how far is Forever

Chapter 22

Jiang Chuan: I wish the people I love have a happy future

Inscription: I have traveled a lot and missed a lot of scenery, but I still can't find you who have been lost.

01
"sorry, I do not know."

"Sorry, I can't help you."

"Sorry, I can't help you."

"Sorry……"

A sentence of "I'm sorry", "I'm sorry", "I can't help", every time I come with hope, but I return sad.I don't know how long I can hold on. I vowed to find you back then, but I don't know if I still have the strength to go on.

Can you tell me what to do, and give me a reason to persist?
After holding back for a long time, I took out my phone and called Su Ruo. The moment I heard her voice, I almost cried. Except for Su Ruo, no one saw me break down and cry.

"Jiang Chuan, are you okay now?" Su Ruo on the other end of the phone asked me softly, your voice was so cautious.

You know I'm not good, not at all.

"Well, it's good." After saying this, I didn't know what to say anymore, "Are you all okay?"

"pretty good."

"Has Song Junmu gone back?"

"Not yet, I'm still waiting for him."

I feel that Su Ruo and I are both poor people, one is looking, the other is waiting in place, I asked her: "Su Ruo, do you think he will come back?"

Actually, I want to ask more, Su Ruo, do you think I can find Yan Lele?

"Yes, definitely."

Su Ruo's firm answer gave me the strength to continue searching, "Well, I also believe that I will find her."

It has been more than half a year since you left. I have also searched for a long time. I asked all my classmates and friends and even their business partners in different places. Everyone gave me the same answer, but with different words and expressions. Express it.

There is contempt, sympathy, ridicule and sorrow.No matter what kind of expression it is, I accept it frankly, because I firmly believe like Su Ruo that one day they will come back to us.

"Jiangchuan."

Su Luoyan's voice came from the phone, his voice was still the same, gentle and calm.I know that he is standing by Su Ruo's side now, but it's actually good, the relationship of many years is not so easy to give up.

"Ah."

"You must be well, Su Ruo and I are waiting for you to come back, do you understand?"

"Well, I know." Standing on the street, I almost cried, I suppressed my tears and said to him, "I know, if Song Junmu doesn't come back, Su Ruo is still waiting for me to marry her! "

"As long as you know."

"Well, then I will continue on the road, hang up first, you have to wait for me to go back." I was afraid that if I continued, my tears would come down, so I could only hang up hastily.

No matter how hard the road ahead is, as long as I know that there are some people waiting for my return in a certain city, I will be full of strength.

In fact, Su Luoyan once told me a story when I left University A.In the story, there is a pair of young men and women who love each other. They love each other so much.But one day, the man and woman separated. Because of family reasons, the girl was tied up to another city by her family. The boy thought that the girl had given up on him and was depressed, so he didn't look for it.

Many years later, the middle-aged boy decided to find his first love girl after his wife passed away and learned that he was terminally ill. At that time, the girl had become a middle-aged woman, and she married a successful man from a wealthy family. Businessmen, wearing luxurious furs, walked gracefully on the streets of the city.

They met.

Then, pass by.

No one recognized the other, maybe they were still mocking each other in their hearts as dead poor and nouveau riche.

The story ends here. Of course I know the meaning of Su Luoyan's story, but I still resolutely walked on this road, because I know that there is a girl waiting for me in a certain corner of the world, and she must be waiting for me. .

02
In the past, I always liked to argue with Su Ruo about the issue of "love at first sight". I don't believe in this kind of fantasy of girls. I always feel that it is written in novels to deceive little girls. How can there be such inexplicable feelings in this world? .

Until I met you.

I noticed you because of Su Ruo, because when I was chatting with Su Ruo, I saw your slightly envious eyes sweeping over the girl not far away.

With just one glance, it has fallen.

So when I saw you surrounded by a group of people, I rushed up without hesitation.It's not that I won't help others when they are surrounded, it's just that I won't be so heroic.

You whispered "thank you" to me.

The simple two words made me blush, and my heart beat faster than when my mother was chasing me all over the street to beat me to death.

