About him I have a crush on

Chapter 4 I Know You Are Sad

【one】

It seems that everyone has a brother or sister who is obedient and filial with good grades.Every time you lay on the sofa and eat potato chips, your mother will say sadly, "Look at that!"

But my mother educated me with my cousin, not because of any of the above reasons.

She said, if only you were half as sweet as your sister.

But today, my sister didn't talk about it, but concentrated on working hard on the Weibo search interface where the city, age, and work unit were selected.

"You can search for your real name." I suggested.

My sister responded and said dully, "I don't know my real name."

Just thinking about how she became so interested in a person whose name she didn't even know, she had already found the person she was looking for.

It was a very ordinary Weibo, reposting mutual damage between friends, or photos taken on trips.

"It was a good shot."

"Of course." The elder sister's tone was very proud.Then she began to read his Weibo one by one.It's rare to see my sister so caring about someone, probably a potential new boyfriend.

After a while, the elder sister who had been spinning the mouse ball quietly let out a "Yo". She found the blogger's name in the comments - Chen Huan.

The name sounds like Dust Huan, and I became interested for a while, "Who is who?" My sister was very happy that her aesthetics was recognized, and she turned the chair and started to talk.

Unexpectedly, this Chen Huan was not my sister's classmate, but my aunt's younger brother whom I just met.

The little aunt came to grandma's house to discuss the wedding today, and the older sister went downstairs to help carry the presents, and met Chen Huan.

She said that when the road was halfway through, Chen Huan deliberately walked to her left, that is, stood in the direction of the car again, and said "be careful" to her.My sister said that it was such a small act that made her feel that Chen Huan was a very responsible man, much better than those who talked about liking and loving but did nothing all day long.

I don't know whether to say that it only takes a small detail to fall in love with someone, or should I say that when you have someone in your eyes, every little thing he does will be infinitely magnified.

Under my persecution, my sister readily admitted that she was already tempted when she saw Chen Huan getting off the car at the gate of the community and across the road from a distance.

She said, you know, the boys I know either have bad voices or bad looks, but he, with white shirt, slanted bangs, soft hair, good-looking smile, nice and gentle voice, is completely perfect Fits my ideal type.

The so-called love at first sight is actually not about seeing each other and sparking, but about the person who appears, who just fits the image you have imagined in your mind for more than ten years.So love at first sight is usually one-sided.

After going upstairs, my sister sat and listened to my grandmother asking about Chen Huan's situation, age, school, job, family history, everything that should be known, but unfortunately my grandmother only called him Xiao Chen.

But it doesn't matter, my supernatural elder sister found out Chen Huan's name before he drove home.

"You really like him?"

The elder sister nodded and said emphatically, "You can't tell my dad."

"Understood." I replied, wondering how she, who had already graduated from university, was afraid that her parents would not let her fall in love, so she was called to dinner by her grandma.

When I went out, I heard her say something like she was talking to herself: "Really, I really like him."

In my impression, this is the first time my sister said "like".

Since she was in junior high school, she has been attached to my ear, telling me carefully and happily that she has a boyfriend.In high school, in order to go out on a date, he took me out together as a shield.Not long ago, I asked about a certain beautiful item, and she replied casually, it was a gift from her ex-boyfriend, if you like it, you can give it to you.

From timid joy to natural acceptance, to getting used to it, in the sister's love world, it seems that "association" has always been greater than "like".

【two】

I think a cheerful girl like my sister will not be content with a crush. If she can't communicate, "like" is meaningless to her.

After that, my sister began to write some rhyming and sensational sentences. "The moment you fall in love with someone will never disappear", "Everything about you is my wishful thinking", "I'm so jealous of those who can chat with you easily".

"You can publish a collection on Weibo, called "99 Love Letters to Chen Huan"." I made fun of it, but at the same time I deeply believed that my sister would soon become "can be relaxed with Chen Huan" easy chatter".

And that's just "I thought".Maybe it's because I don't really understand my sister, or maybe it's because I still don't understand what true liking is.

