get married

Chapter 71

The joy of seeing him again was suppressed severely before it had time to arise.The person he likes is my sister, that kind and beautiful girl.Standing in front of Suzie, I will often feel inferior, because I will never be like her.Maybe some people are destined to only look up, and they are both.

When Su Xi was found to have no cure, Su Qing was almost ten years old, and Ye Jinpeng also shed tears, but Su Xi comforted them and told them not to be sad.She has such parents, she feels very happy, and she has no regrets in her life.At that time, I was thinking, what would he do if you left?

Ye Jinyang's accident completely ruined her mother's will, and Susie's illness became more serious.I have to admit that Yang Jinning's existence like a nemesis makes people uneasy from time to time, lest she will suddenly come out and look at you with that haughty expression.I finally understand why I don't like her.She looked at my expression as if I was an ugly duckling who stole other people's feathers, thinking that I would turn into a swan, which turned out to be a dream.Only she is the upright swan, so beautiful.

Ye Jinyang's departure made his mother feel insecure.She was afraid of Ye Jinpeng's dislike, and became more and more anxious.Especially when she found out Gu Chengdong's identity, she thought that she must tie Gu Chengdong, a man inlaid with gold, but she knew that Su Xi would not live long, so she thought of me.

She took Su Xi's mobile phone and asked Gu Chengdong to come out, and even prescribed medicine inside.I knew the cause and effect of this incident and couldn't stop it, but I thought at the time that I would definitely not want to do it.Liking him is my only dignity, if I really do that, I will only look down on myself.

When Gu Chengdong left, I was so lucky that I left immediately, even though my mother scolded me for being worthless.

She won't know that there are not many things left for me. If I don't even have my dignity, I don't know what else I can do while alive.

I heard that Gu Chengdong has gone abroad, and Su Xi will think about writing to him.As for their world, I can't enter it, and I don't want to enter it. I'm afraid that when I get close to them, I will see my humble self, so I would rather watch silently, even if I really want to know his current situation.

We were kicked out of Ye's house, and Susie refused to tell him, saying that she was afraid of affecting him.

actually.The moment I was kicked out, I actually felt pretty good.It's like, always using other people's things, always worrying about losing them, and finally losing them, but feeling at ease.

Finally, Gu Chengdong came back, but not long after, Su Xi also left.I finally understood why Susie didn't send those letters to him, because she knew she didn't have many days left.As long as you know her thoughts, you don't have to put them heavily on him.I always thought that Susie was kind, beautiful and innocent. When I read some of her letters, I realized that I didn't know her well.It's not that she doesn't understand the darkness, it's just that she chooses tolerance and chooses to be kind and think about the bright side.

Even, in one of her letters, she was wishing Gu Chengdong that she would meet a better woman than her in the future and stay by his side, hoping that he would treat that woman well.However, I selfishly withheld this letter.

The day Suzy left, he married another woman.The mother was greatly stimulated, and her spirit began to go into a trance.I dare not let her live here anymore, no matter what she has done, she is my mother after all.She gave birth to me and raised me. No matter how others despise her, I know that I have no right to despise her.

On the day I left, I informed Gu Chengdong that I just wanted to see him one last time, at least before leaving.He offered to help me. After all, although I wanted to study abroad, I was more concerned with treating Su Qing's illness. I needed money.I didn't refuse, even in my own heart, I proved in this way that there is nothing between me and him.

Two years later, I returned to the city again.

Some people say that feelings are often like wine, the longer they are kept, the purer they become.I'm curious why I haven't forgotten him after such a long time.I dare not think about whether there is a chance for me and him to be together.That, for me, is a luxury.

I took the initiative to repay all the money to him, but he didn't charge the interest part.When I told him that I wanted to join Gu's, he pondered for a moment, smiled and said that I should not tell him, but should go to the personnel department.

From his expression, I was a little timid. I'm not sure if he had already read my mind and said such words to perfuse me.But I still applied for the job, which is the bravest thing I have ever done.

Even, I took the initiative to ask him to visit Susie's grave. I knew he would not refuse. I could see his feelings for Susie. He was not the kind of heartless person.

So, we went to the cemetery together.

When I was in the company, I would not miss any gossip about Gu Chengdong, but I heard all the employees say that his wife is quite beautiful, which reduces the chance of him cheating. Anyway, women outside are not as good as his wife.Although others are just joking, I feel uncomfortable, even though I know he will never be such a superficial person.

In the company, Gu Chengdong's secretary was pregnant and asked for leave during that time, so I often attended certain dinners with Gu Chengdong as an escort.But every time, he asked the HR department to pay overtime pay, and every attendance counted as overtime.I know, he's implying me in this way, it's just work.He did so without leaving any traces, but it still made me unable to walk away, I just wanted to watch him silently.

