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Chapter 464 I Think I'm In Love With You
【18】Since then she no longer believes in love and no longer believes that someone will really love her.

Just when I kept asking Juli who she liked, Zhao Xianning told me the whole truth.

"That day we heard two girls talking about Juli's past in the gymnasium. The two said it was you who said it. But Juli didn't believe it. You also know that she has a very straightforward temper, and she has to say something. But She didn't know how to speak, and she always felt that if she opened her mouth, it would destroy our relationship for more than two years. If she didn't have to say it, she felt uncomfortable."

"But Juli is Juli. She believed in you and our friendship. She didn't say anything in the end. I was afraid that you would see the clues, so she made up the fact that she was interested in dating."

"Clover, don't be angry. Juli believes in you. So do I."

"You should really tell me, and I'll go find those two bastards." I'm not angry, I'm even happy.Maybe she wavered, but in the end she believed me.The same is true for Zhao Xianning, she believed in me, she didn't alienate me on her own, and built a fence for her heart.The people who were hurt never blamed me but worried that I would be unhappy, and I had no reason to have any bad emotions.

"Since we're talking about this, I'll tell you everything."

"Eh? Do you still have a lot of secrets between you?" I couldn't help but hold my breath.

"It can't be regarded as a secret. Juli and I are high school classmates. We have been at the same table and in the same dormitory from the first year of high school to the third year of high school." Zhao Xianning didn't want to say so much at first.However, every time she saw Clover and Ye Xiaolu ask Juli's first love and why they didn't fall in love every time, she felt uncomfortable.And Juli felt even more uncomfortable in her heart, but she always acted as if nothing had happened.Zhao Xianning also approached Juli, but Juli refused, she was such a proud person, she was afraid they would sympathize with her.

"I've never heard of it from you guys." Clover was astonished. After being together for two years, she didn't know that the two of them had known each other for a long time and had such a deep connection.Three years in high school and four years in college, what a rare fate.Clover suddenly remembered that he had always been very close to Zhao Xianning, would Juli feel a little sad at that time?

"You didn't ask either. But there's nothing to say about this kind of thing." "The focus of what I want to say is the following."

"Juli did have several boyfriends when she was in high school, but the two girls talked the opposite way. Every time they broke up, it was the other party. There are various reasons. It's not suitable. You are fine, do I deserve it? Fuck you. I like the so-and-so in the next class. I'm tired of it. She can bear it. She has always known that love is never decided by one person. When you are together, you need the approval of two people. That's it. The rest of the people can only accept it whether they like it or not. There is another one who is even more perverted, and that is her last love in high school. Because the boy is going to be a soldier, the day before leaving Juli asked out. I remember that before going, she was very happy and said to me, 'Ningning, maybe he is going to stay for me.' I thought so at the time."

"Isn't it?" I thought so too.

"No." Zhao Xianning nodded with a look of disappointment. "When she came back, she hugged me and burst into tears. That was the first and only time she cried in front of me."

"What happened?" It was hard for me to imagine that such a strong Juli would shed tears in front of people.

"He didn't want to stay for her at all. He asked Juli to sacrifice himself."

"Ju Li refused, so the two broke up. Let's just break up. When the boy left, he said that he never loved Ju Li. He just saw her good-looking. Since then, she has completely changed. Alone, she no longer always smiles happily as before, and is no longer close to people. She is even more shy about love."

After hearing what Zhao Xianning said, my deepest feeling is guilt and sadness.Having been together for so long, I clearly know that Juli has never been truly happy.But she always uses the selfish idea that she can say what she wants to say, maybe there are some things she doesn't want people to know, to avoid these problems.Fortunately, I have always called myself a good sister.If Zhao Xianning didn't talk about it today, I wouldn't want to go deep into her heart at all.

I never knew that she was also a girl who believed in beauty, believed in love and often smiled, but the people she loved later did not love her.

The wounds of the past have yet to heal.

(End of this chapter)