned cold, and she was exhausted and lost her fighting spirit.

Maybe teammates will forgive and accept themselves after learning the truth?After all, the summer finals are just around the corner, and the World Championship is waving to them. Even if it's not for the camaraderie, maybe there is still room for relaxation?
It's not that this idea has never appeared before, it's just that she didn't dare to bet, didn't dare to place this bet.

What if the guess is wrong, if things are not going in this direction?
An Zai was really unable to bear any blows. If one of her coaches and teammates said no to her, she would probably collapse on the spot and never get up again.

After An Zai left the base, she only wandered outside for less than an hour. She followed her heart and only wanted to go to the place she wanted to stay most in a daze.

Only when he regained his senses did he realize that he had returned to the base.

OD, this is the only place where she can find peace and peace of mind.But it was also a place she dared not approach.

An Zai just sat there numbly in the grass for more than two hours.The monotonous small building in front of her was a beautiful scenery that she couldn't get enough of.

I remember the day when Jian Hao received the base for the first time, the first time I saw this small villa building, a sentence flashed in my heart: the place where dreams begin.

Walked into the gate with longing, awe, and infinite expectations.This is the Mecca in her heart for many years, sacred and far away.

After living for a year, the sense of sacredness and supremacy was gradually replaced by kindness. This is another home for her, a home she never wants to leave.

But today, she dared not go in.

Could it be that dreams are really going to be defeated by reality?
Suddenly something cold dripped from his face, and it slid down his cheeks, itching.An then reached out and wiped it, it was water.

She was pretty sure it wasn't tears.

From the incident until now, her eyes have been dry.An Zaina wanted to cry a lot. Although crying didn't help to solve the matter, at least it could vent the emotions in her chest, but she couldn't cry for no reason.

I really can't find a reason to cry. Everything today is doomed to doom. From the day she cut off her long hair, she knew that there would be such a day.

Water droplets continued to hit the face and body.

An Zai slowly raised her head, the night sky was pitch black, like a huge curtain of darkness.Facing the moonlight and the brightness of the street lamps, white dots fell from the sky one by one, and immediately connected into waterlines one after another.

It's raining.

After entering the rainy season, rain is common.

An Zai was suddenly very happy, the rain came at the right time, it didn't matter if she couldn't cry, God would help her cry.

The rain was getting denser, and the bangs on the forehead were tightly glued to the forehead.An Zai didn't move at all, and just sat there in a daze, as if even the instinct of small animals to hide from the rain had atrophied.

The torrential rain on the summer night is still cold on the body.Ann curled up again, put her head on her knees, and hugged herself tightly.

An, who has lived smoothly for 18 years, never imagined that there will be a day when only she can hug and comfort herself.

"I am a blue whale incarnated into an isolated island/with the largest figure/fish and shrimp walking by my side/and birds sitting on my back/I have a nature that is too cold and clear/I fell in love with her in the sky/and the clouds are too Far too light / After tossing and turning, each will live in peace."

An Zai sang in a low voice, pausing every word, every pause followed by sadness.

She also sang this song the night she lost in the spring finals.That night was also lost and powerless, but it was different from today.The loss of the game is sad, but it will not be the last loss, and it will not be the last game.

Although that night was sad, there was still hope.As long as she can still appear on the stage, she believes that one day she will win the championship she wants.

Tonight is different, she is not sure if she has a chance to go on.

Although the future is always unknown, at least there are fantasies and dreams to support.How hopeless it would be if even the opportunity to dream was to be deprived, and only the end of death was visible for a lifetime.

"Your clothes are shabby / But your singing is gentle / Adrift with me aimlessly / My back is like a barren hill / But you smile and shake your head / Think of it as the whole universe / You wave your hands with the sun / Greet seagulls / Accompany me to love the world and love the world."

In the spring, An Zai was still wondering who was the shabby man, whether she brought new hope to the aging OD, or whether OD gave her a chance to realize her dream.

how ridiculous~~
The confident self at that time.

He really thought that he could bring OD a different kind of glory.

Now she understood that she had always been a shabby beggar, begging for a chance along the way.That opportunity, to others, is a kind of charity that can be withdrawn every minute.

It turned out that for such a long time, I was walking on my knees.

Is it so humble?

An laughed again, bowing her head and bowing her neck, laughing so hard that her trachea convulsed.

The rain seemed to have stopped, and there were no more blows from the freezing rain on my body.

In this damn weather, why can't even the rain fall happily?

An had had enough laughing and coughing, so she raised her head and breathed a sigh of relief.

As soon as he freed his eyes from his knees, he was stunned.

I don't know when there was an extra pair of feet beside him, and he pulled on the slippers and stood quietly.

An looked up again, and saw a good-looking face with frowning - Ji Canghai.

　Thanks to the anti-strike girl, big fish, everything is not as good as leaves, book friends 287***, three-point heat, Shanchu, Yaojian, Yanhuoxin, Gu Gu Gu Gu Gu, 159****42 for the recommended tickets~~ ~My big knife is already hungry and thirsty - Barbarian King

　　


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