Except for Su Ruo, I have never been nice to any girl, but you are an exception. Seeing that you were cold, I gave you my coat without hesitation and forgot to take it back. In the end, because the price of this coat is not cheap, I was baited by my mother. It took a long time to finish.

After seeing you off, Su Ruo asked me: "Did you ask her contact information?"

"I... forgot..." I grabbed my hair, wishing I could make myself a bald man, but I actually forgot to ask for your phone number, how could I forget?Even if it is to find a reason to return the clothes in the future, then I will have a chance to see you again.

Su Ruo laughed happily: "Jiang Chuan, Jiang Chuan, you really missed a great opportunity."

Her joy has always been based on my pain, if it weren't for Su Luoyan, I would have strangled her, definitely.

"Su Ruo, don't go too far!" I shouted.

"Where am I going too far?" Su Ruo tilted her head and asked Su Luoyan, "Brother, do you think I'm going too far?"

Su Luoyan smiled and said, "Of course not too much."

I was almost driven mad by their brother and sister, and shouted: "You two are bullying together! You are too bullying!"

"I know, you have to tell your mother!"

"Su Ruo—" I yelled her name and raised my arm to beat her.But she hid behind Su Luoyan, I couldn't hit her no matter what, so I screamed in anxiety.

Bickering with Su Ruo can be regarded as a kind of venting of regret!Before I met you, I always felt that apart from my parents, getting to know Su Ruo and Su Luoyan was the happiest thing in my life.

Maybe this kind of happiness is the beginning of your prejudice against Su Ruo!

However, if... Even if I know you have such thoughts, I still have no way to give up my friendship with Su Ruo. On this point, I can only say to you, I'm sorry.

Today, I am rambling like a girl in puberty to write such words, there is no other reason, just because I miss you.I hope one day you can see and come back to me.

Now I'm in City H, an extremely cold city. It took me a lot of effort to find out that a business partner with whom your father is very close is in this city. I found him, but he didn't know what he said to me.

In fact, I have long been used to it, but I will not give up, because he gave me another hope.

The next stop is City S, will you be there?
03
After entering University A, seeing all the classmates and friends around me fall in love, Su Ruo always had Su Luoyan by his side, I felt that being single was a sin.

Whenever I take a girl's gift and want to think about dating her, your face always appears in my mind, and then I can only return the gift and say sorry to the girls.

At that time, I thought I was hopeless, but I could never forget a person I only met once to such an extent. If I can't forget you all the time, will it mean that I will never be able to fall in love and get married normally in my life?
I'm glad I can't forget, because I met you again.

"Wow, the goddess is here!" Su Ruo's yell woke me up from my sleep.

The spotlight on the stage has been turned on, and you walk up to the stage, wearing a tube top white dress that stretches across the floor, with a low-key magnificence, the most fashionable and refreshing makeup on your face, your fair skin is as warm and clear as suet jade, black and white Her hair is tied into a bun, with only two strands left to make slightly curls and hang down to the shoulders, adding a touch of sexiness, as if there is a faint fragrance floating.

Even if you already know that the person who is about to appear is a beautiful woman, you will still be amazed when you actually appear.

I stared blankly at the face that overlapped with my memory, trembling all over.

At that moment, I was so grateful to God, because he let me meet you again.

The song "Legend" perfectly described my mood, just because I took one more look at you in the crowd and never forgot your face. I dreamed of seeing you again one day by chance. From then on, I began to miss you alone...

Maybe you didn't understand how I liked you at that time, but I know that since seeing you again, I have been unable to extricate myself, no matter whether you will like me or not, I would like to spend my whole life by your side, no go far.

But I still lost you, didn't I?I forgot the oath I made to myself at first, and I also forgot the promise I made to you.

I once said to you: "Jiang Chuan only loves Yan Lele in this life, and Jiang Chuan will never leave Yan Lele in this life."

I also told you: "Yan Lele, let's break up!"

Lele, now that I am in S city, what that person said to me is still the same.

I am glad that everyone will give me hope while disappointing me.

My next stop is City L. I believe that if I ask everyone, there will always be someone who will tell me where you are.

