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Chapter 5 December 26

In the southwest corner of Shanghai, there are countless quiet small roads, covered with phoenix trees. In summer, it is lush and full of shadows, but in winter, it looks like you are in a European city.On such a road, I turned into a wide alley according to the address of the psychological clinic on the business card, and pushed open the door of a small western-style building. There was a sign on the door - Dr. Mo Psychological Clinic.

It was a kind of house that looked very old on the outside, but was actually newly renovated inside. The hall was not big, and there was a desk under the corner of the stairs, and a girl in her early 20s was answering the phone.Her tone was brisk, as if she was talking about business matters, she glanced at me and gave me a wait look.

Her face reminded me of a person, and I was so surprised that I fell into a moment of meditation.

Who is she?
"Welcome to our clinic." Her words interrupted my contemplation, and then she said my name.

"Why, you know my name?"

"We were informed that you were coming, please go upstairs, the doctor is waiting for you."

I looked down the stairs again, she was smiling at me naturally, I gave her a smile back, but I think my smile must have been very stiff at the time, because seeing her, my heart has risen. There was a cloud of fog.

Pushing open the door of a room upstairs, a man in his 30s was sitting on a large swivel chair.His eyebrows are very thick, a little exaggerated. Although his beard is cleanly shaved, he can still see his blue cheeks, which are far from my imagination.

"Please sit down." He introduced himself, "My surname is Mo, you can call me Dr. Mo. By the way, you have my business card."

I sat down and said, "Did Huang Yun tell you I'm coming?"

"Yes, are you her good friend?"

"Not a good friend."

"It's okay, we will become good friends slowly." When he said this, his expression became very ambiguous, "I heard that her boyfriend committed suicide by jumping into the Huangpu River, and they have decided to get married, too Sorry."

"I was there that night, which was really weird."

"Oh, it's a worthy subject. I mean the psychological side."

"Are you Huang Yun's good friend too?"

"She has been suffering from mental breakdown, so she often comes to see me. Now, let's get down to business. You're here, aren't you?"

"I don't have any mental illness, but I just feel that I have been too much psychologically stimulated recently." I tried my best to defend myself, and I didn't want others to see me as mentally ill.

"Listen to me, everyone has a disease. It is normal to have a disease, and it is abnormal to not have a disease. It's just that most of us don't realize our disease, whether it is physical or psychological." Dr. Mok After speaking, he went to the window and pulled up the curtains. It was a very rare large black curtain. It was so thick that it almost blocked out the light, and the whole room was shrouded in darkness.

"What are you doing?" I began to regret why I came here.

He didn't answer, but came back to me and took out a piece of white candle from the drawer, and then lit the candle. Under a little candlelight, the surrounding seemed even darker.Gradually, I couldn't see anything except the candlelight. My eyes seemed to be covered with a black cloth, with a small white dot drawn in the center of the cloth.This white spot is moving slowly, from left to right, like the wind, and like the eyes of a person moving up, down, left, and right. Yes, I instantly think it looks like one eye, only one, not a pair .I seem to be able to see its long eyelashes, black eyeballs, bright eyes, and a black hole-like pupil in the middle.This pupil is deep and distant, like a bottomless pit, a deep well, no one knows its end, maybe it leads to my heart.

"Have you seen the black hole?" A voice sounded from my ear, "Black hole - in the physical sense, the black hole in the universe absorbs all matter, and the space and time near the black hole are distorted, and it can even be said to be Upside down, we can see what happened in the past. So, all supernatural phenomena can be explained in black holes."

I can't tell whether my eyes are closed or open now, I just feel like a blind man who can't see anything, the world doesn't exist for me, only the eyes that appear in the form of light.Whose eyes were those, a man's or a woman's?Have I seen this eye?This eye has been firmly imprinted in my heart.

I also saw this eye changing, filled with a sad look, it looked at me, I can imagine it as a separate person, he (she) is talking to me with his eyes, I feel that between us A certain kind of communication can be achieved. In this sense, the eyes are equivalent to the mouth. It can even be said that the eyes are all of a person.

I am almost overwhelmed by this eye.I have begun to lose the sense of "me", I have no "me", I will become one with this eye.I am it (he, she), it (he, she) is me.

No!I do not want to.

I suddenly opened my eyes wide and shouted, "Let me go."

Suddenly, the eye disappeared, leaving only a lit candle and a figure holding the candle.I shook my head, recognized the direction, rushed to the window, and opened the heavy curtains.The sun rushed into the room like a river breaking an embankment. I was bathed in the sun and panted like a wild animal. Only then did I realize that I was sweating a lot.

"You shouldn't interrupt my treatment." Dr. Mo said calmly, but his tone didn't seem to blame me.

"I'm sorry, I can't take this kind of treatment from you. I'm too fragile."

"No, you are too strong."

"Can I go? How much?" I was anxious to get rid of this guy.

"Of course you can leave. Everything here is voluntary. As for money, I won't charge money until the treatment is over."

I rushed down the stairs "thump, thump, thump".The reception girl downstairs disappeared, and her familiar face reappeared in my heart, where did she go?I went back upstairs again and pushed open the door, only to see the girl talking to Dr. Mo.

"Anything else?" The doctor asked me with a smile.

"No, nothing." I replied dully.

"You are looking for her."

I smiled awkwardly.

"ROSE, you'd better send this gentleman off."

It turned out that her name was ROSE.She didn't say a word, but with a smile on her face, she sent me downstairs, and walked to the alley outside the door, then she said softly: "You're really good."

"Why do you say that?"

"Why not?" she said mysteriously.

"Could it be that you were in the room when he treated me just now?"

She pursed her lips but did not answer, and made a strange look, which instantly reminded me of the magical eye I saw during the "treatment".Are they not candles, and are they really her eyes?

"Stop thinking about it, come again next time, I'll wait for you."

I said goodbye to her, and after walking a few steps, I looked back, but she was gone.

That eye—is it her left eye or her right eye?Or neither?

I suddenly seemed to see my own eyes.

(End of this chapter)