"I really like him."

My sister repeatedly told me how she fell in love with Chen Huan at first sight.Maybe it's because she and Chen Huan had no other encounters to talk about.

"You said how about I go to their unit to apply for a job after graduation?"

"Crazy you."

My sister didn't care whether I was old or young, she sighed and said, "Otherwise, how can I see him."

She began to stay up late every day, because Chen Huan used to post at one o'clock in the morning, but she obviously couldn't comment or even like it.My sister just waited stubbornly, as if waiting was a form of hard work.

For an existence like Chen Huan, she couldn't confess, and she had no reason to go to him.It's like a dream that is close at hand but can't be touched anyway.

Knowing that there will be no result, but there is no way to get rid of the feeling of liking in her mind, my sister just waits like this, until one day she no longer likes him, probably everything will pass.

It's such a humble and hard-working relationship, do you just like it?
Fortunately, my sister's prayer soon came true.

The excitement with which she grabbed me and said "I met him in the supermarket" scared me so much that I even lost my pen.

My sister was holding a handful of cabbages when they met.If she found Chen Huan first, she would definitely put down the cabbage, tidy up her appearance, get nervous for a long time, and then greet her in a personable manner.But the truth is, when his sister was looking at the cabbage, Chen Huan found her, "Is it Xiao Sang?"

"Are you there too?" My sister threw away the cabbage.

She will definitely regret for a month for this inconspicuous and overly familiar greeting.

They were supposed to say hello and go their separate ways, but because of the beginning of their acquaintance, Chen Huan also asked naturally: "Did you get called out by your mother to buy vegetables?"

"you too?"

"That's right, but I can't find what she said at all." Chen Huan said and showed his sister the memo on the phone.

"It's over there with the seasoning, I'll take you there."

She forgot all the endless topics that came up in her sister's mind, and just followed behind him, talking about the dishes that were going to be made tonight.Then she raised her head slightly and looked at him quietly.

Nervous, apprehensive, and secretly delighted.

【Three】

My sister seems to have changed a bit.In my impression, she has never been in such a state of repeated entanglement and hesitation.

This sentiment also shows in her approach to her wardrobe.Although my sister has a lot of experience in shopping for clothes before, she is no longer satisfied with the proud works in the closet.

If there is no chance encounter, the next time my sister and Chen Huan meet will be at the wedding of my uncle and aunt.Of course she was not reconciled, and asked her little uncle to take wedding photos with her, saying that she hadn't been to the park that is now famous for wedding photos for many years.

After the little uncle agreed, my sister became worried.She took out the clothes from the closet one by one, gestured on her body, and asked me if I was okay.I said yes, she glanced at the mirror and still frowned, "You can say anything."

So I exchanged one and said yes, and the other said no.My sister finally gave up asking me and fiddled with the mirror for a long time, picking out three favorite dresses, but still couldn't make up her mind, so she turned around and asked, "Which one do you think is better?"

I pointed to one, and she repeatedly asked "Really?" After looking at it, she said, "Actually, I like this one better." I looked at the long green dress and said, "You have to wear high heels to wear this."

"correct."

"But you have to change places to take pictures that day, and you have to walk a lot. Maybe you have to help carry things."

"It's okay." My sister waved her hand, and she seemed to have regained her old style.

After settling this matter, my sister asked me to accompany her to buy cosmetics.After picking and picking for a long time, I also studied with the shopping guide for an hour in the store.I thought it was quite simple, but I didn't expect that after returning home, my sister kept tossing between painting and washing off.

I couldn't help laughing at her low IQ, which I didn't learn.

My sister said that she is inner double and cannot draw eyeliner well.Then she showed me her eyes, which looked normal when they were closed, but when they were opened, there were faint black lines, which was very strange.

I could only comfort her by saying, "Your eyes are big enough, you don't need to draw."

"No." My sister turned her head stubbornly.

I saw her pointing the sharp liquid eyeliner to my eyes, and thought it was horrible and cruel.