04
Do you remember your panic when I ran after you at the end of the party?

You thought you met a bad boy who wanted to do something wrong to you in a public place like school, but after you screamed, you stared at my face and said, "It's you?"

So you still remember me, so you haven't forgotten me, what should I say to you?

I was so excited that I couldn't speak, and after scratching my head, I actually said to you: "Well, are my clothes still there?"

God knows, I'm not here to beg for clothes.

You smiled back at me: "Of course it's still there, I'll send it to you tomorrow."

Generally speaking, at such a time, I should show off my gentlemanly demeanor and send you back. My head may have been fooled by Su Ruo before, but I actually said to you: "Well, good."

Then there is no more text.

You probably didn't expect to be cold, and asked me in a daze for a while, "Aren't you going to send me back?"

"There are a lot of people in the school, are you afraid?" I was kicked on the head by the donkey again.

"Jiang Chuan, you are such a fool."

Later, I still sent you downstairs to the girls’ dormitory, and urged you to go upstairs without saying anything. I forgot to ask you how you knew my name, and I forgot to ask you to tell me your name yourself.

Of course, later I was scolded by Su Ruo and satirized by Su Luoyan for a long time.

I feel that every time I am in front of you, my IQ is not enough, like a fool.

Like you said, I'm such a fool.Otherwise, how could I post such a post in a forum, or how could I imagine that you will see it and come back to me again?
Today I am still in City S, because I have spent all my money looking for you, I have to make enough money to travel to City L, and I will keep doing this until I find you.

Lele, are you still waiting for me?
05
I received a text message in the morning, and suddenly there was a sum of money in the bank card, and it was my mother who called.When I decided to go out to find you, I had a big fight with my mother, and finally took all Su Ruo and Su Luoyan's belongings and embarked on the road to find you.The people I am most sorry for in this life should be my parents. I am not a filial son. I hope that after I find you, you can accompany me to them.

It's time to go back to the past.

The happiest moment in my life was when you told me that you liked me, you stood in front of me like an angel, when you said the word like, I thought I had an auditory hallucination.

"Ah? What did you say?"

You lowered your head and blushed, "I said, can we date?"

"No, that's not what you said just now." I foolishly exposed you, and when I thought about it later, I always felt that my stupid level was one level higher.

Perhaps, in front of you, I have never been smart.

"Jiang Chuan, I said I like you."

It was a week after we met, you stood in the morning dew and told me you liked me.

At that moment, it seemed that all the flowers in the world were blooming, and there was a beautiful scene everywhere. I seemed to be in heaven, floating on the clouds.I hugged you tightly, "I like you too, I like you."

You said: "When I came back from Jiangnan, I found that I couldn't forget it. You have a school badge in your pocket, so I know your name is Jiang Chuan. After I came to A University, I heard your name by chance. Maybe you No idea, I've seen you many times before we met again."

I don't know, I really don't know.

"Jiang Chuan, thank you for chasing me out that day, thank you for remembering me."

When I finished listening to you, I cried unconvincingly. Why do you thank me? I should be the one who should say thank you, shouldn’t I?
Thank you for remembering me, thank you for liking me.

Later, I happily brought you to Su Ruo and Su Luoyan, they are my best friends, and I want to share my joy with them.

I proudly told them: "This is Yan Lele, my girlfriend.

You are so weak, I'm afraid she will scare you, and I hope you two will become best friends, just like Su Ruo and I.

This is a very contradictory psychology. I don't know how to explain it. In short, I just hope that you and Su Ruo can be well. One is my girlfriend and the other is my best friend. You are very important to me. Very important, very important.

Do you remember what you asked me later?
You said: "Jiang Chuan, who is more important to you, Su Ruo or I?"

I hesitated, maybe it was my hesitation that made you do that to Su Ruo in the future.

I am sorry for you, I am sorry for you and I am sorry for Su Ruo.

I'm about to leave for L city, will I find news about you in that city?
I hope it's possible.

06
"Why do you treat Su Ruo like this, do you know that she is my best friend?"

"I know, that's why I have to do it all the more."

"Yan Lele, are you crazy? Why? Why?"

