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Chapter 703 No One, No Love, Losing His Heart ([-])
Excerpted from Su Xiaoxiao's space log:
Journal title: Finally, I still can't write the ending

发表时间：2013年10月23日 1:30am
Log Access: Personal Visibility Only

Even though Lu Jinnian and Pu Anhao are not together anymore, I still often go to her space.

Specially opened the space yellow diamond, so that you can visit invisibly.Speaking of incognito access, this feature is really good.It is comparable to Weibo's quietly following.It's just that one is a paid service and the other is a free function.

It stands to reason that these two are more suitable for secret love and the like, but I use it to focus on former rivals in love.I could have just added a friend to follow Weibo directly, but I just didn't have the courage.I don't know what's wrong, but it's just not right.

Pu Anhao's current living conditions seem to be good, with a very regular schedule, going to work, after get off work, and shopping.Also often go home.Nothing about Lu Jinnian was mentioned in the space at all.

Maybe the time has come when the wound is finally starting to heal.

Yeah.

Let's live happily.

I never thought about happiness, joy, and life before, but now I start to like these things, and I want to have these most ordinary but rarest things.

I also became warmer.I have felt it myself.I once heard people say that the changes in oneself are usually the first to be noticed by others, and the last to know about oneself.However, my change, I already knew from the day I started to change.

And all of this is because of Lu Jinnian, if he hadn't passed by my side at that time, if it wasn't him who met at that time, I would not be the me I am now.

Because of him, there is a new me now.

No matter how long or how many times, as long as I think about it, I will be very touched and feel a huge sense of happiness.

I originally thought that as long as I persisted, I would definitely wait for the future I wanted.Falling in love with Lu Jinnian takes time and courage.I have all of these.It seems that only these are left.

But I am still reluctant to admit that this kind of persistence is useless.

Lu Jinnian is Lu Jinnian, he is a paradise that I cannot reach.

I also thought selfishly, if Lu Jinnian didn't get married, would I be able to hang on and not leave.When I think about it, I'm completely speechless to myself.Am I the only one in this world who is so ignorant and fearless?

I read that Park Anhao wrote an article about faith before. She said that people with faith are like the sun shining even when walking in the abyss.I burst out laughing.Faith cannot be eaten, it cannot give you money, it cannot give you love.It's just drawing cakes to satisfy our hunger.

It was only after the showdown with Lu Jinnian that I realized that loving Lu Jinnian is not what I have always believed in?How did I forget it?Isn't he the one who has supported me to the present and made me want to become a better version of myself?
He is my belief and always has been.

I have loved him for so many years and nothing else.

This has become a very important but commonplace thing.It is natural to never forget.Just like you breathe every day, it has become a common thing.

I myself don't know how it came to be like this, in fact, I made that decision at that time, with a pious heart.Follow him wholeheartedly.

If you say that this is an obsession and a mistake, then I am also obsessed with no regrets.

(End of this chapter)