All this is because of Chen Huan.

Later, my sister gave up makeup and wore that green dress with high heels, which looked good enough.

My sister put on two band-aids that day, but her feet were still worn out. She said that she helped to carry things back and forth in the car several times, and she was tired even wearing sneakers.My sister was sitting on the edge of the bed, tearing off the Band-Aid, and yelling "Oh, it hurts me to death", I looked a little sad, and laughed at her, "I'm going to be beautiful and suffer."

In fact, Chen Huan didn't care what shoes his sister was wearing, he would never look down to see what shoes a strange girl was wearing.

But I am embarrassed to tell my sister.

She said excitedly that when she saw Chen Huan, her mind went blank and she couldn't say anything, but Chen Huan actually took the initiative to ask her about the school.

My sister has always hated her school in the wilderness, but this time she said that it was great that she chose that school, because Chen Huan used to be her alumni.They can complain about the library with few books, the teacher who likes to send emails to students, and the swimming pool that has been built for many years.

She said that it's okay for two people to like the same thing, if because of him, you will like the most hated thing, that's what you really like.

【[-]】

My sister's summer vacation is not over yet, and I'm going back to school for a holiday cram school with the essence of starting school early.On the day of the little uncle's wedding, there happened to be a mock exam, and he couldn't ask for leave, so he could only regret to miss it.

In fact, I really want to go to the wedding to see how good-looking the older sister of the boy I like is wearing a beautiful dress and makeup.I am very curious about the way she looks at Chen Huan, is it as shining as when she told me about him, or is it full of the shyness and anxiety of a crush.

It's a pity that I didn't have a chance to witness it. I sent a WeChat message to my sister to ask how it was going, but she didn't reply me.I think she is either too happy or too sad, after all, she has no time to talk to me.

When I went to my grandmother's house again, my sister had already started school.

No one spoke to me. I sat alone and peeled oranges to eat. I heard my grandma chatting with my mother. As we talked, my grandma suddenly sighed, "What a crime." Then she mentioned my sister's name.I hastened to talk to them, insinuating what had happened these days.

They said that on the night of the little uncle's wedding, my sister's father, who is also my eldest uncle, went to toast Chen Huan and thank him for his busy work.

Chen Huan said that Xiao Sang has been helping today, and in turn toasted her sister.

My sister knew from Chen Huan's Weibo that he was saving money to buy a DSLR, and without thinking about it, she wished him to buy that camera as soon as possible. Maybe my sister heard about it.

Then he pointed to the newcomer and said that I wish you to find the one you love soon.

My sister was obviously stupid when she heard this.She and Chen Huan had only said a few words, one of which was "then I wish you to find someone you love soon", and that person was obviously not him.

Seeing that my sister didn't speak, the uncle thought she was shy, so he said quickly, "She's still young, she's early."

But my sister didn't go down the steps, and said "I'm not young anymore", which was no big deal at first, but the tone was so sour for some reason.

The uncle asked her what was wrong, she said "it's okay", then she looked at Chen Huan and said, "I've been talking about the toast for a long time, but I don't drink at all." So she clinked glasses with Chen Huan and drank it down.

The spectators at the side praised them for their good drinking capacity, and they all started applauding. My sister reached out to pick up the red wine on the table, and filled the glass again, "After talking so much, why don't you just drink one glass?"

Chen Huan had no choice but to continue drinking with her.

Forget it, it's okay for young people to make trouble at the wedding.

But my sister doesn't know how to drink at all.

After a while she was drunk.

At that time, in order to allow guests from afar to have fun, it was also because my aunt liked to hold ceremonies on the lawn, and the wedding location was chosen in a resort, so after the evening, I chartered a bus to take everyone back.

On that bus, afterward she got drunk herself, and her sister, who was quite drunk, called Chen Huan's name.

Everyone in the world is gossip.What's more, it's this kind of family relationship that is so close at hand. As soon as they bit each other's ears, they knew about the toast to Chen Huan just now.