This is the first time we quarreled, because you framed Su Ruo for stealing, for this, she will live on the charge of being a thief for the rest of her life, whenever I hear rumors about her on campus, I always hate I hate myself for not showing up at your birthday party that day, and I also hate myself for inviting Su Ruo to smooth things over for me.

I found you and asked, "Yan Lele, do you know what you're doing?"

You looked up at me and said: "The things were found on Su Ruo. You should ask Su Ruo if she knows what she is doing? Does she think that she can be safe if she steals my necklace?" Left? Impossible."

I feel that you are very strange in front of me. Since when did my beloved Yan Lele become a sharp-tongued, cruel-talking girl?

I looked at you in disbelief and asked, "Even now, are you still unwilling to admit that you framed Su Ruo? Yan Lele, how did you become like this?"

"I haven't done it, what am I admitting?" You are still stubborn.

"Huh, I haven't done it, haha, but Xiaoxiao told me everything, do you still want to say that I haven't done anything?" Xiaoxiao is your cousin, and the role she plays in this game is to be used by you My little girl, she didn't feel that she was framing Su Ruo at all, so when I asked her about everything that happened that night and what you told her in advance, she told me everything.

You looked at me in disbelief, with red eyes and said, "Jiang Chuan, are you investigating me? Did you never trust me, because the only person you trust is Su Ruo. Since you like her so much, why don't you go to her?" Beside me, why do you want to be with me? You know, I just hate you two. You are not a lover, but you trust her more than my girlfriend. For her, you can put my girlfriend Throw it aside and drag her into the corner to talk. Jiang Chuan, have you ever thought about what my mood was like at that time? You are my boyfriend, aren't you, not Su Ruo's. "

I really haven't thought about your feelings, is that why you hate Su Ruo so much?

"I'm so scared, I'm so afraid that Su Ruo will snatch you away, you know, sometimes I dream of Su Ruo holding your hand and laughing at me as a loser in front of me, I can't be a loser, Jiang Chuan , I like you, why do you treat me like this? So I want to destroy the beauty of Su Ruo in your mind, I quietly put the necklace in her pocket, I want her to stay no longer, so , you will only love me."

I don't want to think about what happened later, because we broke up later, and later, you left this city, and later, I embarked on a journey to find you.

Su Ruo is right, in fact, you just want to protect your love, she can blame you for your willfulness, but I can't.The person who is least qualified to hurt you in the world is me.

Human beings are always "obsessed by the authorities, but the bystanders are clear". I remember that when I was chatting with Su Luoyan, I could help him analyze the interests and interests between him and Su Ruo, and let him understand that when he and Su Ruo are together, what will happen to him? What kind of harm Su Ruo caused, but I didn't know what kind of harm I caused you at the time.

Until I finally understand that you are no longer here.

Lele, would you give me a chance to reform?
07
I pressed the door of Mr. Hu's house in L City. He is your father's business partner and your uncle. Your relatives and friends are all businessmen, and they are all over the world. It is not easy to find one.

Seeing me, he was a little taken aback, "Excuse me, who are you looking for?"

"Excuse me, do you know where Yan Lele is?"

I was ready to be disappointed and ready to go to another city, but he said, "Oh, you are looking for Lele, who are you?"

In order to prove that I am not a bad person, I struggled to find out the school card from my bag and said, "I am from University A, her former classmate."

"Oh, that's it, but you probably have to go for nothing."

I thought I saw the light, but I was disappointed again.

When I bowed my head to say "thank you" and left, he said to me, "Lele has gone to school and won't be back until the weekend."

I finally found you, and this time I swear that I will never leave you, no matter what your choice looks like.

After asking about the school address, I bid farewell to your uncle. I sent a text message to Su Ruo: "Su Ruo, I found Lele. Facts have proved that Huangtian pays off."

"Congratulations." She replied.

"You will definitely wait for Song Junmu."

"Ah."

In the previous life, we traveled thousands of mountains and searched thousands of rivers to find a person who truly belongs to us. We must cherish it in this life.

I wish everyone I love have a happy future.

(End of this chapter)