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Chapter 742 Flowers are not flowers, fog is not fog (2)

The speaker has no intention, the listener has the heart.

I often hear people say this in school, sometimes it is true, sometimes it is perfunctory.For example, some people are sensitive by nature and are very concerned about what others think of them, and sometimes they will ponder over and over in their hearts for a long time even if they are just an ordinary sentence.Pu Anhao felt that for a while, he was such a person.A very long time.

Another example is that some people like to satirize others, and after being caught by the other party, they will say, I didn't mean that.You are thinking too much.

No matter what it is, Pu Anhao doesn't like it.But she didn't think of her own words - we are the same kind, and Xia Weiliang firmly remembered it in his heart, engraved it into his bones.

We are all the same, we are of the same kind.

Although on the surface, he has always been indifferent and smiling all day long.But in fact, there are still many pains and unhappiness in her heart. No one knows that she also cares about what others think of herself.There was no way she could really stay out of it.

No one has seen her clearly. What she longs for is to have a pair of eyes, a heart, and someone who can really understand that she is not really happy.

Now she has waited for so long, and finally met.

I still remember that in October 2004, Stefanie Sun sang a song called "The Same Kind".I still remember the lyrics clearly——

The city after the rain is lonely and embarrassing.

The curb seat, it's empty waiting for someone.

I hold time, but it ignores it.

Is there anyone else who wants to be comforted as much as I do.

The wind stopped blowing again, and I suddenly thought of someone.

Days, bright and dark, I've passed many years

Heart, warm and gray.

The world is lonely sometimes and needs another of its kind.

Love, take and give, we're all imperfect.

Dreams are made and broken, we have several chances to chase them.

I hold time, but it ignores it.

Does anyone else want to be comforted as much as I do.

la la.
I don't know why love is rare and expensive.

The clouds were cut in mid-air by the breeze.

Memories may be beautiful, but they are flying away, aren't they?

The familiar melody kept circling in my mind.Well, in fact, we are all the same, the same unhappy, the same lonely, the same want to be accompanied, lonely so much that we need someone of the same kind.

Park Anhao's diary May 2008, 5 The most familiar stranger
It's you.

I'm sure.

It's just that I no longer have the courage and strength to admit, to admit, the pale fact that I still love you.

Tired of reviewing, reading, writing, or staring in the classroom for three consecutive days.

Emotional ups and downs, and finally returned to silence.I didn't speak for a long time, and I missed some people or things while listening to familiar songs.suddenly.

I always tell myself, it's over, it's over, everything is just a grand illusion, enriching the pale memory.Will wake up eventually, reality is the most real.

One cannot always exist apart from reality.Live in a dream of nothingness.No matter how beautiful the promise is, it is just a blank check.Too much naivety, and there's nothing left but ignorance.

My mother said that it is reasonable to do things suitable for this age at any age.well. 21 years old.It should be like a sunflower in summer, struggling to grow towards the sun. 20 years old is the best time for a woman.I met you at my most beautiful age, pure and bright, remembering all the details related to you with my heart.It's you who made me believe that some days can be heard.As long as the voice is there, you will not be alone, and the voice can be very brave.

I engrave what you said to me into my bone marrow and into my blood.Just to remember you, I don't want to forget you.Of all time, you are the most precious.

But, Lu Jinnian.

You don't feel that way.In your heart I am no different from anyone else.Someone can replace it.

and so.

You always forget what you said.You can not contact me for a long time.You always tell me you are busy.too busy.I also cooperate with you very much.I always say I understand.And smile.Laughing and laughing tears flowed out.

I don't know what's between us.There are many defined words in my heart, but I don't want to express them so bluntly.I don't want to tear another piece of skin from the wound, and watch it bleeding profusely, but I can't do anything about it.

I want to be nice to myself.I have to be nice to myself.

So I can't be so cruel, to myself again and again.

Your voice is so familiar, yet so far away.

Unfamiliar number.Once familiar with the heart.Since I deleted it, since you stopped contacting me, I am still a stranger.Can't remember. "The quality is clean and the clean will go" suddenly popped out such a sentence.Anyway, back to square one.Although my heart has no way to pick up again.

Your voice is still very nice.But how can I hold it so far away.It's out of my life, long ago.

The reason is this.

You lost me.I have walked alone through the day and night, through the deep sea of ​​fear, through the lifeless desert.Tears dry up, and my heart dies somewhere, unable to be revived.I will never miss you and never believe in anything easily.Still no love.I think I'm really not smart enough, almost a fool.I believe in the people I believe in, what I think is good, what I think I care about, are all unchanged.will last forever.

Lu Jinnian, if you don't leave, I will never give up.

It turned out that everything was just what I thought.

I don't know what to say to yours.I'm afraid that the forbearance and sadness I've arranged for a long time will come back again.Maybe you don't know, I will only be so noisy when I face you, I will always tell you the secret in my heart, that garden is only open for you.Haven't thought about it.That's why Anhao is really a noisy child.So you won't know how sad I am after hearing you say that.I'm still annoying you after all.So this time I'm silent.

—Hello, who is it?
- Don't you know who I am?
--do not know.

——Then you guess.

--I can not guess it.

——…

--Bye.

——…

……

The call lasted 1 minute and 08 seconds.There was silence for at least 1 minute.

I really didn't think it was you, so you still remember me.

I guessed it was you, but couldn't say it.Your name is stuck in my heart and I can't say it.sad.I am really very sad.I want to say that I knew it was you.hehe.Just teasing you.I want to use the most brisk and lovely tone to talk to you like before.

But.I found that I can't do it anymore.

I don't want to show my sadness in front of you anymore, and I don't want you to realize that I really care about you.If you can't see the expression, everything will not be exposed.

(End of this chapter)