Until I met Yang Jinning in the mall.

She turned out to be Gu Chengdong's wife, the shock at that moment almost shattered me.I would rather Gu Chengdong marry a stranger I don't know than Yang Jinning.How can she compare to Suzie?
In my heart, only Su Xi is worthy of Gu Chengdong, and neither is Yang Jinning.

My mother was seriously ill, and after calling 120.I still pressed Gu Chengdong's number, I shouldn't bother him, but if I can see him one more time in this way, it is also a kind of happiness.I know I'm taking advantage of his remaining feelings for Suzy, and what he's doing has nothing to do with me, but I just can't help it.

Moreover, when I reported the name of the community and he came by car, I was actually a little excited.At least in Gu Chengdong's heart, Su Xi still has a place, and the proud Yang Jinning is no different.

I know, I'm jealous of Yang Jinning, she really proved that she is that beautiful swan, and made me see my own sorrow even more.And her happiness completely inspired the badness in my heart.

Especially when I occasionally enter the office and see Gu Chengdong holding a mobile phone in his left hand to answer the phone.He must not have noticed himself, deliberately slowing down when speaking, and his expression was soft, just like when he was standing in front of Suzie and speaking.

At that moment, I was really jealous.

I would rather he fell in love with someone else than Yang Jinning.So I told Gu Chengdong what Yang Jinning did before, and I wanted to know how much influence Susie had on him.But I was disappointed, even if he knew why Suzy got sick and why he passed away so early.He also did not change his attitude towards Yang Jinning.Even, standing in front of the French window, she could see Yang Jinning waiting there, and as soon as Gu Chengdong came out, she would jump over.Gu Chengdong would helplessly hold her back, fearing that she would slip on her high heels.

He'd let her stand there while he drove over.But usually she would not be so obedient and insisted on holding his hand to go together.He would probably pull her hand off, and then she would take it again.He knew that she would still put it on, but he went to pull her hand off again.At that moment, the smile on his face completely hurt my eyes.

I didn't want to target them, I just didn't want them to be together, and I didn't want Yang Jinning to be standing next to Gu Chengdong.But I didn't expect that Yang Yisen would be so seriously injured.At that time, I was having nightmares every day, and I asked myself, what is the point of me doing all this?It's just for Gu Jidong to use me.And, even if they parted, what would I gain... I don't know.

Maybe, in my heart, the picture of Gu Chengdong and Su Xi back then was so beautiful that I didn't want to accept the picture of him being with others.

They finally separated, divorced, but he disappeared.At that moment, I regretted it, only to realize that I actually wanted him to be happy, that he could be with his lover.But the previous self was always doing things that hurt them.

I know, I'm still inferior, and I'm not vicious enough.If I should destroy it, I will destroy it to the end, without leaving any fear, without any regrets.But I can't be a good person, and I can't be a complete bad person, and I even hate myself more and more.

I envy Susie's kindness, Ye Jinyang's innocence, and I even envy Yang Jinning's determination... because I can't do it, and then I become something I completely hate.

But I think hypocrisy is hypocrisy. There is no rule that people cannot continue to be hypocritical like this.

After a few years, walking on the street.

In a shop full of various small plants, a very cute girl stared at the small pot of cactus and refused to leave.

"Mom, I want it."

"Buy it yourself if you want it." Yang Jinning was annoyed.

The little guy still dragged Yang Jinning's leg, "I really like it so much..."

"Are you going to go?"

The little guy was even more pitiful, "Mom, I will do my homework, listen to you, and study hard..."

Yang Jinning was probably annoyed by the chanting, "Hold yourself."

The little guy nodded vigorously.

Then Yang Jinning paid the money.

After walking a certain distance, the little guy suddenly said, "Mom, it's so heavy..."

Yang Jinning glanced at her, neither spoke nor opened her mouth.

The little guy was pitiful, "I can't hold it anymore, mom..."

Yang Jinning was depressed, "Then throw it away."

"Mom, you said, don't waste it. It costs money, so you have to take it home. Adults are children's role models, and you can't throw away such useful things."

Yang Jinning glared at her, took the cactus by herself, and then took the little guy's hand with the other.

Looking at the scene in front of her, if that man was there, Yang Jinning would definitely throw the cactus to the man without saying a word, and maybe buy two more pots because of it.Thinking of the man smiling helplessly, and then looking at the woman dotingly... This picture appeared in my mind, and I felt warm and beautiful.

Before I knew it, tears rolled down my eyes.

(End of this chapter)