They started whispering, saying, "Xiao Sang, I seem to like the younger brother of their third family."

The third child is talking about our little uncle.

You see, they don't even know how to address the little aunt who just walked in. It's such a relationship that can't be reached anywhere, and it becomes the talk of them every time they are full of wine and food.Especially when they saw their sister, their parents, or their grandmother, they lowered their voices and whispered, "Xiao Sang, who do you like?"

【Wu】

Grandma said that the eldest uncle accidentally told the eldest aunt that the elder sister knew that Chen Huan wanted to buy a camera.My aunt went to look through my sister's social software, and saw those sentences on Weibo that I called "99 Love Letters to Chen Huan".In our eyes, they are all ordinary and trivial things, but in the eyes of adults, it is absolutely unreasonable and shameless.

Grandma said that the eldest aunt beat her sister severely, saying that she had completely humiliated the family.

I can probably imagine my sister's feelings, in a state of deep love and unavailable, but also to accept the blow of these gossips.Just like me, I am always worried that I will not be able to get married in the future, and my mother will ask "Have you ever had a puppy love?" every three days.

Obviously nothing happened, but you have to bear all the consequences that happened.

After that incident, even during Chinese New Year, my elder sister was locked up at home by my aunt, saying that she would not let her go out to embarrass herself.

When I saw my sister again, it was at my grandma's birthday party. I thought my sister would become silent, but I didn't expect her to be the same as before, wishing grandma good luck like the East China Sea and a long life like Nanshan.

It turned out that my sister walked out of the work so quickly. I drank my drink and thought that I was still a child, and I didn't understand love at all.

In the evening, my sister and I stayed at my grandma's house, and she smiled and told me about some things in the university.I was vaguely about to fall asleep until the lights were turned off.My sister suddenly said, "Do you still remember Chen Huan?"

I woke up at once and said: "Remember".

My sister asked, "Have you heard all about it?"

I said: "Yeah".Not only did I hear about it, but I also experienced their strange eyes and trivial words when I went to pay New Year's greetings.

"It's really funny." My sister said sullenly.Then he began to ridicule how boring these people are, how they are looking for trouble, how they gossip, how much they love to show how much they know.

While talking, my sister mentioned Chen Huan again.

"I didn't have a chance to see him again, and I only saw him for the third time and wished me to find my lover." The elder sister's voice suddenly changed, and she seemed to be crying, "That's how I admit it, he won't like it I, I accept it. But why don’t I even have the right to have a crush on him? What did I do wrong? Did I follow him to talk to him with a stern face? Did I pursue him humbly? I didn’t, I didn’t even , How did I embarrass my family, I just drank two glasses of wine with him, that's all, this is all the intersection between me and him, why do you still say that about me, why on earth. "

I wasn't very good at talking, and seeing my sister's hoarse voice, I didn't know what to say except to pass the paper.

But my sister was still crying.I have never seen her so sad since I was a child.

"You did nothing wrong," I said.

"Really?" My sister looked at me.

"real."

You are not wrong at all, and neither is Chen Huan. What is wrong are those people who are talking and looking for trouble.They didn't have any malicious intentions themselves, it wasn't that they thought it was against ethics that their sister liked Chen Huan.They just think that this is something that can be used for chatting after dinner, an event that can arouse topics and arouse the atmosphere. They don't know what these gossips mean to a girl. If they don't know what they say, it will ruin her A secret love that she had painstakingly planned had even ruined all her imagination of love.

"Do you still like Chen Huan?" I asked.

But my sister didn't answer me.

【land】

In the summer of the second year, my sister graduated, and I went to a university in a foreign country, and I only returned home once every half a year, and there were even fewer walks with relatives. I don’t know if they will still pretend to look when they see my sister. , I don't know if my sister has forgotten Chen Huan, and start again.

On a cool autumn afternoon in my junior year, when I was doing my nails in the dry northern air, I received a WeChat message from my sister. She asked me when I would be back, and she said she was getting married.

Maybe it’s because of the relationship, it’s a lot more embarrassing to say it on WeChat than in person. After I went to college, my sister stopped talking to me about her relationship.Before I knew my sister had a new boyfriend, I was really surprised when I received this WeChat message.

I was curious about what the groom looked like, so when my sister took him to my grandmother's house, I found an excuse to eat.

I sneaked a few glances at the groom that day, but I didn't see anything special. It can be said that he is not as good as any of my sister's boyfriends.I quietly asked my sister how I met her. She said it was introduced by a colleague, and my parents were very satisfied. At the end, I added that if you don’t marry, you will grow old.

Hearing my sister's resigned tone, I froze for a moment.I always feel that the person who should say these words is me, and my sister who has been living life with ease, is clearly an image in my heart of being able to beat fate to the ground.

But it turns out that all the "I thought" were just showing my shallowness.

My sister shyly introduced her fiancé to her grandmother, saying that what she gave was good for sleep, and she asked her to eat it every night.The embarrassment between the two strangers is properly balanced, and every move is completely like an adult.

Seeing my sister like this, I realized that we were not children long ago, but because we were always around adults, we never realized this.

The wedding dress has already been set, and I accompanied my sister to try on the two dresses to wear when toasting. I thought I would have to go back and forth for a long time, but I didn't expect my sister to look at it and say "very good". The shopping guide brought it to her for comparison, and she just He said kindly, "This one looks better", and quickly made up his mind.

The shopping guide then suggested: "These styles are all in dark colors, and the other one can be chosen to be fresher. We have just entered a new style in the store." Then he took out a beige dress to show to my sister, but I I saw the turquoise long skirt behind the shopping guide at a glance. Although the style was more formal and the design was more delicate, the ink painting-like color reminded me of the skirt that my sister wore back then.

I was still in a daze, but the shopping guide quickly turned around and took it out, "Look at this again, it has a Chinese style, more classical."

I thought my sister would be sad when she thought about the past, but she took the dress and looked in the mirror, and said with a smile: "I like this color the most, that's it." Calmly and lightly, it seemed to be saying what dessert she likes, and then she couldn't wait location list.

Maybe I'm too sensitive.

On the day of the wedding, I was a bridesmaid. I blocked the door in the morning to prevent the groom from coming to pick me up, and in the afternoon I helped change the wedding dress and confirm the process. It was a lively and fun day.It wasn't until the elder sister who accompanied her holding the bouquet stood outside the door of the banquet hall that she fell silent.When the auspicious time arrives and the music sounds, my sister will walk on the red carpet and enter the hall.

She is getting married.

The uncle who was standing next to him walked away to answer the phone, and my sister suddenly turned to me and said, "I saw him when I went to shoot the location of the wedding dress."

I know my sister is talking about Chen Huan.

This is a secret that only belongs to us, a secret that I thought my sister had forgotten.In the dark night at my grandma's house, I always wanted to ask my sister the question I didn't get an answer to, but I knew I couldn't.Looking at the exquisite makeup on my sister's face now, I can't remember how she looked strange when she drew crooked eyeliner.

My sister said: "The photographer yelled at us to be more intimate and smile again. But there, a group of people were talking, laughing and fighting, and he just took pictures on the side. The people in his lens must be better than the stories in the frame. I look a lot better when I pose."

"How come, you are the bride, you are the most beautiful."

"Then do you think the sunflowers facing the wind in the field are more beautiful, or these trimmed and matched bouquets are more beautiful?" My sister shook the bouquet in her hand to me.

"Each has its own merits."

My sister smiled, but she didn't agree with her expression at all, "I'll throw you the bouquet later, you have to catch it." My sister said, "The blessings at the wedding are very effective, look, he bought it The SLR he wanted, I also found someone to marry. How nice, isn’t it?”

Before I could answer her, the door of the banquet hall was slowly opened, and the eldest uncle hurried over and took my sister's hand.My sister smiled, raised her head to look at her groom, stepped onto the red carpet, and walked away from me step by step.

Get away from her past.

(End of this chapter)